It didnt hit me until I was proof reading that this was the next to last chapter and then it's over with! Done! Dead! Ended! I won't be inside the mind of Nessie and Jake anymore-well not in this story plot. It's kind of sentimental because these were my first stories. I don't want to let them go! I think I'm going to need therapy. But while I'm going through the shock, you can be reading this chapter. And then I can find the time to finish up the last chapter.

You are enough. You are so enough. It is unbelievable how enough you are.

Love you guys!

Chapter 27

Nessie's point of view

I couldn't believe that I was pregnant again. I was worried about the seven year old difference between Addie and the twins. It was hard having two seven year olds and being pregnant. They were great though, as always.

Just being nine months pregnant sucks.

Don't get me wrong, I thank my lucky stars for being able to carry Addie, but that didn't mean it was any less dangerous. I'm due to give birth any day now and it may turn out that Jake, Grace, and Sage could lose me, Addie, or both. I could go into labor right now only to find out that I won't be able to give birth to her at all. I was excited to see my daughter yet I was terrified that my children and husband would lose me again. But that was the risk for every woman who carries a child. I risked it with the twins, I risked it with the baby Grace says we would have named Liam, and now I'm risking it with Addalay. It was just the way this world goes.

I opened my eyes, not able to sleep, and checked the time. Jacob was up so maybe we can have our early morning time together before the twins get up. I had to wiggle my nine month self up. At least I wasn't gigantic like I was with the twins but I was still a pretty decent size. I can't see my feet and Jacob has to help me with the clothes-including shoes, which I gave up on due to my baseball size feet. So I mostly went barefoot. With getting up I either have to have help, or wiggle up like I am doing now. If I told myself I was pregnant with the twins that I would go through two more pregnancies, Jacob would be getting a vasectomy.

I wrapped my robe around my body, rubbing my back. At least I wasn't going through this alone. Emily decided to join me on the pregnancy game, so we were both on high baby alert. Just with me I think our wait will be ending in the next day or so. Maybe even today.

I heard giggles from downstairs and smiled, thinking that we won't be having our alone morning time at all, when another contraction hit. I've been having Braxton Hicks for the past week or so but I've learned the difference between this and actual contractions. And I think this may be it.

I waddled down the stairs, rubbing my stomach as Addie stretched inside my belly. She was actually hurting me when she moved. It kind of scared me but I couldn't let that get to me. I'll just let Jacob know that this might be the day and then we'll let Grandpa know. No biggie…I hope.

I made it to the kitchen when I saw the twins on the counter, Jacob leaning on his elbows, with a thing of peanut better being passed between them. They were licking the spoons, which I thought was adorable. Looks like my craving have spread.

"And what are you two doing up at two o'clock in the morning?" I asked my angels.

"We couldn't sleep." Sage simply answered, shrugging.

I smoothed out his bed hair and kissed both of them. "Then why didn't you wake us up?"

"Well," Grace said after licking peanut butter off of her spoon, "we were but then we saw Daddy was already up. So now we're here-and he's telling us stories!"

I grabbed a spoon and got a scoop of peanut butter, smiling at my beautiful daughter. "Oh? And what stories?"

She smiled, swinging her legs back and forth. Sage rolled his eyes and Addie kicked. All three of my kids had completely different personalities. I thought it was a good thing because I wanted them to be their own person; but I think Jake and I are going to be in trouble.

"How you and Daddy met." She answered.

"What?! I mean, excuse me?"

I spun to my husband, glaring at him. He better not have spilled our whole love life just yet. They were way to young to know about that. I'm going to kill him. I'm in labor so he does not need to mess up. He seriously needs to start proceeding with caution from now until I beat his ass.

And if I wasn't in labor before, I definitely was now.

"So how come you two couldn't sleep?" I asked, trying to keep my voice steady. Do they know how I overreacted when I found out that Jacob was my imprinter?

"Bad dreams."

I kissed them both again and leaned against the counter between them, wrapping my arms around them and pulling them close to me, They put their heads on my shoulders and sighed, smiling. As much as I wish to take their dream away, I couldn't. I think every parent wishes that.

"I think those dream catchers are messing up." I said. Jake poked me, making the twins giggle. To me, it just made me aggravated. Yep. I was in labor. I already couldn't stand him.

