A/N: Hello, this is sort of a chapter of two halves, so I really hope it's ok. I wanted to post so I won't do too much of an author's note other than to say, thank you for the continued reviews and support and I hope you like it.

Please let me know what you think as it means a lot to me.

Emily

My hand ran through the soft hair and came to rest on her neck. I fixed on the intense blue eyes as they moved closer and sighed as her mouth covered mine. My fingertips brushed across her back and I marvelled at how the slightest touch made her muscles ripple.

"Oh Naomi..."

There was a gentle increase in pressure as she pressed down on me. Taking care not to break the kiss she shifted her body until I felt a hand ghost across the inside of my thigh. I moaned softly when her fingers entered me and before long I felt my body begin to quake.

"Hmmm..." I began until I realised that the whole room felt like it was shaking.

"Wake up you bloody perv." Katie hissed.

My eyes flew open, "What?"

She snorted, "that could have been your son in the room not me. Danny's been chomping at the bit to wake you, just as well I insisted eh?"

Even though I was still half asleep I was indignant, "Jesus K, there's no need to make it sound like it's a regular occurrence."

Another snort, "We shared a room for 17 years, I'm well aware how frequently it happens, especially when you aren't getting any."

"YAY! You're awake at last Mummy." Danny yelled as he bounded into the room.

I glared at my twin, "Yes, I have Auntie Katie to thank for that."

He jumped onto the bed and started bouncing. "Don't be grumpy. I asked her to because Naomi will be here soon and it's our big day out and I'm sooooo excited."

I took one look at his beaming face and smiled, "I know you are sweetheart. Let me get ready and then I'll cheer up, I promise."

He nodded, "Ok, but don't take ages and keep changing clothes like you normally do. Naomi said we're going abroad and we don't want to be late."

"Alright it's a deal, I'll be as quick as I can." I agreed.

He ran out of the room and zoomed down the stairs.

"I hope he isn't disappointed when he realises you're only going to a boring castle in Cardiff." Katie said with a slight sneer.

I rolled my eyes, "Just because you're not into that sort of thing don't assume everyone is as superficial as you are."

"But they've got some really great shops, why would anyone prefer to do something educational?" Katie said in a mystified tone.

I got out of bed with a sigh, "It'll be fun and Dan will love it. Can you keep an eye on him while I shower please?"

"Sure. Oh and Em, no more trips to fantasy land while you're in there eh?" Katie replied with a smirk.

I gave her the finger and went to the en suite. I switched on the shower and after a few tests of the temperature, got in. Trips to fantasy land, bloody cheek. Ok so perhaps the fact I was dreaming about us having sex was stretching things a bit, but the kissing wasn't and sometimes we were nearly naked.

Well alright, that's not strictly true either, but hands had been wandering, oh yes, let me tell you, there was definite roaming inside garments going on, well under t-shirts, over bras at any rate. I snatched the shower gel in frustration. It was hardly my fault I was having dreams like that was it?

Since Naomi had taken me to dinner a couple of weeks ago we'd been out several times. Sometimes Danny came with us, sometimes we were alone, but they all ended up the same way. Me and Naomi on the sofa kissing like a pair of horny teenagers. Oh for God's sake, obviously we waited until Danny went to bed if he was with us, I do have some self control you know? No, really I do!

It all started the day after our dinner date. Naomi had turned up rather than just ringing and she seemed agitated. Not as much as I was mind you. I was cleaning the house dressed in jogging bottoms and a vest top, my hair was messily pulled into a ponytail and I wasn't wearing a scrap of make-up. I nearly died when I opened the door to find her on the other side.

Naomi stared at me and I was about to launch into some rambling explanation why I looked like a dog. But she smiled and said how could I make looking so beautiful so effortless? After that comment I decided what I was wearing didn't seem to matter as much.

