A/N: I apologize for being late. I have been too busy lately. Happy belated Valentine's love to all of you!

"Oceans apart day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you"

Chapter 34

On waking up in the morning, the first thing I remember is Arizona's angry and frustrated face. I really can take anything, but not her anger towards me. Again, somehow, I'm unable to approach her, maybe first time ever, I'm hesitating of calling her. So , instead of her, I end up calling Zoie. At least, I would know how Arizona is doing.

"Hi! So, how could I'm so lucky to be called at this early hours?" Zoie asks in her usual happy self.

"How is Arizona?" I ask her quickly.

"So, that's the reason? But, she was with you." She asks yawning.

"We had a fight and she left." I inform her in a low voice.

"Uff! You guys fight like kids. I don't know… I haven't seen her. She must be in her room. Do you want me to check on her?"

"No…that's okay." I say hesitantly. It seems like asking too much from Zoie. She doesn't owe anything to me. "Callie, why don't you come over to my place. I will be out of the apartment within next half an hour. So…." She starts giggling on the phone.

"Zoie…" I know why she is giggling so much.

"You know…. Right…angry sex." I can imagine her playful face even from this side of the phone too.

"Stop it…I just wanted to know if she was okay."

"So…you aren't coming?" Zoie somehow asks out of her fit of laughter.

"I'll see." I reply little flat.

"But, I don't want to see any strains anywhere in my apartment…. Do whatever you wanna do in her bedroom…okay?" She starts chuckling again.

"I'm dropping…" I quickly disconnect the phone before she does anymore teasing on me.

I shove the plate to her, "eat this and I want you to finish all of these."

I have come to visit her before going to the university and found she has caught a severe cold. I knew this. Arizona always have problems of cold and asthma.

"No…eww…I hate broccoli soup. I won't eat them." She shoves the bowl back to me. Then, I round the kitchen counter and sit next to her. "Arizona, open your mouth." I give her another 'open your mouth' glare. As she opens and I push the spoon of soup in her mouth. She swallows that locking eyes with me. I try to ignore that stare for next few minutes. I'm still upset at her. But, that look she is giving me is something, I never could ignore. So much she says only through her eyes and somehow I immediately I know what she is feeling. And I know that she can read my eyes too.

Once she is settled down in her bed, I pull the quilt up to her body, "okay, you have food cooked in the freezer for next two days. You just have to warm them up." She doesn't reply except giving me few of the guilty glances. Once I'm about to leave her bedside, she clasps my wrist and pulls me a little near to her, "I'm sorry! I should not have said all those to you. But, you need to understand me too."

"Arizona, you need to understand me too and if I remind you that it was you who wanted to go through all these." I add the last part looking away fighting the tears back to my eyes.

"Going through all these doesn't mean that I would want to see you with other people." Arizona says in a hoarse voice.

"Just stop it. I told you there is no one."

"Calliope, are you upset because I was pushing you?" She brushes the top of my hand with her thumb. The warmness this one touch gives me, I do not think that I could ever have them anywhere else. "I feel that I'm becoming the less important part of your life. Of course, you will have many friends down the line, I need to know that if I'm making the top in your list." Saying this she starts kissing the tips of my fingers- one at a time- slowly locking her eyes on me. Then, she laces her fingers with mine and pulls me little near making me sitting next to her. Once I'm seated, she shoves away the bangs from my forehead, "I miss seeing those irresistible passion you had for me. You think that I'm a baby, but I'm not. I see how your demeanor changes when Zoie is there. So, is this because she is mature and I'm not?"

"Arizona, I thought that we have moved past to all these insecurities. But, I see, it is not the case. So, I guess we need to work on that." I try to stand from the bed, but she keeps a hold on me. I feel how her body is tensed

"So what do you want? You'll go out with anyone and I wouldn't care? I guess I too need to see other people so that you feel that same what I have been feeling lately." Arizona says in her typical flat tone. I know that she is trying to hurt me.

"You know what? You are not you anymore." Even though I have been trying to play a mature role, which is totally not me, I sense that I cannot do this anymore.