Addie moved, feeling as if she was stretching. "Do you want to feel your little sister? She's awake." I asked Sage and Grace, rubbing my tight stomach.

Sage and Grace kissed my stomach. They knew too that any day-today most likely-they would be having a little sister. I was still worried they would think we would forget them. We would never! I guess we would really know when Addalay gets here.

"Why don't you two go pick us out a movie? Pretty soon we'll have to leave for Papa and Nana's."

Me and Jake helped them hop down and they ran into the living room. I watched as they went to our movie collection and started going over what to choose. They probably already know that today is the day.

Jake came from behind and wrapped his arms around my waist, putting his hands on my belly, and kissed my neck. "Is today the day?" he whispered.

I smiled slightly at him. "Happy early anniversary."

He spun me around. "Why didn't you tell me sooner? What are we still doing here?"

I laughed at my husband's panicked face. "We still have enough time to watch a movie with the twins. We still have to spend time with them." I said.

"We don't know that we have enough time!"

"We knew that my due date would be between Christmas and our anniversary. Do the math, genius."

"Please, humor me. Are-are you having contractions?"

I grabbed his face. "Will you relax, my love? Of course I am having contractions. It's just that they are-"

"Then what are we doing here?"

"Fine. I will call Grandpa just so you will shutup, leave me alone, and breathe."

~~~~~~ Forever ~~~~~~

I listened to my husband and called Grandpa. He wanted me over just in case something went wrong. Our original plan was going to be to leave the twins with Kaleb due to this was something neither of us wanted them to see, but the twins didn't want us to leave. So I kind of said screwed the doctors orders, I'm staying with my babies. It wasn't until my contractions became closer that I just said to bring them. I mean, they should be here with us, right? It was their little sister too. They were the older siblings. Of course they should leave before things really get hard, like when I'm throwing swear words like a sailor, or crushing the bones in their father's hand.

"Uno!" Grace shouted.

While waiting for Addalay, I spent time with the twins. It was something special I planned on doing since the begging of my pregnancy just to let them know that no matter what I will still love them. I tried to hide the pain of my contractions but it was getting close to the point where I let those few words slip from my mouth and ask Carlisle for some drugs.

"Grace, could you please not shout?" I asked, running my hands through my hair and pulled it back into a messy pony tail. It was too hot in here and I was miserable.

"Sorry, Momma. I'm just excited." She simply said, showing me an adorable smile.

I kissed her, rubbing my finger across her cheek, and smiled. "I know. The two of you are going to be an amazing big brother and sister."

Another contraction hit, a harder one, and I squeezed a pillow, biting back a sound of pain. The twins watched me die. They were terrified something else would take me away and I'm letting them watch me go through this? Something that could take me away from them?

"Momma?" Sage asked, touching my knee. "Are you okay?"

Not really. "I'm fine." I panted. "I'm-I'm just not feeling well right now. Do you two think we can put this game off for a little bit until I feel better? Oh, and can you do me a favor?"

"Sure." They said in their typical same fashion.

"Can you go get Daddy and Papa for me please?"

They nodded and ran off. I rested back against the pillows. Addalay really knew how to come in to this world. At least I don't really have to worry about getting a gift a gift for our anniversary because well…if he ask, all I have to do is give him his beautiful daughter. Plus I really forgot to get him one. But it didn't matter. We didn't really think about it anyway.

I got aggravated at the pillows for not being comfortable and grabbed one, throwing it. Needless to say, it hit Jake smack in the face as he rushed in. He just stopped there, starring at me, and then remembered what was happening, rushing to my side. If I wasn't in so much pain, I would laugh and call him a total idiot.

"Nessie, are you okay?" Jacob asked, taking my hand. It was a big mistake because I dug my nails into his palm. He did this to me.

"What's next, my dear? Something that is breakable-besides your husband." Carlisle chuckled, seeing Jacob squirm at my ever bone crushing grip.

"Just get her out of me, please." I said through grit teeth. "She's making her existence very well known."

"Well, of course she will. She is my daughter-" He shut up with one glare from me. "Okay. I'm shutting up. No more joking."

Grandpa finally gave me an epidural shot later on. I was so grateful for it because I felt nothing. I didn't mind Jacob being with me. I was a very nice person. My twins could visit with me more and we finished our game. I could move everything except move my legs. I was numb from the waist down.

