Hows life for you guys? Mines going shit but im trying to start leaving the house a bit more. I found this really nice forest that had amazing views of the mountains that I went to and smoked. it was a good change of scenery/
heres the next chapter. I hope its not too much of a disappointment lol. Enjoy.
I was all over her - Salvia Plath
Upon entering. Cheryl was immediately engulfed in the warmth of the small space. It almost instantly gave her a sense of calm. Toni walked her towards the small, black, torn up sofa which sat in the middle of the space. She felt the foam sink beneath her as she looked up towards Toni, who was now walking back from the kitchen with a glass of water which Cheryl took gratefully. She gulped it down not realizing she was that thirsty.
"Do you have anywhere to be tonight? I was thinking we could maybe watch a movie and order pizza? O-of course that's only if you want to." Toni asked.
Cheryl smiled. "No I don't have any plans at all. That would be great. I could use the distraction."
Toni moved to sit next to Cheryl. A few inches between them. And Cheryl found herself missing the feeling of her touch, mentally scolding herself. Jesus Cheryl you've known her less than a week calm down.
They ended up deciding on watching The Godfather which was Toni's favourite movie.
"Are you kidding me Cheryl? You've never watched the greatest movie of all time?" she exclaimed as she clicked on the title.
"Um, no. And by the way this is so not the greatest movie of all time. That title goes to Gone with the Wind and you will not fight me on this."
"Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn." Toni smirked as she watched Cheryl gape at her.
"Hey don't look so surprised that I know what that movie is. I'm appalled you've seen that but not this." She said motioning towards the TV.
And so Cheryl and Toni spent the next few hours glued to the TV screen. And Cheryl noticed that although she found the movie incredibly fascinating, her eyes would shift towards Toni more and more. Her mannerisms, the way she would tap her finger on her thigh when a stressful scene would appear, or how she would mouth the lines slightly in her mouth.
How her eyes would practically light up at some parts. It filled Cheryl with melancholia of sorts. To see someone as mature and bad-ass as Toni look as awed as a child. As the movie finished, Toni looked towards her and smiled. Practically giddy.
"So? How was it?"
"I loved it." Cheryl said simply as she smiled. "Not the greatest movie of all time though." She said after a pause, to which Toni faked shock.
"You wound me dear Scarlett!" she said as she reached a hand towards her forehead and fell dramatically back on the sofa. And Cheryl laughed harder than she ever had in 2 years. Toni soon joined in and as the laughter faded, a comfortable silence surrounded them.
"I'm gonna order us some food. Are you allergic to anything?" She said as she got up and walked towards the small phone hanging on the wall. Cheryl simply shook her head. After ordering her food, Toni sat back down with Cheryl as they both smoked another cigarette.
"When did you get into the habit of smoking?" Cheryl asked curiously.
Toni seemed in thought for a while before leaning forward, flicking the ashes in the small metal ashtray.
"I was 14. My parents were fighting and I decided, fuck it. I stole some of my uncle's cigarettes and went up to the roof with my speakers and drowned out the screaming and lit it up. It just calmed me down in a way I didn't really get the chance to feel my whole life. I guess I've been doing it ever since." She said, sighing slightly with an exhale. "You?"
"Come on Cheryl. Are you telling me you've never ever wanted to try it? It'll be fun. I promise."
"Heather, no! It's literally a cancer stick why the fuck would I put it in my mouth. Ugh."
Heather pouted, her auburn hair framing her features. And Cheryl found she could never say no to her best friend. She loved her. She loved her so much it ached. But Cheryl knows she could never admit to it, for she never wanted her to lose any ounce of friendship they had.
"Please Cherry, for me?"
Cheryl sighed and took it from her, staring at it curiously.
"Okay so put it between your lips and take a long drag. Maybe try and inhale and take it into your lungs. That's the way you feel it hit you."
And Cheryl did just that. She coughed and spluttered but because Heather wanted her to do so, she did it. And she hadn't stopped ever since.
"Tried it with a friend. I enjoyed it and shit started happening with my family and I just decided to keep doing it since it was the only thing that relaxed me." She said with a shrug.
