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"Wait! You didn't finish healing me. I'm still hurt."
Hinata released her grip on the door knob.
"What do you mean?" She said facing him. "I already told you what to do if it continues to hurt."
"I know but. . . I can't heal this one."
Hinata closed her eyes and softly exhaled. "Naruto, I'm not going to kiss you."
"Yea yea I know." His blue eyes looked back at her with an emotion she couldn't define. "Can you hug me? That's all I want, just a hug."
"Why?" She said walking to him.
"Because I really need one."
"Then ask som-"
"No! It has to be your hug! I don't want anybody else's. . . I only like yours."
Blushes spread across her cheeks like rashes. She was standing right in front of him. She fidgeted with her fingers nervously. She didn't know how this would end. Naruto was a very good manipulator and he also knew how to take control in all their moments together. She didn't think this would only end as a simple hug. Naruto could easily tell she was fighting within herself to make a decision. It hurt him deeply to see she still didn't trust him.
"It's only a hug. I promise." He said covering her hands with his.
His gentle voice for some reason made her feel safe.
"Okay." She whispered. "Stand up."
He shook his head.
"No."
"But you said-"
"I said I want you to hug me. I'm taller than you by a long shot, I'd be hugging you if we were standing."
He lifted her arms and wrapped them around his neck. She moved closer and rested her head on top of his spiky hair. One of her hands ran its fingers through his hair. She kindly stroked it back and forth. He closed his eyes against her chest and trapped her waist with his arms. Her touch felt so good to him. Hinata was also thinking the same thing, his touch felt good too. She had missed being this close to him. She hated to admit it, but it was true. She closed her eyes while were face began to warm over bubbly feelings.
I still care about you. . .
"Hinata. . ."
"Yes." She said still dreaming.
"Will we ever be the same."
"What do you mean?"
Hinata couldn't really hear his words. She was dozing off into another realm. It wasn't until Naruto spoke the second time that she awoke from her imagination.
"Y'know, will I ever get to hold you like this, will we ever talk to each other again, will you ever come to my house-"
"No Naruto." She said pulling away every body part that was touching him.
"I don't mean it like that!" He said trying to bring her back in, but this time she was being reluctant. She just wouldn't allow herself to feel his warmth again. Her arms kept pushing him away no matter how hard Naruto tried to get a hold of her.
"Stop it!" He said snatching her hands from his shoulders. "I just want us to be together again! You and me alone, not for sex but just to have you in my arms why'll we're watching a movie or something. I don't know! I just really need you by my side. I feel empty without you!"
"Let go of my hands."
"Why?!"
"Because. . . you're hurting me."
Naruto looked down to see a tight grip pressing on her small hands. He hadn't even realized he was being aggressive in his own desperation for her to listen.
"I'm sorry." He said releasing her hands.
She nodded and headed for the door.
"Your just gonna leave! You're not gonna say anything! I mean, did you even listen to me!?"
"Stop yelling. People can hear you."
"I can't! I don't know what else to do for you to listen to me!"
"I did."
Hinata placed her hand on the cold door knob and slowly twisted till the door opened. She had to close it quickky once Naruto started yelling again.
"Then why aren't you saying anything!"
Hinata rested her back on the wall and folded her arms against her chest. Her eyes showed no emotion as she stared back at Naruto.
"Prove it. Prove it is all I have to say to you."
Naruto for the first time felt extremely angry at Hinata.
"Goddamn it!" He said clawing the nurse's bed. "You don't know how many times I've been told that! Prove it! Prove it! I've even told myself that! "
Hinata shrugged her shoulders not knowing what to say.
"I took a freakin' beating for you! Is that not enough for you!?"
Hinata didn't like how he was turning the tables on her. She didn't ask him to fight the boy who made fun of her. He did it on his own. She didn't know how to feel about it. Anger and guiltiness filled up her organs. The sound of him yelling nonsense kept ringing in her ears. She reached a point where her anger took full control of her words.
"Stop yelling! I'm sorry people keep telling you the same thing but I don't know what else to say! I'm not gonna say I love you because I don't! I'm not gonna say I'd like to go back to how we were because I don't!"