I have no clue what possessed me into thinking I can have kids the natural way. With the twins I was just scared so I didn't care what I got, as long as I got them out. With Addie, I really wanted it to be a natural birth. I was even going for the whole home birth, with the midwife, and the water labor birth, and stuff like that. I even did my research until Grandpa told me the risk of this pregnancy would be worse than Liam and the twins' put together. So I would recommend an epidural.

"So I'm guessing it's helping some?" Jacob asked, kissing my forehead. "You're not calling me any extra names."

I knew he was so worried about me. We've cheated death so many time and I could make him a widower by something as natural as child birth.

"I feel nothing." I said. "I'm reading to pop this kiddo out."

Jacob smiled and dragged me closer to him, rubbing my belly to get Addie to tighten out of her little knot. "Remember when our twins would do that?" he asked.

I smiled, remember our angels as babies, and even when I was carrying them. We still had things to work out after the damage I did to us, but it would be nothing for Jacob to pull me close to him and rub my stomach, making the twins relax and give me relief.

"It doesn't seem that long ago and here we are seven years later." I mused. "Can you believe that in only two months they'll be eight?!"

Jacob kissed my lips, continuing to rub my tight stomach. "And here we are starting all over again." He chuckled.

I brought his lips to mine again and kissed him. I could feel his jaw clench and his skin tighten. I could feel the shake in his hands. I didn't know if it was because of Grace's shield or the damage of being bit again-and I was scared to really know. I didn't want to know about any of this. I wanted to be naïve and not know anything. I just wanted things to go back to normal as we were ever going to get.

"Get some sleep. I'm going to check and see what Sage and Grace have gotten into." He said, getting up.

"Why don't you go phase?" I suggested.

"What if something happens?"

I knew one thing that would make him relax-besides his children. I grabbed his arm and yanked him down on the bed, kissing him again. He relaxed. Glad to know I'm good for one thing.

I felt little Addalay kicked. I smiled, grabbing my husbands hand. "Do you feel her?" I asked.

He gave a big smile. I knew when it fully set in that he was worried but now he's ecstatic. Honestly, I think deep down he wanted another baby as much as I did. I love watching him with our kids. He's such an amazing father and I know he loves his kids to death, even when he isn't there all the time. Yes, it took me dying and losing our twins for him to fully realize the beauty of family, but I've learned it too. We both have.

"You know one thing that would make this better?" I asked.

He knew exactly what I was talking about. "Well, it's actually two; but I'm going to get them now."

I tried to get comfortable, feeling nothing but all natural bliss. The tears came afterwards-but they were good tears. (Contractions came too but I wasn't going to let that ruin our moment.) Our family was about to be complete. Addie was going to have to be tough to put up with us. I was glad people listened to me when I only said I wanted Jake, the twins, and Grandpa even seeing me. I know that was mean but I don't feel like hearing the phrase, "It will be okay" now. I don't want pats on the back or tears wiped away. I want things done. Those I can do myself.

And if my parents couldn't be here to see my baby born, nobody was. I missed my father so much-and I missed my mother even though she blamed us. Even though I hated her for blaming my babies for my father's death.

"Mommy?"

Damn. I didn't realize I broke out into a full sob.

I wiped away as much tears as I could and put on a smile, seeing my beautiful son and daughter. They looked concern as they ran up to me, hugging me tight. Somehow they know. They always know. When I'm missing my parents, or something else, they'll crawl in my lap and hug me. They'll try to make my day better even though theirs may be horrible.

"Why are you crying, Momma?" Sage asked, wiping my tears. My little man always has to take care of me.

"Sage, she's about to have a baby. She's been crying for nine months."

And there's my little comedian always trying to get a laugh out of anybody. "I love you two, you know that right?" I said, kissing them both.

I felt Jacob push back my hair. "So is Mommy okay?" he asked, giving me a knowing look.

I took his hand. "Yes, Mommy is okay."

Typical Grace huffed, scooting down to my stomach. "You seriously need to hurry up, Addie. You take forever." She said to my stomach. Me and Jake couldn't help but laugh.

"She's like you, Gracie. She likes to take her time." Sage joked to her sister. All Grace did was stick her tongue out at her brother.

I looked up at Jake. He saw my tear glazed eyes, he felt my panic and pain filled emotions, and he never told me that wretched phrase. The stuff we've been through, I'm sure he doesn't want to hear it too.

