My Paper Heart
Chapter 8
After Jasper and I had our heart to heart things have been going a little easier.
He's going into the military and he'll be stationed out of Ft. Hood in Texas, for the time being.
He wants to work on the tanks and such so it's a possibility he'll be sent overseas once he's gone through mechanics school his recruiter said.
Yeah he took me to meet his recruiter. We talked and he's been in the military for over 35 years and is happily married to the same woman for 25 of those.
Jasper has hinted around at marriage if he gets shipped overseas, but I change the subject, we're too young to think about that and he's going to be meeting new people, how can I ask him to be faithful? We might not see each other for a year or more? And then what? It wouldn't be fair to either one of us, so we're just taking it day by day for now and I'm still weighing my college options for graphic design.
"So any news from Texas?" Jasper asked.
"Jasper that's not even at the top of my list, you know that." I sighed.
"I know, but I thought if they were to get back to you first that you might change your mind, we'd at least be in the same state for awhile." he snapped.
"Look, I really want to go to Rhode Island. That's my first choice and you know it. They're the best and I'm waiting for them. Don't you think I'm good enough?" I questioned.
"I think you're great B. I was just hoping for a little more time together, that's all. I love you." he pulled me towards him and kissed me.
"I love you too. But we've got to face reality, we've only got a few weeks left and then you're gone. You're the one who signed up to leave the week after graduation." I reminded him.
"That's before I had you. I'm so sorry." he held me tight.
"Do you think your dad would let you go away for a weekend, just the 2 of us?" he asked sincerely.
"Considering what's about to happen, yeah." I smiled.
"Would you want to spend a weekend with me?" he asked, knowing what he was asking.
"Yeah, I would." I kissed him softly.
"Even if it'll be awhile before we're together again?" he reassured.
"It will give me beautiful memories Jasper." I kissed him again.
We made plans with my dad about where we were going and he agreed, just telling us to be safe in more areas than one… And I told him that was all covered, no pun intended.
To which he just shook his head.
The week flew by before it was our weekend away.
We headed into Seattle and into the hotel Jasper had booked for us.
The Honeymoon sweet, of course.
The staff was looking at us a little curious, but that was OK.
We were both 18 now so there was nothing they could do.
Once up to the room, Jasper opened the door and told me to wait. He put our bags inside and then came back out, scooping me up and carrying me back in bridal style and tossing me on the bed.
"I can't believe I have you an entire weekend to myself." he smiled wickedly.
"No interruptions, no school, no practice, no parents… Just us." I smiled and pulled him into a kiss.
"Are you sure about this?" he asked.
"I'm positive." I smiled.
As Jasper and I made love for the first time, I felt so connected to him.
It wasn't anything like when I'd been with Edward and I KNOW I shouldn't have been comparing, because there was no comparison, but Jasper made me feel wanted and loved and truly like I was the only person he'd ever been with or will ever be with forever.
"What are you thinking about so hard?" he asked as we lay there.
"Just how loved I felt with you. You made me feel like the most important woman in the world and that you truly only want to be with me forever." I sighed.
He hovered over top of me and smirked.
"Bella, I've told you time and time again. You're it for me. I don't care if we don't see each other for the next 5 years, I'll whack off to this memory for those next 5." he kissed me softly.
"You're such the romantic." I giggle.
Which leads us into another round of lovemaking.
Our weekend ends much too fast and we're back at school getting ready for finals and graduation before you know it, but we're closer than ever as well.
"I see that weekend did you some good." Alice smiled.
"Yes. We needed that. I now know that he's the one for me and no matter how far apart we are, we're it for each other. I don't think I'll ever find someone who will ever put themselves out there the way he does for me." I told her honestly.
"I do know that he loves you more than anyone or anything in this world Bella. Believe that." she smiled at me as we walked into school.
The graduation countdown started and with three days to go, I got a thick envelope in the mail from Rhode Island School of Design. I'd been accepted and offered a partial scholarship, which was fine, my grandparents had left us money for college. I was beyond excited!
