(Mickey's POV)
I sat dazed, silent and in distraught in my thoughts. My heart felt heavy as the guilt started to set in. I wish that all the emotions that were going through my body would just stop. I knew it wasn't my fault, but shit! It sure felt that way. I was pulled out of my trance when I felt something touching my hand and my name being called.
"Mr. Gallagher?" The voice called my name. I knew he was talking to me, because my husband wasn't at my side.
"Huh?" I asked, being pulled out of my thought.
"Do you feel guilty for what has happened to Ian?"
'How the fuck does this doctor know how I feel?' I thought to myself. His eyes grew wide as he leaned forward on his desk to get a response from me.
"Mick?" a soft voice begged. I almost forgot that I asked Mandy to come with me.
"Hell yeah I feel fucking guilty!" I spat in frustration.
"Why is that?" Dr. Williams asked while intertwining his fingers as he rested his elbows on his wooden desk.
"Because..." I started."FUCK! Cause Ian asked me if I wanted to go with him to pick up our rings and I fuckin said no. I shoulda been there with him, I shoulda been there to protect him, I shoulda..." I replied, as the tears started to stream down my face. My body began to convulse.
"Mick, it's not your fault" my younger sister exclaimed as her blue eyes started to fill with tears.
"I feel so fuckin stupid for not just going with him. This wouldn't have happened if I..." I went on guiltily. My head fell into my hands as I began to sob.
As the clear streaks started to fall down my sister's face, she was not only feeling broken because of watching her brother break down like this, but also because the person she loved more than anything in this world was also in the car accident too.
The doctor gave us a minute as we both cried as if we had lost everything. I sighed as I imagined the deep torment my young sister must have been feeling. In the most vulnerable voice the doctor had ever heard, I said "I almost lost the love of my life and my best friend in a matter of fucking minutes! I don't know what I would do without him. He was the only one who helped me through my troubles with my dad and Devon."
The doctor looked at Mandy to see if she knew what I was talking about. My husband and I had informed him that no one else knew besides us.
"Mick, dad was the biggest fucking asshole to do something like that to you. I wish you would have told me sooner, so that I could have protect you. You always protected me, but the one time that it mattered, I couldn't protect you" Mandy stated with hurt in her voice.
"But Mands..." I wiped my face, "You did protect me."
"Not well enough!" the brunette cried as her face was full on red.
I grabbed for my little sister's hand and placed a kiss on the top of it. she had never seen me so hurt and vulnerable."You didn't know it at the time, but Mands you saved my life."
Next thing I knew, my little sister was shaking terribly and she looked straight to the floor. I gently lifted her flushed face by her chin then I softly asked, "Mands what's the matter?" as I noticed she was crying harder than before.
Mandy shook her head in distress. "Come on Mands, you know you can tell me anything" I replied as I sat back in his chair and rubbed my lip in the way I always did when I was annoyed.
Mandy wiped her face, took a deep breath and bit her bottom lip as she started. "I have to tell you something..."
"What is it?" I asked with my face growing more vulnerable by the second due to seeing how shattered she was.
"Dad..." she started, as tears pooled deeper in her eyes.
"Dad, did what?" I asked as my eyes grew intensely wide.
"Mandy, you can say anything in this room. We are here for you. Your brother loves you, dad can't hurt you anymore" Dr. Williams stated as he took notes looking up from his notepad.
"Mick, when you were away in juvie, I got pregnant." She said bluntly as she wiped her falling tears from her face.
I sat back with anger starting to build up. I didn't like where this was going.
"I told dad when I was almost three months. He fucking flipped. He hit me, slapped me, pushed me to the ground and called me a whore."
"FUCKING BASTARD!" I screamed as I jumped up from my chair, knocking it to the ground.
"It gets worse..." she whispered, ashamed of what she was about to say. "The reason dad hit me was because I told him it was his."
Dr. Williams could see the look of horror and fury encase my expression. He couldn't believe what he had just heard, but at the same time, now understood why I was the way I was.
He realized at that moment, the two people who actually loved them were possibly on their deathbeds. A surge of uneasiness and queasiness came over the older man as he watched this beautiful girl replay every second in her mind.
