Ok for those who have been waiting forever for this I'm sorry I take so long, but since now that I am a senior in high school its been really hectic especially Art 2 and precalculus :( I've been trying to get this done these last 2 weeks and I finally did!
Also for those of you who read my other fanfic Troublesome Love just know that I have already started on the next chapter and will have it done in the next 1 or 2 weeks depending if I manage not to break down because of Art 2 and precalculus and also my art projects.
Well! Until next time!
Chapter Song: Anna Blue- Silent Scream
Emiko P.O.V
I gave the Hokage a small smile in return. "...But, because of the council, they will find your appearance here suspicious and while I somewhat believe you, I'm not completely sure I can trust you to not have any ill intentions towards Naruto or the village so I will have to have ANBU watch you. Also if you end up finding out anything about you eyes I want you to come and tell me about it immediately" He said as he looked at me with a hard stare. I nodded at him and said, "Of course and I understand completely as I entirely believe that trust should not be given so foolishly, trust should be earned." He nodded at me and then I said, ¨Would it alright if I visited Naruto at the hospital?¨
"Yes. Tora, please take Emiko to the hospital." Immediately an ANBU jumped out with a tiger mask and said, "As you wish Hokage-sama." He quickly picked me up and then jumped out of the window and started jumping from the rooftops. My eye twitched in annoyance, 'If I end up being carried excessively because of my small body it will get old very fast.' I wordlessly suffered throughout the trip towards the hospital which wasn't very far. We soundlessly landed in front of the hospital and then jumped out of sight, well he jumped out of plain sight since because of my eyes I could still see their aura from where they were and as I stepped inside the hospital I could sense the aura following me.
I internally shrugged and then I walked towards the front desk which was at least eye level. I waited patiently for the receptionist to notice me, finally she seemed to notice my head poking out from the front of her desk. She looked towards me and gave me a smile and said, "Oh hello sweetly can I help you with anything?" I gave her a blank stare and said, "I'm here to see Naruto Uzumaki can you tell me what room he's in?" Immediately she got a dark look in her eyes the second she heard the name and even her emotions changed to anger and hatred. I glared at her and thought with disdain, 'So she's one of the people who dislike Naruto because of the Kyuubi.' Before the receptionist could say anything about him I made her feel a bit of fear and gave her a wide fake smile and said, "What room is Naruto Uzumaki in?" I tilted my head in question as she then stuttered out, "Room 10." I stopped smiling as I turned away and said, "Thank you miss."
I walked down the hallway until I finally got to room 10 and I softly knocked on the door and opened it to see Naruto lying on the bed with his leg all wrapped up and he turned to me startled. I gave him a soft smile as I closed the door being me to walk towards his bed. "Hey Naruto, how're you doing?" He fidgeted nervously for a second before he shyly said, "I feel better nee-san, by the way nee-san what's your name?" He looked up at me with big cobalt blue eyes with a hopeful gaze. I felt my heart melt for a second before I gave him another smile and said, "My name is Emiko." I hopped onto the end of his bed and made sure not to jostle his leg. It was silent for a while in which I took the time to secretly observe Naruto. 'He really is cute as a kid.' I thought fondly. He kept fidgeting and taking small glances at me. I could tell he wanted to ask me something. I let out an amused smile and said, "If you want to ask me something you can, you know?" He hesitated for a second before he quietly said, "Why...why did you help me? Everyone hates me and I'm a monster."
I felt my face tighten in anger before I made myself relax and I lifted my hand as Naruto flinched and I rested my hand on his head and said, "Naruto, look at me." He slowly looked up and I stared in his eyes sternly and said, "Don't you ever say that. You're not a monster Naruto, no matter what they say you won't ever be a monster. To me you are just a lonely kid, those people are a bunch of stupid people with their heads up their as-butts. You're not a monster and you're not a demon, you're just Naruto Uzumaki a little boy who did nothing."