~~~~~~ Forever ~~~~~~

"Come on, Nessie. Breathe." I heard Jacob say.

He's not going through a hard labor! What happen to the epidural!?

"I would breathe but I can't!" I shouted. "Giving birth here."

Apparently, Addie didn't want to come. I don't know if this labor, or the twins, was worse. Giving birth isn't easy; and I was already exhausted. I get the sense of Grandpa was going to say I told you so. I know if Addie doesn't come out anytime soon he'll be forced to do another C-section.

After giving another hard push, I plopped back against Jacob. Even though I've been so mean to him, he's been my rock. We've did our research with this one so Jacob knew all the right positions not to aggravate me in. Between breathers he would hit the right spots to massage, tell me that I can do this, pull my hair out of the way. Now I know why I married him.

"Renesmee, on the next contraction I need you to give me another hard push." Grandpa said.

Dread hit me. I have to do this again?

"Just think of what the outcome will be, Ness. You can do this." Jacob whispered in my ear.

I closed my eyes and gripped for Jacob's hands again. I couldn't push any more. It feels like she's eating away at my stomach. I am way too weak for this. "I can't do this."

"You can. You've cheated death so many times so this should be easy. You've put up with me, so what's a hard labor." He said, making me laugh. "I'm right here if you need me."

Another contraction came and I pushed hard. Why couldn't I have just wimped out and had a C-section like Grandpa recommended I do? "Oh my God! When did this become hard?!" I panted.

"If she doesn't come out now, I'm doing a cesarean." Grandpa said.

I waited till the next one, letting Jacob pull hair out of my face. "You can scream if you want. I know you're in pain."

I was. I was in so much pain that he couldn't imagine it. I would love for him to go through this. "You know I hate that. I will not have my child hear my scream as the first thing she hears."

After one more push, I felt relief and exhaustion when I heard a slight cry. (And then the whole necessity of after the labor came but that's not as exciting as talking about my darling angel.) She's here! Addie was finally here! She's finally in our arms! We're finally holding our beautiful angel! She's so beautiful-

Something was wrong. She wasn't breathing. Why wasn't she breathing?!

"Grandpa?! Why isn't she breathing?! She's supposed to be breathing?!" I shouted.

Everything was a blur, even for my eyes. She-she was turning so blue…and she was so beautiful. We can't lose her! She's supposed to be our light at the end of a very dark tunnel! The twins were so excited-they already loved her! They can't lose her.

The minutes seemed like hours since Grandpa sped off with my child for some unknown reason that I didn't know of. Did he need help? I could have help! I am the mother! I am supposed to be the mother!

I was cleaned by Grandma and both Jacob and I tried to get answers out of her. She knew nothing. Partly because only Rose was to be allowed in with Addie and him. That gave me relief that he was going to try his hardest to save her.

"I'm going to tell Kaleb to bring the twins over here. I know they're probably worried." Jacob said.

I barely heard. I was too busy fighting to stay awake and focus my eyes on the door. He has to give me her. I have to have the twins. "Go. Go get them."

I felt him massaging my shoulders and then pushing me back. "Rest. Don't argue with me, Nessie Black."

"Damn you." I hissed as he sent Kaleb a text.

Next thing we hear is Grandpa's footsteps. I think both Jacob and I were sitting on the edge of the bed, ready to lunge to get Addie out of his arms. Tears filled my eyes as he came through that door, holding my little girl.

"I've got to say one thing about Addalay. She's a fighter." Carlisle said.

"Can we hold her?" Jacob said.

"Perks of being a great grandfather and your doctor. You get to be the first one to hold her." He joked at us, coming to sit on the side of the bed. "Addalay Melena Black, here are the parents I told you about."

