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I was dreaming about battle tanks, armoured combat vehicles, large-caliber artillery systems, combat aircraft, attack helicopters, warships, missiles and missile launchers, man portable air defense systems, munitions, explosives…

They were everywhere.

The sky was red like blood, I couldn't stop hearing people screaming. If I wanted to lower my sight, I found myself surrounded by heads and dismembered bodies. I was going crazy. I wanted to help to those people but I didn't know how. I was looking everywhere but I couldn't find anything. So, I started to scream as well and I was losing control of my mind…

When I felt that something was touching my shoulder.

I opened my eyes. I was having a nightmare.

Once I managed to focus, I realize my hand was on her neck. I had taken Quinn by her arm, turned her on my bed so I was on top of her, involuntarily, of course. Those hazel eyes were looking at me and I could see the fear in them.

Jesus.

What was wrong with me?

I opened and closed my mouth trying to formulate something coherent, I wanted to apologize for my bad reaction but I couldn't say anything. I wanted to face palmed myself for being an idiot.

"Could you remove your hand from my neck?", Quinn was the first one to broke the silence. I immediately did it but I was still above her. It was the first time that our eyes fused and I could feel some strange energy attracting me to her. They were so beautiful and intense that I was mesmerized. I knew she was feeling the same way because she couldn't broke our intense stare, until she coughed and tried to pull me away. "will you get off me? I need to cook, it's getting late for lunch", she said and I let her move away from me. I knew I had to say something but I didn't know how. I wanted to tell her that my mind was so fucked up with all those memories that I had about war that I was starting to think it'd left me a trauma… and I didn't know if I ever could overcome it.

I covered my eyes with my hands while I let my body fall down on bed again. I stayed like that for a several minutes and then I pull myself together and headed into the kitchen. Quinn was wearing a red apron that was wrapping her waist. I smiled to myself because I thought it was so fucking cute, so domestic…

"Do you need help with something?", I was standing behind her when I asked her that and it seemed like she didn't hear me approaching because she jumped when she heard my voice.

"Jesus! I didn't even know you were here. No, thanks by the way", she refused to my offer and then silence invaded the place. It was making me nervous and I could sense that she was feeling the same because she was cutting vegetables hysterically.

"Don't you want me to do that while you do something else?", I tried again and at the same time she cut her finger.

"Shit!", she cried and then she made pressure where the wound was, and without wasting time, I run to 'my room' and search for a band-aid.

"Let me see", I grab her hand and look how deep were the wound. Fortunately it was nothing major, so unconsciously I took her finger to my mouth so I could clean the blood that was running on it and then, her eyes were focused on mines while I sucked a little. I noticed that she was feeling slightly uncomfortable, so I put some distance between us and placed the band-aid on the finger.

"Thanks", her voice was scarcely audible, I just smiled to her and before she returned to cook, I grab her hand again so she would look at me.

"I wanted to apologize for what happened earlier, I was having a nightmare and–"

"I should apologize, not you. I was walking along the corridor when I heard some noises coming from your bedroom and then I saw you were shaking uncontrollably and moaning. So that's why I try to wake you up. I'm sorry I–"

"Thanks for doing that", I interrupted her "Nightmares are not very pleasant", I smiled to her again.

"They are…"

"Yeah", I just said. I knew she was referring to wars and all the things that a soldier had to face. Sadness was written in her face and I knew that she was thinking about her died husband. I didn't know how to make her feel better.

Then, Mike came to my mind, when he told me to not take advantage her emotional state. I knew that she could feel shock, disbelief, numbness, sadness, anger and a massive loneliness. Her eyes reflect that, like her world has been turned upside down. It broke my heart seeing her like that and knowing I couldn't do anything to help her. We didn't know each other but, since her photo had saved my life I couldn't stop imagine things about 'us'. I might have a little crush on her… maybe… If I explain her about her photo, maybe I could 'move on', or maybe she'd think that I'm crazy. I had to tell her anyway, so I inhale and took courage.

"Quinn, I–"

"Hello everyone!", Mike and Beth arrived and we stayed there, Quinn bend down to pick up Beth while Mike approached to me and tackled me so he could put me down on the floor.

"I think someone needs tickles, Beth! Come here and help me!"

"What the–" Mike held my arms firmly so that I couldn't move and then I saw little Beth starting to tickle me on my ribs.

"Language!", Quinn interrupted my insult. Oh, she was one of those mothers.

"Hahaha stop it! Mike if you don't release me right now, you are going to regret it later!"

"Beth, it's enough… go and set the table while I finish preparing the meal", Quinn ordered to Beth and the little child stood up without complaining and went to do what she was told to. When I fixed my eyes on my best friend in a not friendly way, Mike raised his hands as if he were innocent.

"Calm down, anaconda… There is no need to make use of violence on your best friend, buddy"

"Why do you call her like that?", I was going to answered him when Quinn asked that and I froze. I'd forgotten that she was still in the kitchen and when I was going to glare Mike again warning him about what was he going to say, it was late.

