"It's like once you've been hurt you're scared to get attached again,

Like you have this fear,

That every person you like is going to break your heart,

Leaving you to pick up the broken pieces,

All over again"

-x-

BPOV

"Edward, stop the car" I said quietly, enough to let him hear.

He looked forward lips pursed and heaved, his head nodding from side to side with a no, like even one word could break him entirely.

"Edward, look at me," I spoke louder .

I took my hands and gently lifted them up and scooted closer to him, he didn't budge and I took this as an invitation and placed my hands on either side of his face, his skin felt smooth and soft and his jaw was digging into my palm.

I turned his head towards me and I felt him stiffen against my palms as he squeezed his eyes his jaw flexing as I saw him clutch the steering wheel so hard I knew he was trying to inflict pain upon himself.

And the only thing I could do was comfort him with words.

"It's going to be okay, Edward, it's going to be okay", I said softly.

I didn't know if my words triggered something in him but I felt him shudder, once, then twice, then over and over as he racked with silent sobs.

What did she do to cause him so much pain?

He didn't want me to watch him cry, I knew that, I knew how he felt.

I brought his face to my chest as his arms encircled my waist and he cried into me.

He cried like that for about five minutes mumbling incoherently until he calmed down.

I didn't know what was happening to me.I was supposed to be hating him, I was supposed to ignore him, I was supposed to act like I don't care, I was supposed to ignore I couldn't, I was slowly starting to understand what type of person he was underneath his tough cocky exterior, and here I was acting like his mother, he needed someone, to talk to, and I yearned to be that is wrong with me?I was getting confused.

I could feel his shallow breathing on my neck as he tried to regain his composure.

He lifted his head slightly to look up at me.

He looked more beautiful than he already was, his eyes were rimmed with red and sightly bloodshot, his lashes were wet and framing his gorgeous green eyes that looked up at me like I was someone, someone to him, someone he cared about.

I shook of the feeling, it was too stupid.

Our eyes were locked in place and I coughed slightly as he realised the position we were in.

The front of my shirt was slightly soaked, and his breath was making me shiver, he slowly pulled his arms away from me, as he brought them back to him he looked sheepish.

"I-, well, she" he was trying, I knew he was, he was trying to tell me what happened and I could see he wasn't ready, being patient was something I wasn't good at, but when it came to him I didn't know what I was doing, I normally thought out things before speaking them, but nowadays I seemed to be on edge.

"Edward," I whispered as I smiled slightly at his torn face, he looked like a little boy, vulnerable and seeking comfort.

"Its okay, you don't need to tell me now, whenever your ready"

My words visibly relaxed him as he grinned at me his smile lighting up his whole face, I had a feeling this was a genuine smile and I felt a warmth spread within me thinking of the fact that I was the one who made him smile.

His smile turned into a frown and his lips formed a pout.

I wanted to kiss it.

"Don't tell anyone I cried, I don't want to seem like a pussy " he mumbled as I chuckled slightly and rolled my eyes as nodded at him.

And he's back.

"Your secrets safe with me," I grinned.

He stared at me for a while before speaking,"thank you, Bella".

I shrugged.

It was the first time he called me Bella.

-x-

"Oh hello, come in come in, don't just stand there !" spoke an overly enthusiastic woman as she shoved me and Edward into the shop.

She had a thick accent and you could barely make out what she was saying.

Despite her 'amazing fashion sense' she was only wearing a light wispy skirt and a loose white tank top, her bright auburn hair was in a small bun above her head and her teeth glistened, she had some amazing teeth.

Ah so this was Alice's amazing designer, apparently this woman's pieces were out of this world.

"Bella, you don't understand! Its Isadora Avalino! She works wonders with a needle and thread! Did you know she was the runner up of national design excellence award for wedding dresses?" she had said animatedly.

I truly didn't care, although if I had a wedding I would gratefully hand over all the planning to my dear little sister.

Ha not.

"Ah yes yess" the woman spoke as she circled around me.

She was Spanish, she was pronouncing her yeses differently, it was more of jes than a yes, I could see Edward standing off in a corner looking around awkwardly while the woman was sizing him up as well.

Wow he's even got the old ones.

"Ay mi gusta, esta chica muy bonita!," she mumbled animatedly "si si," she was speaking fast in Spanish while trying to check my sizes or something.

I caught Edwards eye mouthing help, but he just shrugged and flashed me his signature smirk shrugging. There was something different about his smiles, I couldn't pinpoint what but...

"Si carina esto es perfecto!, you have amazing body shape and your stunning to look at, although I would have to adjust the chest size a bit, pero you have boobs?, I didn't know you had them with the measurements you gave me," I blushed like mad, avoiding a certain person's eye which I knew was on me.