I had to fight not to snatch her out of his arms. He even got to feed her first! After this me and him are going to have a long talk; but that doesn't matter. She's here, safe, and in our arms once again. She had more of my complexion with a head full of auburn hair. She gripped my finger tighter, looking up at me intently before closing her eyes and falling asleep.

"So what happen?" I asked. "Is she okay?"

"She's okay for now. I will like to watch her for a few days just to make sure her breathing is functioning properly."

"Is it anything long term?" Jake asked.

"Unless something else happens, no, I don't think so." He answered.

Jacob and I both relaxed, looking back down at our beautiful daughter, and smiled. Ten fingers, ten toes, already had us wrapped. The twins were going to be so in love with her-and she was going to love the twins too!

"You've had her long enough. Give her to me." Jacob said, reaching to grab Addie.

"Nah-uh. I'm the mother. I just got her!"

"But I'm the father! I need to hold her too! Besides, you're exhausted."

"So are you!"

"Well…"

"Hah!"

"Shutup."

I snuggled next to him in pride, pulling Addie to my chest. "Mommy always gets her way with Daddy." I said to my beautiful daughter.

I stared at her, waiting for my twins to come see her when I started getting so sleepy. Jacob kept nibbling on my hear, making me even more exhausted. I knew what he was doing but I was past the point of caring.

"Mmhmm…keep doing that." I mumbled.

"Oh, I will. I will have my baby girl in my arms." Jake's husky voice said in my ear. Even his voice was putting me to sleep.

"That's…that's cheating, Black."

"Gotta do what you gotta do, Black."

That's when I just shrugged and leaned my head on his shoulder, falling into a deep sleep.

I dreamed of that night again. I let the twins go in front of me. I let them go in front so they can survive; but while I fought Finn all I could think about was them. I was weak and Finn knew that. He punched me hard in the chest, stabbing his nails in my heart. He squeezed before releasing. And then boom…I was dying.

The twins' tears, Jake's tears, and Kaleb's tears were the last few things I felt. While I was slipping away one part of my brain was fighting for me to tell my las words a wishes, to soak up ever last moment, and ever last feature of their faces. The rest of me was cursing myself for letting this happen.

"Mommy?"

No…

"Mommy, wake up."

I felt a shake and my eyes popped open. I was dead, wasn't I? Why was I sore, in a comfortable bed with blankets wrapped around me, and with two different colored brown eyes staring down at me?

"Sage? Grace?"

"Uh…yes?" Sage asked, looking at me.

"We didn't do it!" my daughter yelled.

"Big mouth."

"Do what?" I asked, yawning. "Where's your father?"

"He's downstairs getting a bottle for Addalay. Oh, Momma, she's so beautiful!"

Addie…

Just then I heard footsteps come down the hall. I heard a sucking sound and my husband's voice. Soon he appeared in the doorway, holding a pink bundle in his arms. Our little Addalay…was she okay? Was she breathing okay? Did the twins know?

"Oh, good. You're awake." Jake said, sitting down on the bed. "Did you sleep good."

If he didn't have my baby in his arms I would so slap him. "You cheated."

"I told you I would get her from you."

"Yeah, and Daddy's being selfish." Sage said. "I haven't held her yet."

"Neither have I."

"Well, I'm the big brother."

"I'm older."

"By two minutes!"

"Who cares!"

"Sage, Grace, now is not the time to discuss it. Your daddy is going to give her up. Trust me." I said, giving them a wink.

"Sorry." Jacob said, smirking. "I'm feeding her."

I noticed not one but two things. One, she was the reason why I craved blood like a newborn. Poor Jake. Between my raging hormones and thirst, he's lucky to be alive. I wanted to kiss him one minute, drink him dry the next. The second thing was that Addie had her little hand wrapped around his finger as him and Sage smiled upon her. It reminded me of my Grace. My sweet, amazing Grace.

"You use to do that when you were a baby." I told my daughter, showing her the exact same image as what her sister was doing.

"I still do." She said, tossing her hair.

And she was proud of it.

"Okay, Black. You have two important kiddos who haven't gotten the chance to hold her." I said. I find it so strange that my husband is being less mature than my kids.

Jacob huffed. "Who wants her first?"

"Me!" they both shouted in union.