Halfway through my rant Naruto was looking down again and his shoulders were shaking and then I heard small sniffs coming from him. I looked at him in concern and said, "Naruto, are you ok?" I looked at him to see he was crying, 'This is probably the first time anyone's ever told him that he's not a demon like others say he is.' I thought sadly, I got up from my place and sat next to him and I wrapped my arms around him as he was sobbing uncontrollably into my shoulder now. Tears were streaming down his face as I hugged him. After a while his sobbing lessened and his shoulders stopped shaking. I pulled away and looked at him, his eyes were red and puffy and the occasional tear coming down and I softly said, "Feel better?" He nodded and he mumbled out a small, "...Thank you." My eyes widened in surprise and then in understanding and I softly said, "It's fine...Hey Naruto, do you know when you're getting out of here." He wrinkled his nose and said, "I think they said that I can leave in a couple hours." I nodded at him as I got up from the bed and felt a hand clamp onto my shirt, "No! Don't leave nee-san!" When I saw his alarmed face I explained to him, "I'm not leaving Naruto, I'm just going to be sitting in the bed next to you since there's no space for me to meditate." He reluctantly let me go as I sat cross legged on the bed next to his, 'This is strange, usually my emotions would've spoken up about something but so far I haven't heard any of the voices.' I thought worriedly. 'Even though I don't like their interruptions in my head, they have helped me when I needed them most.'
I closed my eyes as I took deep breaths. I cleared my mind until the only thing I focused on was my own heartbeat.
Ba-bump, ba-bump, ba-bump, ba-bump.
My own heartbeat lulled me into a state of complete calmness, that was until I felt something pull me back. My eyes involuntarily opened and I stared in surprise and then I felt melancholy at what I saw around me.
I could recognized this place anywhere it was...it was my childhood home, but it was different yet the same. While everything was in place exactly as I remember it the difference was that it looked all worn down and old, there were pieces of the walls that were broken and parts that weren't even there anymore, but it was my house that I lived in with my parents. I shook myself out of my surprise to be in a place that brings back so many bad memories. My feet moved on their own as I started walking in a direction, eventually I ended up in front of a white door. I reached out towards the door knob when out of nowhere the door went flying open and I was tackled to the ground. I gave a surprised yelp as I fell onto the ground.
I looked up at what had tackled me to see a person who looked exactly like me- she even had the eyes the old man gave me- except with a bright smile on her face and her hair was parted in the middle unlike mine which had side bangs. She was wearing what looked like a bright green tank top and shorts that were a dark green almost black color and like me she was also 5 years old.
"Emiko!", she cheered happily as my eyes then widened in realization when I realized who it was from their voice. "Jishin?" I asked surprised. She nodded excitedly.
You see Jishin is one of the emotions that was born from me because of my abilities, because my body can't handle taking in so much emotions from myself and others so it caused Jishin to appear. She was the first one to appear in my head, she's been with me ever since I can remember. She was the result of my confidence and the small happiness I had as a child formed Jishin. That's the reason I named her Jishin since it can mean confidence and earthquake since Jishin been with me through all the things that shook up my life, she's what kept me grounded.
"Jishin where are me?" I asked as I was still lying on the ground. "Were in your head silly! Oh which reminds me need to help Tatsu." She finally got off me and pulled me off the ground and started dragging me into the room as I finally saw what she meant by helping Tatsu.
Tatsu was the result of the emotions emptiness and sadness and obviously she's a huge pessimist and she's a pretty meek person when intimidated but she can get pretty careless with her comments and so she could say some hurtful things without noticing. Tatsu got her name because while she is a pretty sad person she wished she was strong so I named her Tatsu which means dragon but the kanji for Tatsu can also mean fear, sadness, and even dejection. What I saw in the room was a girl being restrained by another and with how angry the person being restrained was that it was most obviously Ikari, so the one restraining her was Tatsu. Ikari was created because of the emotions anger and hatred and so it causes her to be pretty mean to others and a hotheaded person because of that. Her name came from the fact that it means anger and can also mean anchor. While she is made up of negative emotions she is still a part of me, as are the others they all kept me tied down. Since for a long time I didn't have anyone, so we only had each other as sad as that sounds, the only people I could trust were voices in my head.
'...But they obviously aren't just voices now.' I thought in wonder.
