Sorting things out

As I awoke the next morning I noticed the absence of Elizabeth and Edward. Just as I was about to get out of bed, the door opened and in they both came with a tray.

"Morning momma."

"Morning baby. Morning Edward."

"Morning Bella. We've got you some breakfast."

"You didn't need to do that."

"But we wanted to momma."

Edward placed a tray on my lap as Elizabeth climbed into the bed next to me. With a plate of waffles in front of me, Edward sat on the other side of me after pecking my forehead.

"Thank you both."

"Can we stay here today momma? I don't want to go to Abby's."

"I'll see what I can do baby. You know I have meetings I have to go to."

"What are these meetings Bella?"

"It's just a support group. I started going when we moved here. It helps with having a young child and all our children play together and can interact with each other."

"I'm sorry Bella."

"It's okay, it wasn't your fault."

"Do you want me to look after Elizabeth today?"

"You don't mind?"

"No. I'd love to."

"Don't you have school or something to get ready for?"

"I don't start until after vacation."

"Okay. Ellie do you want Edward to look after you today?"

"Yes."

I kissed her head before kissing Edward's jaw and eating my breakfast.

"That was delicious. Thank you."

"It was no problem Bella."

He took the tray from my lap and left the room. I wrapped my arms around my baby.

"Do you want daddy here?"

"I do Ellie. I love him."

"He loves you too. He told me."

"And did he tell you that he loves you?"

"Yes."

"Then do you see a reason why he can't stay?"

"No. I want him here."

"I do too Ellie. Do you think we should ask if he wants to live with us?"

"Yes."

"I'll ask him later Ellie, okay? Don't say anything. I want to see how today goes before I ask."

"Okay momma. I promise."

"Thank you baby."

"Are Grandma Renee and Grandpa Phil coming for my birthday?"

"They are baby. Grandpa Charlie is coming next weekend as well. The Grandma Renee and Grandpa Phil are coming the next weekend for your birthday."

"Will daddy be here?"

"If he stays then he will be."

I held her in my arms for a while before Edward came back into the room.

"Elizabeth?"

"Yes daddy."

"Why don't you get ready for the day and watch some TV? I need to talk to your momma."

"Are you angry with her?"

"No. Why would I be?"

"Because she didn't tell you that you're my daddy."

"I'm not angry Elizabeth. Don't worry."

"Okay daddy. I love you."

"I love you too Ellie."

He pecked her forehead before she ran out of the room.

"What's wrong Edward?"

Climbing into the bed next to me, he wrapped his arms around my shoulders.

"I don't know if I can trust you Bella. How do I know that you won't leave me again? I can't lose you again Bella."

"I'm sorry Edward. I know you don't trust me and I can't blame you. If you want to leave then you can. We'll sort things out so you can still see Elizabeth if you want."

"That's the thing though Bella. I can't live without you. No matter what you will be the only person I will ever love. I just don't know if I can trust you enough to get close to you again."

"What do I need to do Edward? I can't lose you again."

"Tell me something you haven't told anyone before. Only you know."

I looked down at my hand on his chest as I fiddled with a button on his shirt.

"When I was four months pregnant, I tried to get rid of Elizabeth."

A tear fell from my eye as I remembered the hard time I went through. Edward's arms tightened around me as I buried my face in his chest.

"Why Bella?"

"I wasn't coping well. I didn't have you anymore. I was terrified Edward. I should never have left. I shouldn't have left you. I love you Edward. I need you."

I cried as he combed through my hair, holding me to him.

"I love you Bella. I'm not going to leave."

He held me as I cried into his chest. Once I finished crying I looked up at him to see a couple of tears run down his cheeks. I wiped them off his cheeks, smiling up at him.

"I'm sorry Edward. I know you're angry."

"I'm not angry Bella. I'll never be angry at you; I'm just disappointed. Really disappointed. I wish you had told me."

"I know. I know Edward and I'll never be able to say sorry enough. I took our babies life away from you."

"It hurts Bella. I won't lie; it does. I wish I had been there for when she was born but I get to be here now."

He looked down as he lay his hand over my stomach.

"Maybe one day I'll get to hold our own baby minutes after birth."

"Really?"

"Really."

I reached and up and pulled his lips to mine. Winding my fingers into his hair, I moved my lips with his as he held me to him.

"I missed this."

"I missed it too."

Smiling up at him, his lips came back to mine as he sat us up. Pulling me onto his lap, he held my hips, drawing circles with his thumbs.

"I need to go."

"Do you have to?"

"Yeah. They send someone round if you don't."

"Okay. I'll see you later."

"Look after my baby."

"Our baby."

"Look after our baby then."

"I will. Nothing will happen to her. Go get dressed."

"Okay."

I pressed my lips to his again before grabbing some clothes from my closet and going to the bathroom. When I went into the living room, I saw Elizabeth and Edward curled up together. Kneeling down in front of them, I pecked her forehead.

"I've got to go now Ellie."

"I'll see you later momma. I'll miss you."

"I'll miss you too baby. I love you."

"I love you too momma."

"I'll see you later Edward. Love you."

"I love you too Bella. You look beautiful."

"She's always beautiful daddy."

"That she is Ellie."

"Anyway, I'm going."

I pressed my lips to Edward's before grabbing my bag and running to my car.