My Bella

Edward's POV

As I lay in bed I thought over the past years.

My Bella. My beautiful Bella was here in New York. My life had fallen apart when she left. After the party she avoided me. She wouldn't tell me anything. I tried to talk to her about what we did at the party. It was a mistake but I loved being with her. Yes I was drunk but I could still feel everything. Being with her was amazing.

When she left, I dropped from school unable to function properly. My life was incomplete. I locked myself away from the world, from my family. I home schooled myself for a year before going to college and starting my law degree. I moved here last week for my last year of studying law.

I never dreamed of seeing my Bella again. Then to find her here brought me alive again. Her beautiful smile lit up her face as the little girl jumped into her arms. My Bella had a daughter and she wasn't mine. Bella really had moved on. She will never be my Bella again. I had to let her go. I'd make sure she was still in my life even if it had to be as friends.

The beautiful little girl that leapt into her arms was amazing. Whoever the father is, is a lucky man. Bella and Elizabeth are the most precious people in the world and if I find out that they aren't being treated well enough I will do something.

My phone suddenly started ringing. I rolled out of bed and flicked it open. It was an unknown number.

"Hello Edward Cullen speaking, who is it?"

"Edward?"

"Elizabeth is that you?"

"Edward can you help my momma?"

"What's wrong Elizabeth? Where's your mom?"

"She's in bed. Edward she keeps screaming."

"Is she hurt Elizabeth?"

"No."

"Where's your dad?"

"I don't have a daddy."

Suddenly there was a scream from the other end as Elizabeth's breathing increased.

"Elizabeth it's okay. You need to stay calm. Do you know where you live?"

"Yes."

"If you tell me I'll come round and help."

"Okay."

I wrote down the address she gave me and ran to my car.

"Elizabeth, keep talking to me okay? Tell me about yourself."

"I'm four and my birthday is in two weeks."

She was going to be five in a few weeks. Five! Bella was in Forks just under six years ago. Around the time of the party. But I couldn't be. Could I? She would have told me.

"What do you like to do Elizabeth?"

"I like to read with momma. She always reads me a story before I go to sleep."

"Do you go to the park often?"

"Every Friday after school. Sometimes Jenny comes with us."

I sped through the streets as I listened to her breathing calming down. Just as I thought everything was going to be okay, I heard a scream come from the other end. Elizabeth's breathing increased as I clutched the wheel.

"Who's Jenny? Elizabeth, tell me who Jenny is."

"She's my best friend."

"What does she look like?"

"She has straight blonde hair and light blue eyes. She's taller than me."

"She sounds great."

"She is."

I pulled up outside a small two story house in the quieter end of New York.

"Elizabeth where are you?"

"I told you."

"No, I mean where in the house are you?"

"In the living room."

"Can you turn a light on?"

"Okay."

I waited a moment before I saw a light flick on through one of the windows downstairs.

"Elizabeth I'm outside, can you open the door for me?"

"Momma says I'm not allowed to open the door to anyone."

"Why can't you open the door for me?"

"I don't know you."

"Are you able to open a window then?"

"Why?"

"So I can come in."

"But I'm not allowed to let you in."

A sudden scream scared the both of us and I could hear her jump. Seconds later the front door opened and I saw a small figure silhouetted in the light.

"Where are you Edward?"

"I'm coming Elizabeth."

I hung up the phone as I ran from my car. When I got to the door, I lifted her into my arms as I could hear Bella's screams. Tears ran down her face as I held her to me.

"It's okay Elizabeth. I've got you. Come on."

Closing the door behind me, I carried her to the living room. I pulled her into my lap as I moved her hair from her face.

"Hey, it's okay Elizabeth. Everything is going to be fine."

"But what about my momma?"

"When you've calmed down I'll go and see her. I'm going to make sure you are alright first."

I held her in my arms whilst she calmed herself down before staring up at me. She traced her finger around my face.

"We have the same eyes."

"We do don't we Elizabeth?"

"Do you know who my daddy is?"

"I don't Elizabeth. I'm sorry."

"I just want momma to be happy."

"She is happy with you Elizabeth. She loves you very much."

