Hello again. I know normally my chapters are weeks apart but I'm not in school for right now and I didn't have anything else to do (besides studying and who wants to do that) so I decided to go ahead and post again.

*Note* this story might be a little long. I haven't really figured it out yet because I changed a few things. Might as well say add that I hope all of you love. I'm thinking it to be around the length of Forever Ours. I'm not for sure though. I guess we'll eventually find out, right?

Funny Bunni987: well...you're getting more lol Hope you enjoy!

Peaches318: Thank you. I have written when Kaleb meets Grace (sounds like a TV show) and I have to say that it won't be for long before they do meet. Just one important event has to happen first... Again, hope you enjoy.

Now to the rest of you...enjoy!

Chapter 5

Nessie's point of view

Normally I'm the first one up in the morning. Today wasn't really the case. I was exhausted. I didn't sleep any last night. My brain was on so much over load. I was worried for Jacob, worried for the twins. They tossed and turned all night. Jacob ran around confused. So when I finally was able to get some sleep it was time to get up. Normally I would cook a nice breakfast. At this point normal wasn't the case because I told the twins they would have to settle with cereal.

With due to running late, I was able to get Sage and Grace ready then rushed to put myself together. I noticed something when I put a regular shirt on. There was bruises on my upper arms and around my wrist. I haven't had bruises since my fourth birthday. It's going to kill Jacob once he finds out.

To hide everything, especially from the twins, I put on a long sleeved shirt and jacket and ran downstairs to find Grace and Sage eating waffles.

"Where'd you get those?" I asked suspiciously.

"Daddy left a note saying he made these for us." Grace explained. "He also said that he was sorry but he doesn't remember. Why's that?"

I looked away. I figured this was the case, "It was nice of him to cook us breakfast." Was all I could say instead.

"I don't forgive him." Sage thought to himself.

I looked away again. This was so hard. How can I explain this to a six year old? But yet they seemed to understand so much more. I knew they acted mature than some six year olds but what if it was too much? I didn't want them to be too old for their age.

I noticed Jacob left a note for me but I didn't read it. So I snatched it away and shoved it in my pocket. We were late as it is. Besides, if he was so sorry he would be saying it in person.

"Come on. We're late. You can eat in the car."

I rushed the twins to my SUV and sped off. We were going to be there in record time…if I didn't get pulled over. I was going so fast that the officer was arresting me. I was about to be booked a reckless driving or murder, neither of which I wanted my twins to witness. I was even fighting the officer so that was another charge on top of that. Sage used his gift so I was able to get out of it. Only a hefty speeding ticket.

That brought up their punishment. I wasn't in the best mood and them being "darling" children wasn't helping so I was a little harsh. It sucked when they shouted that they hated me when they jumped out of the vehicle and ran into the school building. They've never told me that before! Was I actually being a good mother? I suck at being a girlfriend to Jake so why not screw this up too!

So I sat there with my eyes closed and tears threatening to fall. I had no particular place to go. I've screwed up everything as it is. How can such a good day like yesterday turn into one so bad? It didn't make sense.

I pulled out Jacob's letter, staring at it before actually reading the words. It was nice he was trying to suck up before the next fight. I knew he wasn't in his right state of mind but he made that choice to stay and fight it. He chose to yell all those horrible things at me. He chose to turn around and go to attack his children. It was still his choice.

I swore I would protect Sage and Grace from anybody. If that meant protecting them from their father I would. He would do the same thing too.

Nesssie,

I have no clue but what happen but for some reason I feel like I should be sorry for something. Can we talk? Meet me at campus around lunch time…please. I love you.

Should I meet him? Should I give him the cold shoulder? He's going to kill himself once he finds out. I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt but the mother inside me couldn't. Those were my babies. I refuse to stand by and let anybody hurt them. Jacob knows that they are put first. It wasn't our first rodeo with Jacob losing it but he's always ran away before it got to that point. He's never tried to hurt the twins. Me maybe but I can take care of myself. They're still innocent.

I might as well. He might even tell me what's bothering him. Momma and Daddy's flight still had hours before it landed so I had time. I also had time to figure out how I wanted to handle a conversation with him.

I drove around town. I didn't feel like going home only to come right back and then do it all over again. That was my schedule as it is.

I did the one thing I seemed to could do right for now. Shop for my twins. It was my favorite thing to do. Sage hated it-being the typical boy-while it depended on what mood Grace was in for her to enjoy it. If she was in a mood where she wanted to do, you may even get her to model some of the stuff. The opposite, she'll mostly let you know. Like mother like daughter.

