"Damn." Seth looked stunned.
Roman stood, there unsure how to react. He knew it, but to actually hear it was different. Ne moved to sit back on the bed, his head lowered in thought.
"What is it about you?" Seth teased dryly as he sat on the bed. "I heard John say it took him over two years to say that to Randy. I know he is not an impulsive guy when it comes to his romantic feelings."
"Who knows...maybe he knows how I feel for his Daddy...how his Daddy is finally feeling about me in return." Roman said thoughtfully.
"More than just that. Maybe that's how it started but I see the way he looks at you even when Randy is nowhere in sight." Seth told him.
"He is right though I don't feel the same...not saying I feel nothing...just not the same. Who is to say that can't change though? Took Randy over a year to feel that way about me." Roman said.
Seth nodded. "Well, at least he knows that up front. It happens. He's not the first sub to fall in love with their Master. How many have we seen in the community we felt were being abused that followed their Doms like lovesick puppies just begging for more?"
"True...I wouldn't though. You know that." Roman said with conviction. "I'd never use his feelings like that."
"Of course, Sir." Seth nodded. "Just saying feelings often develop in our lifestyle." He heard the water stop in the bathroom. "John's done. You going next?"
"Yeah, I know...go ahead I'll go last." Roman told him.
"Thanks." Seth said. John walked out a few minutes later, dressed in a towel.
"I feel better." Seth moved to pass John and go into the bathroom for his own clean up. John walked to pick up his now ruined shirt from the floor and other remains of their fun.
"Glad you enjoyed, John." Roman told him. "We know merchandise can replace the shirt and bands."
John laughed. "Of course. I have shit loads of these things." He threw them in the garbage can. "Is it too late for me to chat with Daddy?"
"I guess you can try to reach him. I know he said he was planning on staying in."
John hurried to grab his phone and dialed Randy's number as he laid on the bed. Roman faintly laughed, laying back on the bed. He was not at all taken back by how fast John moved in hopes of hearing Randy.
Randy was laying in bed watching TV when the phone rang, he looked briefly before he answered. "I'm fine, Baby."
"I know. I was told. Just wanted to hear your voice." John assured him.
"Okay, Baby. How you doing?"
"Good. Just got cleaned up after some fun with Seth and Roman." John answered. "Wish you were here."
"Me too, Baby...me too. Boring here...too much time to think." Randy sighed.
"I know, Daddy." John said in sympathy. "Guess what? I had my very first double penetration today and it felt fucking amazing!" The last line was said with pride.
"Really?" Randy had a hard time to tell if John was joking or not. Roman bit his lip to prevent laughing.
"Yes, really. We role played awhile and then they both took me. Seth put on my gear and was my number one fan boy." John laughed.
Randy couldn't help laughing. "How goofy did he look?"
"Pretty bad. Roman was his boyfriend and called him Doll." John was happy he could make his boyfriend laugh. "It was so fun."
Randy chuckled more. "Doll? God damn." He roared. " And I missed it. Damn."
"Well, you wouldn't have enjoyed it all anyway." John told him honestly. "It was a kind of force fantasy. Master Roman was an ex con and jealous of his boyfriend. They tied me up and fucked me good and hard but I loved it. I know that's not your type of thing."
"Yeah...you are probably right." The younger man admitted.
John shifted to get more comfortable. "So...Daddy why don't you let me do something for you to help with your boredom and stress?" His voice took on a seductive tone. "This is only for you. And you're not allowed to say no."
"Why do I have a bad feeling?" Randy groaned.
Roman turned, looking at John wondering what he was planning. John and Randy had lots of phone sex during their five year relationship and John loved giving it. 'What are you wearing, Daddy?" He almost purred into the phone. "I'm laying in bed wearing nothing but a towel."
"Baby...you can't be serious." Randy tried to protest. Roman went to move, wondering if he should leave the room, also warn Seth before he walked back in.
"I'm serious as hell. I want to do this for you. You know you like it." John's voice was low. "Now tell me what you're fucking wearing."
Randy sighed. "I'm in black gym shorts. I took a shower after I got back."
Roman made his way back to the main part of the suite, shutting the bedroom door.
"Why do you always have to play the hard to get tough guy?" John sighed. "We're all alone. Seth is in the shower and Master is in another room. I wanted to make you feel good like we've done for years."
"Sorry, Babe." Randy sighed, laying back in the bed. "I guess even if not near where it happened...just this area gives me the creeps."
"But you always act this way lately. It took me a half hour to beg you to play last time. It's like you can't admit you like it or something." John gave a sigh. "I remember when you used to be the one calling me for phone sex...or ripping off my clothes at the hotel. Do I bore you now?"
