Chapter 31 Reality of Tomorrow
"Livvie?"
Nothing.
Fitz yawned as he glanced over at the clock.
1106am.
I hate to have to wake her but I'm going to have to leave soon. Jerry's going to be coming home probably early this afternoon and I believe Mellie's supposed to return in the late afternoon.
I'm not looking forward to Mellie coming home. Though I can't remember a time when I did look forward to it.
The next couple of days, weeks, hell possibly months might be rough but I have to put the process of divorce in motion. I have no other choice if I want a chance at actual happiness in life.
I have to figure out when I'm going to tell Mellie. I don't want Jerry to be around when I do. I'm certainly not going to take her out because knowing Mellie she won't give a shit where we're at when I break the news. When I tell her I want a divorce she's going to lose her mind!
"Livvie..."
She is really knocked out. Though I shouldn't be surprised. Yesterday was an exciting day and last night was both exciting and exhausting!
Getting to have all of her all night long was amazing. I never felt or tasted anything so good. And when she pushed me over and climbed on top of me it was...DAMN! I would've never guessed she all of that in her. The way she was riding me and her breasts were bouncing...it was crazy! I was caught completely off guard and almost lost it before her.
"Liv..."
"I hear you. I'm just ignoring you." He heard her say.
I don't want this to end! Yesterday was like a dream. I really don't want to be hit in the face with reality.
Olivia rolled onto her back but kept her eyes closed.
Ugh! I'm sore. A lot went on last night...
Olivia couldn't help the smile that spread across her face.
"What's got you suddenly smiling?" She heard Fitz ask.
"Nothing." She replied.
I can feel him staring down at me.
"Could it be you're thinking about last night?" He asked.
Olivia slowly opened her eyes. "Just a little."
She let out a sigh as Fitz kissed her on the forehead and then on both her cheeks.
When Olivia noticed his eyes had focused on her lips she tried to push him away.
"NO! I probably have morning breath and nastiness!"
"I don't give a fuck." He said with a smile before firmly kissing her on the lips.
Damn I hate when I can't resist giving into him. She thought as she opened her mouth to him.
Fitz reluctantly pulled away from her.
It's not possible right now but I surely hope there will come a time when I can wake up next to her every morning. He smiled at the thought of doing so.
They laid in bed a few more minutes before Fitz asked, "Did you want to have a quick lunch before I have to go?"
"I don't know if I have anything in my kitchen for a good lunch unless you really love popcorn."
Fitz laughed.
"Well how about you join me for a shower and then we'll see what you have in that kitchen."
He frowned when she shook her head no.
"I can't function right now. You're going to have to shower on your own."
Judging by the grin on her face I think she's full of BS.
Fitz slid his hand under the covers and down her body.
He watched her face as he gently pushed a finger inside of her.
She definitely winced a little but that grin is still firmly on her face.
Fitz let out an exaggerated sigh of frustration before smiling down at her.
"Ok. I'll go by myself."
Unless my puppy dog eyes will work...
Olivia shook her head no again.
How could they work on Cyrus and not on her?
Olivia laid in bed for several minutes listening to the sound of the shower.
I could fall right back asleep but I need to get up.
She slowly got out of bed and headed to the closet to grab her robe.
One thing I know I have is coffee.
She had just reached the kitchen when she heard her phone going off in the living room.
She picked it up and sighed.
"I thought I said I would call you." Olivia stated more so than asked.
"Is that anyway to answer the phone? Besides I couldn't remember so I thought I'd give you a call. It's almost noon you know."
"Yes Abby I know but I can't talk right now. I'll call you later."
"WAIT! Is he still there? Did he spend the night? What-"
Olivia cut Abby off. "I'll call you later. Bye." With that she hung up the phone before anything else could be said.
Oh Abby. Olivia thought with a laugh before quickly turning around when she heard Fitz behind her.
He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close.
"I really thought you would surprise me in there."
"In the shower?"
He nodded his head yes and leaned down to nip at her neck.
I'm addicted to this woman. There's no denying it.
The only good thing about returning home is Jerry. I'm looking forward to seeing my son but that's all.
"You made a pretty good ham and cheese sandwich." Olivia said as she followed Fitz to the door.
"Thank you but I'm definitely going to have to take you grocery shopping as soon as I get the chance. You need some damn food in the place."
"Oh shut up! I'm sure you got plenty of food at...um...at home."
I hate the sadness that seemed to creep in her voice towards the end. Fitz turned around and placed his hands on Olivia's face.
"Don't be sad Liv. Before you know it you'll see me so much you'll be sick of me." He told her with a smile.
"Who says I'm not sick of you now?"
"Don't make me take you back in that bedroom Livvie. I won't be so gentle." Fitz told her in a tone full of warning.
"Whatever. Goodbye Mister!" She said trying to brush him off.
Fitz pulled her in tightly and kissed her hard.
"I love you Olivia." He told her after they pulled apart.
"I love you too."
"I don't think I'll make it to the park tonight."
"That's ok. It's going to be a really cold night anyway." Olivia said. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"Alright." Fitz said before he kissed her one more time and headed out the door.
Olivia walked over to her couch and plopped down.
I'm going to try to be optimistic about everything but it's going to be hard.
I want us to have a future together so badly.
I know it's going to be tough at first. I'm not naive to the fact that Mellie probably won't make the divorce easy and even if in some miraculously way she does...Fitz has a seven year old son to take care of. He's going to need to come first.
Jerry's such a great kid and even though Fitz said he talked to him that doesn't mean the process is going to go smoothly for him.
Olivia laid back and closed her eyes.
