Bella's POV

"Mom I'll be back in an hour." I shouted as I ran into the kitchen to grab the car keys.

"Where are you going?"

"Can't talk now I will tell you when I come back love you." I say as I run out the door.

I'm still nervous about getting behind the wheel so soon after the accident. But I have to get over it and what better time then now. I just don't like the fact that I have to drive all the way to Forks. When I get there I'll text Jasper and tell him to meet me at the library. I'll tell him that its important and we have to talk.

It looks like it's going to rain what else is new I thought as I pulled into the library. And started to text Jasper I don't even know where he lives if its even in Forks. He text back right away and said to give him five minutes. Well he must live close if it's only going to take him five minutes to get here. As I sit in the car thinking about what I'm going to tell him it started to rain. I reached to the side to turn on the windshield wipers just as Jasper knocks on my window scaring this shit out of me.

I roll down the window to see him smiling.

"Nice ride what happened to the other car?" He says sarcastically.

"It fell in love with a tree and they lived happily ever after now get your ass in the car your getting all wet."

"It's OK I like the rain, Plus its the only time I can take a shower so it's win win."

"Get in weirdo." I say as I roll up the window and watch him run to the other side of the car quickly hoping in and closing the door. He looks at me smiling as he shakes his head splashing rain water on me.

"Thanks I needed another shower." I say as I start to wipe my face off.

"How can you not love this weather, It's beautiful."

"I never said I didn't like it you just assumed plus I like it better when its sunny."

"Nah I'm not a big fan of the sun." He says as he smiles. "So what's up whats the big emergency."

"Not an emergency I just came to a conclusion about something and I wanted you to know what's going on. I know lately I've seemed kind of distant and you know about my past with me and Paul. So I've had a lot to think about."

"Yeah I know about the situation, So what's your conclusion?"

"Well I've been thinking a lot about you and about Paul and weighing the pro's and con's trying to decide what to do." Before I can finish telling him my decision he cuts me off.

"Bella can I say something first?" I nod my head yes. "Before you tell me your decision I have something to say. I have a lot of feelings for you and I care for you. But I don't think I can be with you."

I sit with a surprised look on my face as he continues talking.

"I don't know if you were going to pick me or him. But I'm going to make it easier for you. You should be with him."

"Why do you think I should pick him?" I say looking at him trying to hold back tears.

"Because Bella your in love with him. You've always been in love with him ever since we met. And deep down inside I knew that no matter what I did he would always be there somewhere a question mark in the back of your head. And you would always wonder if he was the one that got away. And no matter how smooth I am and believe me I'm smooth like butter baby I can't erase the memories that you two have. And it's too much for me to compete with. And I value your friendship and I want to remain friends which is why I had to interrupt you before you said anymore. I don't want this to be weird so whoever you were going to pick just keep it to yourself. Because we both know in the end no matter how good I treated you it would have been him."

I sit there speechless as the rain pounding against the hood of the car breaks the silence. Part of me is happy because he basically did what I've been scared to do. Tell him that we can't be together and that I was still in love with Paul. But anyone telling you that they can't be with you hurts your ego no matter who it is.

"Wow, I...I don't know what to say."

"It's OK Bella, I know its going to be hard to get over a beefcake like me. But your strong I know you can do it." He says smiling at me.

"I...I'm just speechless, Really I don't know how to react. Smooth as butter baby." I say as I burst out laughing.

"I know this is hard for you Bella, Your hiding your true feeling with fake laughter. The first stage is denial." He says as he starts to laugh too. "But seriously Bella, I just want you to be happy. And I think he makes you the happiest. But I'll always be there for you if you need me." He says as he opens the door and steps out looking back at me before he closes the door. "See you around, Bella."

He closes the door before I can respond back as the rain blocks my vision of him as he disappears into the rain. Well that was easier then I thought it was going to be. I just hope things don't become weird with me and Jasper. This is usually the part when the friendship is ruined and they stop talking. I don't want that to be me and Jasper I thought as I started the car and drove back home.

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