Hiccup was finally left alone in his hut. He was laying there on his bed on his side staring at Toothless who sat next to Hiccup with his head on the mattress. Hiccup had his right hand on top of Toothless' head. He tried to get some sleep but he couldn't. Because he couldn't help but think about how much he suffered in that ship every time he closed his eyes. He would get flashbacks. Horrible flashbacks.
The pain. The torturing. The humiliation.
Tears came down from his eyes and Hiccup started sobbing. He couldn't help it. It was just too horrible. He wished that he could have just died when he fought the Red Death, then he wouldn't have to go through this nightmare. But he did anyway, and it was just too much for him. Eventually his sobbing stopped, and that was when he realised he was dirty and covered with sweat and blood. He decided to go somewhere to clean himself up.
He got some clean clothes and a towel and put it in his satchel. It was hard to climb on top of Toothless because it hurt. Everywhere hurt. So bad. A few tears came rolling down his cheeks, but gritting his teeth, he was able to push himself up. He rest his head on top of Toothless' and just lay there panting. He wanted to scream because of the pain, but it was late so he didn't, afraid he might wake his friends up. After a few moments, he came out from his hut and flew away with Toothless.
Moments later, he arrived at the pond only he and Astrid knew about, and decided to wash up there. He took off all his clothes and got into the pond. Usually, he didn't mind if Astrid walked in on him when he was bathing. But right now, he just didn't want anyone to see him like that. To see his bruised covered skin. He didn't have to worry about that though, because he knew that other than Astrid, the gang didn't know about this place. This was his and Astrid's secret place to bathe, and it was late, so he knew Astrid would not come here to bathe at this time, so he wasn't worried about being seen.
He just sat there in the pond, doing nothing but stare into blank space. Toothless became worried and went to nudge Hiccup, which snapped Hiccup from his thoughts. When he turned to look at Toothless, Toothless saw a tear fall from his eyes. Toothless cooed at him and Hiccup just looked at him sadly, a few more tears falling down his cheeks. After a few moments, he finally began to clean himself up. He scrubbed himself everywhere. He made sure to scrub every part of him, to clean off the blood. Even that hurt. He kept wincing, but still made sure to scrub himself properly until the pond was slowly turning red from the blood. He was finally done with his body. Now it was time for his head. He painfully got up and walked to the waterfall. He just stood there letting the water clean his hair and face.
Suddenly he started to cry. He was crying loudly and just couldn't stop himself. And then he screamed from the top of his lungs, startling Toothless.
"Ahhhhhhhhh!" He just kept screaming and didn't stop. He was angry, confused, exhausted, hurt, broken... Toothless just sat there and let his rider scream.
Eventually he stopped. He got out and changed and left with Toothless to his hut and fell asleep. But unfortunately it was full of nightmares.