I was confused why did she think I was wearing the dress?, oh right, she thought I was Alice.

"Oh no I'm not-," i started but was soon interrupted by her.

"Don't be shy Hermosa, its okay," she winked as she flailed about and stopped on Edward, he looked panicked.

Ha serves him right for standing back and watch me get eye molested.

"Ay who is this stud here? Are you hiding from me handsome? Come here," she spoke as she ushered him next me.

She went on to push me next to him so that we were touching, this felt really weird, but in a good way, I didn't know how to explain it, despite his cold exterior Edward emitted a certain warmth that captivated whoever was near him.

"Aha you look absolutely stunning together, imagine all the beautiful bebes you would make! Ahh what a nice pair! Me and mi Alejandro used to look nearly as good as you two," she said wistfully as me and Edward looked at each other and then back at this crazy woman.

"Before he left me for that stupid perra," she zoned out looking vengeful as I tried to explain the situation to her before she called up a pastor and married us right in this boutique.

"Well, Isadora, I'm not the bride, it's actually my sister but she couldn't make it, i'm Bella and this is Edward, the groom's brother" I managed to speak out.

"Ohhh lo siento both of you, pero I didn't knoww! I'm so sorry,but I have one question, how do I do this without the bride?"she looked expectantly between the both of us.

"Its okay she is sure of the dress, we just need to pick it up, we'll call you if we need alterations" i said confidently, with a nodding Edward by my side, he looked like he wanted to get this over with.

"Well okay then that's perfect!" she clapped her hands together before disappearing into the mass of dresses hanging upon the wall.

I sat down on the purple sofa placed in the middle of the room, I was tired as hell.

"Trust Alice to get a freaky drugged up wedding designer " spoke Edward as he came and sat next to me on the plush sofa

"I know right, she's a bit weird,she actually thought we were getting married can you believe that ? " I asked, as I looked towards the dresses.

It was silent for a moment and i thought I offended him, I turned back to say something.

"What I meant to say that was that we uh don't look like a couple, not that you're ugly you're far from ugly it's just that we aren't acting like a couple do you understand, I wasn't trying to offend you or anything…"

"Bella," he cut in chuckling lightly,"it's fine I know what you mean"

I was relieved.

"Although if we get married we'll look great together"

My head whipped around so fast i thought I just got a minor concussion, he was facing forward, looking at his phone but I saw the slight hint of a smile on his lips and my eyes narrowed.

The bastard, he thought he could say something like that and then just not pay attention, I was going to get that weird designer to wring his neck in a minute.

Speak of the devil, she appeared just in time with a large piece of clothing in her hand.

"Honey I need you to try this on just to make sure," she spoke steadily.

"What I couldn't possibly-," I spoke, this woman, did she forget that the dress isn't for me?

"No no none of that i need to see if the dress will be comfortable or not, especially with the embroidery, this particular dress took some time and care, and I work to the satisfaction of the customer," really? She decided to be serious now?

I huffed as she pushed me along into the dressing room and shoved the dress into my hands.

I quickly changed into it and she was right, the chest area was slightly tight but that's okay because Alice barely had anything up there.

The dress felt very smooth and supple against my skin, it was like silk.

I stepped out only to hear two gasps..

I was it the boobs?, it had to be the boobs.

I turned to look at the mirror and repressed my own dress was stunning, though not my had many beads along the edge of the borders, made of a silk like material, with a not too revealing sweetheart neckline, the dress flowed out into a fishtail behind me,but what enticed me the most was the amazing embroidery, it was so intricate and finely detailed, the material coming all the way up to my wrists.

I looked like a fairy.

"Ay ay ay you look so beautiful ! Muy bonito ! Young man come look at this isn't she a sight?" came the voice of Isadora.

Despite the craziness, this woman knew her shit.

I heard a slight coughing behind me only to turn around to look at Edward standing there with wide eyes, ugh I knew the chest was too tight.

Maybe I looked like a I'm supposed to look like a bride, so do I look like a whore bride?

"You er...look,"he ran his hands through his hair and I refrained from smiling.

He was so cute.

No he's not.

"You look very much stunning...I mean... what I meant to say was that you look nice...no pretty...er" he was stumbling and I was trying hard not to laugh.

"Its okay Edward I get it." I smiled as I quickly hurried to change, this was getting way too intense for me.

-x-

"Aw come on you can't tell me you have never watched star wars, seriously Bella?Like really?are you even human?"

We were back in the car after that awkward moment at the shop and we were already bantering like old friends.

"No Edward I have never watched it okay?I'm one of the rare people who do not care about star wars" I spoke back defensively.

