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Summary: Ranma takes a deeper look on what Akane means to him

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I slept in my room that night with pure sadness. It became my number one emotion. My only focus. It was my second thought in my mind. The first one was Akane and how I had never noticed that her tears and emotion being.. affected me. She became a part of me through only weeks. The only thing I wanted to do was to hug her and kiss her like a boyfriend does, but I know that won't happen for a while. It was my one desire- do make everything better.

She had so a big impact on me that I have never noticed. She quickly became the most important thing to impress, to make happy and to protect. It wasn't only my life now, it was our life together. She took me by surprise, by luck, by happiness.. and by battle.

I over reacted. I shouldn't have done anything to make her more upset. I shouldn't have done anything at all. I should have used my head instead of letting my heart take over.

She became my number one.

She became the thing that I always wanted to hold like if she was glass and if I let her go, she would shatter. Her aura can be as better and bitter at the same time. Even at times, I forget we are even dating and think to kiss each other was weird.

If we are even dating anymore.

I don't hate her. I was only protecting my feelings from her fake hate. And it cost the price. Akane was the only thing I really ever cried about.

I knew my answer but my head wouldn't let me say it. My heart battled between truth and ''like''.

It was cold in the room and my body that it fell asleep. But I was too tried to fall asleep. My face felt wet but nothing watery was on it. The ghost of my feeling must have come to visit me.

My mind became stale. The once peaceful moment turned into a disaster from 0 to 100.

Maybe I'm even over-reacting this.

I sat up. Nothing drives me more to say sorry than to know that I can kiss her lips again after, that I can hold her in my arms when she sleeps early for a nap after studying, that I can look at her and tell her she's is everything I ever wanted in a girl.

And nothing is preventing me to go to her room and to sleep next to her than the fight. In my tank top, she lingers on me while she slept, her hand clenching onto my arm or chest. How much would I give to feel her warmth against me? How much would I say to tell her the one thing I have always wanted to say to her. I'd rather eat her cooking than to feel this.

Is this what Loneliness feels like?

She always had support in me, and I always showed it back one way or another. But this support was dangerously easily affecting on what we had or what we would have. Tonight seemed so unlike and less emotion and everything emotion created.

Some of them I have never felt before.

She became my happiness, my sadness, my anger, my guilt, my support... My everything. A month in and she has showed me so much life.

Things like romance and perfect relationships are good in Shojo manga's, but this is real life.

I knew she was awake. I knew she was crying. I knew that I want to hug her.

That exactly what I'm going to do.

I stood up, walking to the door of the room. I quietly opened the door and peeked outside. I walked out and closed the door. I began to walk, staring down at my feet...

Until I saw another pair.

I looked up and a Raven haired girl stared back at me, wiping her eyes. She looked defenseless as if my own protecting on her became her defeat and hurt.

'Ranma-' She let her arm down from her eye. I quickly walked the few 3 steps between us and hugged her body, her arms laying on my chest. She slightly gasped.

'I'm so sorry for hurting you Akane' I told her. 'I will never tell you something like that to you ever again, I won't even think about it'

'Because-'

'I miss you' Akane complete my sentence. 'I'm sorry too, I've been thinking about you since I kicked you out'

The hallway was dark, so I don't know her face emotion at the time. I'm only guessing it was full of regret of her earlier words. 'I've been thinking about you, and how much you really are the most important person in my life... and how much I need you'

Akane began to cry. Her tears fell on my shirt. I walked her hug to her room. I sat against the backboard of her bed as she cried onto me. Her arm around my torso, holding my hand on the other side, and one resting on the bed in the middle of me and her. My free arm held her shoulder that was opened and rubbed my thumb on it. She soon fell asleep at the 2 am mark. I stayed up a little later, thinking how lucky I really was for having this girl in my life.

I woke up that morning to find that I slept on my side, my arm over Akane's neck on the close side to me, as her head lay on my arm. Her arms still on my chest, her body close to mine, belly's touching slightly. My arm cradled on her neck so she'd have room to breathe.

just in that instant...

She became the thing I wanted, to keep and to love the most.

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(Sleeping photo; ( . )