My Paper Heart
Chapter 13
Jasper's been gone for four weeks now and I still feel like crap.
I'm braking down and going to see Carlisle today, because I actually think I'm pregnant, all I do is cry and throw up.
Rose is keeping the boys.
"This is so exciting! I hope you're pregnant." Rose smiled as I dropped the boys off.
"Oh, so exciting. I've already got my hand full with these two. Adding another one to the mix." I sighed.
"You know you'll be happy." Rose hugged me.
"Yes, I will but I'll probably have to do it all alone. No way Jasper will be back in time." I reminded her.
"We're here for you. You're never alone." She gave me a look.
"You know what I mean." I rolled my eyes.
"I do. But you remember what I said." She gave me the stink eye.
I left for my appointment and was nervous the entire time.
"Bella!" Carlisle called me personally and several of the patients gave me dirty looks.
"Looks like some of your patients don't like you giving me special treatment." I laughed.
"Tough! You're still like a daughter to me." He hugged me tight.
I started crying.
"Hey, let's check out these hormone levels. I'm thinking you're around 6-8 weeks." He smiled.
He did the weight, blood and urine as well as the blood pressure and everything was fine, including the fact that I was pregnant.
"Let's do an ultrasound and see what we've got." Carlisle smiled.
Carlisle took some measurements and pictures then turned on the sound, making me smile.
"You're actually between 8 and 9 weeks, so right in there." He smiled.
"That sounds about right." I agreed.
We went over prenatal care and he warned me about stress, especially since Jasper was gone.
"If you need anything, help with the boys, whatever… Call us. We're here to help too." He hugged me tight.
"Thanks Carlisle I needed to hear that." I smiled and kissed his cheek.
I'd be back in eight weeks and have another check-up even though it'd be a little early, he was going to do another ultrasound.
Telling everyone the good news, I couldn't wait for Jasper's call.
It'd been over a week since I talked to him, but I knew he was in a bad area, that's all he could tell me.
Carlisle and Esme confirmed that, they hadn't heard from Edward in a really long time.
It'd be another two weeks before I heard from Jasper.
"Hey babe." My Skype pinged as I was scrolling Facebook.
"Jasper!" I smiled and started crying.
"Hey, don't cry." He smiled tiredly.
"That's all I seem to do now a days" I laughed.
"Why? Are the boys OK?" he asked.
"Yes. They're fine. Growing, walking, talking and they're happy they're going to big brothers." I smiled.
"What?" Jasper looked at me funny.
"You heard me. They're going to be big brothers.
"How the fuck is that even possible Bella?" he stood up and was pacing now. "Did you fuck somebody else?" he snapped and threw something.
"What? No! How fucking dare you! I'm 9 weeks you son of a bitch! I don't know what that place has done to you, but don't call me again until you know your wife better than that!" I hit the end button and shut my computer. Sobbing.
I called Rose and told her what happened.
"Bella, he's probably just stressed and then that was dropped on him." She reasoned.
"I don't care. He accused me of cheating!" I shouted.
My phone beeped and it was an unknown number.
"I've got to go, it's an unknown." I sighed.
"Hello?" I snapped.
"Babe. I so sorry." Jasper cried. "I was caught off guard and I just…" he trailed off.
"You don't know what that was like Jasper." I cried.
"No I don't. I'm so sorry." He cried.
"Can we just have one happy moment?" I asked.
"I'm so afraid I'm missing out on so much and you're going to have to go through this one without me." He took a shuddering breath.
"I know, I've already thought about all that, trust me." I cried.
"I'll try and be in touch more. I can't promise anything though. It's not easy here though. There's a lot going on and I'm in the middle of something really stressful." He let out a breath.
"I'm so sorry. I wish you could tell me what's going on so I could make you feel better." I sighed.
"Me too baby, me too." He chuckled but it wasn't a good one. "Look, I've got to go. I'll call again soon. I'm so sorry. I love you and I'm so fucking happy." He kissed the phone before hanging up.
I called Rose bad and told her what happened.
"See, told you." She sassed.
"I know, I know. But it still hurt." I reminded her.
I was now halfway through my pregnancy and today I was going for my ultrasound to see what I was having.
"Welcome Bella! Esme is waiting in the office in case you want someone with you. Sue called her and told her they were unable to make it due to her being a bit under the weather." Carlisle smiled.
"Yeah, she's got a cold and didn't want to risk me or the boys getting it, even though I assured her the boys have brought plenty home from daycare." I laughed.
"Oh yes. I remember those days." He nodded.
"Well, let's see what we're having." He got started.
"Oh Bella, thank you for letting me share this day with you." Esme smiled.
"Thank you for being here." I squeezed her hand.
"OK, it looks like we're having a girl. She's on full display Bella. No guessing." Carlisle laughed.
I started crying.
"Bella, what's wrong?" Esme rubbed arm.
"I'm just so happy." I laughed through my tears.
"I can't wait to meet this little one." Carlisle smiled.
And we all agreed.
"Haley, her name will be Haley Sue." I smiled.
"Oh Bella, that's beautiful." Esme hugged me.
"I hope Jasper likes it. I've dreamt she was a girl and I've dreamt about this name, so I know it's the right one." I told them both.
"Then that it is." Carlisle agreed.
At home that night I told the boys they were having a sister and showed them the pictures, they happy for what they understood.
We had their favorites of chicken nuggets and mac n cheese for dinner.
After they were tucked in I called everyone and told them.
Sue was crying and so upset she wasn't at the appointment now.
"There will be more appointments Sue and the actual birth." I chuckled.
"I know." She cried. "But how many times does a baby get names after you?" she asked.
We talked for a little while before I made her get some rest. She and dad would be down over the weekend.
My next call was Rose and Emmett. They were extremely happy and Rose couldn't wait to start helping me decorate a girl's room.
"Are you going girly?" she asked.
"I haven't decided yet. I honestly haven't allowed myself to even look. I'm going to redo the boy's room too. Change their cribs to the toddler bed and go to something more big boy that'll last them a few years." I shrugged to myself.
"That's a great idea. Make them feel special too." She agreed.
We chatted over ideas for a little while and agreed we'd go with Sue this weekend and let Charlie and Emmett have a weekend.
We'd also invite Esme, since she was great at decorating.
I was finally looking forward to all this.
I could do it.
AN:
Bella is going to be strong!
She's going to be alone through this, as far as Jasper is concerned…
He'll be gone for a while…
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