Full Circle

Chapter 18 – Camp David part 4

AN: As promised here is the next chapter and the last one in Camp David. Thanks for all your reviews I really appreciate them. Enjoy :)

It was their last day at Camp David before they headed back to the hustle and bustle of DC, Fitz still thinks that Olivia is going back to her apartment and she cant wait to see his face when she tells him she is returning with him to The White House.

Olivia woke up earlier than Fitz so she decided to surprise him with breakfast. Before she left the bed she stared at Fitz like he had done to her so many times before. She noted at how relaxed and peaceful he looked and she cant remember a time when he looked so carefree. She runs her hand ever so slightly through his hair then giving him a gentle kiss on the lips hoping he doesn't wake up before her surprise of breakfast.

She looks in the fridge and decided on an omelette with toast, during her stay at Timberline Knolls she took part in cooking classes after being encouraged by Tracey to join. She was a little apprehensive at first but she quickly grew to love it and she wanted to be able to cook for Fitz and her family if it ever happened so she threw herself into the classes.

Olivia is a little bit nervous at how today will go, she promised herself last night that she will tell Fitz that she wants marriage and a family that she is all in this with him. She also wants to share her diary that she kept and is still keeping going; she wants him to know what she went through and to help him understand everything that has happened. She is also taking the plunge and showing him the ultrasound picture if he wants to see it, she doesn't know if it will make him mad or angry at her but she wants to share it, it feels like a dirty secret at the moment and she is done with secrets.

Placing everything on a tray she carries it back up to the room a smile appearing on her face as she notices that he is awake and is looking at her with a very confused expression.

'Liv what's this'?

'Breakfast silly'

'Did you make it?'

She nods shyly at him

'I hope you like it. I took cooking classes at Timberline I wanted to be able to cook for us. You're the first person to try it out so I'm sorry if it's horrible'

Before she can carry on rambling he cuts her off with a chaste kiss to the lips. He then goes and tucks into the omelette.

'Livvie this is amazing. Best omelette I've tasted'.

Olivia is relieved and can go on and enjoy her breakfast as well.

After breakfast they decide to spend their day walking around Camp David, it was their way of being out in the open without having the pressure of the press surrounding them.

'Do you remember when you had me dragged out here supposedly under the disguise of Thorngate but really you were just jealous of me meeting with Edison'

Fitz chuckles at the memory as he walks hand in hand with Olivia around the trails that they have.

'You were so angry at me I thought you bought me out here to shoot me you wouldn't even let me have a gun'.

'Well you would have likely shot me' Fitz states which makes Olivia chuckle.

They carry on walking and talking until they reach the top of the trail which overlooks Camp David. They decide to sit with Olivia opting to sit on Fitz's lap instead of the space next to him.

'We've come a long way baby'

'Indeed we have especially you Liv, I'm so proud of you for admitting that you need help and actually getting it.'

She snuggles up closer to him

'What happened with Jake and Rowan?' Olivia asks him tentatively

'Your team got definitive proof that Jake was behind the leak, they traced everything back to him which made an easy case against him. We knew that Rowan would have been the master behind it but we couldn't pin anything on him. Jake took a plea deal which gave him minimum time in jail and your team also secured a restraining order against him so that he cant come near you.'

She leaned into him breathing in his scent, she is glad that Jake cant get to her anymore but that still leaves Rowan. As if reading her mind Fitz continues

'He cant get to you Liv, Rowan that is, he died a couple of months after you left. I swear I wasn't keeping this from you I just didn't want it to ruin our weekend and I was working up the courage to tell you'.

'Are you sure he is dead? How did it happen?'

'Yes I'm sure Liv I even went and viewed the body myself just to be sure. We had Huck tracking all his movements we were hoping we would catch him doing something illegal. Anyway he was caught in a car accident a pretty nasty one from what I heard'.

'Do you think it was an accident?'

'To be honest Liv I'm not sure, I wanted to wait until I told you and let you decide if you wanted to look into it or not.'

For the next few minutes they just sat in silence Fitz studying Olivia for any sign that she was hurting or overwhelmed he wanted to make sure she was ok.

'I'm free' she said to him. She thought she would feel sadness or something but she felt nothing. She wasn't going to attempt any contact with him anyway she just wanted to move on with her life and that mean Rowan had no part in it.

'Liv are you sure your ok?' He looked so concerned for her; she stroked his face and leaned in to kiss him.

'I know it sounds strange but I'm happy, he cant control me anymore or make me feel worthless, he cant get to me now and that means I can really move forward. I wasn't going to contact him anyway but to know that he really isn't here anymore is a relief'.

Silence encompasses them as they take in the moment; Olivia wraps herself around Fitz trying to keep as warm as possible as Fitz rubs up and down her arm. It's getting darker as evening approaches so they decide to walk back to their cabin. No more is needed to be said.

As Fitz makes dinner Olivia goes upstairs to retrieve her diary and the photo. She takes a moment to herself, she looks at the photo and thinks how she was so sure that once Fitz found out about the abortion there would be no way for them ever again, but in some weird way it has made them even closer, it has made them face each other and be really honest with each other.