"No...ma-maybe I worry about the opposite. That I bore you. You have Roman and Seth willing to do whatever you want. I'm just...plain." Randy admitted.
"Ran, if you bored me why would I keep begging you for more? I was just practically begging you to be able to make you feel good like we used to and you sighed and acted annoyed." John tried to stay calm. "You're the hottest man I've ever seen and I love you. I could never get bored of you."
"Thanks, Johnny. I just have so much on my mind. I thought after today I would have a weight lifted, but I didn't." Randy tried to explain.
"It's fine." Tears pricked the older man's eyes as he tried to keep his voice light. They used to have such a fire between them but lately it seemed he had to have Roman present to talk Randy into doing anything and even then it was like pulling teeth. Where was the Viper that used to want to consume him? He could not even remember the last time Randy had initiated recently or took his advances with enthusiasm. "Maybe I should let you go so you can get some rest."
"You sure, Baby?" Randy could hear John seemed off. Once again he felt he was letting him down.
"Yeah. I'm sure." John swallowed hard. "Have a good night, Daddy."
"Night, Baby...love you...See you soon." Randy said softly.
Roman excused himself from talking to Seth and peeked his head in the door.
"Love you too." John was unaware of Roman as he ended the call, tossing the phone aside. "I only wish you still wanted me...I won't ask again." He mumbled before laying on his side on the far right of the bed and closing his eyes.
Roman slipped back out, walking to Seth. "Something is up...just give me a few moments." He turned, walking into the bedroom, shutting the door behind him. He slipped into the bed behind John not caring about his dirty state or that of the bed. He rested a hand gently on John's arm. "If you want me to stay I will...if you want me to go...I'll go."
"You can stay." John gave a shaky breath. "Randy has really been hurting me lately...and tonight just hit hard."
"Hurting you?" Roman was confused. He moved his arm to wrap it around John's waist. "What do you mean hurting you?"
"When we first met and for the past several years Randy and I always had this...sexual chemistry. My sex drive has always been a bit higher but believe me he wanted it." John sighed. "We had phone sex, Skype sex, you name it. Lately he is like pulling teeth...I have to initiate everything we do even then he gives in reluctantly... Especially when you aren't around to push him. Last time we had sex I had to push and beg for at least a half hour. Tonight he said he was bored and stressed...I told him we were alone and started our phone sex ritual but he acted uninterested. I'm just so fucking tired of being rejected."
"Johnny...trust me Randy loves you dearly. Remember the last year has been mentally draining on him and then when he finally tried to get the pieces together again he gets hit with having to relive it verbally again." Roman tried to tell him.
"I know he loves me but I don't think he finds me that sexy anymore." John felt an ache in his chest. "I'm not jealous of you...really. But every time you're around he almost melts. If you had been the one on the phone it would have been different. Maybe I'm too slutty and should stop begging and pushing for it...He lost the thrill of the chase."
"I can't speak for him, Johnny...I just know how deeply he cares about you. A few months back...I think it was the first time I tried to kiss you...or a little before that. Randy and I had a talk. We both kind of saw how you acted around me...looked at me. Randy said he had no problem if I wanted to try...he gave me a warning though."
"Warning?" John asked as he moved closer to Roman.
Roman rested his head on John's shoulder as he held him. "Yeah...he told me...that if I ever hurt you. It didn't matter how much he cared about me...he would hurt me."
John couldn't help smiling even if he was upset. "Sweet...but what do I do? Avoid sex until he brings it up? I just can't keep begging and feeling like a nuisance to him."
"I know I am not him...but I am here...Seth is here." Roman turned his head to lightly kiss the side of John's neck.
John gave a shudder at the sweet contact. "I know, Master and I'm grateful. He felt so tired. "Mind if I sleep now? Did you get your shower?"
"Of course, John...not yet. I will now I was talking to Seth when he got out." He moved to kiss John's shoulder before moving from the bed. He made his way back to the main room. "He's upset and going to try to sleep. I need to wash up."
Seth nodded at Roman, yawning. "Might get some rest myself."
"Go on...just leave the middle open." Roman told him heading for the bathroom.
Seth walked to the bedroom and climbed into the left side of the bed. He had no clue what John was upset about but he felt bad for the guy. "Night, John." He whispered. "Thanks for playing with us today. You make my life more exciting."
"You're welcome. Night, Seth." John whispered back, his voice a little hoarse. The two men went silent as they tried to rest, leaving the light on for Roman.
