Once inside the diner, Will was introduced to Chad's girlfriend. Apparently, she already knew Sonny and gave him a bright, but slightly shy smile, giggling, one of her finger playing with her hair. Will felt himself relax a little. Chad sounded all exited, which was also good at distracting him, after all the highly shattering interactions Will had gone through.
"Will, this is the beautiful Melanie, my girlfriend. Mel, this is Will, Sonny's boyfriend.
- Hey, Will, nice meeting you. Sonny talks about you all the time." Will turned his head, hiding his emotion behind a smirk
- Does he? I hope I'll live up to your expectations, then." Sonny returned his gaze in a cocky way and gave him a quick peck. His arm was around Will's chest and it was a welcome physical support.
"So, let's go and order, I'm starving and there's no way I'm late to the concert!" Mel turned to Chad and patted his hand
- Concerts rarely start on time, you know that.
- That doesn't mean nothing is going on. You can have great new bands doing the opening, you can meet some of the musicians sometimes, or talk to the security guys and then later, they let you in the wings..." Once, again Chad was doing most of the conversation, in his lively way. Will sat next to Mel and gave her a friendly smile. She let out a tiny sigh and smiled back.
- What about you Will? What band do you listen to?" Will was startled out of his thoughts. Chad and Sonny had been talking about some popular song that Sonny said he liked, even if it was "...not indie enough for you. It's catchy!" and suddenly all three pair of eyes were on Will. He looked into Sonny's soft eyes, absorbing their silent soothing reality and tried to answer slowly, not to get overwhelmed. He focused on what his taste actually was, looking down on the table, so as not to react to Chad's body language and change his answers.
He lift his head when he heard him chuckle
"What are you doing with Sonny, man! You are waaay more advanced musically than he ever will be!" Sonny was giving him a dark look. Will felt warmth and confusion in his chest.
- I don't like the same stuff you do, though, and I don't know most of the new bands...
- Well, then, if I can have you discover new songs you like, I'll be delighted. I hope you'll like those we are hearing tonight." Will tried dealing with Chad's attitude as quietly as he could. It sounded that Chad cared about his opinion, that he saw him as someone who mattered. Sonny did too, of course, but Sonny was in love so it explained it. Chad was a confident, edgy kind of guy, the kind that looked down at Will in High School, or didn't even notice him in college. To be fair, Will recognized himself a little in Mel, in the way her eyes fluttered everywhere when spoken too, in the way she almost swallowed back her words when she wasn't sure. She was very shy too and Chad was into her.
They took Chad's car to the open field where the concert was taking place. There was indeed a security team, all dressed in black and taking off the cap of water bottles. They chose a spot on the grass and were about to put their jackets on the floor, but Sonny took a thin blanket from his backpack and spread it. Will was thankful for it, while it was getting warmer everyday, it was still cold. In order for them to fit on it, each couple had to squeeze tightly and Will wondered if it was intentional on Sonny's part or if it was just a lucky upside for him.
Their hands were clasped in each other's, Sonny's warmth shielding Will's back from the chilly air. Will gave him a grateful kiss, then turned to the stage where a group of very young teenagers were bringing their instruments. They were very bad and Will laughed hard as he and Chad commented on it, devising ways of getting them to stop in various creative ways.
- Remind me never to get on your bad side, sweetheart. You hide your psychotic tendencies well..." Sonny was laughing but Will froze. It took his boyfriend a few second to catch up, then he buried his forehead in Will's shoulder, whispering: "Sorry, I'm an ass..." Will sighed and looked at the stage, where another band was assembling, looking more seasoned than the last one. Thankfully they were all right and had quite a good stage presence, getting the audience to repeat their chorus and some of those who were standing to dance.
They weren't the main band, though. Chad left for a while to buy some drinks and shy Mel really had to talk to them on her own.
"So, Will, what do you like besides music?"
