AN: So my Hawke romanced Merrill so MerrillHawke. Next letter: Aveline
Dais,
I hope to the Maker and the Creators you don't ever receive this. I hope that you never have to read this.I'm so sorry. I'm not coming back like I promised. I'm sorry. I'm, oh Mer, I'm dead. I'm so sorry.
I want you to know that I love you. I love you more than I loved anyone. I love everything about you. The emerald green of you eyes. The way the sparkle with happiness. And your smile could light the world. And would do anything to see that smile one more time. I love you so much, Dais. I love your sweet, sweet voice. I love you. There is no flower more beautiful than you, though daisies are a close are the light of my life and I will love you always. You will always be in my heart. I love you forever and always.
I'm sorry. This was never part of the plan. Well, it's not like anyone plans to die. But you know what I mean. But yeah, this was not what I wanted in anyway. I wish we could have made a family with children and all if you wanted. It would have been nice. And lovely. And I wanted it so much. And I'm sorry it could never happened now. I wished we had more time. To be together. To grow old. To have more adventures in this adventure of life. I just wish it didn't end this way.
You already have too much to suffer from. I'm sorry for that. And I'm sorry for adding on to that. For causing the same pain as Marethari did. The same pain of losing both Tamlen and Alana in one blow. The pain you felt losing your clan-being forced to leave them. I'm so sorry. I never wanted that. I would give anything to make it not so. To take it all back. To make it so you wouldn't have to suffer. I'm sorry for all the pain I'm causing you. I never wanted that. Please forgive me. I'm so sorry.
Mer, I will always love you. But please don't let my death consume you. Please. It's not the end of the world even though it will feel like it is. I know I will feel that way if you died. But please live. Find happiness. With someone else or not. Just be happy. I love you and all I want is for you to be happy. I just want you to be happy. That's all I ask. Merrill, I love you and always remember that but don't be afraid to find love with someone else. Just be happy. Stay strong.
Look after Beth would you. You, two, are going to need each other. She's your sister as much as she is mine. Isabela and Aveline would help, too. They'll look out for you. And Varric too. Just know you're not alone. You've got friends who are your family. They'll be there for you in any way you need. I know you're going to need all the support you can get. They are there for you.
I love you Merrill. I will always will. You are my heart. The light of my life. I love you. Be happy. Stay strong. You will always be in my heart wherever I go. I love you.
Your Heart,
James