I should probably head home but I didn't want to. So I aimlessly walked around, shopping bags in hand, and thought. I thought about what my wonderful twins were doing. I thought about my family. I thought about my Jacob. I didn't want to think about that right now.

I stopped when I sensed something. I sniffed the air to know it was a vampire. But the smell was new? I don't recognize it. When I turned around to see if anybody was following me, I didn't see much. Everything seemed normal on this chilly November day. I just couldn't get rid of that funny feeling.

I sniffed again but everything seemed normal. If I didn't have several bags loaded in my hands I would track it. I could just be getting paranoid.

I decided to be nice and bought lunch, hoping that it would butter Jacob up when I tell him about the ticket. He shouldn't really be upset about that when I've got more on him now more than ever.

When I went back to my car I found it unlocked. I swore I locked it before leaving. The smell of a vampire was all over it. The inside was ransacked. Almost as if they were looking for something and wanted to let me know they were. It wasn't that I had much in here in the first place.

Could it be the Volturi? Finn? Tuck? A curious vampire? Were they apart of the rebellion? I hated not knowing anything but it was my fault that I didn't. We refuse because we know the twins will find out. We live in oblivion by choice. They are already terrified we'll die. What else will terrify them next? Who will stand by us? Can I protect them more than just from their father?

I bit my lip, looking at my bracelet and ring. There will not be a wedding band on there anytime soon.

~~~~~~ Forever ~~~~~~

I pulled into the parking lot and grabbed out lunch. I had no clue why he wanted me out of all places here. Whenever the twins were babies, and before they started school, I would bring them so Jacob could see them on his break. That all changed.

I knew exactly where to find him. He was inside with some of his college friends. I could feel him. He was in a good mood which shouldn't surprise me but he also seemed…lost. That was the confusing part.

I walked inside the break area where I finally saw him. There was a bunch of people around him so I figured he wouldn't notice me until he looked up. His face seemed happy to see me but there was something missing in those dark eyes. It proved to me that all the smiles and good moods was a mask.

"I'll be right back." Jacob said, jumping up and heading my way.

"Hey." I said as he met up with me. "I brought lunch."

"You're my life saver." He said as he pulled me into a kiss. I turned my head to make it look like I was look off but he caught it. And I caught his hurt look. I don't think we should be "kissing" right now. Not even on the cheek.

"How?"

I could hear the forced tone, "Do you have to ask?"

I pulled my sleeve down further, hoping Jacob couldn't see the bruises as we headed back over to the table with his friends. I was greeted by everyone that I already knew. Even someone I hated and Jacob knew I hated. Courtney. She couldn't see the fact that Jacob had two kids and a steady relationship at home. Yes, I was completely jealous.

"You've got her trained, Black." Corin joked.

I forced a smile and Jacob forced a laugh, "No. She's got me trained."

I looked at him, adding fuel to the fire, and batted my eyelashes, "You know, bringing you lunch will cost you."

"Oh boy." Jacob breathed. He knew what I was talking about.

I was quiet as Jacob chatted with his buddies about his classes, the work, and their teachers. They talked about the upcoming assignments and all that nerdy stuff. I couldn't help but snicker.

Jacob obviously hear me. "What?"

I shook my head as I took a bit out of my BLT, "I just never pictured you as a nerd. It's less attracting." I joked.

"At least you didn't call me old this time."

Another college friend spoke up, "Whoa. Who called you old?"

"Our daughter." I pitched in. "Jake's been mulling over it ever since."

"Not all the time." Jake said, rolling his eyes.

"Women mostly do that." Amelia said. "How old are you again, Nessie?"

"Twenty-six." I mostly kept my age younger but now I had the twins to add along to that math. I didn't use to care what age I spat off. Saying twenty-six does make you feel old. Oh my God!

"And how old are you, Jake?"

"Twenty-eight."

"Well, Jacob's close to thirty so you're daughter's right. You are old."

Jacob dropped his head but I could see him stifling back a yawn. He didn't get much sleep last night like I did. He didn't know why I rejected his kiss just now. He was scared. He was lost. He had a feeling it was something bad but he couldn't put his finger on what.

"I like older men." Courtney said, winking at Jake.

I felt myself move and sit in Jacob's lap with him automatically wrapping his arms around my waist, "Really? I do too." I said, my tone dripping with fakeness.

I scooted back in my seat, knowing I had won that battle. Even when I was mad at him Jacob was mine. My mate, my soul-mate, my boyfriend, the father of my twins, my baby daddy, my man. The freaking end!

Jacob went back into the chatter but I could see he also went back into the lost feeling. He laughed when he was supposed to, answered when he was supposed to. He put on that front that made everybody else think that everything was okay.

I projected to Jacob that we needed to talk outside. He threw away his half eaten lunch and got up with me. I knew he was already killing inside because he never leaves food unfinished. I barely had time to say good-bye to everybody before he led me outside. Only for us to stop so he could turn around when Courtney called out for him.

"Don't forget, Black. My place, eight o'clock." She winked at him and my hated for her ignited more and more. I wonder what it would be like if she just disappeared.

I dragged Jacob outside in a blur, "Ooh! She gets on my nerves! Did she know I was coming?!" I yell.

"Yeah." Was all Jacob said.

I glared at him as we made our way back to the SUV. Jacob looked in and saw my shopping bags. He rolled his eyes but smelt the same smell I did.

"A leech was in your car?!" he asked, his face full of worry.

"I think so. One was following me too. I don't know what they were trying to figure out because it was pretty stupid to look there. It wasn't a smell I recognize."