Anyway, I digress. It turns out Effy and Cook had put the wind up her and she wanted to make sure I'd meant what I said the previous night about being ok with us taking our time. I assured her, that yes, less than 24 hours later, I hadn't changed my mind, but she still seemed unsure. So to prove it I kissed her and asked if that was convincing enough. She'd cheekily responded that it might take a bit more than that. So, what the hell, we kissed again and when it transpired that Dan wouldn't be back until much later, any thought of cleaning went out the (slightly grimy) window and we spent the rest of the afternoon on the sofa.

Now don't get me wrong, I couldn't think of many things I'd rather be doing with Naomi - well maybe one or two sprung to mind - but it was getting harder, for both of us, to stop. Last night was no exception, especially as we started to go down the 'you might as well stay seeing as we're going to Cardiff tomorrow' route. Eventually, and very reluctantly I might add, we agreed it was too much temptation and the blonde left. But it did explain why I'd spent most of the night in a fitful sleep having the dreams I did.

After showering, I quickly moisturised and got dressed. I didn't need to change repeatedly as I'd already worked out what I was wearing. I finished drying my hair and putting make up on before I made my way downstairs. I found Katie sitting in the kitchen with a magazine.

"I thought you were supposed to be looking after your nephew?" I queried.

She looked up, "He's fine watching tv."

I shook my head, "That's hardly keeping an eye on him."

Katie shrugged, "He's like a firecracker, it'd probably give me some sort of fit if I tried to keep tabs."

She stopped as her phone rang, I caught her half of the conversation, it was obviously Cook. She giggled a few times and said she'd be over later. She hung up and blushed slightly as she saw I was watching her curiously.

"You and Cook seem very close these days." I observed.

"Suppose so." She replied noncommittally.

My eyebrow raised, "Naomi told me you were watching the notebook the other week. It's all very couplely, hmmm?"

She glared, "Really Em? You're commenting on my relationship like it's dysfunctional?"

"So you're finally admitting it is a relationship then?" I quizzed further.

Katie sighed, "Honestly, don't you ever give up? Yes, alright, it's a relationship, he's my boyfriend and I... erm... I love him."

"Wow! I mean we sort of guessed, but to hear you say it is a big deal." I exclaimed.

She smiled, "I know, not really my style is it?"

I shook my head, "No, but I'm still happy for you. Have you told him?"

"Yeah, that's what we were talking about when you came in after the date. We'd watched the film and he was so sweet, I couldn't help it." Katie explained.

"I'm guessing from the fact he's still around, he feels the same way too?" I asked.

Katie nodded, "He does, well that's what he said."

"I think he probably means it K." I said reassuringly, I looked at her soppy grin, "Another bonus is you might be able to convince people you're not the totally heartless bitch they think you are..."

She nudged me, "Fuck off cow."

I checked my watch, Naomi would be here soon and she was going to be very excited at this latest development. I sighed, although things were clearly a lot better, I wondered, not for the first time, why it felt so much easier discussing other people's love lives while we studiously avoided our own.

"Em, can I ask you something?" Katie said tentatively.

I snapped out of my thoughts, "Sure."

She took a deep breath, "How do you cope? Not hearing Naomi say she loves you."

I inhaled sharply, I hadn't been expecting that, "Why?"

"I was the one who told Cook first, in the beginning he didn't say it back, he said 'me too'. It didn't feel the same and it was only for a couple of days but I hated it. It got me thinking how difficult it must be for you." She opined.

I sighed, "Actions speak louder than words and Naomi isn't afraid to demonstrate how much she cares about me."

Katie still looked skeptical.

"Look, I'd be lying if I pretended it didn't bother me at all, of course it does sometimes. But honestly most of the time it's no big deal." I argued.

The doorbell rang and Danny rushed down the hallway. "Naomi! You're here!"

They walked into the kitchen, Danny was chattering away but Naomi looked up and smiled at me. Every cell in my body either melted or began to vibrate, out of the corner of my eye I saw the smug look on Katie's face. I half smiled and half grimaced.

"You ok Em?" Naomi questioned.

I nodded, "Of course, I'm really looking forward to today."

