Var,

Here's to hoping you never have to read this or give these letters out. You know what happened and I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to.

This is hard to write. Varric, you're my best friend. You were the first good thing to come out of Kirkwall. I'm really glad to have met you despite all the shit that has happened. After meeting you, we went on a crazy trip into the Deep Roads, almost died down there, almost lost Beth who would be dead without Anders and the Grey Wardens and really is my fault in the first place that she was down there. I really wish I didn't bring her sometimes. Maybe her life would be better; at least she is free and never had to go to the Circle. I'm really glad for that. Then we almost died again fight freaking Qunari because Isabela stole a freaking book. Who knew the Quarni care so much about reading. Also, who knew the city were going to call me the Champion after killing the Arishok. Maybe I should have done that earlier. Actually no I shouldn't have. I probably would have died. I almost died anyway. And then we have Anders blowing up the freaking Chantry. Like what the heck man. Yeah, I hate what's happening to Mages but maybe blowing up a freaking building was not the greatest idea. And we did nearly die because Orsino decided to freaking become some demon abomination thing. We were winning there was no need for that. And let's not forget Meredith and her craziness. Lets just say, it's a miracle that we ever survive Kirkwall. Actually it's a miracle that I survived as long as I did. We almost died getting to Kirkwall. And we all didn't make it. Stupid Ogre. Stupid Carver for charging it. Why Carver why? All I'm saying is I last longer than I expected. Not that I want to die.

Sorry for the rambling. I'm really sorry for dying. I'm sorry, Var. I love you. You're my best friend. You have been there for me ever since Kirkwall. Helping me hide and everything. Sorry you got kidnapped. And dragged across Thedas. Wish I was there to help. Maybe it would be different. Maybe I would have died earlier. In that case, maybe it was a good thing I wasn't. But yet it again I still die, just later so I guess it great that I got to live longer. Which is good, I guess. And I'm rambling again. You're a great friend. And I'm sorry for dying on you. I never meant to.

Look out for everyone like you always do. Keep an eye on Beth; this is going to be hard on her. She's the last Hawke left. Reminder her she is not alone. Same goes to you. Watch Merrill for me. Like you always did in Kirkwall. Don't let her be lost. In her grief and everything. You too. Be just be there for her. She's going to need it. Make sure nobody finds Anders. Because that would be bad. Well, it could be and let's just avoid that. Also, keep him and Sebastian away from each other. It would just be best for the both of them. Don't be so harsh on Bast too. He's not so bad, you know. And you might as well check on Isabela and Aveline; make sure they are doing alright. Also, let them help you too. They are there for you too. You're not alone. We all in this together. Like always. Even though I'm dead. It's not so bad. At least, hopefully. I have no idea. But let's just hope for a great party up there. Because that would be great and not boring. Thanks.

Thanks for being my friend. Thanks for looking out for all of us. Thanks for getting us on your crazy brother's expedition, despite the horrible stuff that did happened during it. Thanks for helping keep me hidden. Thanks for everything. Thanks for delivering these letters. Thanks for being my best friend. I love you. Take care. Know that you're not alone. Be safe. Well as safe as you can by the Inquisitor. Just take care.

Goodbye Varric. The best friend I ever had. Love you. Take care. I'm sorry.

Your best friend,

Hawke

AN: Thanks for reading; this is the last chapter; please review