- Oh, hum... I like writing. And bird watching..." The list was short, when he put it like that. He liked Sonny a lot too, but that he kept to himself.
- Will is fantastic with little kids too. And he's good at spotting beautiful sights. Walking with him is eye-opening." Sonny added.
Will was trembling now, wondering once again how on earth someone as gentle and considerate was interested in him.
Sonny tried to sing along with the catchiest songs. Will found him too cute to interfere. When the tune was so off, it was becoming painful to hear, he twisted his chest and pressed his lips on Sonny's, who forgot about the concert instantly, responding with enthusiasm. When the song ended, he whispered:
"You still love me, even though I can't sing?" The tone was playful, but there was an uncertainty somewhere. Will had learned to spot it every time.
- I love you so much, I want us to come back to your place when the show is over." He felt Sonny's breath hitched in his throat, making his own chest flutter. Their eyes met in the artificial multicolored lightning and now they were alone, in the whole universe. Will felt the trust Sonny had established between them give him wings, make him brave. He swallowed, feeling his body heating up.
There was still half-an-hour of show left and maybe Chad would want to meet the band afterward. Will stopped paying attention to the music, even though he loved it and was planning to buy the CD to support the band. His mind was all absorbed in Sonny's hungry stare.
Mel's jaw looked a little rigid, as they followed Chad in his quest for CD's and autographs. Will asked, as gently as he could:
"You're getting tired?" Mel giggled and nodded. She was discreet but Chad caught it and directed them to his car, mumbling:
- Sorry guys, but I have a lady to tuck up." Sonny pressed Will's hand almost roughly and replied
- It's okay, Chad. The evening was great but we are all in a hurry to go to bed." They were in a dark area now, so Will was relieved that his blushing wouldn't be visible. He tapped Sonny's arms in teasing reproach and sat next to him in the car.
They kissed while climbing the stairs, with no tenderness or delicacy. Will felt he was being eaten alive and loved it. The had to stop while Sonny looked for his keys. Will took the opportunity to breathe and deal with the rising panic in his throat. He wanted something to happen, his body was totally on par with the development but something else was getting in the way, short-circuiting his brain-process. His legs were driven in two opposite directions and it hurt.
He followed Sonny in nevertheless. He followed him in the living-room and he followed him to the bedroom. It was the first time he saw Sonny's bed and it was a narrow double bed.
Sonny's hand were groping him, restless but suddenly they stopped. Two brown serious eyes captured Will's blue ones and he heard a whisper
"Are you sure? I can stop." It was exactly what had to be asked and Will knew he loved Sonny even more for making sure but the answer was difficult to find. He racked his brain. He didn't know a lot. He had never given sex a lot of thought or researched it one way or another but he knew there wasn't just one way, even for gay men.
- I don't think I can go all the way, Son. But you can undress me for a start." Sonny shivered, his face looking vulnerable and virile at the same time.
- I love you, Will. You're so precious to me... I love you..." His voice was getting lower and softer and he whispered the same things, helping Will relax until they were both in their boxers.
Sonny was caressing him with only one finger, planting small kisses at random. Will was trembling again.
"Don't fly away, my little bird..." So he wasn't hiding his inner agitation. Will gave up and answered:
- I want to, Sonny. I'm terrified too, I'm sorry.
- Don't be, I understand. We can go slow. Tell me what you want to do or what you allow me to try. Take your time.
- Won't it be too frustrating for you?" Sonny had a crooked weird smile.
- Very, you have no idea. But I want you to enjoy yourself, not act out of fear of losing me. You won't, whatever happens."
As Will's hand began to slowly explore the content of his boyfriend's boxer's, he had a fleeting vision of his father gagging at the sight of him doing that. He pushed it away as well as he could and inch by inch approached the end of Sonny's erection. Here was something that he knew very well as he'd dealt with his own before, but that belonged to someone who made his heart twist, rendering it mesmerizing and very frightening...