I hopped in my SUV and drove over to Jasper's house to tell him the good news.
Bouncing on my toes, I felt like Alice.
"Hey, what brings you here babe?" he pulled me in for a kiss.
I held out the envelope and he smiled.
"Is this, THE ONE?" he asked. I'd received several back from other colleges throughout the past couple of weeks, even a full ride to the University of Texas, which he was very happy about, but I just couldn't get into the same excitement, until now.
"This is it. They've offered me a partial scholarship, which is fine, because you know Emmett and I already have our own college funds set up." I shrugged.
He picked me up and swung me around, kissing me.
"I'm so excited for!" he smiled.
"Really?" I asked.
"Really! We've got to support each other if we're going to make this work. We're going to be separated and the only way to stay happy is support each through good and bad." he hugged me tight.
"I love you!" I kissed him passionately.
"I love you too darlin'." he nuzzled my hair.
"Look, I have to get back home, come for dinner?" I asked.
"Sure. 6?" he asked.
"Sounds good. See you then." I kissed him once more before I ran off to finish up at home, excitement coursing through my veins.
JPOV
Now I need to go and talk to Charlie and see if he'll be on board with my plan.
I can't leave Bella behind and not know that we've got some kind of more permanent connection.
I want her wearing my ring.
And talking to my recruiter, if I do happen to get shipped overseas, they'll give me a leave for a few days and hopefully Bella will be willing to marry me then.
I don't want to go over there, knowing that if something happens to me, she'll be all alone.
I want to leave her with a piece of me, us.
We need to be one.
I hope she goes for it.
Fuck I'm nervous as hell.
No time like the present.
I hop in my truck and drive to the station to talk to Chief Swan. Swallowing hard when I remember he's got a gun on him at this very moment. Then smiling, because he's at work and can't use it without probable cause. Fuck! Asking for his daughter's hand in marriage just might be probable cause to a police officer.
"Jasper, what can I do for you?" Charlie ushers me into his office.
"I-uh, I needed to talk to you." I try and smile.
"By the looks of things, you've either knocked up my daughter and I need to shoot your ass! OR, you're going to ask to marry her and I need to shoot your ass!" his mustache twitched as I gulped and he let out a laugh.
"I-uh." I couldn't even talk.
"Relax before you piss yourself, Jasper. If you've come to ask for Bella's hand, it's not me you've got to convince. It's going to be her! She's been worried you're going to ask. And she's not sure what to say. She loves, I know she loves you more than anything, but she thinks you two are too young." he sighs.
"We are. But she's it for me. I don't anyone else. I want to know that she's mine when I'm halfway across the world, sir." I smiled.
"I get it, I do. And maybe with you both going away it'll work. it didn't work for her mother and I because we were 'stuck' here in this town. And her mother didn't like it. I love it. Small town suits me." Charlie smiled.
"I love it too. I want to come back here with Bella someday and raise our family or retire." I smiled.
"I'd like to see that." Charlie smiled. "Just do me a favor?" he asked.
"Yes sir." I smiled.
"Treat her right and never, ever go to bed angry. Even if you're thousands of miles apart, call, text, tweet, whatever you have to do to let her know you're not angry. You always need to be the one to say sorry first, that's just how it goes. And in the field you're going in, you're going to see why. They're going to make you into a 'yes' man, but you better ALWAYS, ALWAYS have a 'SORRY' for your woman when she needs it. Even if it's your fault or someone else's." Charlie told me sternly.
"Got it." I nodded.
"You coming to dinner tonight?" he asked.
"Yes sir. I was going to ask her tonight. I want this ring on her right away." I smiled and showed him the brilliant emerald and diamond ring that was my grandmothers.
"She'll love it." he smiled. "See you in an hour." he dismissed me.
I headed over to Bella's and Emmett answered the door.
"Hey! She's in her room, on the phone with the college, there was some mix up." he shrugged. "She'll be right down." he smiled and we walked into the living room to watch TV.