He bit his lip, "Maybe we need to go back to Washington."

"Why?"

"Head back to square root one."

I squeezed his hand, "Momma and Daddy's flight lands at two-"

"Wait." My Jacob stopped me. "You never told me that they were coming." He snapped.

"Well that has something to do with you not remembering." I couldn't help but snap back.

"I can't…Ness, I do have to be a Courtney's after work. We have a project that we have to do…"

"Of course."

"Please don't do this. She's tutoring me."

"What?! What about me?! Tutoring?! You know-"

"And I really need to pass this class. You were busy and she offered. It's really no big deal."

It's a big deal when you're the one that went after my son and daughter and should be spending time apologizing to them.

Jacob was fumbling with a bag when it fell. We both reached down to get it when my sleeve that hid the bruises rose up. Jacob noticed and grabbed my arm, yanking my sleeve up higher.

"Who did this to you?!" he growled, his hands shaking a little. Okay. A lot.

"You." I whispered.

"How…"

I projected the events of the night before. Of how Sage and Grace were using their gifts on each other and Grace threw hers out too much. He got worse and things got physical. I showed him how he took a swing at me and was about to head back to attack the twins. The Sage erased his memory while I punched him.

Jacob's whole physique fell and he slouched over like I punched him in the gut. He slouched to the ground and leaned against my car, putting his head in his hands and breathed heavy. I felt our connection then. I could hear his thoughts then. I wanted to kill himself. He felt like he was going to puke. In rare, but expected form, he wanted to break down and cry for what he'd wanted to do at the twins.

"So-so that's why I had a feeling you were angry at me?" he mumbled. He looked up at me, tears in his eyes but also mad anger at himself. My heart actually broke at the rare innocent look. "The twins? Are they okay?"

"They both hate us but other than that they are happy six year olds."

"Why do they hate you? They shouldn't. I should be the one…"

"Things were hectic this morning and I was a little harsh." I answered. Seeing the tears threatening to fall made me want to be a bland as possible.

"I…God! Nessie! I'm so sorry. I…" Jacob made me look at him. "I understand why you're mad at me. I should have left. It's my fault. They're terrified of me!"

I wanted to say something nice but I couldn't. Jacob's not going to cry in front of me. "I'll kill you if you do it again." I threatened.

"I'll make sure you do." He shakily said.

I finally saw one tear leak out of the corner of his eye, saying a lot more that was going on inside his head. I reached out and gently wiped it away with my finger, realizing I was crying myself.

"So this all started out was us having another baby?" Jacob asked.

"Yeah…pretty much." I mumbled.

Jacob was about to speak but I cut him off, getting up, "I'll see you later. We can talk about this later if you want."

"I want to talk about this now."

"But you've got class."

"That doesn't matter."

Jacob wouldn't be able to focus after this. I should have waited. I was so stupid to tell him now. I was a horrible girlfriend. "Well, I do. Now go to class, pay attention, go to that slut's house, and then come home. I'll talk to the twins."

"No-"

"Jacob, yes, you screwed up! Yes, I am so mad at you right now! Yes, the twins are terrified of you! Do you honestly think that they're going to talk with us! And we're the ones acting stupid!"

"You're the one-"

"Don't blame it off on me!"

My Jacob huffed, slamming his head against my car. "I really didn't want to argue. I didn't want to find out that I tried to hurt my kids but we always can't get what we want."

I can vouch for that.

I wrapped my arms around his waist and he buried his head in my neck, "So what do we do?"

"I'm going to class. I won't pay attention no matter what. My kids are going to run from me. Edward and Bella are going to kill me. You're going to…I don't know. Act like it never happen."

I laughed. "That's most likely what I'll do."

"But I don't want that to happen. Any of it. It sucks to know that I hurt the family I love the most but I don't remember it!"

"Maybe it's best you don't. Look at how you are now. Imagine what it'll be like when you do."

Jacob thought it over. I don't know if he'll ever recover his memory. As far as we know it Sage's gift is long term. But I know my Jacob. He's barely bottling it in as we speak. There's no clue what he'll do once he's alone. I hate to see what he would do in the aftermath of remembering.

"I've got to go." He whispered.

I pulled at him and brought him closer to me, our lips touching. I kissed him until it became a full on make out secession-which was fine with me. I forgot the last time we had one of those. I pulled at his hair, trying to bring as much of him closer as I could get. I didn't care if people stared or if they told us to get a room. There's times where I miss the way that we were. Where we could just sit there for hours and hours and talk. Or kiss. But then again that was before the twins and I didn't miss times before them. It was just the fact that we kept telling ourselves that we were okay. I had no clue if we were or not. Only time could answer that for us. But the kisses like these…they seemed long forgotten until now.

It seemed Jacob had to forcefully pull himself away, "Now I really do have to go or I won't leave at all."

"Don't think about it, okay?" I said, smoothing out his messy hair and tried to make it look like he did have a make out session with his girlfriend. "I love you."

"Love you too." He mumbled then walked away.

I stood there. He would still think about it-even more now thanks to my distraction. We didn't really talk about it. How can we when it was something that we couldn't talk about in public?

Grace was losing control of her shield. Sage was mad at his father. Both were mad at me. My relationship with my mate was crumbling. Vampires were so close to killing us. Jacob was losing his grip on things and I couldn't do anything about anything because I didn't know what to do. But all that doesn't seem as bad as knowing what my parents are going to do once they find out about last night.