Ikari was thrashing as she was being held down by Tatsu. I took a quick second to study their features. Tatsu had bangs that came down on her forehead and even slightly covered her eyes and while her facial expression was blank her eyes held a lot of sadness. She was wearing a long sleeve icy blue shirt with navy colored pants. Then I looked at Ikari to see she had hair that was cut very short while the back of her hair was about an inch long her bangs framed her face as it was chin length. In a way it reminded me of Hinata's hair except it was shorter in the back. She was wearing a blood red shirt that came down to her elbows with black pants and fingerless gloves. She had an expression of murder as she was being restrained by Tatsu.
Also like Jishin they resembled me and also had the same eyes, but with a different styles and obvious contrasting expressions. After I finished observing them I walked towards the two of them and did the first thing that came to mind...I hit Ikari over the head with my fist...Hey don't look at me like that, if she's gonna react so violently against Tatsu then maybe a knock to the head would fix her. Everyone in the room froze including Ikari then it happened, "What the hell was that for!" Yelled Ikari as she broke out of Tatsu's hold and glared at me in anger. I gave her a blank look and said, "Deep breaths Ikari. Calm down." She glared at me one more time before he did what I told her to, eventually she managed to calm down and I finally asked, "Now, what were you so angry about?" She scowled as she looked away in what looked like...embarrassment?
She kept scowling as she managed to mumble out her answer, "I want to go rip apart those villagers because of what they did." I looked at her in surprise since well from all 4 of us Ikari is always the one to never want us to get close to others. The fact that even Ikari had a soft spot for Naruto so quickly. I was surprised since that most likely means that all of us are already so attached to Naruto. "Calm down you know we can't kill them and we already ripped them a new one I think that's punishment enough." She huffed as she turned and crossed her arms and considering we all looked like 5 year old made her look like a pouting child.
"Anyway, what is this place and how come-"
"We have actually physical appearances?" Ikari said as she cut me off. I nodded at her in confusion. The three of them glanced at each other and it was Jishin that said, "We're inside your head, duh!" Next it was Tatsu that said, "We think that the fact that we actually have physical appearances now could've been caused by the old man since before he gave you the eyes. No offense but you weren't exactly completely sane because of all the emotions you have to take in, but once he gave the eyes your mind ended up stabilizing itself. Since you're ability to sense emotions and change them was breaking down your mind as time went on, but once you got the eyes not only did it stop it, it fixed some of your other problems. I'm sure you noticed that you're bi-polar tendencies went away. Since you're mind is more stabilized it won't cause our own personalities to clash, which was the reason for you being bi-polar. In a way all of us are still linked, but the eyes built a more stable bridge between us and it may have caused us to have our own bodies. Now we are more like separate beings that share one mind."
I nodded in understanding and then i said, "In a way you're more of your own person, not just voices in my head...The thing I'm most curious about now is how far does this go, I mean what other effect has the eyes had on us, just how much did the eyes effect us?" Jishin perked up and said, "Hey do you think we should-"
"No." Ikari said as she shut down whatever Jishin was going to suggest. "But, you did even listen to what I was going to say!" Jishin wined as she then pouted at Ikari. "I don't need to listen to your idea. I know it's going to be stupid." I really wanted to know Jishin's idea so I looked over at Ikari and said, "Come on Ikari, at least let her tell us her idea." Ikari fumed for a second before she turned to Jishin and glared as she said, "Fine tell us your fucking idea." Jishin grinned at us before saying, "I was gonna say, why don't we get Hokage-sama's help, I mean what if you could use us in a fight? I would kick total butt and I could actually meet Naruto face to face."
"No." Denied Ikari, I looked over at Jishin to see her eyes starting to fill with tears and she looked at Ikari pleadingly. I could tell that Ikari was slowly crumbling to her sad face before she sighed and said, "Fine. I don't trust the old man, but I guess we can get his help." I gave a small smile over at Ikari, 'Even though she is mostly made up of hate and anger she still her own person and not completely filled with those emotions and can feel other emotions, she just tends not to.'
I then slightly frowned and said, "If we're getting his help to see if you guys can actually fight now that the connection is more separated then that means I need to tell him about you guys and how you even exist and convincing him that I'm not completely crazy...I'm not sure if I'm comfortable with him knowing about you guys. Don't get me wrong I know he's a good guy, it's just...he might think I'm some kind of freak, like everyone else..."
