A/N: I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas day today. Merry Christmas!
"And all my soul needs is all Your love
To cover me, so all the world will see
That I have nothing without You"
Chapter 23
Callie, you are a dumbass that you believed in that girl- she will never be yours, I murmur to myself. I disconnected the call right away. It was not possible to control my raising temper anymore. Then I see my phone buzzes again. I slide the disconnect button. I don't think that I'm in a state of mood to do it anymore. Then a message pops up on the screen, "Okay… goodnight. Since you don't want to talk right now. I'm okay with that. But, please send someone at the airport to pick me up."- Arizona
I'm totally dumbfounded right now. What the hell is she talking about? Before I can gather myself, another message comes in, "if you are not interested then, I have to find another 10 years older to take care of me when I'm in Canada. I only worry if she is not as hot you are! :(" - Arizona
That's enough.
She picks up the my call even before the first ring finishes.
"You are coming?" I ask her. Shock would be so less right now to describe my expression.
"Maybe." She starts sipping in her favorite drink Cockta. I can hear the loud sound of sipping through the straw. She is teasing me, for sure.
"Why didn't you tell me?" I feel like a dumb now.
"I was about to say, but then you asked me." She makes an innocent face.
"Then you said all those bullshit to me." I'm getting angrier now.
"Because you started that first… bullshit." She starts eating a chocolate bar in a way, as if she is enjoying my raising temper. Seeing her relaxed face in the video, I get more frustrated.
"How did I?"
"Because you asked me to go to Canada for graduate study."
"I was trying to give you a valid reason."
"That was a bullshit, Callie Torres. Stop being a Professor to me. I'm not your student." Arizona looks at the screen and snaps at me for the first time. "You are my only valid reason to go to Canada. I wanted you to ask me to visit you, which you never did. And when you finally did, you created a silly reason."
I don't know how to reply this. She is becoming what I always want her to be- making me the top priority, telling me things what could give me life, give me a reason to lead that life.
"I thought you wanted to go to grad school to Canada. I remember you mentioning this to me." I say defensively.
"Whenever, I said so, the only reason was you. Canada is nothing special to me, if you are not there." Arizona spills this slowly, taking time to utter each of the words.
"Is this why you were teasing me?" My anger melts away in the air.
"Yes and No. I wanted to see what you do."
"What did you see?"
"Predictable Callie- temper overrides her feelings."
"I had good reason to be angry."
"Sometimes I feel how we will work. You are so tempered and I'm so opinionated." Arizona comments putting her face on the palm of her left hand tilting her head sideway.
"Well, you will learn to tolerate my temper and I'll learn to bear your opinions." I say smiling. "But, you chose me."
"I didn't choose you. You just happened to me. I guess, I was just destined to be stuck with you." Arizona finishes the line with a pseudo dramatic sigh.
"Same here. Now stop being quirky and give me the details of your flights."
I go to bed with a smile on my face tonight. Suddenly, life seems to be what one can desire it to be. Just two more days. Arizona will be here- in my arms- in my bed. Well, about the bed thing, I'm not sure yet, although my body starts aching with the thought of having her here. Just thinking about Arizona can turn me on, the way I never have been in my life. I never have known that I could crave for someone like this. This is one of those feelings, where you go crazy out of want, desire and longing.
The flight has landed two hours back and still Arizona has not come out from the immigration area. Toronto International Airport may have the slowest immigration in the whole world.
"Stop, looking at your watch! You have been looking at that for every two minutes…" Addison advises patting my back.
"I cannot wait to see her." I reply restless. "I could not sleep whole last night."
"Awww…I didn't know that you are sexually that frustrated." Addison teases me.
"it's not about sex."
"So, you don't want sex."
"No…I don't want…" I snort.
"Then what are you going to do? I didn't know that lesbian relationships are platonic"
"Adi, I will kill you now…" Then I see her. She is coming to the arrival gate looking here and there, little lost. She has that typical confused face and blue eyes are full of securities- the way I discovered her years back. They remind me very much of our first meeting years back, as if that same girl has come back to my life. She is wearing a loose black hoody and a baseball cap making her looking like an 18 years teen. I notice that there is written 'McAwesome' on the chest of her hoody. I laugh a little at the phrase. Before I can wave at her, she sees me because suddenly I see how she smiles softly with all sorts of assurance. She walks directly to me and stops just two steps away from me.
I have imagined whole night that how I will hug her tightly or jump on her or pull her in a hungry kiss. But, once she is just in front of me, all I do is to looking at her. I'm feeling shy and out of words, which is never me. Arizona shifts her legs looking at me little confused as well as waiting for some sort of move, then she asks, "how are you?"
"Is this the one?" Addison whispers on my ear bringing me to reality.
"I'm good. You?" I take a step closer and she comes little forward too. But, we behave as if we don't know each other.
"I'm… good." She replies in an undertone. Arizona certainly has not expected this behavior from me. The way I'm, for obvious reasons, I'm supposed to jump on her. However, now I am like in an illusion- I cannot believe that she traveled half of the world just because of me. Addison steps in, "hey, I'm Addison. Callie's best friend. I hope you had a good flight." She takes her luggage cart and starts walking towards the gate, whispering in my ear in a stern voice, "what the hell are you doing? Hug her, stupid woman."
Once Addison walks by, I take one step filling in her personal space taking her in my arms- in a bear hug. Immediately, I feel how body starts shaking out of sobbing. "Hey, what happened?" I ask rubbing her back slowly up and down. Then, she gives me a hard punch on my arms, "why did you take so much of time hugging me?" She demands.
"Ouuch! Already you are abusive to me…" I make face pulling out of the hug.
"You deserve that." Arizona gives me one more slap on my arm.
"I was trying to digest the feeling that you really came." I say tucking one of her strands of hair back to her ear, then gently wipe her rolling tears. I give a gentle kiss on her forehead. Arizona closes her eyes smiling, "one more." Then I kiss on her nose. She smiles a little more, "one more."
I stop inches away from her lips, she can feel me on her lips. I just slightly brush them with my index finger. Arizona opens her eyes as I don't go for the kiss and there is a question mark. I give my best smile, "I'm saving the best for later," whispering on her lips. She doesn't say anything but just embrace me with all warmth.
"Welcome to Canada, again," I pull off from the hug. I take her hand, "let's go." She looks at my hand for a while before giving her hand to mine, then she smiles the fullest popping both her dimples.
This is the same place, where she left me breaking me into pieces and this is the same place where she has come back to put all the pieces together.
Life is strange. Some of our greatest pains become our greatest happiness!
