Hello everyone, hope you like this chapter
I do not own any of the characters just the story.
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Mikan's POV:
12/2/20XX
I was always the type of girl who was always there for my girls. I was the friend that always understood; even when their own parents turned against them I would be there. The type of person who would help you bury a body 3am in the morning in the cemetery. I was the type of person who would go and kick your boyfriend's sorry ass if he ever cheated on you or hurt you in any way and after that give you both my shoulders to cry on. I would be the motivation and your inspiration to be a better person. I am not bragging or anything, but all I am trying to say is that I tried so hard to be the perfect best friend.
Though being the perfect best friend, when you make a microscopic mistake… your whole world comes trampling down and what's worse is when you know you're the one who caused it all. Its funny how people can forget all the good things you did for them in a fraction of seconds but remember all your indiscretion like it was actually happening at that very moment?
15/3/20XX
I did everything! Yet what did I get? A stupid fucking slap on my face, she was the one who told me to never tell another living soul. To hell she expected me to lie to her mom! I loved her mom just how she loved me. She assumed she was the one who was betrayed, what about me? Do I look like a pathetic mannequin that has to sit and watch her go and ruin her damn life? If it wasn't for that lame excuse of being her best friend I would not have felt so guilty about it. Does she expect me to let her do all that shit with her asshole of a creature she calls her boyfriend? I am so out of this. Let her do what she wants.
I didn't want to go on and read the next entry in my diary. It brought back the words I do not want to hear again, scenes I hoped went in a different way, endings I long to be corrected and memories I wish to forget. I didn't feel the tears that had fallen until they landed on the pages of my diary, smudging the words I had once written while I tried to rub them away. It's funny how no matter how many times I read it, the tear always fell just before the main event, the critical part. Wow. I just realized that even when the tears will evaporate from this page, there will still be tears held back. Now I know that crying a river isn't enough. Maybe it was because I knew what would happen and I still can't change it. I didn't need to read my own words; the whole scenario would play in my head like a black and white blurry movie. The words loud, crystal clear, booming in my eardrum.
What happened earlier in school, the way Hyuuga said it, I felt like I betrayed yet someone again. Mikan, you're not this person who would sabotage a relationship. Ugh. I feel like shit. The leakage from my eyes refuses to come to a halt. I must be the most selfish person in the whole dynamic world.
"Yes you are 'that girl' who ruined a perfectly good relationship."
Nice one Hyuuga, you got me there; I'll prove you wrong. I cease let that bastard win, what's his problem anyway? What did I do to make him hate me so much?
You punched him in the arm remember Mikan?
Yes I know but that does not mean he has to hold a grudge against me for it. Sheesh! He's a dude for apple pie sake! He should be more mature about it.
Or maybe you should just apologize? Ever think of that dimwit?
I-HAVE-TO-STOP-TALKING-TO-MYSELF.
I take one last look at the cover of my old diary I let out a sigh. "I guess there really is no use crying over spilt milk." I say aloud to no one in particular. I need to get some homework done, I hate math so much.
I get off my bed and make my way my study table; I grab a tissue and wipe away the already dry tears. I don't like the sticky feeling it leaves. I'll just have to take it in. I'll fix that problem with Ruka tomorrow I promise.
"Don't worry Mikan, just tell the truth as you always did."
How miserable right? I have to comfort myself.
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Natsume's POV:
Why did I have to go out with this girl? She's not annoying no…she's vexatious, yes that's the term.
Kill me.
"I can't believe you actually asked me out! Like me? Over all the other pretty girls in the school? I feel special!" she literally squeaks out. Now those words are very genuine, except for the fact that she had a look that she wanted to rape the shit out of me look in her eyes. Why do I end up with such bitches? Tch. All I wanted was a hoe to fuck around with, not a whining 5 year old with big boobs.
Rack city bitch Rack Rack city bitch…
"Yo".
"Hey Natsume, I think we should go see how Ruka's doing. He seems to be in a bad condition of heart-broken-syndrome. You busy now?"
It's Koko by the way if you guys were wondering who I was talking too.
"Nope. I'll meet you there"
I didn't wait for his reply and cut the call.
I turn my head to the girl infront of me. What a waste.
"Sorry babe, but I got better things to do and somewhere else to be right now" I say while taking out my wallet to pay for the bill. I didn't want to see the look on her face because I've seen it before. The look of "rejection". I get up and make my own way out without another word.
Well that was fun…not. I could hear her voice following me, she was saying something like 'why? Did I do something wrong? Is there another?' Bitch, I just asked you out for 1 date and you made your self so easy. To hell with that, I walked out the restaurant and make my way to my BMW z4. I start the engine of it and start to reverse. I didn't even look back and zoomed to Ruka's house. Yes I said zoomed because that's what I literally did. Deal with it.
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Mikan's POV:
6:54 PM.
