The Journal of Detective Conan
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Chapter 5: Useless
Entry #5
Having Hattori here for the weekend really did help…a little. I still feel useless. There's only so much that a kid can do! I don't know how much longer I could last like this. Everything is so different, even I'm different! The only thing that has stayed the same in my life is Ran! She's always thinking of me, Conan or Shinichi! But there's nothing I could do in return! It's like that saying: "How the mighty have fallen."
I solved another case yesterday…or should I say that Kogorou solved another case yesterday. It was pretty tough since Kogorou kept throwing me out of the room. I hate being nothing more than a useless kid! I can't do anything!
Ran had me help her make dinner tonight. I hardly even did anything…I couldn't even reach the countered without a stool! Most people would give anything to be a kid again…if you ask me, it's the worst thing that could happen! Nobody needs you as a kid…you're just there, in the way. Being a kid is horrible!
Ran cried while cutting vegetables. She said that it was just the onions but I could tell that she was thinking about Shinichi…thinking about me. I want to hug her, hold her in my arms, wipe away her tears. I want to let her know that I'm okay, that I'm here for her. But I'm just a useless kid.
Conan yawned. Kogorou was out drinking and Ran had sent him to bed a few hours earlier. "I even have a bed time!" He sleepily slid the journal underneath his mattress and closed his eyes. He was asleep within seconds.
Ran peeked into the room and saw that Conan was asleep. Conan seemed to be happier but, for some reason, all of his smiles seemed fake. She was worried. She noticed that he spent a lot of time on his own. "What's bothering him?" She thought. She walked quietly into the room and took the glasses off of Conan's sleeping face. "You shouldn't sleep with your glasses on…I still can't get over how much he looks like Shinichi!" She shook her head. She had already been through this!
As she set the glasses down on the ground next to the sleeping boy, she noticed something poking out from underneath the mattress. She quietly and slowly removed it and saw that it was a notebook. She looked at Conan. "Is this like a diary!? Maybe I shouldn't read it…but it could tell me what's bothering him…" Ran came to a decision. She quietly crept out of the room, notebook in hand. She knew that she was invading Conan's privacy but her young ward wasn't telling her anything! If she was going to help him, she had to find out the problem herself!
She took the notebook into her room and closed the door. She turned on the lamp by her bed and sat down. Ran took a deep breath. She almost felt bad for what she was about to do but convinced herself again that it was for the greater good. She opened the notebook to the first page and began to read.
Time Skip
Ran set down the notebook. "I can't believe it, Conan really is Shinichi! Why does he think that I need protecting!?" Half of her wanted to kick the half-pint detective into next week…but another part of her could see the pain that he was going through. She could tell from his words that he felt the same way…that he really missed her. She could see that it was tearing him from the inside.
"What am I supposed to do?" Ran asked herself through her tears. "I feel so useless!"
How many of you think Ran should get some pay back? Let me know what you think in your reviews! On another note, I thought that it was kinda sweet how they both felt the same way! Both feel useless, unable to help each other! (No, I'm not sadistic…I think…) Thanks for reading! If you liked the story so far, please review! Also, if you think that Ran should get payback and have any ideas how, let me know!