Before I fall too fast
Kiss me quick but make it last
So I can see how badly this will hurt me when you say goodbye

Arizona has not come for the lecture today as the doctor has asked her to take rest at least for next three days. It's just one morning that I have not seen her and already I'm as if going to have a panic attack. Since the class is over, I'm kind of free rest of the day. Right now I'm thinking about the pros and cons of visiting Arizona. I know that seeing me she will make a plain face and will tell me, "you do not need to come". Ehhh! I just cannot tolerate those plain expressions, however, I think, I equally love seeing her twinkling eyes behind that flat expressions. While thinking about all these I enter into my room.

"Hi, Dr. Torres." Neesha already is waiting for me.

"How can I help you?" I ask her while taking my seat opposite to.

"I'll be out of town for a week and we have an assignment due in that week. So, if I could submit this a week later."

"Please write an email to Ms. Robbins. She will take care of this."

I look at her with questioning eyes if she has anything else to ask.

"Thank you. And I have heard so much about Canada from Arizona...now you are from Canada too..."

This is a new piece of information which certainly interests me. Okay, let's dig a little about Arizona's trip to Canada.

"Oh, Arizona has been to Canada too?" I smile big while asking this innocent question.

"You don't know?"

"Not until now".

Arizona suddenly chimes in, "Neesha?"

"Hey, why are you here?" I ask in surprised but of course so happy seeing her. I quickly round the table and go near to her. "Are you feeling okay?" I ask holding her shoulders and instantly realize that Neesha is also there. I slowly pull back my hands but Arizona catches it halfway and holds it, which of course I start enjoying. The little touch from her is like electrifying- I can hold her hand like rest of my life.

"I was just missing yo… I mean classes." She lets go off my hand while putting her hands in her pocket.

"Classes…hah?" I cannot hide my smile even though I'm trying hard.

"I mean… okay… so, do you need something Neesha?" Arizona quickly changes the topic. I smile again and go back to my chair.

"I'm okay. We are talking about your Canada trip." Neesha replies smilingly.

Now I see Arizona's reaction. She is about to choke, "what?"

"She doesn't know that you went to Canada."

"Neesha, you have a class now. I guess, you are getting late." Arizona says in hurry and I'm actually enjoying this new scene.

"We still have time," Neesha replies after checking the watch and then again starts talking to me. "Arizona always talks about Canada and a woman she had met there..."

"Neesha!" Arizona almost yells, "this is very personal."

"I'm sorry... I thought since Dr. Torres is from Canada too, she may help you to find that woman you always talk about."

"A woman?" I cannot help but ask.

"She met her in Canada and since then she is…" Arizona does not let Neesha finish as she almost screams, "Neesha… just stop it…you are saying too much." Arizona's face is red like a tomato. I can see her high breath.

"Canada is a huge place. I don't think that I would know somebody whom Arizona met 4 years back." I say quietly.

"I'm sorry, Ari. Let's go. Thanks Dr. To..." Neesha does not complete the sentence. Rather she asks, "how do you know that she met that woman 4 years back."

Now I'm stuck. I never have realized how that information has just slipped out of me. "Umm..."

"You said that Neesha." Arizona tries to cover me up with a disgusted tone.

"Yeah...you told me." I support Arizona.

"Did I?" Neesha is little confused now.

Once both of them leave, I start thinking about what Neesha just has said. So, Arizona has been talking about me to Neesha. Now my heart says what I want to believe in, on the other hand, sometimes her behavior confuses me a lot. Maybe I just need to wait when she is ready- she is ready to accept her feelings for me-she is ready to give me a chance to make her the happiest girl on earth. I know that nobody, none in this whole world can love her as much as I love her.

I wake up from my lazy evening sleep with the annoying sound of phone. I have taken a local number after Arizona's little show over my date with the English Professor.

"Yes." I don't try to hide my annoyance.

"Happy birthday." A very chirpy Addison yells on my ear.

"Still 5 hours to go." I reply checking out the wall clock.

"In Canada, you already are born." Adi laughs.

"Not in France- it's still 5 hour to go for my birthday. But, thanks."

"So, what's the plan for tomorrow? Rooting for any birthday sex?" She teases me.

"Ughhh! Stop Adi." I too start laughing.

"Did you propose Arizona?"

"Propose?"

"I'm asking when are you going to propose her?" Adi sounds to be quite serious now.

"Adi, I didn't go on a date with her yet and you are asking to propose her?"

"See, you love her and she loves you. So, those dating things don't work for you."

"How do you know that she loves me?"

"The things you have been telling about Arizona to me, if those are true, she is in love with you. You know that too."

"Adi, I don't know. She has to tell me on my face." I feel agitated but before we go on with the conversation, someone knocks at my door.

"Adi, I will call you later. There is someone."

"Someone?"

"Goodnight and thanks for the wish." I drop the phone while walking towards the door. God knows who has come to disturb me at this hour of evening. As I open my door, I find a very nervous Arizona standing there. But, from her body motion, I notice as if she is about to turn and leave.

"Are you leaving?" I quickly say.

"Umm…I thought you might not be at home." She says while facing me.

"I was on phone." I don't get why she is at my door at the hour of evening. "Do you need something?"

