I was sitting in the truck that Negan was driving. He was actually bringing Seth's body with us to bury. I laid my head on the window and watched as the trees flew by us.

The tears by now had stopped. I don't think I had any more left.

"How old are you now?" Negan asked, breaking the scilence. I looked at his mirrored image in the glass window. "Nineteen." I said. I saw him nod.

"Still so young." I heard him say. "But not that young." He whispered.

I felt my heavy eyes finally win the fight over staying up. And I let the numbing darkness consume me.

When I awoke I was being carried. "Just relax there sweetheart." I heard Negan say. I was so emotionally drained and tired I just let him carry me.

We arrived in a room. It was very nice. Better then the RV's we stayed in.

"This is my room. Over there is the showers. Go shower and get cleaned up." He ordered as he put me down. I nodded, just wanting this nightmare to be over.

I walked into the bathroom and tried to look at myself. But the room was to dark. I was use to the dark. I lived in the dark.

We didn't have electricity in the RVs.

So once the sun was down and the fires out, we was in total darkness. We was lucky to have flashlights. But only when we found batteries.

I jumped when bright lights blinded me for a moment. I looked and saw Negan. He was holding clothes for me I guess.

"We have electricity and hot water. So take a relaxing shower doll. Here is some clothes for you to ware once you're finished." He said. I nodded and he sat the clothes on the sink so I didn't get blood on the clean clothes.

I was still so numb from my loss.

I was supposed to be with my husband right now. Consummating our marriage. I was supposed to be losing my virginity right now.

But now I'm here with my old teacher, a widow.

He gave me another look before leaving.

I sighed and turned on the water. I peeled the once beautiful bridal outfit I was wearing feeling it peel off me and the drying blood tear.

I got into the shower experiencing hot water for the first time in a long time.

Once I finished I looked at myself and saw a broken girl. A girl who lost to many things.

A girl who shouldn't even be alive in this kind of world.

A girl who lost the person who kept her alive.

Kept her going.

I looked at the clothes and saw it was mens clothes.

I guess its Negan's.

I put on the large tshirt and the gym shorts. I did slip on my undies.

I then walked out of the room.

Negan lead me to a room.

"This will be your room for now. Get some sleep. I want to speak with you tomorrow." He said. I nodded with out looking at him.

I then walked into the room, shutting the door behind me. I then walked to the bed, not stopping till I practically tripped onto it.

It was so soft, and my body shut down on me.