"HE FUCKING RAPED YOU?" I yelled with torture and agony in my tone. My sister apologetically nodded her head in humiliation. I knew it wasn't her fault. I would never blame her.
I began feeling light headed and needed to get some fresh air before I had another panic attack. The blond man noticed the discoloration in my face so he quickly jumped from his chair, from behind his desk and grabbed me so that I would sit down.
"Mickey, sit down please we don't want you to have a panic attack, ok? Take deep breaths and count for me like we practiced."
I complied and immediately sat on the floor with my head between my knees. I started my deep breaths to slow my heart rate and blinked hard to try to focus as my vision started to become blurry. Mandy sat next to me and rubbed my back just like Ian did. I felt outraged as the image of my father raping my baby sister and getting her pregnant burned in my brain.
Dr. Williams joined us on the floor, coaching me through my breathing when Mandy felt her phone vibrate in her back pocket. She instantly got off of the floor as she pulled it out and reviewed who it was.
"I'll be right back I have to take this" she stated as she walked out of the room. "Yes, this is Mandy Milkovich... Ok we will be there right away." Mandy instantly ran back into the office to find her brother and Dr. Williams now standing. "That was the hospital. Mick! Ian is awake. They said he is a little confused and lethargic, but he's pretty coherent."
I turned to my doctor as if I asking for permission to leave. The older man nodded giving me the queue as if he knew exactly what I was asking. I didn't want to admit it, but I felt at that moment that I could trust him.
"I'll see you guys next week at the same time. Don't worry about making the appointment I will do it for you. You two hurry up and make it to the hospital. Mick, be strong Ian needs that from you right now" the doctor explained as he patted me on the shoulder for support. I looked directly in to his eyes and nodded as if I knew he was telling me that I could do it like he had previously voiced before in a counseling session. Mandy and I rushed out the door of the office and ran to her car holding our breath the whole way.
(Ian's POV)
I couldn't move my neck and my body felt heavy like something was laying on me. My face felt hard and rigid when I tried to move my mouth. My chest felt like a rock, so it made it hard to breath and I realized something was in my nose. My ears were ringing, I felt nauseous and my head was pounding. I decided not to open my eyes. I noticed my foot was hurting extremely bad, but I attempted to ignore it as I tried to adjust to a more comfortable position. I couldn't comprehend why I wasn't going anywhere and I was becoming tired by the second so I just stopped. My body felt ice cold and completely stiff so I just gave up.
The annoying sound of something beeping made my head hurt even worse than it already was, and suddenly the titillation of something cold made my body feel like it was burning on the inside. A few minutes went by and then I became very sleepy. The drowsiness took over as my body went completely numb. I could feel something touching my fingers, but I wasn't sure what it was. Then whatever it was touched my lips. It was so gentle, sensual and reassuring. The sensation was all too familiar to me. I gently opened my eyes as best as I could even though my sight was blurred. It hurt really bad to open my right eye, but I was determined. With as much strength as I could muster, I whispered his name.
"Mick?"
As Landon made his way down the hallway back to the waiting room with some snacks and a couple of coffees, Dr. Crosby informed him that Ian was now awake. " As for Christy, she needs an additional surgery. She has started internally bleeding again. This time it's due to her liver being damaged."
"WHAT? I thought you guys found everything."
"I told you guys we needed to monitor her to make sure. We ran some tests and found she is indeed bleeding again. There is a small puncture wound that wasn't spotted immediately and it progressively got bigger." The doctor explained.
"How am I going to tell her family and Mandy?" the brunette stated as he began pacing back and forth.
"You can do it or I can it's up to you" the taller man exclaimed, pushing his glasses further on to the bridge of his nose.
"No, I can do it. They have heard enough bad news from you" the shorter boy sarcastically chuckled.
"Also, we need blood. Christy has lost a lot of blood and will need a transfusion. Blood is always better from a family member."
"Well this just keeps getting better and better doesn't it?" Landon replied with disdain in his tone.
"I'm sorry, it's the only way we can save her life. She has a rare form of blood and we need this as soon as possible. Otherwise, Christy isn't going to make it another day."
