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"That can't be right, it has to be somewhere!" I cried out, getting very impatient and putting both of my hands on my hips with a frustrated sight.

"Sure, but where?" My dad added, frowning and looking deeply focused.

"Do you think someone could have stolen it?" My mom asked to Regina.

She was standing crossed arms next to Robin and was looking deeply mad because of the situation. We had arrived at their place early in the morning to talk with them about the wand as it was still missing. The kids were playing together in the living room, not aware of what was happening, and Henry was watching them. We were all horribly worried. It was not only meaning that someone could have stolen the wands and in that case there was a new villain in town, but we were also realizing we couldn't keep our promise made to the wizards. Sure, there were others way to cross realms. But the wand was our only solution as there were no magic beans left in this world and everything that would have allowed us to open a portal was gone by a way or another. We had to find the damn wand. There was no other choice. And we had to do it very quickly because we had to send Hermione, Ron and Harry back to their world the sooner possible.

"I don't see another reason why it would be missing!" Regina shouted, rolling her eyes in annoyance. "It's gone for a reason, and I certainly haven't lost it!"

"But Regina." I intervened, myself a bit annoyed by the situation and the sleep deprivation. "It's impossible. We don't have any enemies left in this town. Zelena is in Oz, Gold is gone for years, and nobody seems to be mad at us for some reason. I don't see who would have taken this fucking wand."

"Right, Miss Swan, but if you're so clever, why haven't you thought about the fact our three new friends could not be who they said they were? They can be villains, we don't know anything about them." Regina jeered.

"Well that's stupid!" I replied, chuckling and I saw her jaw clenching at my comment. "First of all, they don't know where you're living. Secondly, we would have given them the wand anyway, it's absolutely useless to steal it. Beside, they are nice. They are heroes. They fought for the greater good. They don't steal."

"Well, you were supposed to be nice too, Savior, and look where it has lead us not so long ago!" She snapped, referring to my days as a Dark One, and I had to force myself to stay calm and not start yelling.

"You… Don't start on this!" I shouted, utterly mad and stepping forward, ready to fight and show her she had no right to talk to me that way.

Killian grabbed my elbow to prevent me from doing a big mistake as I was feeling the anger exploding inside of me. I knew I would have punched her if Hook hadn't held me back. How dared she still reproaching me what had happened years ago ? My time as a Dark One was a part of my life I wasn't proud of, and she was always talking about it every time she was finding me annoying, as if it was amusing her. I just wanted to slap her and show her how mad I was. But, even if I knew he was as angry as I was, Killian was still holding my arm to prevent me from punching Regina. Seeing that we were both ready to fight, my dad intervened and stood up between us, his hand lifted up as a cry for peace.

"Okay, everybody calm down." He said in a serious way. "You're both tired, I know, but stop getting mad at each other. Regina, seriously what you said was horribly cruel, and you know it. Stop talking about Emma's past. What's done is done, and you know all too well she doesn't like it. Stop pushing her to the edge."

My breathing had gotten faster because of the anger. I freed myself from Killian's grip, and he didn't try to fight back because he knew it wouldn't help me. I could hear him behind me, and I knew he himself wanted to yell at Regina but he was trying to calm himself down in order not to worsen the situation. He would usually have encouraged me to go and defend myself, but I knew why he had stopped me : he was scared my health would get even worse if I was doing anything. Every time I was trying to make efforts, it was ending up with me throwing up or fainting and it wasn't worth it. I looked at Regina with pure hate in my eyes, clenching my fist to try and calm down a little bit.

"You're right." Regina said with a sight, looking like she was finally getting how horrible she had been with me. "Sorry, Swan. I shouldn't have said that. Especially because I've done much more terrible things than you, and everyone has forgiven me."

I didn't answer right away. I was still really mad at her. But I finally decided it was better for everyone if I was staying calm. The situation was already way too complicated like that without me and Regina fighting over words. I ended up saying with a roll of my eyes, crossing my arms on my chest to show her that even if I wasn't going to do anything to defend myself, I was still angry.

"'S okay."

The situation had gotten out of hand, and it was better if we both stopped fighting. I knew that I would have jumped at her throat if Killian hadn't held me back, and it would have been a mistake even if she was deserving it. What she had said was awful, but I frowned thinking that I was getting mad very easily these past few days. I was usually able to control myself. I stepped back to stand next to Killian and took three deep breaths, trying to slow down my heart that was painfully pounding in my chest. Hook glanced at me to quietly ask me if I was all right, and I nodded in order not to worry him.

