note.
Those that watched the original series will remember Idate had around five episodes dedicated to him, I've given him exactly five chapters in my story as well. You can now rejoice that there won't be anymore after this.
track 48.
That night, Sasuke lay alone in the hotel bed. Having thrown his body on the stiff spacious bed, his arms are dropped behind his head. And he's reminded of the way Sakura sleeps. Seemingly without a worry in the world. With her arms stretched atop her head in a loose cradle and knees slightly bent to face the ceiling.
Naruto is nowhere to be seen; either he's still mad at him, or he has gone to see Sakura.
The blond had become increasingly agitated as their conversation lingered until he finally kicked Sasuke out of the restaurant to go look for Sakura.
And he found her.
She had been playing in the sand with the track runner.
To hell with it all.
Rolling over so that his hand dangled off the bed, he was sure that he was going crazy as he pulled out a notepad from his backpack. Adamant on scribbling down the overdue lyrics becoming dust in his head, he could feel the heavy lids of his eyes drop. No words came to mind even though this stuffy, choking feeling was what usually produced the most results. He could only dig himself deeper under the blankets the muffle the annoying noises ringing through his ears.
Taking a page out of Sakura's book, he spoke to himself to try and block out the headache.
"This is so stupid. What have you done to me?"
He blamed Sakura for turning him into this fool. It was a human reaction. And she made him all too human. Human beings looked for reasons - excuses - when things don't go well. The circumstances, the timing, the weather, the luck. There was no meaning to a flower unless it bloomed. But when a flower doesn't bloom, you don't try to fix the bud, you tamper with its surroundings.
As people, we pulled out all these variations to console ourselves.
'It wasn't supposed to turn out like this.'
'If only I could do it all over again.'
But what could he do?
There are so many things that you couldn't calculate in this world. But the feelings Sasuke held for Haruno Sakura just had to be his thing.
It scares him to see how much Sakura has come to mean to him.
When she fell into the water, he would've gladly locked her away and restricted her from the sea at all costs. Something he's sure - is illegal and very much criminal. And when he saw Idate and her together, he didn't think he'd ever be able to stand seeing her hold hands with someone who took his chance. The thought that she wouldn't even notice him because she's laughing and smiling at them instead. It burned his heart knowing that the thing you wish for the most, is always something you'll never get.
So damn annoying.
Like a broken record, Sakura had repetitively showed him her love. But when this became a regular part of his life and he took it for granted, she suddenly turned around to face someone else. He can still clearly remember the nauseating feeling he had when he saw her, illuminated by fireworks again - just not alone this time.
He should've ran to her when he had his chance, locked her up in his embrace. Sasuke craved for Sakura in a way he hasn't ever needed anyone before. She kept him sane. But she was also out of reach.
Sakura was clothed in strength, dressed in kindness, and laughed with love. And she made him understand why storms were named after people.
He was calm next to her, when he was the one reflected with such pure love in her eyes - but outside of the small circle; the center of her fucking typhoon...
He couldn't find a place to belong.
Not when she was able to shine so bright without him.