My Paper Heart
Chapter 17
"Where the hell were you?" I gasp at the familiar, yet foreign voice speaking once I turned the light on.
"Jasper?" I questioned.
"Who the fuck do you think it is? Don't you recognize your own husband?" he spat.
"Of course I do. You've lost weight and your voice is off." I kicked off my shoes and sat down.
"You still haven't answered my question. Where the hell were you?" he snapped.
I stood up and began my tirade "Who are you to question where the hell I've been? You've been MIA for months and then decide to show up and question me? I don't think so! I've been a single mom for all those months, I know you've been off on secret missions and risking your life but that doesn't give you a right to come in here and ask where I've been!" I screamed in his face.
Standing up and approaching me he sneered "You're my wife! And if you've been out on a date I have a fucking right to know." He grabbed my arm and pulled me to him.
"Let me go!" I said through clenched teeth. "You're hurting me!"
"Who were you with?" he was now right in my face and seething. His grip was so bad that I started crying.
"Emmett, Rose and Edward. We went to a New Year's Eve party." I finally yanked my arm away and he looked like he'd been slapped in the face.
"You were with Edward!" he yelled.
"And Emmett and Rose. They wanted me to go out and relax. I never have anytime to myself." I sighed.
"Where's Edward now?" his eyes were dark and murderous.
"I suppose he's either at home or with the girl he met and was kissing all night." I walked away and up to my room.
"So who were you with?" he followed me.
"NO ONE! I was the odd one out… As I have been! I don't go any FUCKING place unless it's to dinner, so I don't have to deal with it… It's also very hard to go out with three children, do you know that? Do you know what it's fucking like? I love my babies with ALL my heart, but the one time I fucking decide to actually GO OUT, you show up and get all possessive. Guess what Jasper, I don't need it!" I slammed the bathroom door in his face, locking it and sliding down, crying.
"God damn it Bella! Get out here." He was pounding on the door.
"Jasper, I need a shower. I need some time." I took in a shaky breath.
I stayed in the shower until it ran cold, brushed my hair and teeth, put my lotion on and then slowly entered the bedroom, ready for round 2.
Jasper was sitting on the balcony, smoking.
"If you put that out and come in here we can try and talk like adults." I said softly.
He stubbed it out and walked in.
"Let me shower quickly." He avoided my eyes.
He was out before I could finish dressing and walked up behind me kissing my shoulders and I started to cry.
"Shhh… I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled like that. I'm so sorry. I didn't want our reunion to be like this." He kissed my neck.
"Did you really think I'd move on Jasper?" I turned around to look in his eyes.
"I didn't know what to think when I came home and no one was here. All I wanted was a nice reunion with my family." He squeezed me tight. "After everything I've seen, done and been through; all I could think about is my family."
"I want to be here for you Jazz, but I need to know that we're OK. That you're NOT going to freak out if the kids don't come to you and hover with Emmett and Edward, they've been here for them." I caressed his cheek and he leaned into it.
"I want you Bella, I'm so sorry. Please let me have you, it's been too long." He pleaded with me.
"Take me. I've missed you. I love you." I reached up to kiss him.
We made slow, passionate love and then snuggled in each other's arms. Oh how much I've missed him.
"Does anyone know you're back?" I broke the silence.
"Not yet." He sighed.
"How long are you back for?" I chanced.
"I hope for quite a while. I was gone longer than usual this past time and took on extra duties." He ground out the last part.
"Let me help you forget, even if it's temporary. Let's just be Bella and Jasper right now." I kissed down his chest noticing new scars, but didn't say anything. He was very private about his scars.
We weren't gentle the second time around.
I let him take me like his life depended on it, because I think in a way it did.
Was I scared his temper was going to come out at the worst time? Hell yes.
But I'd be by his side and try to calm him when it did. Remind him he's still human, not a killing machine.
Now to see how the kids react tomorrow.
I curled into his side and fell fast asleep.
Until I was woke up in the worst possible way.
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