"Well, now we have another problem." My dad then said, as if nothing had happened and we were just resuming our previous conversation. "I don't know how we're going to tell Harry, Ron and Hermione we don't have the wand anymore and we can't send them back home."

"And how we're gonna tell them they're not going to see their kids any time soon." I added, biting the inside of my cheek and thinking about how awful the situation was.

"So you lied to us?!" Hermione shouted, looking utterly mad about what we had just told her.

"It wasn't a lie." My mom tempered gently. "We're doing everything we can to find the wand. David, Killian and Robin are searching around the town at this exact same moment. It has to be somewhere."

"I can't believe we're stuck here!" She cried out, before jumping out of the booth and running out of the diner.

"Hermione!" Ron shouted before following her, imitated by Harry.

Regina, my mom and I were sitting at a booth at Granny's, and we looked at each other with despair. The wizards were obviously very angry because of the news, and I could understand how they were feeling quite easily. I would have screamed too if I had been separated from my family. At the thought of being away from my sons or Killian, I shivered and forced myself to think about something else in order not to get sad. I was feeling genuinely bad for Harry, Ron and Hermione. They hadn't asked for any of this, and they were now stuck in a town they didn't know, with people they had just met, far from their home and their kids who didn't even know if they were alive. The situation was really bad. I felt a rush of anxiety taking over me, and forced myself to calm down a little bit.

"I'm going to talk to them." My mom decided, getting up from her seat and going outside to comfort our new friends.

I sighted and repositioned Liam on my lap. I had both of my arms wrapped around him and he was cuddled against my chest. He was quiet, his thumb in his mouth and he was dozing off. Neal, Robyn and Roland were playing together in a corner of the diner, carefully watched by Granny and Henry.

I was feeling really sick. The lack of food and the stress were making me very weak. I was so worried about the missing wand. I just wanted to help the wizards the best I could, but we were stuck. And it was without talking about the smell of cooked meat that was reigning in the room and was making me extremely nauseous. I looked up at Regina but didn't say a word, my jaw clenched. I was still mad at her because of what she had said earlier, and I was doing my best to appear calm in front of Liam and Henry while I just wanted to get up and walk away from her. I was so pissed off I didn't even want to see her face anymore.

"Don't look at me like that, Swan." She said while raising her eyebrows at me.

"Like what?" I mumbled, gently stroking Liam's back.

"You know how." She answered, rolling her eyes. "You're still mad at me. I told you I was sorry!"

"I know." I sighted with fatigue, knowing that she had apologized and that I should have forgotten about the altercation. "I guess we're even now."

"What do you mean?" She asked with a frown.

"I would probably have punched you if Killian hadn't stopped me." I admitted with a shrug.

"Well, at least the pirate was useful for once."

"I know you're not thinking a word of this." I answered, a bit annoyed by her comment because Killian was always a great help for all of us when we were facing a crisis. "You're absolutely wrong. And if you could avoid telling such things in front of Liam, I would appreciate it."

She didn't say anything back and Granny approached our table with a cheeseburger she placed in front of Regina. My friend thanked her and I winced. The smell was making me feel even sicker. My stomach was hurting like hell and I was starting to get dizzy.

"Can you take that away from me?" I asked the calmest way possible to avoid her starting to ask me embarrassing questions.

"You can't stand smells either?" She answered without paying attention to my request, and I took a deep breath to try and calm myself down.

"Especially cooked meat. This is killing me. Regina, please." I whimpered, feeling like I was going to throw up.

"You're vomiting, you're fainting, you're bothered by smells… Are you hiding something from us, Swan?" She asked, pressing her lips together as she was starting to suspect something.

"Regina..." I whispered in an almost begging way, aware that if she wasn't listening to me I would throw up once again.

"I won't move this plate until you tell me what's really going on with you." She stated defiantly.

I grunted. I couldn't take this anymore. I had to do something. I was so mad at her for not listening to me, but I couldn't even get angry because I was feeling way too weak.

"In that case, I'm moving." I said, a bit aggressively. "Watch Liam."

I placed my son on the seat next to me. He woke up and stared at me with surprise but also worry. I wanted to smile to reassure him, but didn't even find the strength to do so.

