hey, another update because I have no life. been feeling really empty these days and ive just found myself staring at the wall for days on end just smoking and thinking about sad shit that I shouldn't think about. hope you guys are great. feel free to pm me id love to talk to someone here about anything.

Miss You - Gabrielle Aplin

Every step they took seemed painfully loud, even amongst the arguments taking place beneath them. As they reached the last few steps, Toni turned towards Cheryl silently lifting a finger towards her own lips gesturing her to be quiet.

"FP, we need your services once more and we'll be out of this pretty little den and leave you to do whatever the fuck you're doing." A woman's voice spoke loudly.

"That is never happening again Penny. Your deal was dealt with; we have nothing left for you to blackmail us with. Now if I were you, I would leave while your legs still can."

She scoffed.

"Or maybe I should leave an anonymous tip with the police about the famous blossom boy and where he was…. Well, where he was killed."

Cheryl stopped dead in her tracks. Toni felt her eyes widen in confusion.

"Penny that was something that stayed between y-"

"Between who? Us? When have you ever been trustworthy to us ghoulies? So not many know how you took a northsider and helped get rid of him for a small cut of the very big fortune?"

There were murmurs from the surrounding serpents. Cheryl felt herself freeze completely as anger took over.

FP's voice bellowed as he took another step towards Penny, the serpents following behind.

"Penny. Leave."

She smirked as she backed away slowly, her eyes not leaving his.

"Even blossom had more guts than you. I can see the fear in your eyes FP. He didn't even flinch. Even when I had the trigger pressed up against his pretty mouth. Maybe I should do the same to you."

And that's when Cheryl saw red. She pushed herself off the wall she was hiding behind, beginning to walk towards them before she felt two strong arms pull her back and push her against the wall.

"Toni let g-"she couldn't finish the sentence as Toni covered her mouth muffling her words. Cheryl pushed with all her might trying as hard as she could to get out of her grip but she failed. Toni looked at her with frantic eyes begging her to stay quiet. And as the door shut, the murmurs became louder at the ghoulies departure.

With a new found strength she pushed Toni away.

"How do you know my brother? What the fuck did you do to him?!" she screamed, walking towards FP as everyone looked towards her now menacing form.

FP's eyes widened as if he'd seen a ghost. "H-how did you get in here?" he asked.

"Answer my fucking question damn it! Is what she said true? Did you get him killed? You fucking got the only person I cared about in this world killed and you're standing here alive with not a fucking care in the world? How could you?" she said as she walked further towards him until she was staring him down. No one dared interfere.

"What's wrong? Do I look too much like him? Do you see Jason in my eyes?" she said as tears poured down her face. She couldn't stop now. "This whole time, the murderers were right fucking in front of me. How could I not see it? I want answers FP. I want fucking answers." She screamed.

FP stood there, staring at the side, not looking in her eyes as she continued to try and stare him down.

"Sweet Pea get her out of here." He said silently.

And with that she felt two strong arms pull her back silently towards the exit. She struggled against him as he led her away.

"Hey! I got her let her go stop it." She heard Toni's voice in the background as her thoughts continued to numb her brain.

But Sweet Pea kept his hold on her until she was taken outside the building. He pulled her towards the side wall, keeping her there before she felt soft hands pull his arms away.

"I said let go of her you fucking dipshit. Now fuck off." She snarled.

"FP's orders Tiny, I'm sorry." He said with his hands raised.

She sighed as she looked towards Cheryl who had her head resting on the wall behind her with her eyes closed.

"Cheryl?" she stayed silent.

"Let's get out of here okay?"

She nodded silently as she lifted herself up from the wall she was resting on. Her face was pale as her eyes remained bloodshot.

"Take my truck. It's safer, we don't know where they are right now and if they're still looking for you. I'll bring back your bike tonight." He gestured towards Cheryl. "Take care of her, ill cover your shift." He said solemnly as he threw her his keys.

"Come on Cheryl." She said as Cheryl went for her outstretched hand. Toni squeezed it assuredly in her grasp as she led her towards the old red vehicle.

They sat in front together. Toni turned the keys with the truck taking three tries to start up. As they began their journey on the road, she glanced towards Cheryl who was looking out towards the trees around her. Toni reached out and turned on the radio, wanting the silence to not become awkward. The speakers blared as they drove down the highway leading to the trailer park.

No matter how hard Cheryl tried to hide her tears, her shoulders began to shake with the pain of her brother and how he must have felt. How she wasn't there.

Toni pulled her towards her open shoulder, and Cheryl sobbed. Holding onto her for dear life as she mourned. The music masking her wailing as Toni kept one hand on the wheel and one kept her close. She rubbed her arm as she let her cry. Cheryl had never felt so pained and so … comforted in a long time.

They stayed that way as Cheryl's sobbing subsided and she lifted herself up slightly and kept her head rested on Toni's shoulder. She didn't want this calm she now felt to stop. And as the lyrics hit her she felt her stomach physically ache with hurt.

Oh god I miss you too

It's all I ever do

I'm coming back to you

And I won't let go of you

"Hey were almost there. Do you want me to keep driving for a bit?" Toni whispered in her ear. She raised her head and nodded.

Toni simply smiled at her as she grabbed her hand, playing with her fingers slightly. The action immediately calmed Cheryl down and as she looked ahead at the road continuing beyond her, she realised how devoid of any affection she truly was. And that the mere action of holding someone's hand was bringing her so much happiness. It was sad really, but people were assholes. And the only reason most of them would interact with her would be for their own needs in the end. No one truly wanted to spend time with her if they didn't get anything out of it. And she knew that Toni barely knew anything about her, yet she was still ready to interact with her.

After driving for another half hour, Toni pulled onto a side road leading through different caravans before stopping by the side of one of them. She turned the engine of the truck off and lowered the volume of the radio before turning towards Cheryl, their hands still clasped together.

Cheryl looked towards her and didn't even bother to hide the way she stared at her. There was something about her that Cheryl found so mesmerising and she couldn't put her finger on it. As her eyes went up towards Toni's, she smiled softly, sniffling slightly.

"I don't even know how I can thank you Toni. You don't even know me and you're doing so much I don't know how I can repay you."

"It's nothing Cheryl. People like us need to stick together."

Cheryl scoffed slightly. "And what kind of people are we?" she said chuckling slightly.

Toni simply shrugged her shoulders. "People who view the world in a deeper way than most I guess. You just seem so sad to me. And it's the same sadness I see in myself." She whispered.

"I'm glad I found you Cheryl. I wish I'd met you sooner."

Cheryl felt herself freeze in shock. She didn't know how to react at Toni's statement and found herself just staring at her, smiling in awe. No matter how hard she told herself not to, she felt her attraction to Toni grow every moment they spent together.

"Just know that as long as you want to hang out with me, I would love to do the same. You're not as forgotten as you think Cheryl."

And with that, she got out of the truck walking towards Cheryl's door before opening it for her and grabbing her hand, helping her out with ease. Closing the door behind her, she led her towards her trailer.

"It's pretty shitty I have to warn you." She said.

"I bet it's great." Cheryl said with a genuine smile.

Cheryl entered Toni's trailer. And for the first time in 2 years, she felt calm. She felt resolved. She felt whole.