The brunette did everything he could from screaming in anger and torment, so he walked away, leaving the doctor puzzled. The look of terror covered Landon's face as he made his way over to the waiting room where all the Davis' and Gallaghers sat.
"Hey" Jason replied taking one of the coffee cups from his hands. The Gallaghers rushed over to Landon soon as he got in his seat good to find out any pending news.
"Well?" Fiona asked throwing her hands up.
"Ian, is now awake. He's a little confused, but somewhat coherent. You guys can..." Before he could get the words out good the troop was already making their way down the sterile hospital hallway.
"What about Christy? How is she? " Jason asked with optimism in his voice, hoping to get some kind of good news about his sister.
Landon didn't answer he just quietly sat down the snacks and the coffee on the table next to him. Jason could tell by the look on his face that what he was about to say wasn't going to be good at all. The younger boy took a deep breath then turned to the family with completesorrow in his eyes, "Christy isn't doing so well. She um..." he started.
"Young man please tell us" Jason's father begged.
The brunette swallowed the large lump that had formed in his throat, closed his eyes for a second as he heard himself talk.
"She is going to need surgery again. They ran some tests and apparently found that her liver is slightly punctured. She is slowly bleeding internally. They will need to do a blood transfusion because she has lost a lot of blood already. They asked that all of you to give blood because she is going to need it. And hopefully one of you are a match."
"What do you mean hopefully one of us is a match?" The older woman asked sitting straight up in her chair with her eyes completely blown wide.
Landon looked down as he really hated that he was going to have to be the one to tell them this. He knew he wanted to be a part of their family one day and this definitely made it feel like it was killing the chances since he had to be the one to deliver this horrible news.
"Young man?" she begged with distraught in her voice.
He sighed loudly then covered his face with his hands.
"Lan, come on man. Tell us" Jason pleaded as he touched him softly on his leg.
Landon looked up from his hands into Jason's beseeching eyes as he saw them become slightly teary.
"The doctor said she isn't going to make it another day if we don't find a match" he replied rubbing his eyes.
Jason felt like the words that just came out of his potential lover's mouth had just knocked the wind out of him, but he knew he wasn't going to let his sister die on his shortcomings. He immediately jumped up and jogged to over to the nurse's station so that he could give his blood. Jason knew he loved his sister, but he didn't realize how much until this moment. He was willing to give anything at this point so that she would survive.
His parents followed behind him as they all gave blood at the same time, making sure they didn't waste a second. Once it was all completed they made their way back to the waiting room where Landon was frantically eating.
Dr. Crosby reviewed the results not believing what he was seeing then he nervously walked over with all their results. They were waiting patiently until they saw him making his way over to them. He took a deep breath and braced himself for what he was about to say.
"I'm sorry..." he blurted out shaking his head in disbelief.
"What is it sir?" Mr. Davis asked anxiously.
"None of you are a match. We are going to need a Next of kin" he replied sadly.
"OH MY GOD!" Mrs. Davis gasped clutching her chest.
Jason took off running down the hallway totally disregarding his father calling after him.
"I'll take care of him you, get in touch with every possible relative you have ASAP." Landon said in understanding.
The older couple didn't oblige him. They quickly pulled out their phones because they knew they didn't have a whole lot of time. Landon watched them as he stuffed the remaining snacks into his drawstring back. He downed the coffee as if it were a shot of tequila and tossed it into the trash. He wanted to give Jason a minute because he knew he was going to find him completely broken.
As Jason made his way into the hospital room, tears had already fallen down his red face. Veronica spotted him first and knew that something wasn't right so without thinking she rushed over to him.
"Baby, what's the matter?" she asked in a motherly tone.
Jason couldn't get the words out he just slowly made his way over to his sister's lifeless body. They all watched as he dropped to his knees at her bed side. Ian wasn't sure what was going on, but based on Jason's actions he knew there was something seriously wrong. In all his life he had never seen Jason cry before so his heart felt extremely heavy.
Landon softly crept into the room and immediately went to Jason's side and dropped his bag. He grabbed the older boy in a tight embrace as he rocked him back and forth into his chest. Jason didn't care who was around at this point because he was too close to losing his baby sister.