"Mummy, you promised." Danny turned to Naomi, "Mummy woke up grumpy. Auntie Katie said it was because she wasn't getting any, although I don't know what any is."

Naomi tried not to smile as I glared at my twin, "Sleep Dan, Auntie Katie meant I wasn't getting any sleep."

He looked puzzled, "But you were snoring..."

"Thank you Daniel, that's enough." I interrupted.

Katie smirked, "It's not the only reason for your bad mood though is it?"

"Katie!" I hissed as I looked into the questioning blue eyes.

"I woke up with a bit of a jolt, that's all." I explained.

"In the middle of a dream." Katie clarified.

"Really? And did I feature at all in this dream?" Naomi asked flirtatiously.

I looked at Danny but he wasn't paying attention, "Starring role actually."

"Come on Em, don't be a grouch," she began to tickle me, "turn that frown upside down"

I started to laugh, "God you're irritating."

Naomi leaned in so she could whisper, "How about after we put Dan to bed tonight you tell me all about this dream of yours?"

"Perv." I whispered back.

Katie tutted, "Hello? You two? A room, get one."

I scoffed, "That's a bit rich. Did you know there were declarations of love?"

Naomi's eyes widened, "No? Really?"

I nodded, "Turns out watching the notebook wasn't the most embarrassing thing they were doing after all."

Naomi chuckled, "well, well, well, Cook has some very awkward questions coming up."

Katie grimaced, "Look do you want a lift or not?"

Suddenly Danny was back in the room, "Of course we do, we really, really, don't want to be late."

Katie smiled sarcastically, "Come on then losers, I have to go and see my boyfriend, who, by the way, isn't emotionally repressed like some people."

We made our way to car, Naomi leaned in, "ouch!"

I smiled, "24 years without relationship advice from my twin, I think I can cope for a bit longer."

She smiled back coyly, "when you put it like that..."

Most of the journey was spent in silence, mainly because Naomi was gripping the car so tightly I thought she was going to faint. Ok so maybe Katie and I weren't the best drivers but it wasn't exactly a death trap.

The car stopped and Danny prised her fingers away, "it's ok Naomi, open your eyes we're here."

She let out a deep breath, "Great, thanks Katie. So I'll get the tickets?"

I nodded, "And as you've got them for this afternoon, lunch is on me."

She smiled, "sounds good."

Much to Danny's relief we'd managed to sort out a system where we didn't argue but split things between us. Apparently it wasn't 'totally embarrassing' to be with us anymore.

We made our way to the platform, Danny looked wary, "Are we going to the seaside again? We've already been."

Naomi shook her head, "I keep telling you it's a foreign, exciting country."

He didn't look convinced, "but it's not by plane."

She rolled her eyes, "Alright, spoil the surprise why don't you? We're going to Cardiff, I thought we could go to Yo!sushi for lunch and then I've got us tickets for a jousting tournament in the castle."

Danny frowned, "What's sushi?"

Naomi put her arm around him as we waited, "It's mainly rice, some fish and delicious chicken. I thought you'd like it because all of the food is on coloured plates and travels round on a conveyor belt."

I could see his interest was piqued, "So it moves towards you, like on a spaceship?"

She nodded sagely, "Exactly like a spaceship."

Danny clutched his arms to the side of his body, "that's sooo cool!"

The train arrived and we got on, or rather Danny pushed and then we sat where he told us to. Naturally he sat next to Naomi, but I didn't mind as I sat opposite and could watch her as she chatted animatedly to my son. They were playing "the story game." Naomi explained to Danny how it worked. They chose someone on the train and had to make up stories about where they were going and why they were here.

Danny pointed, "That man in the silly hat, he's going shopping.

"I don't think so. I think he's a spy. He's got photos in his hat that prove the woman over there." Naomi pointed, "is going to sell secrets to the enemy and he's here to stop her."

Danny's eyes widened, "Who's the enemy?"

Naomi paused and looked around, "Oh Dan, they can be all around. See over there?"