"I'm not your baby-sitter!" Regina yelled behind me.

I didn't react to her provocation. I had barely heard her, actually. I almost ran toward the bathroom, trying to stay on my feet and not drawing to much attention on me.

I came back ten minutes later and almost collapsed on my seat with a sight, taking Liam in my arms again to comfort him as he was still looking a bit confused by my sudden disappearance. Regina was looking at me in a worried and somewhat guilty way. Biting her lips, she was finally looking bad about what she had done. She ended up saying after a few seconds, aware that without her I wouldn't have thrown up again.

"You okay?"

"I've lived better, really." I mumbled, mad at her for being so stubborn.

"I'm sorry..." She apologized with a little wince.

"You can be." I replied, rolling my eyes. "If you had listened to me, I would probably have kept the breakfast Killian has almost forced me to swallow, and it would have been a good thing for me to have something in my damn stomach for once."

She frowned, then her expression changed. She didn't seem to feel guilty anymore. Sitting straight on her seat, she was looking very confident, and I bit the inside of my cheek, knowing all to well what was going to happen.

"Well, enough beating around the bush. Given your symptoms, I think you know all too well what's going on with your body. And don't try to play dumb with me and pretend you have no idea what I'm talking about." She added as I moved to defend myself.

I closed my mouth and sighted deeply. I couldn't lie to her anymore. She knew something was wrong with me, and doing as if everything was normal was only going to worsen the situation. She wouldn't let me be unless I talked to her. I leaned forward to kiss Liam's forehead and forced myself to smile before saying :

"Liam, sweetheart, can you go and play with your friends? Mommy has to talk with Regina about grown-up things."

"Okay." My son answered in a low voice.

He was looking at me as if he was guessing that something was off. He was only two, but this little guy was definitely really smart. I put him on the ground and looked at him walking away until I was sure he couldn't hear us anymore. I turned back to Regina but didn't start talking. I didn't know what to say. My friend ended up shouting in an annoyed way after a few seconds of silence:

"Come on, Swan, it's not that complicated! Are you pregnant or not?"

"Shush!" I said, my eyes widened and looking all around me to make sure no one had heard her. "I'd appreciate it if you didn't alert the entire United States!"

"And? What's your answer?" She insisted without paying attention to what I had just said.

"Well I don't know." I admitted, rolling my eyes, annoyed by the fact she was refusing to leave me alone.

"What?" She asked in disbelief. "But you have all the symptoms! Haven't you done a pregnancy test?"

I looked down at the table, a bit ashamed. I felt myself blush, because I knew she was right to look that shocked. I had begun to think that my condition could be hiding a pregnancy as soon as I had started to get sick. But I was feeling unable to go to the doctor or buy a pregnancy test to know the truth. I was so damn scared. I had this weird feeling that if I was doing as if everything was okay, everything would fall into place. But I couldn't play pretend anymore. Regina knew, and she wouldn't leave me alone. My pitiful strategy was useless now. I sighted once again before answering, knowing that Regina was going to get mad again. But this time it was different because she was right.

"No"

"Why the hell would you stay like that without knowing the truth?" She asked, looking at me as if I was a perfect idiot.

"Because it's… Because I'm scared, Regina." I admitted in a low voice, trying to stay calm but feeling as if my entire world was falling apart.

"Well, that's not a very good point." She stated. "You're doing like everything is okay because you're afraid? You know it's perfectly ridiculous, right? And what does Hook think about all of this?"

"He doesn't know." I confessed, wincing, knowing that she was going to call me an idiot again.

And I knew she had the right to do so, because I was behaving like one. I hated myself for fleeing from my troubles like that. But I was so scared. And it was the only thing I had found to calm my fear down. But I knew she was absolutely right. If I was pregnant I had to learn about it sooner or later. I couldn't stay in the dark forever.

"Oh" She said, raising her eyebrows. "Are there troubles in paradise?"

"No. No, there aren't!" I repeated, seeing that she was looking a bit skeptic. "It's just that I don't know if I'm pregnant. It was useless to talk to him."

"Useless?" She said, shaking her head in disbelief. "Seriously, Swan? You're living together. He's the father of Liam, and if there is a new baby, he has the right to know. You can't hide that from him"

"It's just… I don't want to worry him." I whispered with the sudden will to punch myself because I knew I was being stupid.

