Hiccup was left alone for the rest of the afternoon, and didn't come out for dinner because he told them he wasn't hungry.

It was almost midnight. Hiccup was in his hut, sitting on the floor against his bed. He was staring at Toothless who was sleeping in the corner of his hut. And then he closed his eyes. He couldn't do it anymore. He was tired of fighting. He gave up. He took the knife that was laying beside him and pointed it at his wrist. Tears were streaming down his face. He was trembling. He took in a deep breath and cut his right wrist. It hurt. It hurt so bad, but he didn't care anymore. And then he did it again.

Suddenly, Toothless woke up to the smell of blood. Hiccup's blood. He got up, saw Hiccup with a knife and panicked. He decided to get the others for help. A few minutes later, Toothless came back with the others following behind. Everyone gasped.

"Oh my Thor! Hiccup! What are you doing?!" Astrid yelled in panic.

"Don't! Don't come any closer or I will cut myself more!" Hiccup yelled back.

The gang froze. They didn't dare go any closer. They just stood there with wide eyes.

"Hiccup! You are going to bleed to death! Just calm down and give us the knife." Fishlegs said worriedly.

"I know. I've done this before. I know this could kill me." Hiccup said calmly. They all froze. He has done this before? And then Fishlegs spoke.

"What... what do you mean you have done this before? Hiccup, a-are you saying..."

"Yes. This isn't the first time... I tried to kill myself before." Hiccup spoke softly and calmly.

"What?! When?!" Ruffnut asked.

Hiccup closed his eyes. He was getting really tired from the blood loss.

"When I was 15. Before I found Toothless in the woods. I had nobody! No friends! I was always alone! Everybody hated me! I was always bullied and hurt by you guys! And then one day I just couldn't take it anymore!" Hiccup said bitterly and turned to look at Astrid who had a shocked face.

"I thought you would have noticed the scar, Astrid." He said softly.

"That... that faint scar on your wrist? I noticed that but I thought you got that from the forge!" Astrid said.

He closed his eyes again. He felt so weak, he feels he could pass out any moment.

"I-I'm sorry. I can't do this anymore. I c-can't stop thinking about what they did to me. I tried... I tried so h-hard but I just can't get over it. I'm sorry." He said with trembling lips. He couldn't stop crying.

And then he cut himself again. Everyone panicked.

"STOP!" They screamed in unison.

"If this is because of what I said, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry, Hiccup! I shouldn't have said all that! Please don't do this! I am begging you!" Snotlout said desperately.

Hiccup didn't answer. He only stared at him. He was about to cut himself again when Astrid spoke.

"Remember what you promised me, Hiccup? Remember what you promised me on that night you said you would never forget? That night you said you loved me like a million times?" Astrid said urgently, but with a smile when she thought about that very night.

Hiccup looked up. Memories of that amazing unforgettable night brought a small smile to his lips. Astrid spoke again.

"You promised me that you would never leave me! That we would always be together no matter what! If you kill yourself, that means you are leaving me... which would mean you break your promise." Astrid said to him.

Hiccup's smile faded. She was right. If he kills himself, he would break his promise, and Astrid would be all alone. He can't do this to Astrid. She doesn't deserve this.

"I... I'm so sorry! I wasn't thinking." Hiccup said with a trembling voice. His grip on the knife slowly loosened. Astrid saw that and approached him slowly. She gently took the knife from his trembling hands, placed it on the floor and pushed it as far away from him as she could. She then applied pressure on his cuts while Fishlegs went to get some bandages. Snotlout just stood there, still shocked from what was happening, while the Twins also helped to apply pressure on the cuts because he was bleeding too much. There was a large amount of blood on the floor and some of it got on his pants and tunic as well. Hiccup was still crying and shaking. He looked so pale. He was loosing too much blood and that scared Astrid.

Fishlegs finally returned with bandages and started cleaning his cuts. Fishlegs was bandaging Hiccup's wrist when he suddenly spoke.

"I'm so t-tired." He said weakly.

"It's okay, baby. Everything will be fine. Just stay with me, okay? Just keep looking at me." Astrid wiped her blood-soaked hands on her shirt before cupping his cheeks.

Hiccup struggled to keep his eyes open. He tried so hard but he just couldn't keep it open any longer. Slowly, his eyes started to close and the gang panicked.

"Hiccup? Hiccup!" Astrid shouted. But Hiccup already passed out.