A/N: Hi wilderness, this chapter is only for YOU. I really don't like when you are sad or down. So, this is what I could do at the moment. Are you smiling though? A little, okay?

Nicole: You even wouldn't believe that how much I laughed reading your comment that my story increased your age by 10 years. it was hilarious… but I see that you have liked it so far. BUT, please there is absolutely no need to hate Zoie. The problem is between Callie and Arizona. And welcome to the story.

ANGRY READERS: When I don't reply the private messages, there is a reason. Otherwise, I always do, even if I'm late.

The ONE supporting reader: I love you.

Don't you ever say I just walked away

I will always want you

I can't live a lie, running for my life

I will always want you

Chapter 33

As I'm sitting beside Arizona occasionally sipping into my diet Pepsi, suddenly I realize the Arizona has grabbed my right hand with her left. The palm of her hand is warm, soft and giving. She laces all her fingers against mine and keeps them on my thigh. Arizona is never like this. I have never seen her to express any kind of display of affection, let alone we are in a public area. As I try to take it away, she holds my hand with all her strength. After few seconds of wrestling, she turns towards me and says in a non-audible voice, "I want to hold you." I can see only sincerity in her eyes and there is no way that I can say no to her. I just nod and let her keep my hands in hers. I too feel good to have her being like this- all craving for me. Secretly, I always want her to show more affection towards me. Underneath the table, I feel how she starts playing with my fingers, palm, top of the hand. It's like just giving a sense of security, letting me know how much she loves me.

After dinner, as I and Zoie walk together, Zoie suddenly asks me, "when are you planning to come out?"

"What?" My heart jumps towards my throats.

"Coming out with Arizona, I mean." Zoie says equally calm voice.

"You knew." Shocked would be a little word to describe my feelings.

"Hot stuff, do you know how you two people look at each other? I have never seen anyone having so much to say to each other only through the eyes."

"I mean…"

"I mean, the tension between you two are always there even if you don't do anything. Anyone would know it immediately."

"Ok." I don't know what else I could reply.

"And I saw your hand-sex under the table also." Zoie wiggles her eye brows bouncily.

"Hah? Hand sex?" I cannot stop the chuckles comes out with it.

"Yes, of course that could be called hand-sex." She adds pointing her index finger towards herself, "coined by the famous Zoie."

"Yes… I see that." my tight feelings start loosening up.

"Now on a serious note… you guys should be just be yourselves. This is not healthy. So far, I have seen that girl, she has serious problem of keeping things to herself, instead of venting it out." Zoie nods her head in concern.

"I know… but you know too that my dad is running for the cabinet meeting."

Then Zoie just twirls towards me and stops me by holding my shoulders, "Callie, stop living a life for others. I know what our dads are running for what. This is a never-ending process. Learn to say NO. You are making things very complicated for you two."

I look back to her almost gratefully for saying those words to me. I nod my head and say, "you are right, I guess."

She gives me the warmest smile, I have ever seen. "I know I'm right, because I'm awesome." Zoie moves her head in such a way that the curls bump a little making her too cute.

"Yes, you are!"

"I guess, we can go, if you are done with your pillow talk." Arizona slowly walks towards us.

"You got a total bitch in your pants, you know that?" Zoie winks at me puling out her hands from my shoulders.

"I love that bitch and I can leave all other hot humans for that bitch." I reply playfully.

"Probably, I too need to find a bitch, so that I can leave all other sexy humans for that one." Zoie says in all seriousness.

"Can we talk?" I ask wrapping Arizona from behind resting my chin on her left shoulder. She leans a little on me putting her body weight on me- she seems to be little relaxed now. Then she says, "no!"

"Why no?" I ask little annoyed.

"I don't want to end up in fighting with you. I just want to live the moment right now." Saying this she turns in the loop of my hands and starts unbuttoning my shirt. But, I quickly grab her hands, "no… Arizona."

"Why? Now don't you like to have sex with me?"

"No! we need to talk. You seem to be so out of the place."

"I'm okay. Just let's go to bed." Arizona starts walking towards the bed leaving me.

"Arizona," I call loudly from her back. "You would not go anywhere without talking to me. Did you travel from France to Canada to behave like this? I feel like, I even don't know you."

"Yes… you don't know me, because your little obsession towards me is gone. Isn't it, Dr. Torres?"

"Arizona?" I cannot believe that she actually has uttered those words. For this girl, I did everything I could do, so that we could have a life together. Now, finally when we are together, she is accusing me like this.

"Yes, true… I never had a family. I never had anyone whom I could call my family and I started thinking that you were my family." She is at the verge of breaking into tears.

"You are my family too Arizona. We don't need any legal stamp on that to call each other family."

"Really?"

"Do you doubt it?"

"Tomorrow is grad day."

"Yes, so?" I have started becoming very impatient by now. I really don't get, what she is trying to say.

"And you asked Zoie to go with you." Now her tears are rolling down to her cheeks. I cannot see her like this. I don't think, it is possible for me to be angry at her if she has these big drops of tears coming out of her eyes.

"And she said NO. She has somewhere else to go. And this is not a date or something. You know, she knows about us." I add the last part cupping her cheeks.

"Callie, it's never about Zoie. It's about you. you have started behaving distant. She never came in between us, but you are coming in between us." Arizona backs off a little to sit on the nearest chair.

"What do you want me to do?" I ask her folding my hands. I'm tired of doing all these.

"Take me with you tomorrow to the grad day." She replies locking her eyes onto mine.

"Arizona, no one knows about us. It was you who wanted this."

"Now I don't want this anymore. Just tell everyone that we are together." Arizona says in a monotonic tone.

"I have no problem doing that, but there is a way of doing everything. I just cannot do this like this." I shake my head side to side.

"NO, I want it right away, right now."

"I'm the faculty of this university. I'm not a damn student only that nobody would care if I do anything out of the blue." I say her suppressing my fuming anger.

"Okay…" Arizona picks up her jacket and purse and heads towards the door.

"Where are you going?"

"To my apartment." She unlocks the door.

"Arizona… there is freezing rain outside and you have to change two buses to go home at this hour."

"I don't care."

"You have asthma. You don't dare to step out of this door." I warn her.

"Guess what? I'm leaving." And she just steps out.

This is the very first time ever that I prefer not running after her. I don't know why she is so much eager to ruin everything between us. But, if she is ready to be with me right now, I'm ready too. When that stupid girl will ever understand my feelings for her! Probably never.

A/N: Nowadays, my nerdy girlfriend is off to a sports tour and I miss her like hell. I even don't remember, if I have ever learned going on without her. It's quicker than my imagination- all consuming than my anticipation! Isn't it strange how some people just happen to our lives, as if they were always meant to be and they consume you before you even know it?

AND DON'T WORRY, THEY'LL BE TOGETHER SOOOOOOON!