"Then I guess we'll just have to take that chance." Tatsu surprisingly spoke up. We all looked at her in surprise. She looked at us with her sad gaze and blank face and said, "We never bothered taking risks when we were younger, because we were afraid of rejection and so we put up a wall around ourselves and the only people we held close to us were our parents and we all know how that turned out." At that we all looked down in sadness, even Ikari and Jishin. "But how will we ever know if we'll be accepted when we never take that risk and reach out to others instead of turning everyone away. If there's anyone who won't turn us away because of what we are then it's the Hokage, heck he accepts Naruto and doesn't think of him as the Kyuubi, even when everyone else think he is...I think we can trust him. We already took that first step by taking care of Naruto, we need to reach out to others."
"She's right! We can't let what happened affect us now, we're starting new here! We can't let the past get the best of us, I say we take that chance!" After that Jishin and Tatsu both looked at Ikari and I. We stayed quiet for a second until I finally said, "Fine while I am really reluctant to let him know about you three, it would benefit us if you were able to fight alongside me, especially since we're so different then our style of fighting would be different too which would make us less predictable." Then we all looked at Ikari, she was the one with the biggest trust issues. She gave us all a hard stare before she sighed in defeat, "I see I'm outnumbered in this decision and I guess I have to choice but to go along with it too, even if I don't like it I have to admit that it would be useful if we could fight with you."
Tatsu and I gave a small smile while Jishin started beaming in happiness and even Ikari mouth twitched upwards a all of a sudden I felt the ground shake a bit and I looked at them worriedly, everyone looked unconcerned with the ground shaking and I looked at them in question, it was Ikari that answered my silent question, "Someone's trying to wake you up, so I suggest that you get out of your head and see what's going on out there." I nodded as I then said, 'Uh, by the way how do I get out of here?" Tatsu then said monotonously, "You just have to will yourself out of here, it's your mind if you want out then it happens." I nodded in understanding and closed my eyes and then I suddenly felt tiny hands shaking me, I opened my eyes to see a pair of blue eyes looking at me with concern then I felt his relief as he saw that I had woken up. I then felt as he looked at me with happiness. It surprised me how fast his emotions were changing just because of my presence. I saw that Naruto was out of the bed he was in and was now sitting on the one I was meditating on.
"Nee-san! You finally woke up!", he yelled in happiness. I smiled a bit as I said, "I wasn't sleeping I was just really deep in my meditating." His mouth opening in understanding as he let out a long, "Oh!" Then he said in sudden realization, "By the way nee-san, jii-san said he wanted to say something to us." He took hold of my hand as he then tried to jump off the bed when I stopped him from jumping off, 'He could end up hurting his leg by jumping off.' I jumped off the bed and then I turned my back to him as i then said, "Come on Naruto, it'll be faster if you jump on my back since you're hurt and that way you don't end up hurting yourself." I didn't have to look at him to feel the surprise he felt by what I said. He then gave out an excited, "Ok nee-san!" He then wrapped his arms around my neck as I held on to his thighs and was mindful of his injury. He tightened his arms a bit too much and I gasped as I then said, "Na..ru..to you're ho..lding on too...tight." He immediately loosened his grip on my neck, "Sorry nee-san!" I internally sighed at him and said, "It's fine Naruto just don't hold on so tight, you were choking me. By the way can you tell me the way to the Hokage's tower, I don't really know the way there."
"Sure nee-san!"
I continued as we walked out of the hospital and walked throughout the village to get to the tower. Naruto was strangely quiet so far and as I looked around I could see why. The people in the village were looking at us, well more like they were glaring at Naruto and they were giving me nasty looks and whispering about me. I glared back at everyone who was looking towards us and I even sent out a bit of my own killer intent and I watched as they quickly turned away. I could tell a few people were still glancing at us. I ignored it and I asked Naruto random questions so that I could keep his mind off of the people around us. "So, Naruto-kun what's your favorite color?" That's how we spent the rest of the trip towards the Hokage tower as I kept him talking and eventually he was excitingly answering my questions.
