A/N: I do not own the character of TMI they belong to Cassnadra Clare.

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I give you some comfort.

18.

"Hey," Jace said walking onto the back porch. "What are you doing out here?"

"What do you want Jace?" Alec asked picking up his beer.

"Wanted to see how you're holding up, what with Magnus still being in the hospital."

"I'm fine," he answered.

"Really? Cause the whiskey says otherwise. You only drink when you're upset."

"Of course I'm fucking upset," Alec snorted. "My mate lost our baby and suffered a psychotic break as a result. I am just fucking dandy."

"Well...maybe it's for the best..." Jace leaned against the deck railing and crossed his arms over his chest. "Maybe you aren't meant to have kids...maybe you should find a new mate...Maybe-"

"Maybe you should go," Woolsey interrupted.

Alec drank more from the bottle as he left and glanced at Woolsey.

"What are you doing here?" He asked.

"Magnus wanted me to check on you," he answered walking over. He took the bottle and took a few swigs himself before handing it back. "He's worried about you."

"Nothing to worry about. I'm as chipper as a bird," Alec drank more and frowned seeing the bottle was empty. He threw it and watched the shards lands in the grass as it hit a nearby tree.

"You think Jace was right? I should just find a new mate?" He asked.

"Alec, what happened...you have no control over. The miscarriage, Magnus having his little break down, things like that happen."

"I...I couldn't get through to him," Alec whispered. "I tried. I tried so hard but they...they had to...I promised him I'd never let that happen...not again..."

"I know," Woolsey nodded. "And he's not mad at you. He understood why."

"How do you know?"

"Because I can't stay mad at you..."

Alec glanced over and saw Magnus leaning in the doorway. He looked exhausted and thinner. He walked over and put his arms around Alec and the last of his resolve broke.

"Shhh, it's alright," Magnus murmured kissing his forehead and running his fingers through his hair. "It's going to be alright Alec."

Alec clutched at his shirt sobbing. Magnus managed to get them sitting and rocked him back and forth repeating soothing words into his ear.

Woolsey got him some water once he calmed down enough. Eyes puffy and red rimmed. Tear streaked down his face.

"I'm sorry. I tried, I-"

Magnus shushed him. "I know Alec. I know, and I understand," he wiped his eyes with his thumbs.

"I should've been there. I should've-"

"Alexander, you are not going to put this on yourself. What happened was not your fault. I don't want you to ever think it was."

Alec nodded and brushed some of his hair back smiling a little.

"You look like shit."

"Having a mental breakdown can do that to you."

He kissed him softly and buried his face into his neck inhaling his scent.

"I'm sorry I didn't come see you..."

"I'm glad you didn't…it wouldn't have been pretty."

"Feel better?" Magnus asked wiping his eyes.

"A little…" he answered. "What about you?"

"I'm getting there," he replied sighing. "Now if you two don't mind. I'd like to sleep in my own bed."

Alec got up and helped him up and kissed his cheek. "I'll be there in a little bit."

Magnus closed the screen door behind him as he went back inside. Alec ran a hand through his hair.

"I shall bid you guys goodnight. Take it easy okay?" Woolsey said heading for the porch steps.

Alec nodded and went inside the house locking the door and ignoring what Jace said.

"What are you doing up?" Magnus asked rubbing his eyes as he walked into the kitchen. "And why are you frying bacon at three in the morning?"

"Comfort food…" Alec answered. "Want some? I made a pound."

"I can see that," Magnus said sitting at the counter. "Are you feeling okay?"

"You look better," Alec replied changing the subject. "You slept for about sixteen hours you know."

"My new medication they gave him…I sleep all day, get up at night, eat whatever's in sight and then sleep again…" he shrugged picking up a piece of bacon. "What's your excuse?"

"Bad dreams…I…I think they're bad dreams…" Alec answered running a hand through his hair. "I moved all the stuff into storage."

"You should've let me help you," Magnus frowned.

"It's alright. You need your rest-"

"Alec, it's been a week-"

"I know…I know it's been a week. One week, thirteen hours, forty three minutes and twenty-seven seconds, twenty eight seconds, twenty nine seconds, thirty-"

Magnus got up and hugged him from behind resting his chin on his shoulder and covered his mouth. He turned off the stove and took his hand pulling him away and bringing him to the couch to sit down. Alec wiped his eyes and listened as Magnus made him a cup of tea and came back sitting next to him.

"I don't think I've ever cried so much," Alec wiped his eyes and drank some of the tea as Magnus held it to his lips.

"Why do you think I'm happy to be sleeping pretty much all day? Have you seen me cry? It's not pretty, make up all over the place, eyeliner smeared, lipstick smeared. I look like a train wreck," he smiled a bit and drank some of the tea himself.

"I think…I'm sorry I can't lie you are not a pretty crier," Alec chuckled a bit. "It's like your entire face just comes off on my shirt."

"I'm glad my crying makes you laugh," Magnus stuck his tongue out at him.

Alec rolled his eyes and kissed him wrapping his arms around him. He took the cup and set it aside before laying down on the couch and pulling him on top.

"How are you doing?" He asked running his fingers down his back.

"I'm picking up the pieces one by one," he answered. "I found these in the dresser."

He reached into his pocket and held up a pair of pink baby boots. "Isabelle bought them three weeks ago," he sighed. "She said 'I don't care if you're having a boy or girl, or one boy and a girl, they have to wear them because…because their daddy is a sucker for a cutie in pink boots'…"

Alec reached up and wiped his eyes and kissed him softly wrapping his arms around him.

"You see what happens when I wake up three in the morning. I wind up crying over a pair of fucking baby boots," he buried his face into Alec's chest.

"Well…they are pretty cute," Alec took the shoes and set them on the coffee table. He rubbed his back.

"We'll try again right? I mean…not right now, for once I am not in the mood to have sex…but sometime right?" he asked.

"Of course," Alec answered kissing the top of his head. "But for now, we will have to be content with just the two of us…think you can manage that?"

"I suppose I can live with that," Magnus smiled a bit and wiped his eyes.

"We should go back to bed," Alec said picking him up.

"What about the kitchen?" Magnus asked. "The house is going to smell like bacon…"

"I'll clean it up later," Alec answered. "It's later or early actually…and you need some sleep."

"I guess you're right…I told Ragnor I'd help him out tomorrow so I'm going to be busy busy busy."

"You sure that's wise with your new medication?" Alec asked setting him on the bed. He kissed him as he got back into bed.

"I can do tattoo's in my sleep Alec. In fact that actually might happen at some point," he answered rolling over and draping an arm over his hips.

"Maybe I should come in one day and get one," Alec mused putting his arm around him. "I could get your name right across my chest."

"You do that and I will break up with you as soon as it's finished," Magnus told him.

"Dully noted," Alec smiled turning out the light.