I can't believe I just spent 3 hours on my math homework, but alas! I was done and exhausted was not the word. I look at the clock and it's still quite early, maybe a little walk would be nice. Plus I feel fat after all those French fries I consumed this week. That's my weak spot, French fries. I quickly changed my clothes to grey sweat pants and an oversized black hoddie with rolling stones and the tongue on it. I put my hair in a high bun so I won't get that high sticky feeling when I sweat. I skip down stairs, kind of like warming up, and put my snickers on. My mom won't be home till 10 so I don't think I have to tell her since I'll be home before her anyway. I grab my keys and phone and I'm off!
I start listening to the song "Where are you" by some unknown singer, Permy gave me that song saying this is what my heart feels. How does she know me heart again you may think? Well surprisingly the song does describe what I feel…
How does he laugh? How does he cry?
What's the colour of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he? Who is he? Who's gonna take me so high!
Weird right?
After a couple of songs that played, and jogging while enjoying the music. I ended up in a small dinner at the corner of the curb. My breathing was heavy and I know I need water…now. With my earphones still intact to my ears I walked in the dinner. The dinner was quite cool; it was kind of like those dinners where the waitresses would go around giving their order in roller blades. The floor was checkered black and white, there was a songbox at the end of the dinner and few couch-like places for people who were in a big group that were pink coloured. I like it! I sat on those tables for the one-customer kind of chair.
I order on double chocolate milkshake and a double cheese chicken burger with fries. So much for my diet!
I waited while bobbling my head to the music when I felt something wet hit the back of my bare neck. I reach out my hand to the back to get whatever it was, I felt humiliated when I looked at my hand and saw a chewed gum. Who has the nerve to throw this at me? Well whoever it is will pay very dearly.
I get of the chair and look around to see who could have done it, and then I saw a girl with short black hair and lilac eyes. Her eyes seemed like there were staring at the TV screen for 24 hours cause of the redness, but I know better than that. Her body was petite and her skin was pearl white. I was a bit confounded because I was not prepared to face someone who looked like she wanted to stab anyone in the eye. I figured I was staring for too long as she rolls her eyes at me. What is up with people being such a bitch to now? What did I do to deserve this? Ugh. Who the hell does this chick thinks she is for throwing that gum on me, I don't even know her! I saw her eyes look at me from top to bottom.
"How long do you plan on examining me for?" she said in a static voice. I was a bit taken back by it.
"Twice as long as you stare at me I guess". Something tells me this girl had a motive of throwing her gum at me.
"I apologize for my bad aim, it was supposed to land on that coconut tree you got there. Sorry. " she said a bit loudly so I could hear her,a vicious smirk played on her face.(she was referring to my bun)
I walk up to where she was sitting, it was in the couch area and it was a correlation as to how the dinner was empty and only the two of us were there. I now stand infront of her, pissed off.
"What is your problem? Do I have anything against you? Because I have never seen you in my life before." I seriously didn't.
She looked at me with bored yet I-can't-believe-you-don't-know look. Her gaze was locked on a glass of water that was set on the table.
"I assume you are aware that you made 'big' mistakes, am I correct?" she then looks at me but continues to talk. "You ravaged my relationship with my boyfriend, and I want to thank you for it". I was speechless, the look in her eyes, I could see the pain circulating in her mind through them. I was dumb-founded. I think she has more to say so I stay there like hard stone and wait.
"You must be wondering why I am giving you my gratitude. Well I would not have realized that…he could and did cheat on me. I feel so vulnerable and passive, but when I saw you that day with him. The fact that he blushed when you pinched his cheeks, I came aware that you were a new student just recently so I can't blame you. Not completely anyway." She was looking out the window, and her eyes were far away from this world. She was just like me, blabbering on when weak to any stranger that flows in. So this is The Hotaru Imai I heard about so much. My image of her was not an understatement in fact it was much more.
Tears slowly trickled down her cheek; I could not just stand there and see her sob. I took a good distance seat away from her which was opposite to there she was sitting. We were now facing each other. I reach out the handkerchief I had in my pocket, it was the best idea I could think off. She stared at me hand for what seemed like ages but gradually accepted it as she wiped her tears. In situations like this I don't really know what to say. But I guess I'll go with the truth.
"Listen Imai… what happened that time was just a-"
"I don't want to hear any explanation, what is done is done. Moving on in life." she retorted icy back at me.
I look at her in the eye, to try and send her the let-me-explain-first look. To my advantage it worked like a charm. She must really be so hurt now, to be so weak and listen to just about anyone.
"Fine, go on"
"When I walked out of my supposedly new classroom, I was in a well, fucked up mood. This Luna girl picked a fight with me."
"First day, and you had to pick a fight with the Queen Bee didn't you?"
"She asked for it! Anyway I was in an already bad mood and I walked around aimlessly and ended up there behind the school, and I guess you know your boyfriend more than I do so maybe he sympathized me at the time. I won't lie, I did have a tiny little bitsy crush on him because he's so prince like… I was parviscient to your relationship. And I don't know what came over me and well…" I trailed off; I didn't know what else to say. I didn't know how to depend myself at all. Well it's hard to in a situation like this.
She took in what I said as she lets out a sigh, she then studies me trying to contemplate in her mind. I give her the time she needs. I mean what else could I do? Her look was creepy and I had to look away. My eyes wandered to my hands that were caved on each other, they were just as nervous as I am. My fingers were doing summersaults and loops around each other, they couldn't just stay still.
