Ok I apologize for not updating this sooner. During summer break I had to learn some things. I had some issues with being responsible and during the last school year. I did have good grades (barely) but since I was going into 9th grade where grades really do count my mom took my electronics away for a lot of the summer. I had to learn to be responsible. I wasn't aloud to have them back until I did the summer project in English. Unfortunately I procrastinated most of the summer and didn't do it until a couple days before school started. When I got my stuff back I didn't even think to update my stuff. Now I am more responsible or at least trying to be wince the school year has started. It only just occurred to me that I might want to update this. Hopefully you guys understand. I may still procrastinate a little. I'm really trying to not to though. One last thing the beginning of this is part of a dream since I have used the italics for Pokémon talking in the past I just want to clarify that. Well kind of a dream. It will make more sense later on.

It was a dark stormy night. I appeared to be out alone all by myself. My Pokémon by my side which was strange since the only Pokémon I owned was ralts. In fact Ralts wasn't even there. Standing beside me was a Blaziken, a Espeon, a Pikachu, and an Absol.

The rain poured down on all of us relentlessly. The waves crashed against the shore without a stop. It was a little scary because the wave were so high that if you got to close to them you probably would get swept away by the sea. I must have been crazy because I was just standing there on a unstable dock.

"Don't worry guys it won't be too long before we get home", I said.

I stood there for a few more minutes watching as the thunder crackled across the sky and the waves patter against the shore.

"You guys look cold. Get back inside you pokeballs. It will be warmer in their trust me.", I said to my Pokémon.

The Pokémon nodded and did as I said hesitantly. I assume they didn't want to let me be the only one that was cold. Maybe they knew something I didn't it was hard to tell.

I started to walk away from the docks when I accidentally slipped. Of course at that moment a giant wave decided to hit the docks sweeping me away into the sea.

I tried to swim but the waves were to rough for me to swim against them. I was left at the mercy of the sea. I tried to cry for help but no one was around to hear me and no matter how hard I tried to swim back to shore I got pulled the other direction.

It was hopeless. There was no chance of me getting out alive since none of my Pokémon knew how to swim. Then everything faded to a brilliant black.

" Alexa, get up it is time for you to start your Pokémon journey.", My mom shouted.

Suddenly a bucket of water was dumped on my head and I was wide awake.

"I said get up.", my mom scolded me.

I could hear Leo giggling from outside my door. I don't even know how he found this funny. I got completely soaked.

"What are you looking at.", I asked but I couldn't help but smile since it might have been a little bit funny.

" I don't know. What are you looking at?", Leo replied.

I giggle at my ralt's cuteness and proceeded to get dressed for our journey but not before I closed the door to my room of course. I don't really want Leo to watch me change even if he is a Pokémon.

I rummaged through my closet and looked for my favorite hoodie. I looked for a pair of shorts to since it might get a little hot depending on the time of year it is. After that I put my boots on and walked out of my room.

"Wait hold on. I probably should pack some spare cloths.", I said to myself.

So I walked back into my room and grabbed a spare hoodie, some jeans and a tee-shirt. Which was probably all the clothing I needed to pack. I still felt like I was forgetting to pack something though and I wasn't sure what it was.

"What about your note book and pencils. Don't you want to bring that with you?", Leo asked me.

"Your right I do want to pack them. Thanks Leo. I probably would have forgotten to bring them if you hadn't said it.", I replied grateful.

I went over to my nightstand which had my notebook and pencils on it. I grabbed them and put them in my bag along with my spare clothes.

"Now that's everything I need for the journey except for food. That isn't hard to get I just need to grab some from the pantry", I thought to myself.

I walked out of my room and went down the stairs and entered the kitchen. Ralts followed after me not too long after. I rummaged through the pantry in search of something good to take with me. I saw some canned beans, fruits and vegetables. It isn't the best but I need something that will last long so that will do. I decided to take four of each item and put it in my bag.

Now I was ready to go. I packed everything. I may not have eaten breakfast but that is ok since I probably won't be hungry till dinner time. The only thing left to do was say goodbye to mom.

That was the hard part saying goodbye. Goodbye's are never easy especially when you're like me. I don't think we have to call it a good bye necessarily. Its more of a see you later kind of thing because I am certain I am going to see mom again soon.

Then again my sister years ago was certain of that when she left the house too. I haven't seen or heard from her since. I'm not worried though I'm sure she is doing all right. She is just really far away right now. I bet you she is trying to get back to us right now. I might just be awhile for her to get back.

"Mom, I'm getting ready to leave", I yelled with slight sadness in my voice.

"Don't be sad Alexa. You will see her again I promise. Please don't cry because if you do I will cry to", Leo pleaded.

"I know I will get to be with her again. It just hurts deep down inside because she raised me from birth. She was there for me no matter what. It is hard to leave a person like since I never have met anyone else who treated me like that.", I replied as I felt a slight tear drip down my cheek.

At that moment my mom walked in to say goodbye. I wiped away my tear because there was no way I was going to cry again no matter how much pain I felt on the inside. That I promise.

"Alexa it's ok to cry.", My mom said in a calm tone.

" I wasn't crying though. I'm actually really excited to explore Hoenn.", I lie.

Luckily for me I have gotten really good at lying over the years so it was hard to tell that I was hurting inside.

"Ok sweetheart. I guess this is goodbye then. Oh bye the way you should stop by professor birch's so you can get a pokedex." My mom said almost about to cry.

"Mom ok I understand. This isn't a goodbye though. It's a see you later cause I know I will see you again.", I replied with a hint of sadness in my voice.

"Well the I guess I will see you later then", She sobbed while smiling.

"Yeah see you later", I replied sadly.

I started to walk away from my house. I wanted to cry a little bit but I wouldn't let myself. I had to be brave or I would never get through this world alive.

"Wait, I just want to tell you this but you do remind me of your sister at times. I've never told you that. You have the same brave face and willpower she had. I can see it. Your really friendly and caring to. You may not have many friends but the ones you have are true friends.", My mom said

I smiled at her and waved goodbye one last time. This would be the last time I would see her for a while after all.

While I walked further away from my house I pondered on the words mom had said. I wish they were true. That side of me that she see isn't real. It is just a mask I put on for the sake of everyone else. She may not realize it but I don't have any friends. That was a lie I told her to keep her happy.

The real girl behind the mask is very sad and very lonely. She may act brave but inside she is afraid of the world around her. She may look happy but inside she feels depressed and broken. You may wonder how she every got like this in the first place. It was the world that made her into what she is. She tries to stay hopeful when she has lost all her faith in the world. She lost faith in the world because that girl has saw the world for what it really is and what the people in it are really like.

I know what that girl feels like because I am that girl. I would like to believe things will get better now but based on what I have seen it won't ever change. Yet I will still be here waiting for someone to come along and pick up the pieces of my broken heart. It doesn't really matter who at this point.

I have realized something though the time may come soon where I will have to get rid of that mask and show my real self to the world. When that time comes I don't know if I will be ready for it.

Yeah it got a little dark there at the end. Oh well things will get better soon I think. Who really knows? I kind of like this dark side of Pokémon. I'm not necessarily going to fix the world. I am just going to fix Alexa even if the world is still against her.