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Chapter 18

Draco ran a hand through his perfect hair which caused it to stand in awkward places. Draco scowled at his reflection, his hair looked like Potter's! He felt an ache in his chest as he always did when he thought about the brunette. Even if no one would believe him, and if anyone would he'd never know as he'd never really tell anyone about it, he missed Harry. Yes, Harry, it hurt him so much to call him Potter but the years have caused them their closeness, well that and his constant insults. Draco punched the wall and a stinging pain traveled from his fist to his arm but he didn't care, he deserved it. He ought to feel pain as he made Harry feel pain. He had insulted the other boy because his friends wanted to and not wanting to be left out he played along and soon began the leader of his group as he really knew well how to insult people. He insulted and hexed the other boy, not because he wanted to but because he needed to. He couldn't risk losing his friends, he'd be alone and he didn't want that. Ever since that incident with the treacle tart during their first year the pranks and hexes they had thrown at Harry and his friends became worse. Draco ground his teeth. He needed to let the pain out but he couldn't do it in the bathroom where anyone could easily enter, he needed a place that no one went to all the time. Draco sighed and walked towards the library.

Draco sat down and took his wand out. He had learned a lot of spells and hexes which could easily be seen as his grades were outstanding every since his first year and until now, his fourth year. Draco pointed his wand at his arm and began mumbling the slicing spell he learned. He did it over and over again. He just hated himself and hated life for letting him live. He hated everything and he deserved all this pain. Blood trickled from his cuts but he continued, he couldn't stop. He just couldn't keep going on, hurting the one person he loved in this world. Draco found out that he was gay sometime during his third year when he hadn't began looking at women the way his classmates did and when he tried he just didn't find anything special about it. He at first told himself it was just because there was nobody pretty enough at Hogwarts but he had to admit the fact that his door swung the other way when he couldn't stop himself from staring at other boys, especially at a certain green eyed boy. Draco scowled. That Potter would never love him back anyway.

"Well why would he when I torment him everyday? Why would he even care about me? Why would I even want him to? I am such a selfish bastard!" Draco said to himself. Draco kept slicing without noticing the shocked look on the face of the boy in front of him, without noticing the boy was crying, without noticing the boy walk towards him. Draco was surprised to find arms wrapped around him. His arm was throbbing but someone was hugging him. He forced his eyes to open and noticed the black mop of hair, his eyes widened. It couldn't be! Draco tried to speak but he couldn't find his voice. Harry let go of him and cautiously touched his arm, crying. Draco didn't understand. Why was Harry crying?

"Why would you do this?" Harry asked in such a soft voice Draco wasn't sure if he imagined it. Harry looked at Draco and stared into his eyes. Those emerald eyes bore into Draco and he was at a loss of words. Harry was really beautiful. Draco's eyes widened when Harry reached for his face.

"Why would you ruin such perfection?" Harry whispered. Draco's heart began racing. Harry still cared. Harry actually cared. Draco opened his mouth to speak but couldn't find any words to explain the situation so he closed it again. Harry stared at him with such evident concern.

"Draco?" Harry said louder.

"Harry." Draco replied. Harry's brows furrowed and at first Draco was filled with fear. Did he actually imagine Harry cared? Was Harry actually so angry at him? His fear melted when he felt Harry hug him again. Draco buried his face on the space between Harry's neck and shoulder. After a few minutes Harry let go of Draco and stared at him expectantly. Draco sighed. He knew he needed to say something but he just didn't know what to say. He opened his mouth but what escaped his lips surprised him more than anyone, he had sworn never to tell anyone.

"I love you." Draco whispered. Draco stared at his feet, afraid that Harry would laugh at him but the night seemed to be full of surprises, especially when the last thing Draco imagined would happened happen. He felt Harry's lips against his and his eyes widened. Harry was kissing him! The kiss was a soft and slow kiss but after awhile Harry tongue brushed against Draco's lips, begging for entrance. Draco couldn't help the soft moan which escaped his mouth which Harry took advantage of, plunging his tongue into Draco's mouth. His tongue roamed Draco's mouth, licking the roof of his mouth then challenging his tongue to dance along. Draco moved his tongue against Harry's which caused the other boy to moan which then made Draco shudder. Draco could taste Harry, he was so sweet. He continued moving in the same pace as Harry and hated the time that he had to pull back to breathe. That was the first time Draco cursed the fact that humans needed to breathe. A very flushed Harry stared at him and Draco felt wonderful, the kind of wonderful he only felt when he was with Harry. Draco opened his eyes and found someone shaking him.

"Malfoy, you passed out." Harry said in a concerned voice.

"W-what?" Draco asked, confused. What had happened? He remembered kissing Harry but he didn't remember passing out.

"I was walking towards this section and well, you passed out. I reckon its because of too much blood loss. W-why are you hurting yourself?" Harry explained then asked. Draco was very confused and it seemed that Harry realized this.

"I'm going to bring you to the hospital wing." Harry said while taking Draco's good arm and putting it around his own neck. "Malfoy, can you walk?" Draco just nodded. He realized that everything, all of that was just a dream.

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