Bella came down about 20 minutes later with red rimmed eyes and headed straight for the kitchen.
"Hey, what's up?" I wrapped my arms around her.
"Nothing. We'll talk later, let me finish dinner. OK." she sniffled.
"OK." I kissed her temple and walked out.
"Everything OK?" Emmett asked.
"I don't know. She said we'd talk after dinner." I shrugged.
Dinner was a quiet affair, Charlie and I having a silent conversation with our eyes.
Bella's eyes downcast almost the entire meal, not the happy go lucky girl from this afternoon.
Charlie and Emmett offered to clean up so Bella and I could go out to the front porch and talk.
"OK. Spill." I pulled her on my lap.
"I called to finalize my plans for fall, but needed to make some adjustments to the dorm schedule." she sighed.
"Dorm schedule? Why? If you want an apartment, we can work that out babe." I kissed her.
She sucked in a breath and started crying.
"Jasper it wasn't supposed to happen, we were careful. We used protection, I'm on the pill. How? How? How did I get pregnant again?" she sobbed into my chest.
"You're what?" I gasped.
"Shit! I didn't want it to come out like that. I'm so sorry. I'm a horrible, horrible girlfriend." I sobbed again.
"Bella, it's OK." I smiled.
I knelt in front of her.
"I want you to be more, so much more. Please say you'll be mine. Marry Me." I pulled out my grandmothers ring and she started crying again.
"Is that a yes? Please let this be a yes. I can't live without you Bella." I was kissing her face as she nodded a yes.
I heard Charlie and Emmett high fiving each other in the kitchen.
"What about the baby? I've already lost one." she cried.
"We'll make sure you're taken care of. But I do have one request. Please, please stay and go to college in Seattle, be close to your family. Let me buy us a townhouse. Then when I have leave I have a place to come home too. I've got inheritance too." I begged. "Plus I'll be getting paid. It'll all go into a joint account for us." I pulled her to me and she was shaking her head yes, before any words came out.
"Now, let's go tell my dad." she smiled and I nodded.
We broke the news to Charlie.
"While I'm not happy about the pregnancy part, but I know you were safe and if it's meant to be, it'll happen." he smiled hugging us both.
"Thanks Charlie." I shook his hand.
"You can call me dad now." he chuckled.
Emmett shook my hand and threatened me with bodily hard if I hurt his sister.
BPOV
We were all in agreement we'd go house hunting this coming weekend and I've have to call the admissions office and accept their offer for admit to UW for fall along with Emmett and he was going to live with me.
Rose and he were still a couple, but she wasn't going to college right away due to how far along she was.
She was living with her parents since her mom was a stay at home mom and could be there with her all the time.
Emmett and Rose would work out the other details after the baby was born, but he knew he had to go to college, he had a full ride to UW on the football team, and they agreed he was going to blow that, as he wanted to get into sports medicine.
I think everything was working out to plan for all of us.
Alice and Riley were in their own little world, both of them were headed to New York to some design academy.
Who knew?
They were both fashionistas and fed off each other, it was hysterical.
Maybe we'd see their own design house one day.
AN:
Sorry for the long delay…
Google Drive IS NOT FanFiction friendly…
So I've had to figure out a way to get it over here…
And FINALLY after much frustration… And trial and error…
I figured out I can cut and paste… It's tedious and a PITA… But because I love writing…
I do it…
I've missed you all SO much and SO much has happened in these weeks I've been MIA…
My stupid upstairs neighbor tried to burn our apartment building down…
We were displaced for a few days…
Had water damage and holes in my ceilings… I was pretty pissed…
The manager said they were gone, kicked out… Then 3 days after we're back, they're back…
I was LIVID!
She won't talk to me and give me answers…
So I've been dealing with that…
And of course the migraine battle wages on and the frustration of not being able to post properly…
It takes twice as long to do a story…
UGH!
I'm trying to get caught up…
I do apologize…
Hugs to you all for sticking by me!
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