As Roman showered he wondered what he could do to cheer John up, sadly little came to mind. He tried to be careful not to wet his hair too much just so he could hurry up and go to sleep. Finishing he got out and dried quickly before returning to the bedroom seeing the two men asleep. He cut the light before climbing between them and laying down facing John. John gave a small stir as Roman caused the bed to move. "Daddy?" He mumbled, his face set in a grimace, tear stains on his cheeks.
Roman's heart ached for the older man. He gently wrapped an arm around him. "Just me, Johnny." He whispered in his ear.
John woke a bit more at the unique voice. He could smell the soap from Roman's shower on his body. "Oh...Well, I'm glad you're here. Night, Master."
"Night, Johnny." He whispered back. "My good boy."
John's heart swelled with pride at his Dom's praise as he had been feeling inadequate. "Really, Master? Your good boy?" His voice sounded hopeful in the darkened room.
"Yes...yes you are." He kissed John's shoulder. "We have fun indulging you. We even get to try new things. I think the role play was sort of new for Seth and I both. As for both taking you I don't think he ever did that either."
"Thank you, Sir. If there is ever anything you want from me don't hesitate to ask." John told him with devotion in his voice. "I always want to be a submissive you can be proud of."
"You are, Johnny...you are. God, you have no clue how envious many Doms would be of me and Seth because of you. You fit the mold many seek."
"Even with my ignorance and lack of training, Sir?" John's soft tone sounded genuinely surprised.
"You hold so much natural skill."
Roman may not have realized it but he was building up the bruised esteem John had suffered in recent months. "Thank you, Master. I love you." The words flowed easily as John's body relaxed. "Goodnight."
"Night, Johnny." Roman kissed the older man's shoulder again before resting his head down closing his eyes. John drifted into a more peaceful sleep this time, feeling secure with his strong Master.
The next day was pretty smooth sailings and it was time for Randy to rejoin them on the road. He was more then ready, his nights in Nevada were hellish, filled with no sleep or nightmares. He was reaching the hotel when he texted John. #Almost back what room number?#
John was eating with Seth and Roman when he got the text. "It's Randy." He told them. "He wants the room number." He replied. #2301. Eating breakfast with the guys. You want something ordered?#
#If you are already eating it's fine.# Randy got on the elevator and headed up.
John looked at Seth and Roman. "He'll be here soon." Seth nodded as his mouth was full of granola.
"Good. I know you missed him." Roman told John. It was only a few minutes when there was a knock. "You want to get it or should I?"
"You can, Sir." John told him as he ate. "If you want that is."
"No problem." Roman got up and answer the door. "Hey." He tried not to show worry looking at Randy. He moved to let him pass. "Go take a load off. We're almost done."
"Thanks." Randy moved with his suitcases to fall back on the couch.
"Hey, Ran." John offered Randy a small smile as he finished.
"Hi, Randy. Good to see you made it back." Seth told him.
"Hey, Babe...Seth." Randy replied. Roman came back over to eat, lightly shaking his head.
John finished his food before noticing the dark patches under Randy's eyes. "You look exhausted, Ran. You want a nap?"
"I can try." Randy commented.
"Didn't sleep well last night?" Roman wondered.
"Last few." Randy mumbled.
"I'll get the bed ready for you." John stood and walked to the bedroom, fixing the pillows and pulling down the top sheet.
Randy got up, heading into the bedroom. "Baby?" He called John as he climbed in the bed.
"Yeah." John looked at Randy, seeing the bed was okay for his boyfriend.
"Stay with me a while?" He moved to kick off his sneakers realizing he was still wearing them.
"Sure." John was free other than his daily workout routine so he also kicked off the
shoes he had worn earlier and joined Randy in bed.
"Missed you, Babe." Randy mumbled as he moved closer to John.
"Missed you too." John whispered. "You look beyond tired. Get some rest please."
"I'll try." Randy curled on his side near John, taking comfort in his Baby. John was behind
him and felt Randy needed the security so he draped an arm over his boyfriend as Roman
had him last night. With John's presence Randy soon fell asleep.
About ten minutes went by when Roman looked towards the door. "I don't think John is
coming back right now."
"He's not?" Seth looked as he was supposed to do a workout with John at the hotel gym. He
shrugged. "Oh well. Guess I'll head down then."
"Yeah...I don't know if you got a look at him, but looked like Randy hadn't slept since
he left."
"Really? Damn...poor dude. He probably needs the rest then." Seth gathered his phone and water bottle. "You staying or coming with me?"
"Think I'll stay here...in case I'm needed."
"Okay. This is my long workout day. See you in a few hours." Seth told him before heading out.