"What the hell, Swan, really?" She sighted, looking desperate by my behavior. "Sometimes, you're being as stupid as your mother."

"Why is she as stupid as me?"

I startled. I hadn't seen my mom walking back into the diner, and I violently bit my lower lip. She was going to ask us what was going now, and she wasn't going to give up until I had told her everything. It was only going to worsen things. She sat down next to Regina and looked at us with curiosity, waiting for an answer. I started to talk hastily to create a diversion, hoping it would work and I would be left alone as I wanted to :

"Have you talked with Hermione?"

I noticed the look of annoyance Regina was giving me, and stared at her defiantly. I knew she was right to treat me like an idiot because in that case I was being one. But I was certainly not going to let her talk to me like that without reacting. I was too proud to let her do those kind of things without protesting.

"I have, I've explained her what was really going on, and she calmed down. I've told her everything would be okay. We're going to find this wand eventually, it can't be that far. But you haven't answered." She added, and I sighted in despair seeing that my try hadn't worked. "Why is Emma an idiot?"

"Your daughter's pregnant." Regina stated as if everything was normal.

I opened my mouth, not believing that she had really said that. It was probably to punish me for my stupidity because she had a small smile on her face, but it was so mean I didn't know how to react. I grunted when I saw my mom turning to stare at me, looking overexcited. If I wasn't able to calm her down really quickly, she would tell the entire town and I had to stop this.

"Really, honey? Oh my god, it's wonderful, I..."

"Shush!" I shouted once again, seeing a few of our friends turning to look at us because of the noise we were making. "I don't know if I am pregnant, okay? I haven't done a test yet."

"That's why she's a prefect idiot." Regina stated, rolling her eyes once again. "And also because she doesn't want to tell Hook she thinks she's pregnant."

"But why?" My mom asked, smiling as if the situation was very funny while I just wanted to hide in a corner and never get out. "You do know that if you're pregnant, he'll end up noticing it, right?

"I don't want to tell him while I'm not sure yet." I sighted.

"Well, do a test, then!" My mom said, but it was easier said than done.

"Yeah, sure, I don't want to tell anything to Killian but I'm going to go to the drugstore and ask for a pregnancy test as if everything was perfectly normal." I replied with a chuckle, trying to find an excuse to escape from this situation a little bit longer. "You know the town will be aware of what's happening in less than an hour. If I'm pregnant, Killian has to know before anyone else. Beside, it's really not a good time. There is a crisis right now and..."

"Well, in that case, I'll go get it for you." My mom cut me off with a big smile, looking so happy as she was breaking my last hope to deny the situation a while longer. "I don't care about people saying I can be pregnant. The rumor will be denied really soon anyway."

"Mom..." I whimpered, wondering why I couldn't take my own decisions but knowing deep down that she was doing it for my own good.

I would have wanted to resume on denying what was happening. I didn't want to face the possibility of me being pregnant. But with my family, it was impossible to stay in the dark. However, I knew my mom and Regina were right. If I was expecting, I had to know about it. The potential new baby was deserving its mother to know about its existence. But I was so damn scared. I loved Henry and Liam beyond words, and there were enough. Two kids were enough. I was sometimes feeling like I was going to break down with only one little kid at home, I knew I couldn't get by with a third child on the way. I wanted to give all my attention to my sons. And the crisis we were living with the three wizards could last longer than expected. And then there was Killian. I knew he wouldn't react badly. He would probably be really happy, by seeing how he had reacted when I had told him I was pregnant with Liam, it wasn't hard to guess. But we had never talked about having more kids. And I was so scared about everything changing in our life. I was happy with how things were now. I didn't want anything to be different. It was terrifying, and I hated this possibility.

"So, what do you think?" my mom asked, driving me away from my thoughts.

"You won't leave me alone until I'v done this damn test, right?" I sighted with despair.

They both shook their head with a little smile, and I crossed my arms on my chest, knowing all to well that I couldn't go back from this.

"Okay, then. Go." I finally said.

My mom almost jumped off her seat, a big smile on her face, and she walked away from us. I looked at her crossing the diner's door and disappearing in the street. And then I took my head in my hands, suddenly wanting to cry because everything was crumbling around me.

Here we go, you'll know if Emma is really pregnant in the next chapter! :) See you monday!