Hello~ Oi! i JUST figured out Drarara have a second season!... like... when did that happen? haven't watched it yet so none of the new characters will appear in this story. And i'm so sorry for the long pauses between chapters but i'll try to start updating once a week again... or maybe every two weeks... anyway! new chapter!
Why had I let him stay with me..
What the hell? My nails dug into my palms deeper. Why was I pissed? first of all it was too hot, secondly some guy was ballsy enough to throw his hot coffee in my face that morning thinking that that would stop me from chasing after him and getting the money he owed Tom back… and lastly, Izaya was being more annoying than normal. I had tried to stop him from being an idiot, so what? It wasn't as if I was doing it for his sake! I only tried to stop him so I wouldn't have to be bothered by it later… but why the fuck would I be bothered by it? I groaned and took another drag from my cigarette and blew it out into the street. 'pretend to care' yeah right. I wouldn't even do that! He hadn't been home when I woke up that morning… b-but I didn't care! I was glad to have the place to myself for the first time in a month… had it really been that long?
"Something worrying you?" I stiffened. Of course Tom had noticed how spaced out I was. The cross walk light turned green and the group of people including us made our way across the road as I sighed "Sorry Tom… Some annoying stuff." we made it to the other side and started walking left towards the next money pick up of the day "You don't have to tell me… but does it have to do with Izaya?" "No. not in the slightest." I hadn't told Tom that the flea had been living with me, how did he know that's what I was thinking about? Again, why was even thinking about him in the first place?
"Tom?" "Hm?" eh… how would I ask this? "I have this… cat… It, um… broke it's leg, so I'm letting it stay at my place until it get's better-" "But doesn't your apartment building have a strict rule against pets?" "Yeah but Celty practically forced it on me. Last night it tried to sneak out even though It'd probably hurt itself so I tired to stop it but it hissed at me and it hasn't come back since then." wow… explaining the flea as a cat was pretty easy… probably because they were both evil shits that liked to cut people. I took another drag from the cigarette as we turned the corner and Tom chuckled "I never pictured you having a soft spot for a cat." I choked and started coughing "I do not have a 'soft spot' for that fucking flea-" shit "-line." Tom gave me a weird look and I hope to god that smile that crept onto his face was because of me choking.
"It's for the best. You could get in serious trouble if one of your neighbors rats you out. Plus, it isn't like it belongs to you." we walked in silence for a moment before he looked up at me "…Are you actually… worried if he's okay?" he sounded shocked and I felt my face heat up "N-no… I hope it rots in hell! forget I said anything." he laughed "Sorry, I know I really shouldn't be laughing it's just… I never thought you were chasing after him for that reason." well this was embarrassing, Tom had cracked the code obviously… but at least I knew Tom wouldn't go around telling people that the flea was living with me… and that I was basically comparing him to a cat. I apologized in my head to all the cats in the world for comparing Izaya to them.
"What do you mean 'that reason'? I chase after him because he's an annoying louse who goes around polluting Ikebukuro with his smell!" I was getting worked just thinking about him "Sorry Tom… I didn't mean to yell." he waved it away and started down an alley way, a group of guys were laughing it up towards the back… one of them was probably our guy. "I don't think I'm really in the position to tell you what you feel." the group fell silent as we approached and Tom waved "Good afternoon… I've come to collect-" one of them pushed a group member of his into me and took off running the other way… It really wasn't turning out to be the best of days for me…
I groaned as I dropped my keys while trying to unlock my front door. "You gotta be kidding me right now." I bent over to snatch them up and after sluggishly unlocking the door I went inside… had my apartment always been that quiet? I guess I had just become numb to the annoying 'Welcome home, Shizu-chan~!' and now that it had stopped I was thrown off. Don't get me wrong, I was glad it was gone! It's not the reason my chest felt tight, that was because I was hungry. I went into my room and changed out of my sweat and coffee covered clothes and put on another set from Kasuka, leaving out the bow tie and vest. so I wouldn't die of a heatstroke I unbuttoned the top two button as I made my way to the kitchen for something- anything to eat.
After eating some instant slop I laid out on the couch. "What I feel huh…" what did I feel when I chased after the flea… blinding white rage… a small voice whispered 'and exhilarated by it' so? 'it means you like chasing him' never. I chased him because he- 'because he what? Lied to get you locked up? Awe but don't you remember? You loved the thought of tracking him down after you got out because you couldn't wait to see him aga-' I sat up abruptly and smashed my fist as hard as I could into my face. Ow. My sunglasses split in half and fell into my lap and I gritted my teeth, I tasted blood. "You stupid son of bitch. Shut Up!"
Suddenly there was clapping to the right of me and of course, it was the last person I wanted to see at that particular moment… or any moment for that matter. 'that's a lie' I said shut the fuck up! "Dose Shizu-chan hear voices in his head~?" I glared and stood up… damn, I guess I should have thought it through before punching myself in the face, I think I gave myself a concussion. Awe shit, the blood from my forehead and nose was getting on the hardwood floors! I moved passed the flea into the kitchen and stood over the sink. This was so irritating… and then I barfed… yep. Defiantly a concussion. The flea trailed in after me watching from a distance "Do you often punch yourself Shizu-chan~? Some would call that self loath~" I flipped him off and turned the water on, washing away the blood and vomit before turning it off and standing there trying to not pass out, especially with Izaya in the room.
"I'm going to Shinra's, don't… don't do stuff to my stuff." I started to the door… but somehow I ended up looking at the floor. Fffuuucckk… don't pass out! Somewhere behind the ringing in my ears I managed to hear Izaya sigh dramatically "I guess I'll be making another house call… you're going to pay for it this time Shizu-chan since it wasn't my fault this time." and that's about when I passed out.
I woke up to the sound of someone talking softly… it kinda made me even more tired. I cracked one eye open… it was Izaya sitting in the chair by next to my bed with his legs drawn up and arms folded on top, his eyes were barely open and his head nodded as he mumbled… in my brain dead state I thought it was… cute… it was cute, wasn't it? It was like looking at different person, he wasn't wearing that mask of 'I'm a god' he was just… human… crazy, right? Now I knew that this person was still a demon… a murderer… and yet… and yet I wanted to- his head shot up as his bobbing head dipped especially deep and the spell was broken. I watched as he poured the concrete mask back on top of his momentary flustered expression and smirked down at me "My my Shizu-chan~! That's kinda creepy, watching people sleep~" "I could say the same to you, Louse."
There was something in the air between us… I could feel it but couldn't pin a name to it. He stood up with a dismissive chuckle and wave of his hand "Me watching you sleep is for work. Did you know Shizu-chan mumbles in in his sleep about all sorts of interesting things~?" ah, so annoying. I sat up but everything started spinning, was the flea coming closer or farther away? I'm guessing closer considering he pushed down on my chest so I was laying down again "Shinra says you need to stay in bed for a few days." I shoved his hand away and sat up again "I don't have time to rest for something so stupid!" he pushed me back down with both hands and laughed "Shizu-chan, if you don't listen to what Shinra said, you'll probably die!" there was no real sympathy in his fake cute voice. Damnit my eyes were going out of focus again. "Shizu-chan… your heart is racing." I pushed him away and closed my eyes… was it really? I.. I couldn't really tell with all my senses disoriented. "Get out of my room, freak." "Awe~ is that my new nick-name~? should I start calling you Shizu-pu?" "IZAYA!" "Now now, Shizu-chan~ I can't let you be the one that gets to kill you. so rest up~!" and with that he left…
I wonder if maybe Celty had set me up.
Shizuo talks to his thoughts sometimes... next chapter will be Izaya's point of view of that same day so look forward to it!
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