"And you can swear that this is all that happened? That neither of you had any intention of anything else? That he followed out of his kindness and you acted the way you did because you were unaware?" she raises a brow almost mockingly at me. My mouth was dry now and I had to make this work so that their relationship will be saved.
"Yes I-…"
"Yes I am sure that is all that happened and nothing more." Someone's voice was heard behind me. I think it was coming from the entrance to the dinner, I know this voice I swear…and then it hit me!
Ruka…
A part of me was blissed that he was here; I turned my head and saw Ruka standing by the door halfway in and Natsume right behind him peeking over his shoulder and smirked when he saw me. This douche has the nerve to smirk in a situation like this? I'll deal with him later. I saw Ruka walking up to where we were sitting. When I turned my head to Hotaru, I could tell he was worse than uncomfortable. How? The fact that her lower lip is trembling, her hand in a fist and her heavy breathing gave it away. I held her hand that was in a fist. She wanted to take her hand back and was about to but I grab it with my other hand.
"I know we don't know each other and I have no right to say this but I think I've done things that are much worse right now. Just talk to him ok? Because it seems like you can't lose anything from it but you could gain back the person you love right?" I give her a gentle smile. I don't want their relationship to end because of a petty misunderstanding. I can see that Hotaru really loves him it would be such a waste of happiness to be lost now.
I give Hotaru's hand a small squeeze, I felt Ruka at the side of the table and I got up so he could sit there instead of me. I didn't look back, it's up to them if they wanna keep going. I did my part. I walk over to Natsume and… wait since when did I start calling him Natsume?
Oh c'mon Mikan it's in your head anyway.
He was chewing on half a burger while there was another half on the plate. I almost forgot about my order!
"Excused me Miss? But where's, my order?" I tried my best not to sound rude.
"This gentleman over here said he was with you so I gave it to him" the waitress said while looking at Natsume.
IS NATSUME EATING MY BURGER!
"How dare you bastard!" I say while grabbing the remaining of my burger and fries.
"I was hungry so I ate what I first saw" he said like it was the simplest thing in the world.
"Why can't you order yourself?"
"You ordered before I was here, I wanted it at that moment" he said as he took another bite of my other half of the burger.
"But if you want it back so much here" he says as he gives me the other half with a huge chunk missing. My heart broke.
"It's ok Hyuuga, what's done is done anyway. I sigh and decided to sit next to him and ignore his existence.
We ate in silence for a while, which was really awkward. I surveyed him from the side of my eye. How he was wearing a plain dark blue shirt and a black leather jacket. He had jeans on with a pair of worn out vans. He also had a black beanie on his head which made him look really cute and-
Slow down Mikan! He is not cute. He is a jerk and an arse. You don't fall for jerks. Tsk tsk!
"I am surprised to see you in one piece; you must really be something to have lived after meeting my cousin especially with what you have done." He chuckles at the end like it was actually funny. Ok now I am scared.
"What do you mean? Wait… Hotaru is your cousin?!" I yelped.
"Yes and you don't need to scream. Tch." He was annoyed.
"Why? I mean it's just a misunderstanding. I've been there before so I know how to handle that type of situation."
" Wow. So you've home wrecked some other couples too huh? Interesting."
"UH! You make me sound like a whore and NO! I didn't do it to a lot of couples, just 1. And it's none of your business." I should have perceived this moment and kept my guard up from the start.
"Thanks."
I was shocked, what is he tanking me for? I didn't do anything…
"For?"
"For caring enough to talk some sense into my cousin, she may have this tough façade on the outside but as you can see she has a soft center when it comes to the people she values" he looks at me with those crimson eyes, I saw a little red light tingling inside for a milli-second and it was gone along with that small smile I didn't miss out. I think I was mesmerized too long because he looks away and turns cold again. It took me a moment to realize my heart was beating like it just ran a marathon. I felt my cheeks were flushed too. I look away in the other direction. This was getting awkward, stood up and was about to leave."Oii"
I turn around hoping he would say goodbye to me. The hell?
"You forgot to pay for your half of the burger." He said as he got out some cash from his wallet.
Can I punch him in the face? Or will the whole girl population at school kill me if I did? I choose not to for my own safety. I walk back and put down the exact half of the bill. It was getting late. I wanted to tell Ruka and Hotaru bye but I guess I'll just let them be. I give Natsume one last look which I hope he didn't notice.
I whispered a bye to him which I thought he didn't hear until…
"Bye…Berry Babe" he said as he winks at me. What was he talking about? I just rolled my eyes at him.
While I jogged back home I felt my back get wet from the sweat. Weird shouldn't my hoddie have absorbed that? And why does my lower part feel cold, well my butt to be exact. I stop in my tracks, and look at the reflection and see my hoddie going all the way a bit up and my sweat pants wer sagging revealing my berry panty.
THAT STUPID PERVERTED ASS!
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Sorry for the late update. Got a lot to jumble up with school. UGH! Hope you enjoyed and don't forget to review! ;D
~Nikki