It began to rain. The coming summer storms had begun and the weather like every year was cumbersome. It was late and Kakashi couldn't sleep not that he had been able to for the past couple of days. And though he should be feeling anxious he wasn't, almost suddenly he was too calm. He had no idea why he was leaning against the doorway staring out the rain pelted window. But it was as if this is where he was suppose to be. So he took another swing from his water bottle and stood there trying to convince his body to move and continue the search for Naruto. But it refused and seemed to be in waiting.

And as if written by a screenwriter Kakashi watched his window open and a figure step onto the bed dripping wet. His bottle fell from his hands but it didn't seem to make a difference as there standing in on his bed looking like he had been through a typhoon was none other than the person he had been searching for….

"Naru..to?"

Naruto finally noticed him and gave him a sad but at the same time please smile,

"Sorry...I got your bed wet."

But the bed was the last thing he was worried about. And he was in stunned silence unsure where to begin. Should he ask where he's been this whole time? Or why was he wet? How was he coping? Was he hurt?

"You really should update your room"

ANd then he plopped down heavily and Kakashi was all about ready to run toward him but Naruto put a hand up and Kakashi paused.

Why did this all feel so nostalgic?

"Minato… Dad"

Naruto started,

"He's such a jerk ya know. Just because mom is gone he…"

Kakashi stayed still because though he wanted to wrap Naruto in his arms that wasn't what he needed right now.

"Because of him i was the one cursed with the stupid fox… because of him mom got sick…"

And Naruto was never one to blame so seeing the pain etched on the boys face as he spoke was no surprise.

"He was the one who set the bar so high, he was the one that tried to take on too much!"

Kakashi wanted to ask so many things but he clenched his fist and bit his tongue,

"He was the one who caused mom to hurt and me to be so angry! For my life to feel so damn lonely!"

Kakashi felt the tears prickle at the pain that cracked his visitor's voice,

"AND NOW HE JUST DIED?! MAKING EVERYONE SUFFER?! ME SUFFER?! OBITO!? YOU?!"

The pointed look that he gave was just as broken as his voice,

"And I… I just… I WANTED TO SAVE EVERYONE DAMN IT! I WANTED TO PROTECT THEM! I SAID I WOULD BUT I….!"

Tears fell landing heavily on the wet sheets but kakashi waited for the right moment. Because this whole scene that played before him seemed so nostalgic that it hurt to watch.

"And now I'm here… trying hard as f*** to figure out what to do.. But I'm lost! I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE! I'M JUST GOING TO BE ALONE! I DON'T WANT TO! I DON'T WANT TO LOSE ANYONE!"

Naruto was falling apart at the seams and Kakashi had enough. He watched the boy shake his head fervently as the burden he had chosen suddenly felt too heavy for him.

"I DON'T WANT TO! I'M SO CONFUS-"

"It's okay"

Naruto jumped at the gentle hand that touched his hair and he looked up unable to recall when Kakashi had climbed onto the bed and gotten so close.

"It's okay to be lost, and confused and even scared"

Kakashi said softly like he would break, and maybe he was.

"You've done enough"

And Naruto just breathed. Taking in the air that was only Kakashi. Kakashi who had always been there, who had always said stupid things like…

"It's okay, I love you"

Kakashi said as he pulled him closer. Naruto never understood how this man had so much love for him. Naruto was so childish compared to this cool headed adult. Naruto was so foolish and clumsy and stupid. He was nothing like his father and yet… even when Naruto had shown him his ugliest side. Even When Naruto had attacked him and lost control…. Kakashi still….

Naruto smiled through bleary eyes,

"When i first met you i thought you were broken."

Kakashi pulled back so he could look at Naruto properly,

"And as i got to know you i realized… you're just a perv."

Kakashi smiled at that but something told him this was wrong,

"Sometimes it felt like you couldn't move without me…"

Yea something felt really wrong here,

"But you've changed, and...i'm glad…"

Wrong, wrong, WRONG!

"Thank you."

Blue eyes looked at him softly and though it should have made him happy his heart was racing for another reason,

"Naruto..?"

"Thank you… for loving me"

This was wrong this whole thing was wrong and he felt fear creep into his heart as those gentle blue eyes glistened,

"Why..?"

Naruto looked at him confused,

"Why does it feel like you're saying goodbye?"

Naruto leaned back further and they stared at each other before he gave him that blissful smile that broke his heart. And he wanted to scream. Because he was just as scared of being alone! Because this all felt too familiar! And he could feel the monster of despair waiting for it's chance to eat him alive like it had almost done last time. Obito was hurting and Rin was Gone. Everyone was disappearing! He didn't want to be alone! He didn't think… he didn't think he could live without this warmth. Without this smile, and kindness he couldn't… not without Naruto!

He didn't even know he was crying until Naruto brushed a tear from his eye.

"It's okay"

Naruto said softly, But it wasn't. Even as Naruto showered him with gentle kisses he knew; it wasn't going to be okay!

Naruto sighed as he pushed him back on the bed so he was straddling him and Kakashi tried burning the beauty that was Naruto in his brain but why… why did he seem to see a familiar vision? Of Naruto in the same moment bathed in moonlight?!

He wasn't going to be okay, not okay! NOT OKAY! If Naruto left he was sure he'd fall apart.

Naruto kissed him gently again but Kakashi felt desperate and held him.

He didn't release until his lungs betrayed him. As if they didn't know that Naruto was the only air he needed.

"You'll be... okay"

Naruto tried to say, but he wouldn't. And he said as much with the way he grabbed Naruto into a fiercer kiss because he hadn't seemed to understand how NOT okay he was going to be. But again he was betrayed.

"You have to believe in me"

And when hadn't he? Kakashi always believed in Naruto. Naruto was his angel and could do anything, but still...

"I need you to .. trust me"

Kakashi grabbed his head wrapping his fingers in his blonde hair that reminded him of sunlight,

"Don't… there's still…."

Still so much he wanted to tell him, to do with him, to accomplish, to experience. He was nowhere near ready to part ways. But the smile on Naruto's face told him that this was inevitable. Naruto leaned down into Kakashi putting their foreheads together as if it was a way to take away the fear and in a way Kakashi knew it was magic,

"Say it"

Kakashi's breathed out because there was no way he could let Naruto go. And he wondered if he should tie Naruto up and cage him.

"Say it.."

Because Kakashi knew that if Naruto was going to hate him for capturing him he would at least like to know the truth …

And Naruto rose full of that confidence that radiated him everywhere he went. Full of joy and happiness. This was not a lost child, this was not a child that depended on people… this was.. Kakashi felt more tears falling because it seemed so unfair that he was the only one hurting…

"I love you the most!"

IT'S NOT CHEATING! so i did use a lot of the from the previous story but I DID IT ON PURPOSE! i wanted there to be that overlap because Naruto will forever be Naruto and i wanted his character to flow. The Naruto from the last story lost everyone and this Naruto has lost quite a few people too so i didn't do it because i was lazy... though i may have copying and pasted... whatever