He nodded, "the man in the silly hat again?"

"Um, hmm, he's not going shopping. He's an alien." Naomi said seriously.

Danny giggled, "you're just making it up."

Naomi winked at him, "We'll see."

I'd just been observing until now, "So, if you're so clever, what's my story?"

Naomi stared at me, then smiled, "You're too perfect, I think you're a robot sent from outer space to incapacitate the human race."

I smiled back, "then I guess my mission here is complete."

Naomi

We sat either side of the bed as we tucked Danny in, he was knackered and could hardly keep his eyes open.

"So little man, did you have a good day in Cardiff?" I asked with a smile.

He gave a tiny nod, "Yeah, it was tons of fun. Sushi is my new favourite food and the jousting was ace."

Emily ruffled his hair, "Try not to join in next time eh? That guard looked petrified when you charged at him with a stick."

"Ok Mummy, but it looked really enjoyable. Can I be a knight when I grow up?" he asked.

I laughed, "Not sure it's a proper job anymore Danny. Besides what happened to being a lawyer?"

"Hmmm, maybe I could do that during the week and be a knight at the weekend?" he opined.

Emily rolled her eyes at me, "Oh God, he's going to be one of these battle re-enactment geeks."

I nudged her, "There's nothing wrong with keeping history alive Em."

She tutted, "You would say that."

"Naomi read me a story." he asked sleepily.

"Come on Danny, leave Naomi alone, she's played enough for today. Anyway, I'm not sure you'll be awake long enough to appreciate it." Emily said gently.

He frowned, "Pleeeeeease."

I smiled, "I don't mind honestly, which one?"

"The BFG, but I want voices." he stated.

"Danny." Emily said with a warning tone.

"But it's not the same without the voices..." Danny protested.

I picked up the book, "Fine, the BFG with voices coming right up.

"I is a very mixed up Giant," the Giant said. "But I does do my best. And I is not nearly as mixed up as the other giants. I know one who gallops all the way to Wellington for his supper."

"Wellington?" Sophie said. "Where is Wellington?"

"Your head is full of squashed flies," the Giant said. "Wellington is in New Zealand. The human beans in Wellington has an especially scrumdiddlyumptious taste, so says the Welly-eating Giant."

"What do the people of Wellington taste of?" Sophie asked.

"Boots," the Giant said.

It was actually quite funny, I surprised myself at how much I liked it. I stared at Danny, his eyes were drooping, I kissed the top of his head.

"Night, night, sweet dreams." I uttered.

Emily smiled and kissed him, "Goodnight sweetheart."

He sighed, "Night Mummy, I love you."

"I love you too." Emily stated.

"Night Naomi, I love you." he stated.

I froze, this wasn't what I was expecting, what the fuck did I say? So for once I listened to Emily and just went with the flow, "Night Dan, love you too."

He sighed happily and his eyelids closed. I smiled at Emily and we went downstairs.

"Do you need any help?" I asked.

Emily shook her head, "I'm fine."

She put some rice on and chopped up the meat before she marinated it.

"I guess we're continuing today's oriental theme and having a stir fry?" I said wryly.

"Yes, is that a problem?" Emily replied sharply as she attacked the vegetables.

"No, of course not. You sure I can't assist in any way?" I questioned.

"For fuck's sake Naomi, it's a bloody stir fry, I can manage." Emily said with an edge in her voice.

I frowned, "Sorry, I was only offering."

Emily pointed to the drawer, "You could lay the table."

I nodded, "sure."

I put the chopsticks, forks and spoons out. Emily seemed a bit uptight and I couldn't understand why, we'd been getting along fantastically until now, what had changed?

"One table laid. Shall I put the soy out too?" I asked brightly.

She shrugged, "Sure, why not."

She served the food and we started to eat, I finished my first mouthful.

"This is really great." I stated.

Emily gave me a tight smile, "Is it? Do you love it Naomi?"

I frowned, "Well no, I really like it, to say I love it might be a stretch."

