Extraordinary Feelings

"Edward can you lay Bella on the bed please? We need to help her with her breathing before it's too late. We only want to help."

I wanted to argue with her but knew she was right. If letting Bella go was what it took to save, her I'd let go. I kissed her forehead and lay her onto the small bed. Her almost none existent breathing accelerated when I let go of her. The heart rate monitor the two paramedics had already attached to her started beeping out of control. Both paramedics pushed me out of the way attaching wires to her arms.

"What's happening?"

"She's having a panic attack."

"Can that happen when you are unconscious?"

"It's rare. I've only known one person who had one but it does happen."

"What happened to the person?"

"I'm afraid he didn't make it."

"What?"

"We will do what we can to save Bella. She's an amazing woman. My daughter tells me all about her when she gets home after school."

"If there's not much chance, can I at least hold her? Please."

Tears ran down my cheeks as I gazed down at my fiancé. The two paramedics exchanged a look between each other.

"Please, I wouldn't ask unless I was desperate. She's my fiancée. I only got home yesterday after going missing in the war two years ago. Please just let me hold her."

"Okay Edward. Don't pull any wires out."

"I won't."

I scooted onto the small bed carefully using my hands to pick Bella up and place her on my lap. As I placed her on my lap the heart monitor slowed to a steadier rate. Her weak hand clasped my shirt.

"Bella. I'm here."

"That's odd. Ben did you see that?"

"What's going on? What's wrong?"

"When you touched Bella she calmed down. It's as if she can sense your presence even when she's unconscious. I've never seen anything like it before. Your love for each other is very strong."

"She means the world to me."

The ambulance slowed to a stop and the back doors were flung open. Two doctors stood on the other side of the door.

"Doctor Jennings Edward will bring Bella in. Its better this way, trust me. We need to wake her up as soon as possible though."

I carried Bella out of the ambulance as the doctors brought the tubes and wires so they wouldn't disconnect. I followed Dr Jennings through the halls as she was filled in with the situation.

"She had a severe panic attack causing her to lose consciousness. I believe her heart may have stopped for a few seconds but Edward performed CPR on her. On the way here she fell into an unconscious panic attack. She was in a critical stage but Edward calmed her down. Whatever happens Edward is not allowed to let go of Bella. There is something between them. Dr Cullen will be here soon to help. He was questioning those who saw what happened. I'm sure he'll ask Edward later on when things have calmed down."

When she finished relaying all the information we had arrived outside a hospital room with the sign ST 4 (Severe Trauma 4). Dr Jennings opened the door and led me inside. I sat in the middle of the bed cradling Bella to my chest. Her tears stained her cheeks, her eyes puffy.

"Edward is there anything you can tell us that may have caused Bella's panic attack?"

"She's been having nightmares for three years. No one knew so didn't do anything about it. She's bottled it up all these years. This morning she woke up from a nightmare. There are doubts in her mind that I'm going to leave. She's terrified."

"Are you planning to leave at any point?"

"No, I'll never leave her again. I didn't think I'd be gone so long in the first place."

"I think you have everything under control here. If Bella's heart rate increases a lot press that button and a team will come and help. Is there anything you need?"

"Can I have some tissues and a cup of water please?"

"I'll be right back with those."

"Thank you."

Dr Jennings left the room and returned minutes later with a cup and box of tissues.

"If any of the wires disconnect or she wakes up press the button. Someone will be along straight away."

"Thank you for your help."

"That's okay."

I was finally alone with my sleeping Bella. I used a tissue and dabbed it in the water to wash her face. Once her face was cleaned, I lay us both down being careful with the tubes. I wrapped my arms around her fragile body, nuzzling my face into her hair. It had been another long day and I just wanted to curl up with Bella on the couch watching a movie. That wouldn't happen tonight maybe not even tomorrow night. I didn't know when Bella would wake up or even if she would wake up.

Bella's life was on the line and at this point in time she could lose the fight at any minute. The fact that it is my entire fault that this happened to her scares me. If I hadn't left she wouldn't have this doubt that I'm going to disappear from her life. If I had come back sooner she wouldn't have had to live with the thought that I was dead.

"I'm sorry baby. I didn't want this to happen. It's all my fault. Just remember that I'll always be there with you. I'm not leaving ever again. Please come back to me baby. I need my beautiful fiancé back. Please Bella. Please. I'll love you forever."

I kissed her forehead, listening to the steady beat of the heart monitor slow slightly.

"If you decide to leave baby; if that's what's best for you, I'll support you. If you can't hold on and it's hurting you to try do what you want. I love you so much baby and I'll never forget what we have. You're a strong woman Bella but everyone has their downfalls. If you can't hold on, I'll understand. There have been so many times I've wanted to let go, but do you know what kept me going? It was my beautiful girl. Her smile, her laugh, her deep brown eyes I'd get lost in everyday, her kind and caring nature and the fact that such a beautiful woman could love me. I trust you Bella. Do what you need to do baby. I'll support you all the way. I love you baby."

I was shaking as sobs racked through my body. What I said was hard, but true. If Bella decided that leaving was what was best for her, I'd let her.

Her heart monitor picked up with uneven spikes. I looked down at her to see her eyes wide open, her hands clenched in my shirt.

"Bella, what's wrong? Calm down baby."

Her arm not connected to wires or tubes flung to her neck as she sat up. I realised she still had the breathing tube in. I reached one hand over and hit the call button.

A minute later three doctors rushed into the room.

"What's wrong Edward?"

"She can't breathe. The breathing tube is preventing her breathing."

One of the doctors quickly removed the tube from her system causing her to take a deep breath filling her lungs with oxygen. Her weak, fragile body collapsed back onto the bed, her head lying on my shoulder. I stroked her hair out of her face as she breathed deeply, catching her breath.

"Shh. It's okay Bella. Keep taking deep breaths. Everything's going to be alright. Everything's going to be alright."

"Edward can you hold Bella still a minute. I think it's safe to take the wires out. They were just keeping her as stable as possible when she was unconscious."

I noticed Bella's shaking had returned but only slightly. I held Bella to my body, with my chin on her forehead as the doctor removed everything from her arm. Another of the doctors approached with a cup of water. The other doctor had picked up the file from the table and started writing in it.

I took the water from the doctor and smiled a thank you to him. Once all the wires had gone from her, I sat both of us up, pulling Bella onto my lap. Her head lay limply on my shoulder as her hands clutched my shirt lightly.

"Here Bella. Drink this for me baby."

Her eyes fluttered open to see the cup in my hands; I'd risen it to her face. She opened her mouth slowly forming a small gap. I moved the cup to her lips tipping it slightly as she drank the water. When she was finished her head fell back against my shoulder again.