Chapter Ninety Three

The Major

Having decided to stay with Bella I now needed to find somewhere to hide where she would be safe which wasn't going to be easy. We couldn't stay here, not if Charlotte had given our whereabouts to Bella's father. We needed somewhere no one would associate with me. There was a place, a cabin in the mountains of Western Wyoming, the Wind River Mountains but it was extremely remote, not really the place for a human.

There was the possibility of sub freezing daytime and night temperatures even in the summer. Afternoon thunderstorms, with lightning and rain showers, weren't uncommon in the area and some of the peaks held snow all year. Still it was the safest place I could think of. I explained my thoughts to Bella,

"It must be your choice Bella but bear in mind this is the kind of life you will lead with me, always on the run and only safe in places that are at their mildest inhospitable for your kind."

"Then make me a vampire. It solves a lot of problems and as you made the decision to stay I have no choice. Or at least its the choice I make. My choice."

"Bella you have no idea what you are proposing."

"Yes I do and I trust you to show me how to live in your world. I want to be with you and I have no intention of being a hindrance, I want to be a full partner."

"Maybe later when you've had more time to think about it."

"No, now, before it's too late. The Volturi could turn up at any time and my best defense is my transformation."

"And what if it's your father who turns up? What if seeing him you change your mind?"

"I won't, I love you."

"Bella you have no idea what it means to be mated to a vampire."

"Then tell me, explain to me so I do understand. What is so terrible about it?"

"Terrible? Nothing but its not like your relationship with human boys or men. Vampires mate for life and in our case that is eternity."

"I understand that, I accept it after all would we be so attracted to each other if we didn't want to spend eternity together?"

I sighed, she wasn't going to make this easy,

"There's more. I have no idea about your sexual experiences Bella but with a vampire it becomes the most important thing in a relationship, it cements it, there is nothing as strong as a vampires desire for his or her mate."

She was blushing slightly now but still looked me in the eye.

"Would there be a problem with a vampire and a human having sex?"

"There could be, a mate usually marks their partner, that mark is a bite mark and biting you while you were human would automatically start the change in you, if I could stop myself from draining your blood that is."

She understood I was trying to frighten her and smiled shyly,

"I trust you Jasper and I'm pretty certain that a vampire wouldn't kill or harm his or her mate even if they were human. The only problem I see is if you don't think I am your mate."

I pulled her close breathing in her scent becoming certain I wasn't going to win this argument.

"I have no doubt about my feelings for you, I just don't want you walking into this without understanding everything, all the pitfalls. Don't forget your mate would be the most feared vampire in our world. You may see Jasper Whitlock but The Major is a real part of his make up now. You think you know vampires because you have been involved with the Cullens but believe me Bella they are not to be taken as a representation of my kind."

"I know they hunt animals not humans I that's what you mean."

"Carlisle is a pacifist, vampires in general don't give a damn about peace, they don't care who they kill, they see humans in the same way you see cattle or sheep."

"I don't care, I'm not going into this with my eyes shut Jasper but I love you and there is nothing you can say that will change that. If we stay together then it is as mates with all the dangers and problems that may carry with it."

She wound her arms around my neck standing on tiptoe to kiss me again then whispered in my ear,

"Show me what it means to love a vampire Jasper."

I could feel my body reacting to her words and the closeness of her body and felt the man in me urging me on. I wanted Bella naked in my arms, I wanted to kiss every inch of her perfect body, I wanted to feel myself wrapped within the warmth of her body and bring her such pleasure she would never forget or ever want another man. I tried hard to control my carnal urges but the closer she pushed herself against me the more my control slipped away until I couldn't have stopped if she had begged me.

Instead I picked her up and carried her back into the cellar laying her down gently on the wooden bed base kissing her all the time and feeling a mounting sense of urgency and heat. Fumbling with fastenings I finally undid her jeans and pulled her sweater over her head our lips parting only for the few seconds that took. As she slipped my tee shirt over my head and her warm hands touched my naked torso I felt my skin begin to burn and the heat traveled through my body, lighting every nerve ending as it did so.

I gasped and finding I was too impatient to feel her naked below me I ripped her remaining clothes off and gazed down on her beautiful soft warm feminine body the scent of her desire almost driving me wild. I kissed her neck as I found her wet and eager beneath my fingertips. With all the control left to me I slid inside her slowly and felt the hesitation before I broke through, so my sweet Bella had been a virgin. That excited me even further and I couldn't stop myself from thrusting deep inside her feeling her tense for just a second before crying out. My only self control now was fixed on not biting her, not marking her as mine, remembering she was a vulnerable human. I was surprised there was nothing of The Major in my head while I made love to Bella, only Jasper Whitlock the man.

Bella

I had no idea what to expect, only that Jasper wouldn't hurt me. I knew little about sex at least not in practice and lessons and talk could only get you so far so I was scared I would appear a silly inexperienced fool in his eyes but all I felt from him was warmth and tenderness, a feeling of being loved so deeply it could never end. The sharp pain as I felt him slide gently inside me was gone soon enough and I became wrapped up in the sensations that rippled through my body.

I held him tightly trying to draw him in deeper and deeper, feeling the coldness of his flesh inside my own. As the desire and pleasure peaked I heard myself cry out and he held me tight nuzzling my neck and whispering my name over and over. When he finally came and I felt a different coolness flood my body I clutched at his back feeling my nails scrape across hard vampire flesh and cried out again. Then suddenly he no longer felt so cold or hard and as he collapsed on top of me I wanted to melt into his flesh I felt so close, so connected, a way I had never felt before but I knew I would always feel with Jasper, my mate.