We both looked at each other. How are we going to choose this? Why did we have to have twins? Why did my husband have to be selfish and hog our baby while I was asleep? Why did this small of a moment have to be the hardest?

"Well, since I was with you while you were asleep, Momma, I think Sage should hold her first since he helped."

"Well, I think you should hold first, Gracie. It's okay. You're the one that wanted a sister."

I smiled, kissing them both. Grace was with me the whole time I was asleep? "That was sweet of both of you." I told them.

"Are you sure, Sage. You were with her more." Grace asked her brother, truly looking concerned.

"That's my point. You were the one that begged for a little sister and I know you'll give her to me if I asked. So here. I can wait." Sage said, gently taking his baby sister and putting her in his twin sister's arms. "It isn't fair that you were with Momma more while I was with her."

I helped Grace supported Addie's head but she wanted to hold her baby sister by herself. She did it like a pro. Grace beamed down at little Addalay. "Hi, Addie. I'm your big sister." She giggled. "I'm going to teach you so many things. Me, you, and Sage are going to have so much fun."

She bent down and kissed Addie's auburn hair as she slept with a full belly. Grace stayed with me while I was asleep? "That was very nice of you, Sage." I said, kissing my son. "Thank you both for taking such good care for me and your sister. You're the best older siblings ever."

Sage let Addie wrap her hand around his little finger. Yes, her big brother was wrapped too. Even though he won't admit it, I think he wanted another sister too. "She's the most beautiful baby I've ever seen, Momma!" he said smiling. "I hope you know, Addie, that in this family, we don't do normal."

I laughed at Sage's comment. It amazed me. They fell instantly into that older sibling role. They were glued onto Addie. Jake and I couldn't get one thing out of them. We decided to just let them have this moment with their sister. Jacob leaned next to me on the headboard as we watched our twins choo over and talk to Addie, ready to be of assistance if needed. But I don't think so. By Addie's big smile, she loved them too.

Jacob bent down and kissed me, whispering in my ear, "Thank you."

"For what?"

"For this. You were amazing giving birth to her. I couldn't have done it."

I smiled, sensing the emotion behind that look. He was so terrified at losing me again. He was all for me having a C-section again while I wanted a natural birth. Both were dangerous no matter what. He explained that it was the fact of losing me he feared. He's did it so many times that he didn't want to do it again. He couldn't handle it. I think he could. He has our children to help him.

"I couldn't have done it without your help and support."

"Wanna go for another one."

I glared at him, growling. The twins looked up from Addie curiously, whom they were both holding now. "Momma?" my Grace asked. "Why did you growl?"

"Nothing. It was just something your daddy said. Do you like being a big brother and sister?"

Jacob snickered and I slapped them as then twins nodded, answering, "It's the best!" together. There was to be no more happy time until one of us gets fixed. I might actually kill him this time if I get pregnant again. Although it will always be difficult for me to conceive, carry, and give birth, all my female parts are the same as any woman's. Just because I've stopped growing doesn't mean I couldn't stop having children. It just will always be difficult. I guess it was just a hybrid thing. But that doesn't mean we are having any more kids.

"You know we're going to need your help, right? Especially until your momma gets better." Jacob said.

"Was something wrong? Are you okay, Mommy?" the twins asked me.

We pulled our three angles closer to us, snuggling them to our bodies. "When Mommas give birth to babies, it takes a lot out of them." A lot out of them alright, but I am not scarring my kids for life. "So we have to take a day to rest up, and then pretty soon I'll be back to chasing after you two."

They giggled when I ticked them. "You two are so amazing." I said, kissing them. "And you too, Miss Addalay."

"Ah-hem." I heard a certain somebody say.

I laughed, kissing Jacob's Jake. "You're amazing too."

"Yeah, you're pretty cool yourself." Jake shrugged. I rolled my eyes. He can be such an ass sometimes. A sexy ass, but still an ass.

I looked at my youngest daughter and then to my son and oldest daughter. I had this perfect little family that I never wanted to let go.

"Welcome to the world, Addalay Melena Black."

Later that night as the babies slept, we marveled. Of course our big family came in and gushed over the new addition. Sage and Grace perched up with pride as they were being called such the amazing big brother and sister. It was the truth. They were amazing and already such a huge help. Where could we be without them?