"Okay, Man. See you then." Roman finished his meal, placed the trays outside and then headed into the bedroom. He saw both men in the bed unsure if both were asleep or not. He went closer to look careful not to wake them if they were. John was resting but not sleeping and he heard Roman come in. In all honesty he was wide awake, having just woke a few hours ago but he figured Randy would rest better with him there. He raised his head to look at Roman, hearing Randy's deep sounds of sleep. Roman just lightly nodded as he climbed in on the other side of Randy feeling he could use them both right now.
John lowered his head back down to rest and closed his eyes, letting his mind drift as he relaxed. Randy jumped a few times, but between John and Roman they quickly calm him back down. John finally managed to drift into a light sleep, one arm wrapped around Randy's waist. Roman rested, but stayed awake. A few hours later he got up knowing Seth should be returning soon.
Seth came in a short time later, sweaty from his workout, his long hair damp. "Hey. Randy and John still asleep?" He greeted his superior.
"Well, Randy finally fell asleep...John a little after him. Poor guy, of course he wouldn't let anyone besides us see him like this."
Seth nodded as he kicked off his shoes. "It had to be hard going back there. I still can't believe Dean sunk that low."
"Yeah...hopefully shows won't be so bad. We can be there for him." Roman remembered when Randy actually got out of the last tour of the area.
"Yeah. Well, I'm heading for the shower." Seth stripped off his damp shirt and quietly made his way to the bathroom.
"Okay." Roman moved into the room to quietly grab Seth a pair of sweatpants to throw on once he was done. He brought them back out, knocking on the bathroom door.
Seth opened the door naked to see Roman. The shower was already running. "Yes, Sir?" He whispered. Roman held the pants up.
"I grabbed these for you. I don't want to wake Randy until we have to."
"Thanks." Seth smiled and took them before closing the door again. Roman moved to watch TV for now.
Seth took his shower then joined Roman in watching TV. John woke a few hours later, listening to hear if Randy was still least for now Randy still seemed to be out cold. The safety of his Baby and Roman allowed him to rest.
John laid as long as he could but finally he grew so restless he slowly pulled free from Randy and quietly walked to look for Seth and Roman. He saw them relaxing and watching an action movie. "Hey, Guys."
"He still out?" Roman asked.
John nodded, sitting by Roman. "Yeah. I hated to leave him but it's been hours and I just needed to move." He chuckled. "Normally I've put in a full workout by now."
"If you want ,John, go. We can keep an ear out for him." Roman assured him.
John nodded, knowing Randy could sleep hours more. "I'll be back soon then." He jumped up to put on his shoes. "Just so much energy...I need to go work some off."
"It's fine, John. You know he is in good hands."
"Awe I thought we were how you worked off energy." Seth joked. John just chuckled and gave his friend the middle finger as he prepared to go.
"I think that is what he was implying, Johnny." Roman chuckled.
John laughed as he pocketed his phone. "See you guys in a bit." He took off out the door.
Seth chuckled. "Maybe I was tempting him."
"Guess he didn't bite because he's worried." Roman said.
"Yeah, he's acted off ever since last night." Seth agreed. "He'll probably feel better after some time in the gym."
"Also Randy being back. Though I have no clue what he thought would happen."
"Guess it bothered him knowing Randy had to go alone." Seth reasoned. Time passed and John put in a good workout, feeling a bit better. He checked his phone before heading back for the suite.
Randy finally woke up. At first he felt a little panicked not seeing anyone, but he took a deep breath before getting up and heading for the living room. "Hey...sorry about earlier."
Seth looked over at Randy. "No problem, Man. You were wiped."
"Yeah, feel foolish acting like that." He walked over to one of the chairs, falling back into it. "Hopefully last time I need to deal with that for a long time."
Seth nodded. "Hope so, Randy. John went to the gym awhile ago."
"That's fine, I didn't want to cause problems."
"It's not a problem Randy." Roman tried to assure him.
"It really wasn't." Seth agreed. As if on cue John came through the door, dressed in shorts and a T-shirt and soaked with after workout sweat.
"Hey, Babe." Randy tried to offer John a smile.
"Hey." John gave a small smile. "How long you been up?" He kicked his shoes off and pulled off his wet shirt, wiping his face on it.
"Honestly not long." Randy admitted.
"Good you got some rest." John sat to catch his breath after putting his shirt with his other dirty wash
"Yeah, I needed it, Babe. I feel a little silly."
"Don't start Randy." Roman told him. "You can't help it, it hasn't been that long."
"You were tired, Ran. Don't be sorry." John made a face of disgust as he pulled off his sweaty socks. "I need a shower."
"Want help, Babe?" Randy offered.
"Sure if you want." John answered as he stood back up.
"Yeah." Randy got up. "Guess we will be back."
"Take your time." Roman assured them.