~~~~~~ Forever ~~~~~~

Momma and Daddy weren't too happy with Jacob when I told them why I had bruises on my arms. I didn't want to tell them but they kept pressing why I never took off my jacket. The first thing they thought was that I was pregnant and was trying to hide it. I had to tell them that because I really didn't want to handle with the pregnancy claims.

Let's just say Jacob needs to come home late tonight…

Oh, it gets worse. Momma and Daddy went to pick up the twins for me. They were happy to see their grandparents. Not so happy to see me. When I met them at the door, asking how was school, Grace glared at me. She threw down her bookbag, grumbled fine, and brushed past me. At least Sage gave me a quick hug.

"So how much was your ticket?" Daddy asked as we sat down on the couch.

"Pocket money." I rolled my eyes.

I missed my parents a lot. Sometimes I even wonder if it was the smart thing to keep the twins in the dark so much. I even wonder sometimes was it even smart to move off.

"So how are things here?" Momma asked as she twirled her finger around one of my stray ringlet that came out of my ponytail.

"Typical. Besides the twins hating me." I shrugged.

"Don't worry. It gets worse when they're teenagers." Daddy joked, bringing up my "teenage" years. They better not be teenagers for a long, long, long, long while.

I made sure the twins were preoccupied with playing before I brought up everything else. I needed to know this.

"The rebellion is being caused by Stefan and Valdimir-which shouldn't surprise us." Daddy said. "Alice says she can see them inviting us to join."

"When?"

"She hasn't seen that yet."

"What about the Volturi?"

Now the room changed. "Alice can see them coming. They'll blame us for something but it's not really clear when." Momma answered.

"How? What have we done? Why are we just sitting here doing nothing?" I asked. I was angry, confused, shocked. I knew they were coming but I also wanted to know why we were waiting for them to move.

"Because if things happened right now it would become a blood bath. We wouldn't win. We would be lucky when the time comes." Daddy said.

I scoffed, "You thought we wouldn't win the last time."

"But things are different. Aro is waiting for us to mess up. He has been humiliated by us several times over the past years. They're not going to spare us." Momma said, making me look her in the eye.

I knew there would be casualties. Some of my friends would die. I know some of my family would die. It terrified me if Jacob dies. But if he does I would still keep moving for the twins. They need a parent in their lives. Jacob would do the same thing. We haven't discussed it but if I asked him I knew he would hold onto my promise. The twins will come first. There's no other way to put it. I had to fight for them so they could have a future.

