Hands
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters from Nothing Much to Do/Much Ado About Nothing.
A/N: This story is set in a universe where everything happens except Balthazar and Pedro getting together. The chapters will not take place in chronological order, so don't think you've missed anything if chapters don't match up with the ones before. Also, there'll be mention of a major character death, so yeah, there's that warning. Hope everyone enjoys this - I'll try to update as often as possible!
I woke up this morning knowing today was the day. It's not something I can explain, this knack I have for sensing unfortunate events. I just have it, and I wish I didn't.
Now, as I'm sitting in this chair, holding the hand of the only woman I've ever loved, I understand what it means to be lost. It doesn't feel like I'm in a tunnel with no light to guide me, or a huge forest with branches blocking my sight. No, it feels like my senses are turned up all the way, like the lights are on too bright, like I can see everything and everyone around me in excruciating detail. I just can't manage to give a fuck about any of it.
The nurse's voice means nothing; the beeping of the various machines means nothing. The only thing that matters is the hand in mine, and it's limp and pale. A limp, pale lifeline that's keeping me grounded. I don't care about anything else.
So when Ursula comes in, I don't mind her talking to the nurse. She knows what to say, even though the exhaustion in her eyes is all too apparent. I just sit and hold my lifeline. The nurse leaves with a quick touch to my shoulder, and Ursula's hand quickly replaces hers. Urs' hand is so warm, so comforting, and the hand in mine suddenly feels dead.
I still can't make myself let go.
End note: Sorry for the length - I just don't write sad stuff very well. The next chapter will be much happier (I think). I guess I should just let everyone know, the Ben/Bea storyline will all be from Ben's perspective, and it will jump around to different moments in their relationship, so there will definitely be happy Ben/Bea fluff. I'm just pushing myself as a writer to try my hand at some more angsty stuff as well. And there might be another pairing on the horizon…
Thank you again for reading! Please like/reblog/whatever if you like this series so far.