"Thats it I'm making you watch star wars if it is the last thing I do"

"No Edward I'm not watching it, it's soo boring, i would rather go shopping with Alice"

"Now that's an insult and a half, I mean I still remember the day she took me for wedding shopping, I wanted to rip my hair out" he huffed, yup i know Alice is...special.

"No don't do that you have pretty hair" i blurted out.

Shit shit shit.

"What was that Bella?" he grinned, making me blush.

"And earlier 'oh Edward you are far from ugly', what was that about" he mocked me in a stupid girly voice while batting his eyelashes.

"I do not talk like that" i gritted out, but faced the window to hide my growing smile.

Ever since our heated conversation in the car Edward has lightened up a bit, he seems more comfortable with me although he isn't still delving into things, we were keeping the conversation light, Edward was nothing like I assumed, i found out through the past two hours that he is not only a piano prodigy, he holds a love for classics, in music and in books.

We had a small argument again when we stopped for food because Edward thought Wuthering heights was a stupid book.

"OFCOURSE you like that book, its love romance, it's so stupid really" he had argued.

"What do you mean it's stupid?It was Emily Bronte's only novel and regarded as a classic, which i thought you loved, it was unbelievably romantic and well written," I counter, this is one argument i wont lose.

"Yeah of course classics are amazing, but ones like To kill a mockingbird, not depressed romance, and anyway if Catherine truly loved Heathcliff she wouldn't have left him," he spoke with fire in his eyes, arguing with Edward was kinda fun.

"Yeah but that was her choice, it's the relationship between her and Heathcliff that matters," i was losing, for the first time.

"Haha Bella you can't be serious i mean if you love someone you don't leave them...no matter what," his eyes bore into mine and i could tell what he was thinking.

"Yes but it's the circumstances Edward" i was trying to keep the conversation flowing.

"No Bella, there's no excuse, Mo- I mean Catherine wouldn't have dropped him if she truly loved him, I don't believe in love Bella it only gives you heartache"

"Edward sometimes you have to forgive and forget"

"It's not that easy."

The shrill ringing of the phone interrupted our conversation.

"Hello?," i spoke into the phone.

"Bella where are you have you got the dress?," asked an enthusiastic Alice.

"Yes Alice I do have the dress its in the backseat, it's perfectly fine ," I reassured her.

"Okay thank you so much Bells and you too Eddie!," she screamed into the phone making Edward wince.

I grinned at him, he hated the name Eddie.

"Alice i have told you a thousand times, don't call me Eddie!," he grabbed my phone from me and started yelling at her.

I could hear her mumble and he nodded a few times and then glanced at me, his mouth turned into a slight smirk, his eyes bore into mine.

"Yeah okay Alice, bye...yeah you too...what...no, i'm not saying it...fine love you too now cut the damn phone," huffed Edward as he handed it back to me.

"Aww love you too? You and Alice are that close?," i was honestly intrigued, Edward didn't seem like the type to take an instant liking to people, much like me .

He chuckled.

"When i first met Alice she was like the she-devil, she told me that my outfits were totally out of this world and I had great fashion sense," he smirked cockily "and she kept on hounding me to be her main model for some fashion show she was included of course i said no, no woman tells me what to do, so she hounded me day and night," he huffed in annoyance.

"By day and night I mean literally day and night she used to call me at like three in the morning, I felt like strangling her and Jasper was no help, of course he's so pussy whipped that whatever Alice wanted she got, I finally agreed," he spoke sheepishly.

"No way! You agreed?," I guess i knew where she was coming from, he's one fine excuse for a man.

"Yeah, and while she was training me or whatever we spent quite some time together, she turned out to be quite cool and she has the same movie tastes so we bonded, she's kind of like a little sister now"

"Wow that is so cute," i mused.

"I can certainly tell your sisters, your both infuriating and stubborn as hell, but she's a mild case but your…" he smirked.

"what?I can't help it okay ? I argue till I get my way, my dad always used to tell me that being a lawyer was the best choice i ever made"

It was true, i could argue like a madwoman.

"Well you chose right" he shrugged."aren't you hungry?"

"No" as if right on cue my stomach rumbled.

Fucking sake.

He smirked his cute smirk at me and my anger subsided.

We stopped at a McDonald's and ordered take away.

"Hey can I have a big mac with extra chips, coke and umm an oreo mcflurry"

He turned to me and nodded to the side.

"Can i have a big mac and a caramel iced frappe please," I spoke to the receiver.

"I see we have similar taste in food," he grinned.

I grinned back, his smiles were infectious, and this time they were genuine.

-x-

It was almost noon when we got back and the everyone was out lounging near the pool.