"But she loved my daddy too. She didn't tell him that he's my daddy."

My belief of this little girl being mine grew stronger and stronger with every word.

"Are you alright now Elizabeth?"

"A bit."

"Why don't you show me where your room is, then I can see your momma?"

"Okay."

She climbed off my lap and took my hand. Leading me up the stairs, she pointed to a door where Bella's cries came from before taking me into her room. There were lots of pictures around the room of Bella and Elizabeth from when she was a baby. I tucked her into the bed and closed the door over after making sure she was okay.

Opening the door to Bella's room, I saw her curled up into a ball as tears streamed down her face. She kept muttering my name over and over again. A heart-breaking voice. I climbed into the bed, pulling her to me. She didn't notice me as she continued to cry. Her lips came to mine. I didn't respond, surprised by what was happening. When I kissed her back, she pulled me closer to her as she wrapped her hands into my hair. I held the back of her head as she removed her hands from my hair. She started to undo the buttons of her shirt as she pressed her lips to mine harder.

"Bella stop."

She sat on my chest as she pulled my lips back to hers.

"Do you want to do it?"

"We can't Bella."

Scraping her hair out of her face, she climbed off me and ran to the bathroom, not looking back at me. I followed her to see her sitting on the toilet seat. Kneeling down in front of her, I took her hands in mine.

"I'm sorry Edward. I shouldn't have done that."

"Bella. What's wrong?"

"You."

"What did I do Bella?"

"You came to New York Edward. Why are you even here?"

"I told you I'm studying here."

"No. Why are you in my house?"

"Because you're daughter rang me, terrified for you."

She dropped her head as she pulled her hands away from mine.

"Listen. I appreciate you coming over and helping Edward but I can't do this. It's been good seeing you again but please just leave me alone."

"Tell me one thing Bella."

"What?"

"Why did you leave Forks?"

"I can't tell you that Edward."

"Can't or don't want to Bella? Do you know what you leaving did to me? Do you know what I did to deal with losing you? I locked myself away from everybody. I dropped out of school because there were too many memories of you there. I didn't see my family for months at a time. Alice would sit outside my door everyday trying to get me to talk to her. Her voice reminded me of you. I remembered every time you and her laughed. It hurt Bella. It hurt so bad. I'm not letting you go again Bella."

Her tears started to run down her cheeks as she threw her arms around my neck.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Edward."

"Please tell me why you left Bella."

She pulled back and smiled up at me through her tears. Taking my hand, she led me into her bedroom before stepping away from me. When I went to take a step towards her she held her hand up to stop me.

"Bella just tell me. Is it something I did?"

"In a way."

"Was it at the party?"

"Yes."

She picked my hands up in hers and looked into my eyes.

"Elizabeth is your daughter."

I moved a strand of hair behind her ear as we stared into each other's eyes.

"Why didn't you tell me Bella?"

"I was scared. I still am Edward. We weren't going to take that next step. Not unless we were married. Then we got drunk and did it anyway. I was scared and embarrassed Edward. I couldn't face you after that."

"I liked it."

"What?"

"When we were together, even though I was drunk, I could feel everything. The feel of your skin, your kisses, all of you, it felt amazing. I wanted you again, but you never gave me the chance to talk to you, to apologise."

"You had nothing to apologise for Edward."

"I used you in a way we agreed not to. I'm sorry Bella."

"Edward, I need to know if you are going to stay, if you want to be a part of Elizabeth's life or you want to just walk away. I can't have you in this house any longer if you don't. It would break me all over again."

I took a step closer to her and tilted her head upwards.

"I'm never leaving Bella."

Pressing my lips to hers, I cupped her cheek. As I went to pull away, she pulled me back to her, not breaking our connection.

"I love you Edward."

"I love you Bella."

Bringing her lips to mine, she closed the distance between us as she held her fingers in my hair. After a while she pulled back.

"Where's Ellie?"

"In bed."

"I'm going to check on her."

"Where do you want me?"

"Right here. You aren't going anywhere."

"Never."

She pecked my lips before running out of the room. I finally had my Bella back and I wasn't letting her go.