The Journal of Conan Edogawa

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Chapter 6: Alone

Entry #6

This week has been torture! It seems as if Ran is treating me even MORE like a kid! What did I ever do to deserve this!? I guess that now that I'm thinking about it…I kind of do deserve it for lying to her. Earlier this week, she insisted that she help me with my homework since my teacher said that I hadn't been paying attention in class. Why should I have to pay attention if I already know the material!? Then at dinner the next day, she cut up my food for me! I've always been able to do it myself! Why did she suddenly do it for me!? I'm not a little kid!

Sometimes I feel so alone. Everyone is always looking down on me…and I don't just mean my height! It's frustrating to have to go through childhood all over again, hiding from a secret crime syndicate! I don't know what to do. I wonder if I should talk to Hattori…knowing him, he'd just tease me about it. Haibara isn't much help either. I could feel myself coming close to the breaking point! I feel like the whole world is on my shoulders sometimes. I feel so stuck, trapped…and alone.

Conan put the journal back underneath his futon. It was Saturday already and he was glad that he didn't have to go back to school today. He felt so tired. With Ran treating him like a little kid, he had to keep his acting up even more to hide how annoyed he was. "What's wrong with her? She normally doesn't treat me like that." Conan stood up, feeling a little bit dizzy. He ignored it and walked to the living room, hardly paying attention to where he was going.

Ran of course, had decided that the best revenge was to give Shinichi exactly what he wanted. "If he insists on acting like a little kid, than I'm going to treat him like a little kid!" She thought stubbornly. Conan didn't seem annoyed, but know Shinichi, it must have been very frustrating! She knew that he knew how much he was hurting her! It was only fair that he felt the same! However, there was a part of Ran that wanted to hug him, and never let him go. "He lied to me right to my face over and over again! A little bit of pay back won't hurt anything!"

She saw Conan walked into the living room. She didn't want to admit it but the boy seemed more tired than usual. It was more than just worn out though. Something just seemed…off. She put down the dishes that she had been cleaning and ran over to the shrunken detective. As she got closer, Ran saw that Conan's face was red. "Conan! Are you okay!?" She asked worriedly.

Conan looked up at her with familiar eyes. "I'm fine." He replied. The last thing he needed was for Ran to be worried. His answer did little to ease her worries at all. She placed her hand on his forehead and her eyes grew wide.

"You are not fine! You have a fever! You should be in bed!" She grabbed Conan's arm to drag him back to his room. Conan pulled it back.

"Will you quit treating me like I'm a little kid!?" He demanded. Ran stared at him. Conan had never talked back to her before, no matter what.

"Why shouldn't I treat you like a kid!? Last time I checked, you were a kid!" She yelled back. Conan, who had looked like he was about to continue saying something, stopped with his mouth open. He closed it quickly and looked down at the ground, defeated.

"You're right. I'm just a kid. I'm sorry." He turned to go back to his room. What Ran had said was like a slap to his face. For a moment there, he had felt like he was Shinichi again, having one of his arguments with his childhood friend. But he had to be thrown back into reality. He wasn't Shinichi Kudou, high school detective. He was Conan Edogawa, just another half-pint grade schooler.

Suddenly, he was hugged from behind. Conan couldn't move. Ran couldn't let him go. She could feel tears coming to her eyes, and she tried to hold them back. She couldn't let Shinichi see her cry…not now. "I'm so sorry, Conan. I don't know what came over me." She said more calmly than she felt. A moment later, she felt something wet fall onto her arm. "Is Shinichi…crying!?" The two stayed like that for what seemed like forever.

Finally, Conan spoke. "I should probably get to bed." Ran let him go. Before Conan reached the bedroom door, he stopped. "Thanks Ran," he said quietly. Ran watched him go.

As soon as the door was closed, Ran sat down on the couch and cried. "You're not alone, Shinichi! I wish that you could see that I'm here for you!"

That was kinda sweet! I still feel a little sorry for Shinichi/Conan! Please leave a review if you enjoyed it or have any ideas (no matter what they are) for the story! I hope that you liked it so far! Thanks for reading!