"Hmmm." was her non committal reply.

"So today was fun." I said.

She nodded and took a mouthful of food, "Yeah, it was great."

"Em, are you ok?" I asked.

She stared at me for a while, "I keep telling you I'm fine, stop asking or I'll really get in a bad mood."

"Ok, sorry." I said with a smile, it wasn't returned.

We made small talk as we ate, but Emily only gave monosyllabic answers and barely looked at me. I didn't understand why but she was definitely pissed off for some reason.

"Em, don't bite my head off, but you really not alright, tell me what's wrong" I asked in a concerned tone.

She stared at me and I thought she was going to open up but instead her shoulders sagged, "Just a bit tired I guess, like you said it was a fun packed day."

I decided against pushing it, "Dan loved yo sushi! in the end, we might have trouble getting him to eat somewhere without a conveyor belt from now on."

"Will we?" Emily said shortly.

I studied her, "Don't you think so? I hoped It would be a add a bit of novelty, make the meal exciting."

She shrugged, "I suppose so."

We finished in silence and Emily started to clear away but I picked up the dishes, "come on you know the drill by now, you cook, I clean."

She tutted but let me tidy up, what the hell had I done? I racked my brains, I mean we'd had a great day... hadn't we? No, we did. Yo sushi! had been a great success, the castle was fun, now Dan was in bed we were supposed to be settling in on the sofa, for well you know, kissing and revealing of what I hoped was a pretty good dream. Only now Emily was clearly annoyed and it looked like she barely wanted to be in the same room as me let alone let me get near enough to do anything else.

"Em..." I started.

"Seriously Naomi, if you ask me what's wrong again I won't be responsible for what I do." she said angrily.

"Why don't you go and sit in the lounge and I'll finish up here?" I wasn't sure if my offer would be accepted.

Emily bit her lip, she paused again but in the end all that came out was a terse 'thanks'.

When I finished I walked into the lounge with a glass of wine. I smiled at a picture of her and Danny, "I can't believe you hid all of these away the first time I stayed here."

"Jesus fucking Christ Naomi, I've said I'm sorry hundreds of times, what more do you want?" she said in exasperation.

I stared at her, "It was just an observation."

She snorted, "Yeah sure it was."

"I need the loo." I blurted out.

She looked at me strangely, "thanks for the information."

I gave her a quick smile and headed straight for the cloakroom, I didn't really need to go but I was confused. I took out my phone and it rang a few times before it went to voicemail.

I tapped my foot, "Eff it's me, call me back yeah?"

I also sent a text message with the same request. After a couple of minutes she hadn't called so I dialled again, still voicemail. I hung up and tried one last time, on this occasion Effy answered.

"What Naomi?" she hissed.

"Eff, Em's acting a bit, well very, strange." I stated.

Effy tutted, "Naoms, I'm kind of in the middle of something, which is why I didn't answer straight away, take the hint."

"Oh, right, sorry, really sorry, it doesn't matter." I uttered.

There was a muffled conversation, then Effy came back on the phone, "Strange how?"

"Honestly, it..." I started.

"Naomi, spit it out, you've got precisely one minute." Effy said.

I sighed, "When someone says they're fine what does it mean?"

Effy paused, "Depends how they say it, if it sounds casual then they probably are."

"And if it's said through clenched teeth?" I clarified.

Effy sucked in her breath, "Ooh, then they're lying and about as far away from fine as can be. What happened Naoms?"

"Nothing, that's just it, we had a really great day, I don't understand. What should I do?" I asked.

Effy sighed, "Talk to Emily and find out what's wrong, and Naomi, there is something wrong. Now fuck off and leave me alone."

I scowled, "What exactly are you doing?"

"I'm on date." Effy stated.

"Shit, with Matt?" I asked.

She sighed, "Yes with Matt, in the cinema Naomi..."

I grimaced, "I'm guessing you're not that popular right now?"

"No Naomi, I'm really not." she replied tersely.