After a simple but delicious dinner of chicken and rice with veggies they settle down on the couch, Olivia with a glass of wine and Fitz with a scotch.

'Are you ready to head back to The White House tomorrow?' Olivia asks

'Yeah it's a lot stressful now I'm pretty much just keeping the place warm for Susan'. He says kissing her temple.

'How about I keep the place warm with you'

Fitz turns to look at her making sure she is serious

'Liv'

'I know what you are going to say, I know the last time it ruined us, we came became two strangers to each other but I'm a different person now. I know what I want and what I want is you, I dont want to spend any more time apart. I want to be in The White House with you Fitz'.

He is studying her to see any doubt but he finds none. He is a little apprehensive because he doesn't want to ruin the progress they have made; moving her into The White House ruined them he doesn't want to make the same mistake twice. However this time she is telling him she wants to be with there. He has to trust her and trust what she is saying.

'Are you sure Liv, I know I've only got a few weeks left In there I dont want to ruin us again'

She caresses his face and pecks his lips

'You wont we wont and this time I'm asking. I want to be with I'm 100% sure of that'.

'Ok' and he pecks her lips again and pulls her even closer

'Ok so yesterday you told me that this was our fresh start that we didn't need to get married or have kids and you wanted me to be happy. Well I want you to be happy too and will do whatever it takes to make that happen. Whilst I was away Tracey helped me understand and realise a lot of things and want I want out of life.'

She takes a breath as she feels herself getting emotional; Fitz squeezes her hand and kisses the top of her head.

'I do want to get married to you and and I do want to have babies with you if that's something you still want with me. I know I have never been open to you about this and I know my actions in the past have made you doubt me but I'm no longer afraid and I want it all with you. I want Vermont and jam and us. I think if after your term we stay in DC for a bit first, I dont know what I want to do with OPA yet and I dont want to leave them without some warning.'

Fitz is a loss for words, he must be dreaming he thinks to himself he is going to wake up and realise being with Liv now is just a dream. His eyes are filled with tears that are threatening to fall as Liv hand comes up to his face.

'I have something to show you but I wont be hurt or sad if you dont want to see it. I have an ultrasound from when I was pregnant I kept hold off it to remind me of us, I thought that we would never be with each other again and it would be proof that our love was real and it was a little bit of you still with me'.

'I want to see it' Fitz says quietly and Olivia pulls out the photo to hand it to him. They sit in silence for a couple of minutes.

'Tracey suggested that we do something to remember the baby by, I was thinking when we get to Vermont we do something at the house and I also thought we should do something for Jerry and have them next to each other. If thats ok with you' she says quietly unsure of how he would take her suggestion.

'I think thats a great idea it'd be like Jerry is looking after his little brother or sister'.

'I also have a diary from my time at Timberline it really helped me gather my thoughts into something I could understand and I want you to read it if you want. You dont have to read it now or all at once but I want to have no secrets from you and I want to share my time in there and maybe that can help better'.

Fitz pulls Olivia into his lap and whispers how much he loves her. Olivia rests her head on his chest and lets his heartbeat lull her to sleep. Fitz holds her tightly and marvels at her beauty, he notes how peaceful she looks and he wants to make sure it stays that way. After a while he carries her upstairs and quickly undresses her, she must be tired considering she hardly wakes up. He settles in himself and picks up her diary to read..

Fitz,

I love you. I know I dont say that nearly enough but I want you to know how much I love you. I had my first session today and we talked about us and our relationship. It was hard at first I think it took a good few hours before I started talking but Tracey really helped me push through my barriers. She really helped me open my eyes to how I took your love for granted. I went into this relationship with my eyes wide open, I knew you were running for president, I knew you were married with kids but I never imagined the love we share. I hope when I leave I can show you that I love you, that I appreciate you and that I am going to prove my love for you. It's my turn to earn you.

This place kind of reminds me of Camp David, there are lot of trees and its very tranquil here, I think I spent at least 3 hours hiding under tree today before Tracey sought me out. She suggested this diary to help me through my time here. I want to be positive and think that everything is going to work out but I'm just afraid of the what ifs. What if this time away makes you realise how badly I have hurt you, what if you just want to be friends, what if this doesn't work.

See this is where I need your hopeful attitude, you always believe everything will work out and I love that about you. Your faith in us amazes me even when we were at our lowest you somehow can see us making it through. I need you tell me that I am going to make it through, that this will work and that you will be waiting for me.

I think once your term is finished we should take a trip together, we've never been away properly together just me and you and a couple of secret service in tow. I'm thinking some place tropical. I know we can never be a truly normal couple but I am looking forward to being a little bit more normal. Am I being too presumptuous here? Oh god I hope not.

You know what is funny is that I really miss you and I have spent 3 nights back with you and really miss you and not being able to talk to you or see you is killing me but previously we have spent months not talking but now I dont want to do it anymore without you. I'm done wasting time when it comes to us. So I vow Fitz that I will get better so that we wont waste anymore time without each other. We can be Olitz again.. Who came up with that by the way?

I love you

Love Livvie x