Nikky Black this one's for you.

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iwishiwherebellaswan

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Chapter 3

Bella's POV

The nightmares never came. For the first time since he'd left I didn't have a single nightmare. There was nothing but darkness but it was comforting to me. There were no memories of him in this place and for that I was thankful. I knew that it would hurt badly when I woke up; I knew that none of it was real.

I was surprisingly cold as I woke and more surprising I felt refreshed. I still felt quiet tired as I'd lost a lot of sleep the last few months. Something drifted over my arm and a shiver ran through me. It wasn't an uncomfortable shiver but one that made me feel safe. A hand lay flat on my stomach that I know realised was bare.

Sucking in a quick breath, the hand tucked under my waist. Another hand cupped the back of my knee, the thumb soothing circles. I reached my hand out and felt a cold, bare, chiselled chest. A breath fanned out over my face and I smelt honeysuckle and sunshine.

I didn't dare open my eyes. I didn't want to face him; not now. Not when he'd taken my virginity and I thought it wasn't even real. He would leave me. He had to. I'm just a distraction for him. A worthless distraction that gave into him so easily last night. He'd laugh at me and walk out as I mean nothing to him.

"Bella?"

His voice was so smooth, so velvety; my memory hadn't done it justice. Both of us were laying by each other naked and you'd think I'd be over the moon but I couldn't. It hurt; a lot. I'd rather he left now than later. It would save me so much pain in the long run.

I tried to move away from him but he clutched to me, holding me tightly to his body. A low growl rumbled from his chest and my eyes flew open. He was beautiful. More beautiful than I could have remembered. As soon as my eyes were open and locked on with his, he stopped growling and released his tight grip on me.

Lifting my knee, he nestled between my legs and rubbed against my centre. I couldn't help the moan that escaped me and tangled my fingers into the sheets. He took this opportunity to slide into me and press his lips to mine. I kissed him back. I had no choice in the matter; I love him no matter what he will do.

He caressed my thighs with his long fingers and continuously moved in me until we'd both fallen over the edge. When we'd both calmed down, he didn't pull from me. He held still and flipped us over so I was lying on his chest. I could barely breath as every emotion hit me at once and tears started to pour from my eyes. His fingers traced up and down my spine, offering a lot of comfort.

"I love you Bella. Please believe me. I could never not love you. I lied to you Bella. In the forest when I left I lied. It was the worst day of my life. I saw that you believed me; I couldn't understand how you could believe me. I love you Bella. I love you more than my own life and will never let you go again. Please believe me. You have to believe me my love."

He was sobbing now. Tears that would never fall filled his eyes and it filled me with more pain. How could I not believe him now? After last night and this morning, how could I not see the love he had for me? He'd thrown all of his carefully placed boundaries out of the window for me. My tears wouldn't stop as I shook and that seemed to make it worse for him.

Sitting up, he sat me up with my legs around his hips and him still deep inside me. My arms threw round his neck and held myself close to him. His fingers dropped to my hips and he pressed them roughly against my hips. It didn't hurt at all. It sent more shivers through my body and calmed me quickly.

"Why leave me? Why? It hurt me so badly. Am I not good enough for you?"

He began to growl again and flipped us both over. He pinned my arms above my head and thrust even deeper inside me. Leaning down, he growled into my ear.

"You are too good for me Bella. If anyone isn't good enough it's me. I'm nothing but a monster. You; you are an angel. You are the most amazing angel that will ever walk this earth. I am nothing compared to you and you let me love you, even if it was just for a while. I put you in danger and I couldn't have lived with myself if I ever hurt you. My existence alone endangers your life. I will never leave you again Bella. I love you. I've learnt my lesson. I can't live without you and I don't want to live without you. Please take me back Bella. Let me into your life again."

Closing my eyes, I put my hands on his hip bone and pulled myself off him. A sob erupted from his chest and he collapsed on the bed beside me. Cupping his cheek, I opened my eyes and looked him straight in the eyes.

"How can I trust you again? How do I know you won't leave me?"

Taking my hand in his, he gave me a small smile and moved close to me.

"I can think of one way to gain your trust back and show you that I won't leave again."

He rolled away from me and flashed away from the bed before flashing back. Lifting my hand back up, he became very solemn.

"I don't remember much about my mother and father. There are faint memories but one stands out. I'd forgotten about it until I first laid eyes on you. When I was 16 my mother and father sat me down in our dining room. They told me I'd have to start courting women soon. Of course I had no intentions of finding myself a woman. I wanted to go into the army and fight for my country. Nevertheless, they told me that one day the woman of dreams would stumble into my life and I'd know that she's the one. They told me not to rush into anything and wait. Patients was one thing they taught me. My mother took her ring, placed it on the table and said, 'The one you want to spend the rest of your life with is out there somewhere. She will be the luckiest woman in the world and you will be the luckiest man in the world to have her. Give her this ring and never let her go.'"

I felt him place something into my hand and a snap of it opening. Looking down, I saw a dark black velvet box with the most beautiful ring nestled inside. It was an oval of diamonds on a silver band.

"If you would do me the honour of becoming my wife Bella, you have no idea how happy I'd be? If you cannot find it in yourself to then at least promise you will try? Give us a try again. Give me time to show you that I do love you."

The tears had returned now. None held pain; none held sadness. Every tear that I shed was of pure happiness and joy.