Chapter 25: Is It Bad?
"Hey Liv! What's up?"
"Not too much. I hope you don't mind me calling you now on a school night."
"Really Liv? It's like 10:30 and though we're steadily reaching old age I think we can manage staying up a little past curfew." Abby said sarcastically.
Olivia let out a sigh.
"So what's up?" Abby asked.
"I got the shock of a lifetime this afternoon..." Olivia said before pausing.
Abby's either going to help sooth my nerves or send them into overdrive...
"What happened? What did I miss? Damnit I hate when I don't get to have lunch with you and Harrison!" Abby complained.
"No, this happened at the end of the school day."
"Oh. Well, come on, tell me!"
For some reason this suddenly seems hard to say. I feel like I'm experiencing that moment all over again.
How am I going to go to work tomorrow?
Should I take a sick day? That's a temporary solution but I can't avoid work forever. And though I don't see Cyrus a lot the moment's going to come when we'll run into each other-
"Liv? Are you there?"
"Cyrus caught Fitz and I!" She blurted out.
Wow. Definitely wasn't expecting that.
At least it's out...
Several seconds went by. Olivia rubbed her phone-free hand across her forehead.
Am I starting to sweat? Why isn't she saying anything? I need her to tell me it's not as bad as it seems.
"Abby, say something..."
"O...M...G."
Olivia let out a deep breath.
"Cyrus caught you and Fitz having sex?"
"No! Thankfully it wasn't that. We were just in the middle of something else when he came bursting in the door."
"Where were you guys?" Abby asked.
"In his office. Behind the desk. I was kind of sitting on his lap..."
God, I feel embarrassed.
"Aw jeez Liv. What did Cyrus do?"
"I believe he said 'Shit' and then I got out of there!" Olivia told her. "Does it seem as bad as I think?"
"I guess a positive way to look at it is that Cyrus and Fitz are close friends so I doubt Cyrus will announce what he saw to the rest of the school."
"Abby, I don't know if I can go into work tomorrow. Do you think if I do I could get away with wearing dark shades all day. That way I don't have to make eye contact with anyone. I feel like anyone who looks me in the eyes will see the guilt."
"Outside of you and Fitz only two other people know what happened. Scary as it is Cyrus is one of those people but your going to have to deal with that."
"I gu-" Olivia started to say before Abby cut in.
"I better see your ass at work tomorrow!" She demanded.
"I'll try."
I need to call her she's probably been worrying all evening. Fitz thought as he headed towards the guest room.
"Fitz!"
Ugh! Please do not let this take too long.
"Yes Mellie..." He said turning around to face her.
"Could you make French toast in the morning? I have a such a craving for it."
"If Jerry wants French toast then sure I'll make one for you." He told her before turning back around.
"Why does it have to be if Jerry wants it? He's a child. Tell him 'This is what were having for breakfast today. Deal with it.' You spoil him entirely too much."
Fitz took a frustrating deep breath and turned to look at Mellie.
"If he wakes up on time I let him pick what he'd like for breakfast. It makes it easier for me to get him up in the mornings. Plus, I'd much prefer him to eat a good meal before sending him to school so he's not starving till lunch time. Now if you'd like to take over the morning duties with our son and try things your way then go ahead. Just don't blame me for the fall out." He told her.
"Whatever Fitz. I'll make my own damn French toast." Mellie said with a huff.
"Ha! Good luck. I'll make sure the fire extinguisher is close by. Goodnight." He said and walked away.
This shouldn't even be called a guest room anymore. It should by called 'My Room'. Fitz thought as he closed the door behind him.
Now I can finally call her.
I doubt I'll be able to sleep tonight.
I can't believe I promised Abby I'd show up at work tomorrow just so I can get a free box of popcorn.
She did say it would be a six pack so how could I turn that down?
Olivia tossed and turned in bed repeatedly.
There's no way I can take a sleeping pill now. If I do I definitely won't make it to work in the morning.
Olivia laid on her back staring up at the ceiling.
Maybe I can try counting sheep. Maybe those Serta mattress sheep. They're cute.
1 Serta sheep...2 Serta sheep...
Olivia suddenly heard a noise.
My phone!
Fitz!
"Hi Livvie." He said as soon as she answered.
Damn! What that voice does to me. And Oh how I wish he'd call me Livvie all the time. It's both cute and sexy.
"Hi." She said shyly.
"How are you feeling after what happened?"
Ugh! For a minute I forgot about the whole Cyrus thing. That's probably why he's calling.
I'm hoping I'll feel relieved or at least a little better after talking to him.
"Honestly, I'm a little stressed." Olivia admitted.
"I figured, that's why I thought I'd call you tonight."
Even if she does feel better after I tell her everything's ok I hope she's not pissed that I told Cyrus about us. Though how could she be when she told Abby about us. I think she'll understand that I needed someone to talk to also.
"Go ahead. Tell me what happened after I left. Was it bad?"