I haven't even considered the possibility that Jerry could have a problem with Fitz and I being together. The more I think about it the more complicated I feel everything is becoming. She thought as she rubbed hard at her temples.
I need to take my mind off of this even if it's just for a little while.
With some effort Olivia forced herself up from the couch.
A bath and some wine sounds like a wonderful idea right now...
"DAD! I'M BACK!"
"HAVEN'T YOU EVER HEARD OF KNOCKING?" Fitz yelled back in the direction of his son's voice as he made his way to the front room.
He smiled wide when he saw Jerry in the doorway.
"Hey, you left it unlocked. Which you shouldn't do if you're home alone and not in the room. Don't you know anything about safety?" Jerry questioned as he dropped his bag on the floor. "I leave you alone for little more than a day-"
"Oh stop!" Fitz said as he pulled his son into a big hug.
"Thanks for inviting Jerry to the game Lucas."
"No problem Fitz. He's never too much trouble."
"Hey, Mr. Moore that's not what I told you to say!"
"Oh that's right. I'm supposed to tell you that Jerry is an angel sent from above and his behavior was absolute perfection."
Jerry gave him a thumbs up.
Fitz shook his head and laughed before holding his hand out for Lucas Moore to shake.
"Thanks again Lucas! And be sure to tell Maria I said 'Hi'."
"Sure will. Bye."
"Did you miss me?" Jerry asked Fitz as they sat watching a football game.
"I certainly did."
"Were you bored?"
Um not exactly. Fitz thought with a smile.
"I was alright. I went a couple places."
Which is all you need to know...
"Is mom coming home soon?"
Fitz looked at the clock and sighed.
"Any time now."
Jerry looked down at his feet. "Is what you said on Friday still true?" He asked quietly.
Fitz put an arm around Jerry. "Yes it is. There's actually some paperwork I'll be filling out tomorrow to get everything started."
"Are you going to tell her today?"
I can hear the fear in his voice. I really can't have him be around when I tell his mother.
"Don't worry Jerry. I'm going to talk to her about it tomorrow while you're at school. You won't have to hear it. Ok?"
At least he won't have to hear Mellie's initial reaction. I can't keep Jerry away from her so at some point he's going to hear some shit but I'm going to do my best to protect him from the worst of it.
Jerry leaned into his dad. "Ok."
This is going to be tough. I think I'll call off of work tomorrow and see if Mellie will spare some time from her work for us to talk.
Fitz looked down at his son.
I still have to find a place for Jerry and I to live because I know there's no way Mellie's going to move out of this house.
After such a perfect day reality is rearing it's ugly head again. The reality that this is not going to be easy is becoming clearer and clearer but I have to remember that this is what's best for all of us. Even if Mellie can't see it at first.
It's been hours since Fitz left and yet I've barely gotten any work done.
I didn't have too many papers left to grade yet with how long it's taking me one would think I had papers from every student in all of my classes left to grade.
I haven't earned a break but I did tell Abby I would call her so I'm going to use that as an excuse to take one right now.
"OLIVIA! You finally called!"
"You're really excited to hear about all of this aren't you?" Olivia questioned with a laugh.
"You have no idea! I feel like I'm in middle school all over again waiting for my bff to tell me about her very first date." Abby giggled before getting serious. "Though if I remember correctly that excitement I felt quickly turned to jealously because not only did Emma have her first date before me but she also had her first kiss before me. It was a nightmare for me actually. I was supposed to experience all the cool first. I mean-"
"Um Abby? Do I need to set up an appointment with the guidance counselor for you tomorrow?"
"Shit! I'm sorry. I'm ok." Abby said.
Olivia heard her take a deep breath. "How was it yesterday? And last night? Oh and this morning?"
"It was the best Abby. I couldn't have imagined anything better!"
"Yipee! Tell me about it!"
Again I find myself feeling like a teenager as I tell Abby about Fitz and I's date. Though unlike when I was young I chose to keep a lot of what happened to myself. Plenty of moments from Fitz and I's time together should be kept just between the two of us. Olivia thought with a little smile.
"I hate to bring her into it," Olivia heard Abby say with some apprehension, "but did you two talk about his future with Mellie? I don't want to come off like Harrison would but with all that's happening..."
"No, I understand. I knew before going on the date that I had to talk to Fitz about where things are going before the night was over and I did."
"And?"
"Well," Olivia said before she paused, "He understood and told me he loves me and that he's getting a divorce." She blurted out in one breath.
"Oh that's good. WAIT! WHAT?" Abby practically yelled.
"Yeah. That's pretty much the gist of it."
Why is Abby suddenly quiet? She's never quiet? What the hell is she thinking?
"You believe him?" Abby suddenly asked. "About the divorce I mean. You really believe he's going to go through with it?"
"Yes! Of course! Why wouldn't I?" Olivia said defensively.
Wow I didn't mean to have it come out that way.
If Abby were in my situation I would wonder the same thing. It's just...
"Sorry Liv. I didn't mean to offend-"
"No, it's ok. I'm sorry. I guess I'm trying to hide the fact that I have doubts too but he said the main reason he's divorcing her is because it's the right thing to do for him and Jerry. And he said he already talked to Jerry. He wouldn't lie to his son about something like this."
Though he wouldn't be lying if he changed his mind about everything and simply told Jerry that's what happened.
"Fitz also told me he's filing for divorce on Monday." Olivia added.
"Tomorrow?" Abby questioned.
"That's what he said..."
Olivia heard Abby let out a sigh. "I guess you'll find out tomorrow if he takes that first step."
Olivia nodded as if Abby could see her. "Yeah. I guess so."
Tomorrow...