She turned her back to Naruto and opened a crack of the door.
"But I'm not gonna say I completely reject you in my life because I don't want that either."
With that she fully opened the door and left a wide eyed Naruto. She wanted him too. She didn't want to leave him either. She was giving him a chance to crack her shell but he didn't know how. The only thing he could think of was to ask her himself. With all his strength he walked to towards the door but before he could leave, Asuma-Sensei walked in.
"Oh, Asuma-Sensei."
"Hey Naruto. Mind taking a seat."
Naruto hopped back onto the nurse's bed. "What's up coach?"
"The question is what's up with you? What happened to you today?"
Naruto looked down at the tiled floor. He couldn't dare to look at the coach in the eyes after what he did.
"I didn't fight him." He muttered softly.
"Yea but you provoked it. I asked the boys who started it and with great pain they said you did. They said you called him out first and agreed to fight him."
Naurto felt a heavy weight on his whole body, it was very unpleasant.
"Is that true Naruto?"
"Yea. . ."
Asuma shook his head and sighed in disappointment. "Naruto, why would you agree to fight someone if you knew it wouldn't end well."
"I don't know."
"You don't know!? I mean, did you just feel like getting a couple a swings today. The guys told me you didn't even hit the boy once."
"I know that."
"Then why?!"
The blonde shrugged his shoulders. He knew exactly why he did it but he didn't need his coach to know anything about his love life. He heard a another loud sigh from Asuma.
"Naruto." He said in a sadden tone. "I've come to make a decision that I didn't want to do."
Naruto closed his eyes preparing himself for the news he was about to hear.
"I made it clear on Tuesday that the selection for the competition team was starting soon and I also made it clear intensive training would begin in these days. Since the incident on Wednesday affected all the players nothing was scored. But today there was no excuse for you not being there. Seeing that you are injured and that you can't get along with your peers, I'm sorry but. . . you won't be participating for selections. "
Naruto swallowed the thickness in his throat. He wanted to be in the team so bad and now, he had lost that chance completely. His eyes were burning for tears to slip out.
"I'm sorry Naruto." Asuma said patting his back. "Maybe next year."
Jeez, how those words hurt Naruto. Next year? Next year he would be a senior it wouldn't look as good. The wait would be so painful because he would have to see his classmates train while he would sit on the bench because of a stupid mistake he committed.
A click sound was made when Asuma-Sensei left the room.
Naruto walked outside the nurse's office after hearing the dismissal bell. He didn't go to the locker room to get his stuff. He didn't care. It was almost like the world could swallow him up right then and he wouldn't care. He didn't have the girl he loved beside him and he no longer could play his favorite sport. There was nothing that he could do to fix those deep wounds, nothing at all.
He walked alone through the village and came home to a lonely house, a sad empty apartment. He went directly to his bedroom. He turned on the radio to take his mind off what was going on in his life right now.
While he was undressing himself a song called, "Talking to the Moon" began to play. He started to listen to lyrics of the song after he put on his sweatpants. It made him think of Hinata, then again, everything made him think of Hinata. She was always on his mind. But whenever the song repeated,
Talking to the moon
Tryin' to get to you
In hopes you're on
The other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon
It made him wonder if Hinata was going through the same things he was going through. Was her life being torn apart without him being there? Was she missing him as much as he did for her? Or was he in this alone. Was he just like the song said,"a fool who sits alone talking to the moon." A fool who waits for something that would never happened. His stomach was tightening painfully as he thought about it. His eyes got watery by the idea of Hinata not caring for him. He was slowly sinking into a whole of depression when he suddenly remembered,
"But I'm not gonna say I completely reject you in my life because I don't want that either."
A spark of light shined through the darkness when he remembered her voice.
That's right. You still want me in your life.
He got up and smiled determinately.
I'm not giving up yet! I want you in my life too. Hinata just you wait. I'll make you fall in love with me, even if it means I'd have to spend the rest of my days trying.
HINT HINT: This is the last chapter of the fighting wars.
HINT HINT: The ultimate connection between Naruto and Hinata MAY happen in the next chapter. . . that sounds creepy but it might happen. . .
Goodbye. . . and be patient! ^_^
