AN: There is mentions of Bethany/Sebastian but they aren't together and it could be read as happening in the future or not; its up to you. Also, there is Merrillhawke mentioned.
Beth,
I hope you never get this letter because it means I'm dead (and yeah, sorry for being blunt but there is no other way to say it, don't give me that look). This is not starting out the way i hoped. Let's really hope you don't read it now. But else let's hope you don't because you don't need to lose anyone else. You shouldn't have too; you've alright lost so much. And I'm sorry.
I just want to know that I love you and you have always been my best friend. The person I trust the most. You have always been there for me and I could never ask for a better sister. You're the kindest person I know. And I love you. I can't say that enough.
Also, I want to say sorry for everything. For letting Carver die. Yes, I know it's not my fault but there had to be a way to stop him. A way where he didn't die. I could have saved him. For taking you to the Deep Roads. For being the reason you became a Grey Warden. I'm really sorry for that. I know it's not what you wanted. It's not what I wanted either. I just didn't want to lose you to the Templars-not that it made a difference anyway. I still lost you. But I just want to let you know I really was doing it to keep you safe and I'm sorry that it destroyed your life. I wish there was a way I could change it. I love you and I'm sorry. For Mother dying. I could have been faster. Realized what was going on sooner. I could have saved her. For dying. You always told me not to be so reckless but you know me what haven't I. I never wanted to leave you. Alone. I'm so sorry for this. I'm sorry. I love you. I wish you don't get this. I'm sorry. Sorry for all the negative, sorry for all the sorrys (alright I'll stop).
On a more positive note, though not too positive because I'm dead (sorry). Try to find some happiness. Please. It's not the end of the world. I know I said you're alone now but you really not. Aveline would look at for you like she always does for all of else really. Don't know where we'll be without her (don't tell her I said that). And you know Varric would watch all of our backs like he always does because it's Varric and he takes care of his friends. Isabela may act like she doesn't care but she does but just don't listen to anything she says about sex or brothels. I know it's going to be hard for Merril, just as hard as it would be for you. Please look out for her. Let her know that I love her and always will. Please. Also, I'm sure Sebastian would help you if you asked or wanted it (plus maybe it could became more; don't give me that look; I know you like him; also don't make the excuse of why it can't work because you're a Grey Warden; you deserve to be happy no matter how long it is; also it's not like you would be the only Grey Warden to find love anyway; the Hero of Ferelden and Alistair ring a bell; just give it a chance; I want you to be happy). Also, let's not forget any of the friends you made in the Wardens. I'm sure they would be more than happy to help you. Just find comfort. And know that you're not alone. Just have courage and be kind like you always do.
I love you, sis. You're the best sister I ever had (yes, I know you're the only one I have) and couldn't ask for a better sister. I love you and I'm so sorry. Be strong like I know you are. And stay the kind-hearted person you always have been through everything. I love you.
Your loving brother, James