"I don't know how you'll feel about this but I told Cyrus about us before this happened." Fitz said nervously.
"You did?" She asked.
"Yeah. I told him at the beginning of the week. I actually tried to tell him earlier but was interrupted so I didn't get another chance to until Sunday. You're not mad are you?"
"No! That's great! I was so worried of what he would think if that was his first time discovering something was going on."
"Good!" Fitz said with a smile.
"I mean it's still awkward that he walked in on us but I feel a lot better about the whole thing."
Fitz laughed. "Though there is one bit of bad news."
"Oh God, what?"
I knew things couldn't have worked out that perfectly...
"He'll probably tease us every chance he gets..."
"Oh I can handle that." Olivia said with a laugh.
I think he just let out a sigh of relief. He must've been worried about how I'd feel about Cyrus having already known about us.
"So, your best friend knows and now my best friend knows." He said.
Uh oh. I've never told him that Harrison knows too.
Now I'm worried again.
"Um..."
"Um what?" He asked.
"Harrison knows too. But I didn't tell him!" She hurriedly said.
Shit! Don't tell me we have to worry about Abby being a blabbermouth. There's no way someone else could know.
"Did Abby tell him? I know you three are close but-"
"No she didn't tell him. He guessed."
Did she just giggle?
"He guessed? How the hell did he guess?"
I didn't think we were ever that obvious...
"Yeah. He claims he has some Criminal Minds' profiling skills and apparently he used them to figure out that there was something between us at the homecoming game."
"Wow! That far back?"
Impressive.
"Wait...he profiled us like we're criminals? That's not very comforting."
He heard her burst out in laughter.
There's that amazing laugh!
Everything about her is amazing! God I wish I was with her right now. Feeling her warm naked body against mine.
"I will say that he's worried about me being in this situation."
"He doesn't need to be. Did you tell him that?"
I could tell him till I'm blue in the face and he wouldn't believe me. As long as Fitz is with Mellie, Harrison's going to continue to be concerned.
If I'm honest with myself. I feel concerned. I don't want him to break up his family over me because then how could I be sure that he wouldn't regret it later on. I want him to leave her because he truly wants to. If he can't decide then I'll have to end this.
Shit, I'm getting depressed thinking about it.
"Livvie?" She heard him say.
"Sorry, I drifted. But, um, yeah I did tell him. Not surprisingly he's like a big protective brother. He wants to make sure I don't get hurt. He never comes out and judges what I do he just always advises me to be careful." Olivia told him.
I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I hurt her. She means entirely too much to me. I've never felt this way about anyone and I don't want to lose her! She probably wouldn't fully believe me if I said I won't hurt her. I'll need to do what needs to be done in order to prove to her that I don't ever plan on hurting her.
"Hey," She said breaking into his thoughts, "We need to talk about something else that has to do with what happened today." .
"What's that?"
"I'm never venturing into your office by myself again!"
Hmm, I do sense some determination in her voice.
"I know it's a dangerous place for you." Fitz said with a laugh. "I was surprised when I looked up and saw you in the room."
"Well, it's hard sometimes when I don't see you at all or if I see you but can't really talk to you or be in your arms."
"Yeah, I know what you mean. It's hard not to reach out and touch you when your standing close by or when I walk by you. Especially when your ass is asking to be grabbed." He told her.
She's laughing but I'm serious. It's fucking hard!
"I do agree that we shouldn't be alone in my office ever again."
"Especially when I never get any release..."
"Oh, so that's the real issue," He said as if he solved a difficult problem. "Once on purpose and this last time by interruption I haven't driven you to an orgasm."
I can sense that arrogant smile in his voice.
"The real issue is we can't afford to get caught again..." AND I feel I'm cursed to never reach full satisfaction in there. Whether it's because of him or someone else.
"You mean that's the other issue. The first time in the office was punishment, but believe me this afternoon I was planning to drive you into oblivion."
Shit. I can already feel the wetness. Now I might now be able to go to sleep for a different reason.
"If I could've spread you out on my desk I would've made sure that we christened that thing!"
Ugh! I don't want to imagine it and yet I really do!
"Would you have let me have you right there on the desk?" He asked.
I think she would've but I want to see if she'll admit it.
There were several seconds of silence before he heard a low "Yes."
Fitz smiled wide.
"Hey, I'll make it up to you this weekend."
I have no idea where we'll be going or what we'll be doing. Hell I still have to find a place where Jerry can go but I'm going to figure it all out.
"If you say so..." He heard her say.
"I can tell you still don't believe me but you'll see Livvie."
"I hope so Fitz. I'll see you tomorrow even though it is hard I do always look forward to seeing you at work."
"Same here."
"Goodnight." She said softly.
"Goodnight." He said reluctantly and held onto the phone till she hung up.
I'm going to make this weekend happen. We're going to have our first real date.
Fitz put his phone on the nightstand and got into bed.
Mellie's leaving will jump start the beginning of my needing to rethink my life.
There's definitely some changes on the horizon.