"Sorry Eff, speak to you tomorrow?" I suggested.

"If you piss off now then maybe. Just talk to Emily and find out what the fuck you've done to upset her."

I went to reply but the line went dead. I stared at my phone, "charming."

I walked back into the lounge, the stony face was still there. I took a deep breath and tried again. "Emily, don't pretend you're ok, because you're obviously not."

She continued to glower.

"Please Em, talk to me. If, as I strongly suspect, I've done something wrong, tell me what it is and I promise I'll try not to do it again." There was a pleading note in my voice.

Her face softened slightly, "You haven't done anything wrong, it's me."

Oh shit, the 'it's not you, it's me' line. "What is?"

Emily stared, "I've really tried Naomi, not to push you, we've agreed I haven't put pressure on you?"

I shook my head, "No, absolutely not."

"I've given you plenty of time and said I'll wait for you to be totally ready." she stated.

I nodded, I was even more confused.

She stared at her hands, "So just tell me what I need to do."

"I don't understand." I stated.

"What else do you need Naomi? I've said sorry, given you space but it still doesn't seem to be good enough. You say all the right things, you'll get there, that this is going somewhere, in the end you'll forgive me." Emily continued.

I stared at her, she was pacing up and down and biting her nails. I wanted to say something to stop the clearly anxious woman in front of me, but when I opened my mouth nothing came out.

"I'll do anything, I promise. But need to know what as I can't keep going on like this, not with the constant uncertainty." Emily said quietly.

"You don't need to do anything else, you've been amazingly patient and I really appreciate it." I finally said lamely.

I thought back to the conversation with Effy, she'd said that something would tip Emily over the edge, if only I knew what it was I'd take it back in an instant. Christ did that mean she was right about everything? Was I subconsciously pushing Emily away to make her feel insecure? To make me feel like I was in control and feel better about myself? Because it wasn't working, in fact seeing Emily like this only made me feel like a complete and utter bitch.

Suddenly her shoulders sagged, "I'm sorry. I thought I was alright with it but actually I'm not sure I am."

"But you said..."

She glared at me, "I know what I said and I'd even managed to convince us both it felt fine. But how do you think I feel Naomi? I mean for God's sake, you behave like my girlfriend, Dan adores you, we act like some stupid happy family but we're not are we?"

"Aren't we? I mean, I'm happy when I'm with you and Danny." I stated.

Emily sighed, "I'm happy too which is why I don't understand why you're still reluctant to say we're back together."

"I don't know." I said quietly.

"Look, it doesn't matter, we can discuss this some other time." Emily said wearily.

"Please Em, don't do this. It does matter, you clearly want to talk about it now. What's changed?" I pleaded.

She shrugged, "honestly, I thought I was ok until I heard you say it, but everything just came crashing down and I realised I'd just been fooling myself."

"Heard me say what?" I asked.

"You really don't know?" Emily said incredulously.

I shook my head.

She exhaled and tears filled her eyes, "How come you can tell my son you love him but you still can't tell me?"

Oh Christ, I was so fucking dense sometimes, alright most of the time, "I thought I should be honest."

Some of her anger returned, "Fan fucking tastic Naomi, Danny tells you he loves you and you say it straight back, I tell you and all I get in return is 'I know'. Do you have any idea how difficult it is to keep doing that? How every time it happens a little bit more of my optimism and confidence gets destroyed?"

What had I done? Well actually that was obvious even to a moron like me. My stupid need for control had reduced someone strong and beautiful to the sobbing person in front of me. I felt like repeatedly punching myself in the face for being such a cunt. I reached out for Emily but she shook my arm off.

"I'm sorry but I can't stand it, I really can't, I don't know what else I can do."

"Neither do I."

She wiped her cheeks and looked away, "Maybe you should go."

"That's not what I meant." I clarified.

The words were left hanging as Emily finally looked at me. As soon as she saw my expression I knew she understood.

Her eyes widened as I launched myself at her. Our lips came together with such intensity we stumbled before falling to the floor. I landed on top of her and heard a small groan.