"Let me show you what I'm." Arizona starts kissing my neck with her leftover energy. I can feel her warm breath and skin. She still has temperature. "Arizona…what is this? Why are you behaving this weird?" I gently try to push her away. But, the more I have been trying the more she is forcing herself on mine. One of her hands has already started ripping off my shirt. However, this time I shove away her forcefully.

"Aren't I your kiddo anymore?" She asks me softly while still catching up her breathing. I unlock our joined hands, "Arizona, I don't know… I'm not sure about anything now!" I see the instant pain in her eyes, but I cannot help it now. The way she has hurt me, I too want to hurt her. I too want to see her suffering from my words. So, I end up saying, "you are right! We need to see other people…and you are right that you are immature!" saying this I instantly bolt out from the bed and start walking towards the door not looking back to her even once.

It's evening and the morning conversation with Arizona is still reeling in my head. I really went little overboard. She was sick and I should not have pushed her away the way I did. Once the party starts I just grab a glass of juice and stand in a corner with a group of old Professors. Sometimes, it's safe to join their boring conversations too.

"So, Dr. Torres, are you enjoying the new project?" Dr. Haugger asks me casually sipping into her wine. Ohh! These people. Who talks about research projects in a grad party? Anyways, I'm almost habituated with this. So, I casually answer her, "yeah! It's great and exciting. I'm pretty excited about the anticipated result." I continue with my fake enthusiasm. Once the conversation starts, out of the blue I feel that I have just seen Arizona. But, there are too many students in the center hall to find out my girl. I know she is not doing well. I quickly walk towards the gathering to find if she really has come. Then I see her.

Arizona is standing at the corner of the bar with a girl. I have never seen this girl. She must be her new friend. I feel little relaxed seeing her making friends. As I try to initiate going back, Arizona notices me and starts walking towards me with a laze smile playing in the corner of her lips. There must be something in her sleeves. Otherwise, after the morning fiasco between us, if I have known her even a bit too, she would not have even looked at me. But, here I see how her eyes are twinkling.

"Hey, Dr. Torres…nice seeing you." Arizona asks me so causally that I feel a lump in my throat.

"What's this Zona?"

"Nothing…" She smiles again before continuing, "so, here I'm… you think that we need to see you people…" Arizona chuckles a bit.

"Forget about morning… we'll talk about this later." I take a turn on my heel, but I stop when she continues, "I'm ready to see new people… I even have bagged one within this short time. You really underestimate my abilities." She ends with a super sarcastic tone. As I turn back to her, I see how her eyes are burning. There is so much of anger in them. Arizona takes a step closer to me and hisses on my ear, "every time I come near to you, you push me away… now I have her. I'll kiss her lips, not yours…I'll rip off her clothes….not yours…" By this time, I'm totally bombed down. I cannot even feel where I'm standing. I feel that my both feet are so heavy. She continues after taking a short pause, "I'll see if she too turns on when I kiss her necks, the way you used to." Her hot breathes are washing away my ear and her husky voice makes it sure that I get the point. Arizona stands straight in front of me, "Calliope, I would like to see how you feel when I'll be busy in tasting other people. Will you like that?" Saying this, she starts walking back leaving me standing there.

I know that all she is doing just to hurt me, but sometimes when we are insanely in love with somebody, our rational self stops working. Those insane feelings override our brain. I know that she would never do what she has just warned me to do…but somehow I start feeling senseless rage towards her. At this moment, nothing matters except hurting her back, the way she has hurt me. At this moment, I can sleep with anybody present in this room just to hurt her. "Arizona, the game you just have started, I'll play that, but in my way." I start backing off from the center hall with a mind full of rage, frustration and intolerable pain.

A/N: Trust me, you should never do what Callie and Arizona are doing. You'll end up losing everything. If your relationship is strong enough, it'll survive even there is 7,138 miles distance in between...even if there are couple of unwanted people in between...

But, tell me… how was the chapter? I had a real hard time writing this…