Eventually we finally made it and I managed to keep Naruto's mind off the people around us and I went inside and I went up the stairs and past the receptionist as I gave her a small glare. I stopped in front of the door and I knocked on it.
"Enter."
I shifted Naruto's weight a bit so that I could open the door and I walked in and closed the door behind me. I turned to see the Hokage working at his desk, he looked up and saw us and put down his pen and gave us a soft smile. "Hello Naruto,-kun Emiko-chan." I nodded at him as Naruto gave out an excited, "Jii-san!" I went towards the chair in his office and I carefully place Naruto down and I make sure to be mindful of his injury. After I put him down I stood next to him and looked over at the Hokage to see him watching my actions carefully and then Naruto gave out another grin and said, "So jii-san what'd you call us here for?"
'He probably is going to tell Naruto that I'm going to live with him now.'
'Oh, do you think he's going to be excited! I know I am!'
'Jishin?"
'Yup! Now Shh! Hokage-sama's talking.'
I started paying attention again as the Hokage started saying, "Well Naruto-kun I wanted to talk to you about some matters that involve you and Emiko-chan." I looked down at Naruto to see him looking up at him confused as the Hokage continued, "You see Emiko-chan doesn't have a home or any family to stay with...so how would you feel if she stayed with you." Naruto looked at him in surprise and then he gave off an excited grin and said, "So nee-san gets to stay with me!" I looked at as I saw his emotions change a bit the whole time I was around him he was feeling an underlying sadness under his other emotions and also a bit of loneliness, but now I could barely sense it. I look at him in understanding and I turned to Naruto and put my hand on his head softly. He blinked and looked at me in curiosity, "Naruto-kun…" I hesitated before saying, "I won't just be staying with you." I struggled to find the words to express myself as he looked at me confused, "...Since I'm living with you I want you to know that you won't have to always do everything yourself and you don't always have to be alone now. I know it isn't a good feeling to always come home to an empty house, since i don't have a family either...What I wanted tto say is even though we both don't have a family, we could be a family?" I looked down at the floor in slight embarrassment and anticipation of rejection.
I suddenly felt a pair of arm wrap around me and I stiffened in surprise as I looked down to see Naruto reaching out of his chair and hugging me with his face pressed against my shoulder. I felt as he his body was trembling a bit and my eyes softened at him and I hugged him back a bit awkwardly. 'I'm not exactly used to hugging people since I've only really hugged one other person before and I'm not really used to people not rejecting me.'
When Naruto pulled away from the hug he hurriedly wiped away the few tears he had. I smiled softly at him as the Hokage then said, "Well Naruto-kun? How would you feel if Emiko-chan stayed with you?" I looked at him to see he had a soft knowing smile on his face and Naruto said with a blinding grin, "Of course nee-chan can stay with me!" I looked at him to see that the colors in his aura were a bit brighter, especially the white and blue were glowing a bit more than before. I smiled at him before I remembered that I wanted to talk to the Hokage about not only the emotions, but also about him helping me with the eyes. I looked gave Naruto one more glance before I turned to the Hokage and said, "Hokage-sama, I also wanted to talk to you about some private matters concerning a bit of my past and my...abilities." He looked at me seriously and nodded at me and then called out, "Inu."
Immediately an ANBU with a dog mask and from what I could see silver hair, 'Kakashi…" I thought surprised. Hokage looked at him and said, "Would you take Naruto-kun to his apartment." He nodded before he then picked up Naruto and was gone in a flash. I looked around for any of the grey colored auras and when I was sure there weren't any I turned to the Hokage and hesitantly said, "...Hokage-sama I wanted to tell you the specifics of my ability with emotions since these eyes effected that ability more than I thought possible. You see with my ability its very complicated that you'd think." He looked at me curiously as he nodded at me to continue, "You see, when I sense emotions I also end up taking it in kind of like I'm a metal rod that attracts lightning. While I can deal with the intake of emotions it is when I feel a great amount of emotions and having to take emotions in at the same time that can cause an unanticipated effect on my mind."