I pushed myself up slightly, "Are you ok?"

I took the fact that a second later I was forcefully pulled back into another kiss and the redhead's tongue immediately found its way into my mouth as proof that yes, Emily was fine.

"What about Danny?" I asked breathlessly between kisses.

"Dead to the world." she replied.

My mouth covered hers until I thought of something else, "Katie?"

Her nostrils flared, "Staying at Cook's."

I eagerly sought out her lips again, oh God this felt good. Emily reached into my t-shirt and quickly unclasped my bra, her hands began to massage my tits, firmly kneading them and flicking my nipples. I moaned as she scraped her nails back and forth.

"Fuck Em..." I uttered as we broke for air.

"Yes please..."

I supported my weight on one arm as I slowly ran my hand up and down the outside of her thigh. Each time I ventured a little further inside her skirt and pressed a little harder causing her breath to hitch. Emily's eyes silently pleaded with me as I continued to tease her inch by inch, getting closer to my ultimate destination each time. Her skin begin to quiver under my fingertips and she groaned as I finally pushed the heel of my palm against her underwear. I licked my lips, even through the fabric I could feel her heat.

"Naomi... Now..." She husked.

I grinned, it was all the encouragement I needed to get rid of the obstructive knickers. I pressed my palm against her again, only this time I connected with liquid as I began to rock my hand back and forth. Although it was clearly doing something, I knew it wasn't enough.

Her eyes fixed on me, they were almost black, "Please..."

I immediately thrust two fingers into her, causing her to gasp and rock her hips towards me each time I repeated my actions. We quickly worked up a rhythm, fingers and hips moving together. Emily tried to wrap her legs around me, I allowed one to curl around my back but pushed the other down as I ground into her thigh. By now we were both breathing heavily as our bodies moved in sync.

"Oh Jesus..." Emily hissed as my fingers plunged into her.

I pulled away and watched as the redhead gripped me tightly, I moved my hand and tried to find her clit with my thumb, slippery little bugger kept moving. Finally I located it and began rubbing insistently.

"Oh..." Emily moaned softly, "Oh fuck..."

The chocolate eyes focused on me and she smiled, God she was beautiful. I stared in wonder as our bodies moved faster against each other. My free hand ran through her hair and I began to massage the back of her neck causing Emily to murmur in appreciation.

"Kiss me." She ordered, I didn't need asking twice.

My lips connected with hers again and we both groaned as our rhythm intensified. By now my fingers were rapidly pushing harder and harder inside her as my thumb continued to flick her clit. My tongue entered her mouth and eagerly sought out hers as I felt her body begin to quiver. I kept kissing her as a series of guttural sounds escaped her mouth and her nails dug into my flesh.

I stopped anything I was doing that didn't involve making Emily come so I could concentrate on her properly. Her cunt spasmed around my fingers, covering them in even more liquid, and I used my body weight to thrust them one last time, making sure they went as deep as I could manage. I felt the redhead tense and she moaned into my mouth as she finally came.

Although my cunt was throbbing impatiently I made sure I gradually ceased the circling of her clit with my thumb until I was sure she was totally finished. I pulled away and smiled as Emily's chest heaved as she lay panting beneath me with her eyes closed.

Her cunt rippled around my fingers and that was it, I couldn't help myself as I resumed my earlier thrusts against her leg, ok so it wasn't ideal, but fuck, after that I really needed to come myself. I gripped her more tightly as the friction of my jeans against my clit finally began to achieve something. I wondered momentarily if Emily would mind.

I didn't have long to wait for my answer. She shifted slightly and undid my jeans before her hand moved inside my underwear, her fingers connected with my clit and began to rub it firmly. Now we were cooking on gas.

"Oh God." I uttered into her ear.

Emily's other hand moved down to my arse and she pulled me into her. My mind went totally blank as all I could focus on was her fingers pressing against me. I pushed against her hand as she continued to flex her fingers, the extra stimulation was clearly working because my whole body began to shake. I buried my face into her hair, I was actually grunting in her ear but I was so close I couldn't help it. My body stiffened.