Ian knew Jason loved Christy more than life itself and if they ever lost her it would devastate them all.
"No, No, NO!" The redhead stuttered as tears started coming down his face realizing now what was going on. He knew he had been in a car accident, but he didn't remember Christy being in it with him.
Fiona rushed to the redhead's side to calm him as Kev and Lauren rushed Liam, Carl and Debbie out of the room.
As they were leaving the room, Mandy and Mickey were coming in. They noticed that Debbie was crying so they immediately assumed the worst. Mickey ran to Ian's bedside as Fiona was still trying to calm him. The older boy was just happy to see his redhead alive no matter what state of mind he was in, but his happiness was put on pause when he saw his husband crying so he promptly turned around to now see Mandy's discouraged face. She felt her heart drop to her stomach as she saw Landon cradling Jason on the floor.
Lip ran over to Mandy as he saw that she barely was able to hold herself up on her strength. He swiftly wrapped his arms around her just in time. She collapsed into his arms crying heavily into his chest. He led her into the hallway and away from the room.
"Baby its ok I'm here" Mickey whispered as he rubbed arm that wasn't broken. "What's going on?" The redhead asked his husband.
Mickey didn't know what to say. He didn't know what Ian had remembered. He took a deep breath.
"You and Chris were in an accident a few days ago." The brunette started. "Chris was hurt more than you, but the doctors are optimistic." Mickey didn't know what was going on with Christy at the moment, but he knew it was bad and he wanted to keep his husband calm.
"What is wrong with Christy?" Ian asked, worry creeping across his face. "Is she ok?"
"Im not sure what is going on at this moment, but when I find out I will let you know, babe." Mickey said as he pulled Ian's casted hand to his face and wept as he kissed the tips of his fingers.
"Please find out for me. Please, Mick. She is my best friend. She has to be ok. Dont let her die Mick. Please." Ian begged.
"I will go find out right now. Just stay calm babe. I love you" Mickey cried, as he slowly placed Ian's hand back onto the bed as he walked towards the crying crowed of people. Soon after he got to them, Christy's mother and father walked through the door.
"We aren't a match" her father cried. "But we found someone who is. Her name is Elena. She is Christy's sister. She was placed for adoption." The older man tried explaining.
"She was raised as our niece. We were way too young for a child" Her mother cried out, trying to explain further.
"Just get her here. NOW" Mandy screamed. "Get her here now!"
Christy's parents looked at each other, both with tears in their eyes.
"She is on her way. She should be here in about 20 minutes." The older lady expressed.
"Mickey, what is going on?" Ian cried from his bed.
The older lady and her husband walked to the bed of the redhead and tried to explain the situation.
"Christy is bleeding internally. She has a rare blood type and only Elena is a match. We tried to keep it a secret, but I guess everything comes to light one way or another."
"Elena is her sister? Not her cousin?" the redhead asked in disbelief.
"Ian, you need to rest. Please don't burden yourself with our family drama" Christy's father expressed.
"So, why do you need her here?" He asked.
"Christy needs a blood transfusion. Due to her rare blood type, its harder to find it. We all gave blood earlier today to see if ours would help, but none of us were a match. She is bleeding from her Liver. It was punctured and at first it was too small to notice, but now it is tearing open. As soon as they get the blood, they need to rush her back to surgery to repair it." Jason said as he walked to the side of Ian's bed.
Ian was looking around the room for his husband but was comforted in the fact that he was on the floor, embracing his hysterical sister. He instantly became more calm.
After a few moments of silence, the doctor walked into the door.
"Mr. and Mrs. Davis?" He asked.
Christy's parents turned instantly to the sound of their names.
"I just wanted to let you know that the lady you sent is here and her blood is being donated as we speak. We need to take Christy now to the operating room so that we can patch her liver up. The faster we get her up there, the more time she will have with you guys, so if you don't mind, I am going to send in a few nurses to get her ready. While they do so, I need everyone to leave the room. So, before they get here, just let her know you're thinking of her." The doctor explained.