"Oh, she hasn't told you yet?", Mike stared at me and I wanted to break his neck so bad. Ugh, Why do I want enemies if I have him?

"What does she have to tell me?", Quinn wiped her hands on her apron and then crossed her arms to look seriously at us. Shit. What excuse could I say to her and get out of this? I was afraid that she was going to react badly if she discovered my secret.

"MOM! Everything is ready, I'm hungry", there were a few seconds of silence until we heard Beth running cheerfully to meet us. I was seriously starting to adore this little girl. She had saved me from an uncomfortable situation.

"Go to sit at the table, honey. We are already going" Quinn gave me a look as if to say that our conversation had not finished yet. Shit. Hope she'll forget, though I doubt it. I released a long sigh before going towards the dining room.

While Quinn served me the meal on the plate, I saw that there was one more. I frowned and did the gesture of taking the plate to save it, but Quinn voice stopped me.

"My cousin is coming to have lunch with us. She must be on the way", she explained to me and I let the dish where it was. In two second we heard someone knocking on the door.

"Come in!", Quinn shouted and then I saw a fair-haired girl who was almost Quinn's twin. Almost, because Quinn is obviously prettier. Yeah, I think I'm a little obsessed. Although I can appreciate that this girl is... not bad. The difference with Quinn was that her smile was much less innocent, was more provocative and his eyes were intense, like Quinn, but in a different way. Like more bitchy.

"Hello everyone! I'm sorry for being late. I've run into an old friend", she excused herself.

"Why that doesn't surprise me?", Quinn replied and I noticed that she was upset.

"Hey! I think I haven't seen you here before, Are you on my team now, Quinnie?", She smiled victoriously when she received a death glare from Quinn.

"Santana, that's Kitty, unfortunately my cousin. Kitty, she's Santana, Mike's best friend. Now, please, shut up and eat", though the blonde was very bossy and uncomfortable, Kitty kept on looking at me seductively. I always knew when a girl is trying to flirt with me, and I knew that Kitty was doing just that in that moment.

"I found a job at a car wash", Mike tried to change the conversation topic "you could come with me, Santana", I directly nodded to him. Since I arrived I knew that the best thing was to get a job to be able to compensate with the expenses of the house, since Quinn nicely hosted me.

"There is no need for the two of you to work. We're just fine", the widow housewife said.

"The least I could do is to work to return the favor to let me stay here, Quinn"

"But, there is no –"

"We're going to do it, Quinn, like it or not. I agree with Santana in that"

We keep on speaking about other things while we continued with the dessert. I could see out of the corner of my eye that Kitty was looking at me fixedly, and knew that Quinn realized it because whenever she was doing it, Quinn was trying to get her attention. 'Women', I thought by myself.

"What are you doing tonight?", Kitty asked me out of nowhere and I didn't know what to answered.

"Uh, I don't know. The day has not even ended", I told her and she smiled.

"Awesome! Go out with me" I looked at her for a moment. What? "Since my cousin is not capable of making you clear your mind a little or even take you on a tour of this city, I'll do it", She said proudly.

"Leave her alone for a second, ok? Did you even ask her if she wanted to do anything? Excuse her, she's usually that intense", Quinn reacted while she was picking the plates. I immediately got up and started helping her.

"Are you ok?", I asked her when I joined her in the kitchen. She nodded without looking at me.

"It's just that I hate it when she does that. It's like she enjoys embarrassing me in front of people"

"Hey, calm down", I took her hand and look at her eyes, trying to make her realize that I was telling her the truth. "In any case, she should be the embarrassed one for being so desperate", I give her a gentile smile and I received one of those beautiful smiles of her in return.

"You can go out with her if you want, I don't mind it. I –"

"I won't", I interrupted and she fixed her eyes on mines.

"Ok", she said chewing her lower lip and I couldn't think in other thing that I wanted to kiss those delicious lips. I can't stand feeling more and more attracted by her. She's gorgeous, stunning. I didn't know what she was thinking or feeling about me, but I did know that she was, somehow, feeling relieved with my answer. And I was happy with that. It's strange, because we don't know each other, we don't know anything one of other one, but we act as if we knew each other for ages. Our eyes stayed connected for a several minutes until Kitty came into the kitchen

"I have to go, but I wanted to leave you my mobile number before I leave", Kitty took my hand and wrote her number on my palm. Jesus. She's really desperate. "I'll be waiting for your message for tonight", I simply nodded and then she kissed my cheek noisily.

"Do you like beer?", Quinn asked me once her cousin leave her house.

"Do you really have to ask? Who doesn't like drinking a very cold beer in these days of summer?", I laughed and she smiled sadly.

