omg I'm on a roll guys lol I don't own Dear Evan Hansen (which is mentioned)

Allen could not relax. Ever. He was always on edge about everything, his exams that were due in a week, his homework, his weight, his appearance, his sexuality. He never felt like he was good enough for anyone. He guessed he felt that way because for years he'd been harassed and bullied by everyone in his class for his exotic features and because he was hella gay. So, as a result, he mostly kept quiet and avoided social interaction except for two people. Lenalee and Lavi were the only people he trusted, and he was perfectly fine with having only two friends in his life. His alarm screeched at him, and he fell off his bed in fright. His room was always dark, gloomy and cramped full of everything possible. Allen crawled over to his nightstand and turned off the alarm before he grabbed his glasses wandered into his closet. Allen threw a hoodie on and a pair of jeans and went into the bathroom to brush his teeth. He got on his phone and messaged Lenalee to ask her if she had the notes for the American History quiz today. He hurriedly brushed his teeth and went into the kitchen to grab some food. As usual, he was the only one awake in his house because his single mother didn't wake up until 7 a.m. he didn't mind it though, it gave him some time to be completely alone with himself and think.

Allen turned on the light in the kitchen and poured himself some orange juice, and poured himself a bowl of frosted flakes. While he was eating he got a text message from Lenalee saying she'd give him the notes when he got to school. Allen sighed with relief and put his now empty bowl in the sink along with his cup, he turned off the kitchen light before he left his house with his backpack, and violin case at his side. He slung the bag over his shoulder and walked to the stop sign by his house and waited for the bus to take him to absolutely hated buses, they were always full of other teenagers with bad attitudes. After standing there awkwardly with a couple of other people the bus finally came and Allen got on. Luckily there was an empty seat when he got on, so he sat there on his phone, texting Lenalee and Lavi about how annoying American History quizzes were. 'true!' replied Lavi, which made Allen laugh. The only reason he really bothered with going to school was because of his two best friends. They made it more bearable.

Allen was leaning his head on one of the bus' windows when another person sat down next to him. He glanced at his new companion and internally screamed. It was Kanda Yuu, the man he had the hugest crush on. His sharp features and long raven hair made Allen's heart pound so hard that he thought the man next to him would definitely be able to hear it. Allen looked away quickly before the older male could notice his creepy staring, and tried to keep his cool through the bus was fairly quiet on the bus, so he put some earbuds in and listened to one of his favorite songs from his favorite musical, Words Fail, from Dear Evan Hansen. The song was so relatable in so many ways, he had no father and he was always messing up everything in his life. He also just wanted to forget he was sitting so close to his one and only crush.

The bus finally came to a stop at school as the song ended, and Allen jumped over the seat to get off the bus first, he had too much anxiety to be near his crush any longer, it felt like his heart was going to explode in his chest. When he finally got into the school he realized something. He had forgotten his violin on the bus, he gave a rough sigh, and just gave up on it. It would still be there in the afternoon because the bus driver always looked to see if anything was left behind. He attempted to relax and find Lenalee and beg her for notes. He found her in the Cafeteria eating school breakfast. "Good morning Allen!" she said cheerfully, patting the seat beside her. Allen took the invitation and sat down next to her. "Good morning," Allen replied with an equally cheerful smile. She rifled through her bag and produced a paper full of notes.

"You're lucky I made an extra copy," Lenalee said with a smile. Allen thanked her and began studying, Lavi showed up a few minutes later, with chocolate chip cookies in his pajamas.

"Dude. Where did you even get those?" Allen asked after Lavi handed him one. The redhead smiled and launched into an entire story about his adventure to the store at 3 a.m. to get cookies.

"So, basically I woke up at 3 today, and I was hungry so got cookies at the store before I drove all the way here in my pajamas," Lavi told his friend, offering him another cookie. "They're so good, it was worth it"

Allen couldn't agree more as he continued to study for this stupid test he had first thing in the morning. "Thank God you take good notes Lenalee, usually I'd do them myself, but I fell asleep," Allen told her. He had stayed up all night worrying about a presentation the day they took notes, so he'd fallen asleep all first hour. He scanned the paper a couple more times before he handed it back to her and the bell rang for their first period to start. He released a nervous sigh and grabbed his backpack before going to his boring American History class. He walked pretty fast and made it there first, and picked the seat in the very back as usual, and put his backpack on the desk and looked through it, trying to find a pencil. Eventually, he found one and everyone was streaming in. Now that he had studied he felt slightly better about this test, and when his teacher handed him the test he felt like he did pretty well. Now he didn't even know why he had even worried about it, he would've done fine even without the notes.

Before class was over he got his test back and he'd gotten a perfect score, as usual. "Dang, how'd you get 100?" Kanda asked him, and Allen jumped. He hadn't noticed that Kanda was sitting in the seat next to him, nor did he even realize they had the same class. Allen shrugged, "I-I studied.." he told Kanda, avoiding his gaze. Kanda sighed shortly and looked like he was about to say something. "What?" Allen asked, gaining some courage.

"Could you, like, teach me this stuff? I'm failing this class." he explained and Allen nodded with understanding, "Sure, I'm not doing anything later, you can come over sometime after school." He didn't know why he said that he was always so nervous around people other than Lenalee and Lavi. But as Kanda agreed he found that the feeling of dread in the pit of his stomach was actually him feeling excited. Maybe this was the beginning of something.

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Later that afternoon Kanda and him got off at his stop and headed to Allen's house. Allen had gotten his violin from the bus driver earlier, so when they got inside he set his case on the table. Kanda made himself comfortable on his couch as Allen sat down next to him with his American History notes. He felt a little nervous having a person other than his mother in his house. "So, um. Where do I start?" Allen muttered awkwardly. Maybe he should start with the basics. He tried to explain to the best of his abilities the American Revolution, which is as basic as you could in American History. Allen explained it very simply to the older male before America was America, it was actually part of the British Empire as Thirteen colonies. The colonies got sick of being ruled by Britain, so with the help of the French they broke away from them and became their very own Nation. After he explained it three times it got much easier.

A few hours later Allen was sure Kanda had most of it correct. "Why are so quiet in school?" Kanda asked out of the blue.

"I'm not quiet," he said, but Kanda gave him a look that told him he was wrong. "Okay...maybe I'm a little quiet. It's just that-" Kanda scooted closer, and Allen's voice suddenly went very high. "I-um-get-very-nervous-around-people-and-I-I-I-" but his embarrassing stuttering was stopped by Kanda's lips. Allen's eyes widened and his arms wrapped around Kanda's neck.

"You seriously need to relax Allen," Kanda said with a smile.

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