"Bella thank you so much, can I see the dress?Wheres the dress?Is it okay?Is it bad ?," she spoke all at once.

"It's fine Alice, its beautiful, its in the car, go get it," I smiled.

"Eeeee!" she squealed as she lugged Jasper along to get the damn dress.

"Bella Im hungry, fix me something ?," whined Edward from behind me.

"Really? We just had a butt load of food and your already hungry?," i asked, it wasn't that much compared to what Emmett eats but still.

"What a man needs to grow, how do you think I got these muscles?," he flexed.

He was too hot for his own good, I wanted to jump him.

"Fine fine," I grinned as i set off to cook.

Just then a hat landed on my head, what the hell?

"Edward why is there a hat on my head?," I asked smiling at his grinning face.

"It suits you I had it custom-made," he shrugged with a glint in his eyes.

"Aw really? for me ?" I was touched and I liked it more than I should have.

"Yeah I thought of it and I just wanted you to have it," he sounded extremely happy and energetic, nothing like the moody Edward i knew.

"Anyway enough of that, fix me some food darlingg," he mocked as he heaved himself up on the counter.

He was becoming more relaxed with me, he was flirting more than usual and he was more lively.

"Okay what do you want darlinggg?, Pasta? A sandwich?," I mocked back while I flicked a dishcloth at him.

"No darlingg something heavy, I know! Make me some Chinese noodles, mom used to make it for me all the time," he took a deep breath "every Friday it was a different specialty, but my favorite was Chinese noodles.

It was the first time I've heard him comfortably talk about her, he didn't even is he opening up to me?Why is he trying ?Why is he so friendly all of a sudden?These questions were roaming around my head.I was more confused with my feelings, I was trying to put up walls just like he was and I was trying to remind myself that he was a manwhore and a jerk, but somehow my mind says one thing and my mouth does another, I can't stop being nice to him or teasing him and joking around with him, what was wrong with me, I have never changed for any guy, none.I'm always so awkward around them, but with Edward I feel the most comfortable I've been in a long time.

"Of course I can make you noodles, but too bad i don't know how to make it" I shrugged, I was trying to not go into the subject of his mother, it was too much of a touchy subject for him.

"Well I remember clearly she used to boil these noodles in water and let it simmer for a long time and in a separate pan she would mix all these sauces and vegetables and meat and stuff, then she would pour it in the noodles and do this shaky mixy thingy with two forks " he spoke looking wistful.

"Right and that was so much detail I think I might be able to do it in my sleep now, Edward what do you mean by stuff?"

"Oh yeah, um I don't remember, but i'll help!" he grinned looking all eager, awww.

We ended up googling it and everything was perfectly fine till he decided to make cupcakes for dessert, now we were covered in flour .

"Edward I told you like a million times! You don't mix the eggs and flour that fast!," I huffed, as I saw him sheepishly wipe the mess on the floor.

"I will do it," I said as I lunged forward to grab the cloth.

Everything happened at once as I felt myself skid across the egg and land on Edward with a heavy thump.

I felt a weird sort of Dejavu, from the time I fell from the tree.

As if reading my mind Edward whispered into my face.

"This isn't the first time Bella, are you making this a habit?," his eyes were looking between mine and my lips.

I felt my breathing increase and my heartbeat fastened, I was blushing like mad and my face was warm, it was a comfortable silence and I really wanted to kiss him.

I bit my lip in anticipation and he took one glance at them and then groaned capturing his lips with mine and flipping me over.

It was nothing like i've ever felt before, there were fireworks going through my body, his lips tasted like cinnamon and spice and he was feverishly kissing me, we were rolling around in the flour but I couldn't care less and by the looks of it neither did he, I lifted my hands up and threaded my fingers into his soft silky hair and pushed him further into me as his hands roamed my bare skin, his fingers skimming over my stomach, everything was happening so fast we didn't hear the banging of a door and clicking of heels.

"THE QUEEN HAS ARRIVED BITCHES!"

"Rose?"

-x-

Did you guys like it? If you did please please review i love reading reviews.

Sorry if this story is dragging out and some people think its "not progressing the story", well that's how i planned 's supposed to be a slow burn fic and not a love at first sight type of story but don't worry it won't be a drag because I've read plenty of those stories where they don't confess anything till the last chapter, annoying i was saying this story will be at least ten to fifteen chapters long and i'm trying to make the chapters longer.I will not be doing an EPOV because this is Bella's story and knowing Edwards point of view kind of ruins things.

Yes there is a mystery and you might have already guessed it has something to do with Esme doing some...things haha.

But don't worry she is not a vampire or human here..

I am currently reading a fic called "There will be blood" it is amazing and you should totally check it out, if your into mafia crime and hot possesiveward ;)