Toni hummed in agreement. "I guess we can both relate to having weird shit with family hey." She said sadly. Cheryl looked towards her nodding.
"I guess so. It's never really been good for me at any time. After my brother died, my mother just absolutely lost it and my father's just been fucked up from the beginning. I never really had them teach me much in my childhood either. Which is why I made some fucked up choices and an absolute shit friend that ended up fucking with my head more than I thought."
"What happened?"
Cheryl hesitated slightly before realising she truly did trust Toni.
"I had a friend. Her name was Heather. She was everything to me. We met in 9th grade. She saw me sitting by myself one day and just came up to me. I'd never really been her friend before that but we just got close. I told her everything. I thought she was my best friend and I started to develop feelings for her," Cheryl started playing with the loose thread of her shirt. "And she decided to use that to her advantage. She played with my heart. She manipulated me. And in the end she used my money and my time when she felt like she needed a play thing. And one day she left. Just like that. I was devastated. I didn't eat for weeks. I kept trying to talk to her but she had blocked me everywhere and so I slowly accepted it. And now looking back on it I just cannot see why I didn't see how much of a dick she truly was. And I hate how everywhere I look I think of her. There are some places I just can't go because I know that if I do I'll think of her. I can't even listen to some music because it just creates this ache in my chest at the thought of how she just left."
She aggressively wiped away the one tear of frustration that had managed to leave her. Laughing slightly she apologised.
"Hey that's nothing to apologise for. She sounds like a real bitch." Toni said angrily causing Cheryl to giggle.
"What's so fucking funny?" she said in mock anger as she crossed her arms.
"Nothing it's just your kind of adorable and tiny and then you try and look angry and you just look cute." Cheryl said smiling.
"I'll have you know I am in a gang I am not cute I am fierce."
"Okay." Cheryl said as she tried to hold in her laughter.
Soon after, their takeaway had arrived and Cheryl ran to the door insisting on paying until Toni reluctantly agreed.
"Honestly Toni, thank you. After everything that happened today, I just don't know what to say."
"Shut up stop thanking me." She said jokingly.
Cheryl got up and gathered her things.
"Are you going home after this?"
"Um, no. I'm gonna drive to a motel near Pops. I'll stay there for the weekend and go home after school."
Toni scoffed. "Yeah not anymore you're staying with me. That is so not safe."
"Toni I've literally been annoying you for like the whole day I am not gonna bother you any longer. Just take me to my car I'll be fine I promise."
"No. Cheryl its fine I honestly loved your company a lot. And I'm not going to have any issues with you staying. It's less lonely." She said as she looked up towards her.
And Cheryl decided to stay.
"My rooms over there pick out any clothes you want to and the toilets right next to it. I'll go clear up."
Cheryl nodded thanking her and went towards her room. It was smaller than she anticipated but for some reason it fitted her personality. The room was covered in black and grey paint with one wall completely covered with photographs and pictures. Her double bed looked comfortable in the corner of the room. Cheryl picked out a plain black shirt and some sweatpants. They were smaller for her but smelt just like Toni and she couldn't help but close her eyes and inhale into her shirt, feeling comfort immediately.
She walked out of her room and met Toni in the kitchen as she finished cleaning up.
"Okay maybe you're right. I am tiny." She said as she smiled softly looking up at her.
The tension in the air was palpable as Toni took another step towards Cheryl. Now it was getting harder for Cheryl to look her in the eyes as she kept drifting towards her lips. And as she felt her breath get closer, she closed her eyes.
A large bang at the door caused them to jump apart, before Toni instinctively moved in front of Cheryl, shielding her from the entrance.
"Toni, open up." She heard her Uncle call from outside. His raspy voice sending chills down her spine.
She whipped behind and grabbed onto Cheryl.
"Go to my room; don't leave no matter what you hear. Fuck he can't know you're here Cheryl do you understand?!" She nodded. "Now go!"
Cheryl ran towards the room closing the door quietly. Her heart rate increasing with every moment that passed.
Toni opened the door.