"Let's go for ice cream." Arizona blurts out. "Remember, I asked you other day?" She nervously adds.

"I didn't say yes, I remember." I smirk and I know how smug I look right now but if Arizona is standing at my door asking me for ice cream, then I have a reason to feel good.

"Okay." Arizona starts turning to leave.

Oh gosh, this girl would never change. I even don't have time to play with her. "I didn't say no too." Now she again turns and smiles lightly, "so, dress up then."

On the top deck, right now it's like a déjàvo. Again, Arizona, now a grown up and mature girl is standing beside me. The moon has a wonderful reflection on the waves and only we two are standing on the deck. I feel like what I have felt years back on the cruise of thousands islands. It's so scary. I cannot do it again. I feel slowly she holds my left hand with her right and laces her fingers with mine. These electrifying feelings, I never had with anybody. I quickly turn to leave unlacing our fingers, unexpectedly Arizona stops me griping my wrist and pulls me towards her. Now I have no reason to stop

This is the moment, when I'm pressed against her, reminds me how much I have been craving for her. I'm literally on fire that every fiber of my body can feel her. There is no going back now. I cup Arizona's face with both of my hands and instantly I feel how nervous I'm and she is too. I look at her eyes in search of any disapproval, but all I see is the same insane eagerness to taste each other. I gently press my lips on hers. Immediately she loops her hands around my neck pressing her lips little more on mine. This is a type of kiss when you end up giving yourself completely to the other person. This is the gentlest kiss I have ever had in my life but the one which tells me if I don't get to do this every day of my life, this is not worthy to live. It's not worthy to live without Arizona who has submitted herself completely, today. As she pulls up a little, I end our kiss while nibbling her bottom lip just a little and breathe out almost unconsciously, "I love you..." Arizona instantly bolts out, "what did you say?" she is still snaking around my neck. There is no going back for me. I even don't want to. I go a little closer to her holding her waist tightly. "I said..." I give a quick peck on her lips, "I love you". Another kiss. Unexpectedly Arizona quietly removes herself from me. "You don't love me." she sighs. "What?" I'm so perplexed seeing her this plain expression. She may not love me but the way she has been behaving so far, I know she has feelings for me. "I fell for you four years back and now you are telling me that I don't love you?" "You have only loved the idea of me." Arizona moves a little far, as if gathering enough strength to tell me all these. "You have known me only few days and that is not enough to fall in love. You only love the idea of me." "Arizona, why did you kiss me?" I take a step forward to see her eyes which are twinkling in this shadowy darkness too. "Kissing and loving are not same." I quickly cross the next two steps to grab her face and on an instant I pull her into a heated kiss. Instead of resisting me, she entangles her fingers in my hair while deepening the kiss. Getting encouragement I invest my whole self in this moment. After few seconds I break the most insane moment of my or our lives. "Kissing and loving are not same- true but what is happening right now, this is nothing but love." I say in a cold tone while stepping backward. Arizona remains quite. "What are you so afraid of?" "I'm not afraid of," she replies looking at the water, then she backs me holding the rail of the deck. "Arizona, I'm madly in love with you. I know you are very young and maybe not ready for any commitment but I'm here. I'm here to see how the life would look to be with you." Not getting any reply from her I go near to her. I take one step closer and hug her from her back. Instantly I feel that her body relaxes against mine. This seems so regular and normal right now as if I always have hugged her like this. "Callie?" "Hmmm" "You are vibrant, energetic but not my type. I'm sorry." I slowly unlocks my hands to let her go from the hug. There is nothing that I could do right now. If she loves me, she would tell me this by herself. Otherwise, I'll just leave France after my tenure. "Arizona, I really don't understand your this strange behavior but enough is enough." I turn to leave the deck leaving her behind. Suddenly she grabs my wrist making me stop, "but I'm insanely attracted to you." I think, in this moment my heart stops beating for couple of seconds. Maybe I should keep quiet for the time being. She starts again but her eyes remains on our laced hands, "I don't know if we could be anything together. You are so tempered and I'm so opinionated. We will be so bad together, aren't we?" I feel so confused right now. What is she asking me to do? "So, you are attracted to me but not in love, is this you are trying to say?" "Yes. I even like your madness and kiddish behavior but those sometimes piss me off too." Then she looks up. "Date me." "Date?" "But no commitment from either of us." "So, we can date other people too?" "You want to date other people?" Now out of nowhere I see a slight hit of jealousy. This absolutely intolerable now. I cannot let it happen. "No." I get rid of her grip and take a step back. "What no?" "I don't want to date you." it takes all my strength to utter these few words. "But, you just have said that you love me." "I do. I do love you... A lot. But, I cannot play this 'no commitment' dates with you- with the girl I want commitment." "I cannot give you that." Arizona says in a cold voice. "Arizona, now listen to me. If you love me, you will tell me that. AND I want commitment. Otherwise, don't try to make things critical. As long as I'm here we will have that professional relationship and we will not interfere in to each other's lives." Arizona keeps quite. I come down from the deck on a windy road to walk towards home. I have always believed that if you really want something with every beat of your heart, it will happen but if it does not happen then it is not meant for you.

A/N: folks, something is going to happen in next chapter. I will try to upload quickly, if I can. By the way, let me know if you have any ideas about their being together, or any plot twist.