"Fuuuucckkk!" somehow I managed to whisper.

I was no longer taking an active part in this, but it didn't matter, Emily's fingers more than made up for my passivity. Every cell in my body began to pulse as my orgasm ripped through my body, my hips jerked as Emily kept rubbing my clit and my forehead crashed against the carpet as my arm gave way.

I lay on the floor gasping for air, once my breathing was under control, I lifted myself up.

"That was embarrassingly quick." I said with a satisfied smile.

She smiled back, "Me or you?"

I pretended to think, "There wasn't much in it."

"I've been on the verge all day after my dream this morning, what's your excuse?" She quipped.

"Have you seen you?" I replied as I leant down to kiss her again.

"So... do you want to stay?" She asked slightly unsurely when we pulled apart.

I smiled, "I thought I might."

Emily nodded as she removed her hand, "Ok... I can make up the spare room if you want..."

I laughed, "why can't I sleep with you? In your bed I mean."

She bit her lip, "Sure, that's fine. I just... I didn't..."

"Oh, is this about Danny seeing us? God, I totally understand you want to send out the right message. I should have thought..." I garbled.

She shook her head, "It's not that..."

"So what's the matter?" I questioned with a puzzled look.

She sighed, "I didn't want to presume this means anything."

"What? Did you think I'd fuck you, dry hump your thigh and then say cheers for the shag love, see you around?" I said flippantly.

Emily looked away and I realised that was exactly what she was scared of, she was worried in case this was just lust spilling over. I should have realised her insecurity wouldn't totally disappear straight away.

I waited until she made eye contact again, "Just so we're both clear. You're the most beautiful, kind, intelligent and amazing person I've ever met. I love you so much and I'd really like to be a part of your, and Danny's, life if you'll let me."

Slowly she smiled and it was like the sun coming out from behind a storm cloud.

"You're already part of our lives, a really, really important part." Emily stated.

"I'm so sorry for the way I've behaved." I said sheepishly.

Emily shook her head, "You don't have to apologise for anything."

"Yeah Em I do. I thought that keeping you at arms length would make me feel more in control, but it didn't. Making you feel bad was never my intention, I was just scared." I explained.

"I know." She said quietly.

I stroked her cheek, "So now can I take you to bed and make love to you properly?"

She nodded, "Let's see if we can last more than 30 seconds this time."

"You might regret saying that." I said with a grin as I helped her up.

"Promises, promises." She replied as we made our way upstairs.

By the time Emily shut her bedroom door I was already undressed and in bed. She quickly followed suit and I held up the duvet for her to climb in beside me. I immediately moved on top of her and she murmured as my hand slowly stroked her skin while I peppered her in soft kisses. I was unhurried as I gently explored, making sure there was enough contact between us to make it intimate but not too much so either of us thought this was going to be over any time soon. I wanted Emily to know that unlike downstairs this was about me cherishing the time it took me to get properly reacquainted with every inch of her body. I kissed a meandering path around her face, drinking it all in and focusing completely on her.

"You're so beautiful." I said in awe as my fingertips traced patterns on her skin.

Emily ran her hand down my arm before it snaked around my lower back and she pulled me in to her. Our lips met in a slow, sensual kiss, which gradually built in intensity until Emily impatiently sought out my tongue with hers as she pushed her hips towards me.

I pulled away "Don't pout like that, I just want to worship you and take my time."

She giggled sexily, "Shame, I quite liked the frantic fucking."

I grinned as I began to kiss her neck, "we can do that afterwards."

"Yeah?" She teased.

"Um hmm, frantic fucking, senseless shagging..."

Emily's head rolled back against the pillow as I kissed along her jawline, "oh God, you're going to keep me up all night aren't you?"

I pulled away and smiled as I gazed into the deep, chocolate eyes, "That's the plan..."