Ian's eyes went wide as Mandy screamed loud and Mickey picked her up from the floor, whispering in her ear. Mandy walked to the edge of the hospital bed and grabbed Christy's hand.
"Chris, I love you. Please be ok. Please. I need you" The brunette girl cried, holding the blonde's hand.
Mickey tried pulling Mandy away from Christy to give everyone else time to talk to her before she left for surgery.
"We need to make this kind of quick" The doctor said as Mandy cried. Mickey pulled Mandy away from the bed and next to Ian's bed as he pulled out a chair.
"Mandy, sit here. It will be ok. Ian is right here." Mickey said, trying to calm his sister.
"Hey Mands" Ian said, smiling, hiding the fact that he was scared shitless of losing his best friend.
"Oh Ian" Mandy started as she gently stood back up from the chair and pulled him into an embrace.
"Shhh shhh, its ok Mands. Chris is going to be fine. She is feisty. You know this. She loves you. She isn't going anywhere. Everything is going to be fine."
Mandy sniffled as more tears escaped her eyes.
"Stop crying. It's ok. If anyone should be crying, its me. I was the one driving." Ian said smiling, trying so very hard to keep the brunette from losing it.
"HEY!" Mickey huffed. "This is not your damn fault. It isnt. So stop with that shit."
Mandy lifted her eyes and smiled coyly at the redhead. Ian smiled at his husband and Mandy let out a giggle at her brother's sudden manlyness.
Mick glared at the two as they shared their coy smiles with each other.
Mickey paced back and forth across the end of Ian's bed as the rest of their families left the room. Soon, the nurses came into the room and pulled the curtain closed so that no one could see what they were doing with Christy. After a few minutes, the curtains were pulled open and Christy's bed was pushed out of the room as the three people left in the room watched. The sound of Christy's mother's sobs bellowed into the nearly empty room.
"We were able to repair her liver. There was a lot of bleeding, but thanks to Elena giving her blood, we were able to keep her stable. We aren't out of the woods yet, but I am sure she will fully recover" the doctor stated as he stood in the waiting room talking to everyone around him.
Mandy was in tears, in her brothers arms, Christy's father was hugging his wife, Landon grabbed Jason in for an awkward hug and Fiona, Veronica and Kev were huddled hugging while Debbie, Carl and Liam were smiling and clapping. Ian was sitting in a wheelchair, much to the doctors orders not to get out of the bed, next to Mickey and Mandy, and tears dropped down his freckled red face.
"She is in recovery and we hope she will wake soon. For now, if you must visit her, please, only one person at a time. And make the visits quick. She needs all the rest she can get." The doctor finished, his voice louder.
Not a single person had a dry eye. They were all too happy that Christy was going to be OK.
Elena sat in a chair out of everyones way, folding her hands in her lap.
"Why was I a match and no one else was?" She questioned the doctor.
"That will be something you need to ask your family, ma'am. I am not authorized to give you such personal information. But I am sure they would be happy to tell you." The doctor replied as he exited the room, leaving the girl in her chair, thinking of how she was Christy's only match.
After a while and after everyone went to visit the young blonde, Mickey took Ian back to his room and had a nurse help him get him back into his bed.
"One day, I'm gonna bust you outta here" Mickey whispered into his husband's ear. Ian grinned from ear to ear as Mickey said the words, knowing that full well, Mickey would do that for him.
The nurse grinned and pretended as if she hadn't heard the words.
"So, how long have you been married?" she asked.
"Not long enough. We haven't had time to get comfortable yet. About 3 weeks" Mickey announced, wanting his husband to not say anything.
"Then I had to get T -boned. Most horrible thing, and what's worse is I barely remember." Ian chimed in.
"Well, I have faith that you will fully recover. Your friend too. Yall went through hell, but I am sure you are both strong enough to get through this" The nurse kindly smiled.
The two boys smiled at her and then each other, getting lost in each other's gaze.
"Well, if you need anything, Mr. Gallagher…" She started as she handed Ian the call button. "Press this red button and ask for me. My name is Lissa. I will come to you as soon as I can."
Mickey had a wide smile across his face and didn't hear a single word she had said. Knowing that, she walked out of the room and let the boys be alone together.