There was just two people that we missing. My parents. The twins missed their grandfather and grandfather. Addie would never know them. I missed my father but I grew to hate my mother. I've tried to get in touch with her but she was a lost cause. Everybody says to give her time. I did give her time; but when you hurt my kids, I wipe my hands with you. You hurt them, you hurt me.

And today was the final stray. She missed me giving birth to her granddaughter. Sage and Grace asked me if their grandma still loved them. What was I suppose to tell them when she hasn't called in months? My heart has grown cold towards her.

"What are you thinking about?" Jacob whispered as he held our precious newborn in his arms while our beautiful twins were sacked out on my lap. It never gets old for them.

"Let me hold her now." I answered instead, motioning to Addie. He gave her to me but with a look. "What?"

"You're avoiding the question, Nessie. You've been crying all day."

"Well…let's see…I just had a baby. My emotions are going to be a little crazy." I answered with sarcasm.

"Sure, sure." He said. "You've been thinking about you're mother too."

He knows me so freaking well.

I projected to him my new thoughts on my mother. He sighed. He had no room to talk. He's making excuses to not talk to his dad. Our hands were tied and this room was filling up with water. We were so screwed.

"Let's make a new promise. From now on we worry about them. Their future, their needs. We worry about our family, not everybody else's. Just me, you, Grace, Sage, and Addalay."

I looked at my three, asleep angels. He was right. Our main focus needs to be on them. They were our reason for everything and we couldn't lose them again. Enough has happen already.

I smiled. "I like that very much."

"Sage is right. Grace didn't leave your side. Sage was terrified something was going to happen to Addie and you. He cornered Carlisle and quizzed him on everything that happened"

I brushed hair out of their faces. They were still terrified that something was going to happen to me. I don't blame them. What they saw no child should ever have to see, yet they were the ones that witnessed it. Watching me die has been stuck in their little minds and will forever be there.

Tears rolled down my face the same time I felt Jacob put his hand on my cheek to turn my face to his. "I…I can't lose you again, Nessie." He whispered, our noses touching.

"You won't. I won't die next time."

"That's a sick joke."

"It's the only one I've got right now."

Jacob stretched, making himself comfortable and took our Addie's hand. "So no more Mommy and Daddy time for a while I'm guessing."

"You touch me, you die."

"I'm touching you now."

"You know what I mean, Jacob Black. One of us is getting fixed."

He winced. "Let's not…nope. We're saving this conversation for another day."

I love how he avoids the question. "Then I guess that means sleeping in the guest bedroom or on the couch."

"Not talking about it, Renesmee."

"I'm sure my family would love to do it."

"Still not talking."

"Are you chicken?"

He raised up, his face beet red. He's so cute when he's embarrassed. "No! I…I just don't want to talk about it. We've got one baby. You're right. We should be happy with that. In a few years I'm sure you'll get the whole baby fever again and talk me into another one."

If I didn't have my baby in my hands I would slap him.

We were both tired but the twins but Addie and the twins were so comfortable that we couldn't lay down and wake them up. We bent down and kissed our son and daughters. Grace sighed, Sage rubbed his nose, and Addie yawned. They've all had a busy day. They were so beautiful and so perfect. We didn't deserve three amazing angels but we got them, and they were ours. They were our glue, our saving grace, our life, and we loved them so much.

"I've always wanted the world and now I've finally got it. It just took me long enough, and for something horrible to happen, to realize that. I love you so much, my beautiful wife." Jacob said, tilting my chin up to kiss me.

I giggled. "And I love you, my wonderful husband."

I kissed Sage, Grace, and Addie one more time. "And me and your daddy love the three of you so much. You are our worlds." I whispered to them.

My life hasn't been perfect. It wasn't meant to be. I didn't believe in fairy tales but my children did. I can never give them the traditional, normal life because we weren't that normal anyway. They know that and they still continued to smile. I never thought since becoming a mother I would learn a lot more from them than I would from anything else.

Life isn't perfect. It's hard. But in the end, like this one, it just made it a lot more sweeter. It was like a lemon drop. You have to suck on the bitter to get to the sweet and then you'll be there.