"But that doesn't mean we can cower away." I stated.

"Renesmee," Daddy said, pulling me into a hug, "as much as we love seeing you, we really didn't come here to talk battle strategy."

Oh boy. I knew where this was going.

"They should be in their playroom. You never know. They could be mad at each other and also be in each other's room too." I said.

Momma and Daddy grinned at me and disappeared. It wasn't long until I heard giggles coming from upstairs. Yes, my parents have bumped me. But it was good kind of bump. One that I didn't mind at all and was happy about. I could remember when I was pregnant with them that they weren't excited about being grandparents.

It was getting late when I started to fix dinner. I could still hear my angels upstairs playing and smiled. I decided to just let the grandparents have their time before I decided to talk to them.

But I refused to think about the crap that was going on in my life. The future can surely change. It has before. They might not come after us. We can live happily ever after. It's just too bad I don't believe in fairy tales. I'll just put on a brave face. Sage and Grace will not be dragged into this. I refuse it.

To distract myself I pulled out my laptop. I already sent the nature shots to my editor who was satisfied as always. Now I decided to upload the photo of Sage and Grace so I can play with it and hang it up somewhere.

As I was editing Momma came into the room. "I think the twins bring out the inner child in your father." She said.

"They seem to do that with a lot of people." I laughed.

"They're beautiful in everything, I know that, but that photo of them is perfect."

I smiled. It did seem that way. The way the light hit them through the bay window made it the perfect angle as Grace was half asleep on her brother's shoulder. They were always protective over each other. I hoped that would last because they would need it.

"I think so too." I said.

I looked at the screen. I was determined that Sage and Grace stay safe. If that meant giving up my life then so be it. I hated to think of it as that but if that's the case then yes, I would give up my life so my kids could have one. Don't get me wrong. I would love to be there to see them see and do things I never did. But I didn't have a childhood. I grew up quick. At their age I was chasing after them. I wanted them to stay small and innocent for as long as I could keep them.

"Where's Jake?" my mother asked.

"Are you going to hunt him down if I tell you?"

"Possibly."

"He's at this girl's house "tutoring."

"What happen to you?"

"I guess I suck."

Momma quirked an eyebrow at me, which made me want to look away. I hate it when she gives those looks. "Is somebody jealous?"

Yes. "No."

"Mmm-hmm."

"Fine. Yes, I'm jealous. But you don't know this girl. She knows Jake has a family and yet she still makes moves on him. Jake knows she's a slut. How can I not be jealous?"

Momma hugged me. "I know it's more than just that but you know Jacob loves you and the twins more than anything. Yes, he's got some making up to do but that doesn't change anything."

It in fact, mother dearest, does.

I stayed silent, thinking it over. Maybe I am just being stupid. I knew this move would be hard on Jacob. We knew what we were getting ourselves into. We wouldn't think our wants anymore. Sage and Grace's needs came first.

"I know it's hard on him to know what he did and not remember, but that's also not an excuse too. The moment he felt anypain he should have left." I said. "But then I also worry about how much he's going to bottle up before he blows. Grandpa said he couldn't hold the weight of the world on his shoulders anymore."

"He seems to be doing just fine to me-"

"But you know as well as I do he's going to keep thinking about this. Blah, blah, blah." I giggled.

Momma pulled me into a hug, "You know what would be nice?"

"Shoot."

"For you and Jake to have a weekend away so we can ruin your children."

I gave my mother a look. I knew she didn't look like your average baked cookies grandma. She didn't look past the age of twenty-one and you wouldn't see a gray hair on her head. She didn't look like a grandmother but yet she loved being one.

"Nessie? What? What's wrong?" Momma asked, worried as she saw my glazy expression.

"Nothing." I laughed. "It's just…you don't look even close to have grandchildren."

"I don't look old enough to have a daughter who goes by the age of twenty-six either."

I threw my head back and laughed as I took out the lasagna out of the oven. I sat it on the counter to cool while I went to fix the table. I saw Sage and Grace outside, playing with Daddy. It was well worth a sight.

"I think it's getting to cold for them…" I started.

"They have jackets on. Relax. Maybe you do need a weekend away."

That I do. But I let that go through one ear and out the other. There was no way I was leaving them again. I just got back.

Grace bounded into the kitchen, "Grandma, Sage-" she stopped and looked at me, "Oh. Nevermind."

I stopped her. "I think we need to have a chat, princess."