"My husband didn't like it", she answered automatically without thinking about it and then shook her head. "I'm sorry I keep talking about him, it's –"

"It's ok, Q. It's normal. You still love him and miss him, you don't have to be sorry for that", I smiled at her letting her know that I understand her. I wondered how she was able to deal with all this alone. I'm more than sure that it must have been hard. A woman like her shouldn't suffer like this, never. I took the beer and followed her to the garden. We sat there and I wait for her to start talking. I knew she wanted to ask question about the army and what we, the soldiers, had lived there.

"It's hard and it's killing me inside knowing that maybe he was alone and lost and I was here, I couldn't help him. Worst of all is that he surely died alone and probably terrified", she gave vent to her feelings. Sometimes, telling somebody what it's like to lose somebody is a release and it's a good way to get it off your own chest and get it out of your system. So, that's why I remained in silence so that she would continue talking. She seemed like she needed that. "When I saw you're having nightmares, I wondered how many times he must have had them and I couldn't wake him up to calm him down", I stayed in silence and smile sadly as Quinn were looking at me. "What are you thinking?"

"I can assure you that being in the war knowing that you have people who are eagerly waiting for you and praying to God for you to come home alive, is enough to reassure him. He knew he was loved and maybe he hate himself for not being able to come back for you and Beth", I answered staring at the sky, wondering if maybe Brittany or my family would have thought about me once in a while.

"Why are you here?", I knew that what she was asking me was why I was here and not with my family. With that question, I had the opportunity to tell her the truth about the photo, but I didn't have the courage.

"Because I don't have anyone waiting for me", I confessed to her and I hated how her eyes reflected pity for me.

"So you don't have girlfriend or anything?", she dared to ask me and I noticed a little blush on her cheeks. It was adorable.

"How do you know I like the lady parts?", I asked smiling at her cheekily because I didn't remember telling her that.

"A woman notices when someone is staring and appreciating at her body and I caught you doing that every five second", she said and I almost died right there.

Shit. I didn't know how to apologize. Am I that obvious? Fucking great.

"I- I'm –"

"Don't worry, you're lucky that I like you already", she smiled and finished her beer.

She said she liked me. Could it be real? I must be dreaming.

"Go out with me tonight", I spit it out without thinking it "I mean, we could go for a drink or dance or I don't know –"

"Santana, I can't", she refused to go and well, I had no other choice but nodding. I knew I moved too fast, she had just told me that she missed her husband and I had no better idea to throw myself into her. What a genius. Maybe she isn't into girls.

"It's ok, I understand", I told her and we connected our eyes for another moment. It was incredible to see how we were communicating so much with our eyes. I could read in her eyes that she wanted to go out, but she was still doing mourning for her died husband.

"Why don't you call Kitty? I'm sure she'll be up for it" she suggested me and I just nodded. I thought that she didn't like me going out with her cousin. She is confusing me.

"I'll think about it", I answered and we stayed in silence again. I enjoyed being quiet next to her. Her presence was very nice even though we were in silence.

"So, why did Mike call you 'anaconda'?", She asked me and I almost chocked with my beer.

"Well, actually that's the secret to which he was referring to earlier", I started and gulped nervously. I had to tell her and it was better now than later in an uncomfortable position. "I'm a women but with a male part", I confess with my eyes closed. I waited for her to ask me anything but the only thing that I heard was silence. Fuck it. I lift my eyes and found myself with a paralyzed Quinn. Shit. I've ruined everything.

"A male part? Do you mean –", she unwittingly stared at my bulge and I felt shy.

"Yeah", I affirmed.

"But why did he call you –OH", she realized that it was because my junior was big. I could feel how the air had become tense. I knew that this was the end. She obviously felt disgust towards me and I couldn't stand it because this wasn't what I had in my mind.

"If you feel uncomfortable with this, I could leave tomorrow and –", I stood up and started to say goodbye to her. I wanted to cry right there because I finally felt comfortable with people who liked me for who I am but well, my condition was my biggest enemy, once again.

"Don't be ridiculous, Santana", she stood up next to me and grab my hand. "I'm sorry for my reaction; it's that I didn't think that it could be possible until you told me that. So please, stay. It hasn't changed anything, ok?", she looked at me seriously and I sighed. "Ok?", she repeated, waiting for my answer.

"Ok", I said barely audible, and then I felt her arms around my shoulders and I felt like I was drowning in her perfume. She smelled like citrus fruits and it was addicting. It felt like paradise. I didn't want to release her, I was so comfortable with her in my arms.

"Are we good, now?", she asked me next to my ear and I tried not to shudder. Jesus. Her voice could manipulate me so easily.

"Yeah", I replied. We separated from each other and our eyes fused. It was so intense that I could feel myself leaning into her to kiss her, but she took a step back and cleared her throat.

"It's getting late, we should come inside", she said and started walking away from me. I stood right there wishing for more. I was so close to taste those lips. Damn. I lay down on the grass again and then felt my cell phone buzzed.

"Hey, Santana, it's Kitty. Are we still up for tonight?"

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