"What kind of effect do you mean?" I looked up at him in nervousness, '...We gotta start somewhere Emiko, we have to take the first step when it comes to others. We built up a wall around us now we have to work our way to get over that wall so we aren't alone anymore.' I took a deep breath and listened to Jishin's words as I felt my confidence rise a bit. "Because of the fact that I'm feeling so much emotion and taking in those emotions it can cause, I guess you can say a split personality. Since its too much emotion for just me alone, but the part that mostly shapes their personality is the emotions that I feel."
The Hokage sat there in silence as he took in the information I told him, "How many of these split personalities do you have?" I felt a bit of hope form in my chest at his words, 'That means he believes me! He doesn't think I'm crazy!"
"There's only 3 of them." He contemplated it as he sat there with his hands joined on his desk in deep thought, "Emiko...while I know there are things that you keep hidden about you, I have a bit of doubt about if your split personalities of yours exist so I would like to propose an idea." I looked at him in slight disappointment and interest, 'Then again, I can't expect him to believe every word that comes out of my mouth. Voices in your head does sound very...out there to believe.' I nodded at the Hokage for him to propose his idea, "You see there's a clan here that use mind jutsu so they are able to enter a person's mind and I would like to have one of them take us inside your mind to meet these split personalities of yours."
'So what do you guys think about this?' I thought to the others.
'Oh, if their visiting we need to give them a welcoming party! It'll be so fun!' Jishin.
'Does the old fart really have to come in here, I consider that trespassing!' Ikari.
'I don't care. As long as they don't look into the memories that created us.' Tatsu.
"The majority vote of it was to go through with your idea. The only one who was against it was Ikari." The Hokage raised an eyebrow at what I said. "Ikari?" He questioned. I looked down in awkwardness and said, "Well yeah, the way I see it even though their part of me, we all have our differences so I guess in a way we all wanted to be separate from each other. So we all have our own names so that we could be more of our own person. There's Ikari, Tatsu, and Jishin."
"I see...but wouldn't you all still have very similar personalities if they were mostly formed from you're emotions." I shook my head at him and said, "No, because not only do they take in my emotions but also those around me to form their own personalities with their own likes and dislikes. Look at it this way everyone's emotions are like a mist to me, but my own emotions are very dense and when a large amount of an emotion comes up it forms the body and a small amount of the emotions that I feel. The mist of everyone else's emotions hits it and forms something completely different from myself."
"What exactly cause them to form and what emotions did they take in from you?" I looked at him in surprise and said, "At this point in time I can't exactly say what caused 2 of my emotions to form I can tell you what emotions they have." He gave me a calculated stare as I also said, "They're very much uncomfortable with others knowing how they came to be since it all causes us a great deal of pain to know that we felt so much emotion and we were affected by it so much that they formed. That's one of the things that Tatsu didn't want anyone to know and I know I'm asking a bit much it's just I'm not used to anyone knowing about them at all since we're all pretty paranoid and it's hard for all of us to trust people well except Jishin, but she always trusts everybody." He gave me a hard stare before he gave a small smile at my squirming form and said, "Fine I will allow you to tell me when you're ready, but promise me you'll eventually tell me Emiko?"
I nodded at him in gratitude and I bowed low at him and said, "I swear on my life, I will tell you when I'm ready. Also if we are going through with your plan of going inside my head then eventually you'll know what emotions they were made from since honestly it's pretty obvious, when their personalities." He nodded in understanding and then I asked curiously, "By the way Hokage-sama do you have any idea as to what my eyes can do?"
He shook his head and said, "No since you eyes are the first that there's been and it looks very different from the Byakugan and Sharingan and also since you aren't seeing chakra like those eyes and instead see people's auras instead, there could be no telling what you eye can do, but I'm guessing you have an idea?" I nodded as I then said, "That the reason why we all decided to tell you about about our split personality since we think that my eyes actually take a part in this."
The Hokage looked at me curious as he said, "Why do think that?" I looked him in the eye as I said, "It is because before we had the eyes all of our personalities would clash- there was no balance in our mind- and that caused us to be very bipolar, but ever since I got these eyes our personalities balanced themselves out and not only that but I was also able to go inside my own head and I saw them Hokage-sama. They all had appearances similar to mine but Ikari, Jishin and Tatsu all actually have their own physical appearances."
