Ug, sorry this took so long. my muse isn't really wanting to do this story, but i already wrote everything in a book. Unfortunatly it wants to change somethings but gets stuck at weird places. So if this chapter sucks I'm sorry.

Chapter 12: Reminders hurt

I didn't sleep that night. I was too concerned about Hot Shot and I didn't want to take my optics off of him. In my boredom I started to watch my sparkling as she and Bumblebee kicked and wiggled around. I wondered if they knew or felt their parents sparks go out. I sighed and sat on the edge of her berth watching her, hoping she wouldn't feel the pain of her creators spark going out like I did. I knew of the conection between sparklings and their parents and how some could feel their pain. I know I could feel Starlit's feelings at times in my spark.

Starlight cooed in her sleep and Bee rolled over and put his hand over her face. It was the cutest thing and it reminded me I had to raise them on my own. I was alone to raise these two sparklings, Hot Shot and be the leader of the Autobots. I started to worry I couldn't do both.

I worried Starlight would have to go into foster care all because of my job. Then I remembered all the help I had around me. Jazz would be more than happy to spark-sit on his time off and if he couldn't Arcee could do it. Both bots loved sparkings. Prowl would help tech them tactics when they got older and Ironhide or I could help with weapons training. I had more bots then I could count that could help me when and if I needed them.

I watched my younglings sleep a little longer. I stroked my Starlight's cheek making her click and causing bumblebee to squawk in his sleep. He relaxed and wrapped his arms back around her and Starlight cuddled up to him. I chuckled.

I hoped that Hot Shot would get better and be able to take care of Bumblebee. I was only their care taker until he turned fifteen then I had no say over him or his younger brother unless he gave Bee up. Though I hoped they would stay together and be a true family.

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