All I have done since I left my house is cry. I arrived at Caroline's a few days ago with a small suitcase and very red puffy eyes. She was the only one who would understand that I didn't do this because I wanted to break up with Stefan, but because I want him back. Whenever possible I have tried to take time off work. The ball is now tomorrow and that means that I will be seeing Stefan again. Bonnie has been great and not let me come into work but that doesn't mean that Stefan hasn't been far from my mind. The papers have already found out that we have 'broken up' and that he has been seen with Rebekah in the papers calling her 'the next girl'. Caroline tried her hardest to make sure that I didn't see the article but I found it on her bed and my heart broke. I had never experienced heart break before and I will make sure that it will never happen again. To try and take my mind off it, I just stayed on the sofa all day with a tub of ice cream and sex and the city to give me company. I didn't want to do anything else, I didn't want to see anyone else. I have shut off my phone and I have cut all ties with Stefan as I can to get my space. But after seeing the article I know now that Stefan had made his choice….and his choice wasn't me. Ever since then I am literally a shadow. I am so numb. A world war would have been going on outside and I would not know, nor even care. I feel so broken that no one can piece me back together. I've either stayed on the sofa or my old room which is now the guest room for the last few days thinking about everything over and over. Stefan has tried to contact me. He called Matt, probably my phone and he's even been to the apartment, but Caroline told him to go away with a few choice words of her owns. I'm just not ready to see him yet.

Stefan POV

"Stefan Fucking Salvatore! What the hell is wrong with you!" I hear Lexi scream down the phone. "What the hell happened! Why did you let her go!"

"Lexi I don't know why she left. She left me a note saying that I should have been more observant but I don't know what she is on about! I've tried calling her for the past few days but her phone is off, I called Matt to see if Caroline has seen her and he is not telling me anything. I even went to Elena's old apartment but I was met with Caroline screaming at me telling me that Elena is heartbroken and that she doesn't want to see me! I know that she is staying with Caroline and Matt but it doesn't matter how much pleading and threatening to break the door down I do, they will not let me see her. I even went to the apartment when I knew it was Elena's day off and she refused to answer the door to me. Tell me what am I doing wrong here!"

"Are you insane Stefan? Haven't you been seeing that Rebekah has been trying to get between you two ever since you and Elena got together?"

"Not you too!" I moan

"Yes me too AND Damon as a matter of fact sees it too. Everytime we have said something about this, you have been such an ass about it and flat out denied what was there in front of your face. You are my best friend and I love you dearly but you really do need some perspective some times."

"If that really is the case then I guess she won then didn't she! You seem to be more aware of what's going on here than I am so you tell me Lexi, because clearly I am in the wrong for something Elena should have told me about earlier! But it doesn't matter anymore does it. She doesn't want to be with me anymore, she made that perfectly clear in her note and I can not be with someone who is so insecure about herself and her relationship with me. Even though I love Elena and I've always told her that, I've already been through that with so many other people who only wanted me for my money and I truly thought that she was different. For once I was actually a fool for feeling happy. Clearly I was wrong Lexi but I can not afford to get my heart broken again because someone else has decided to move away suddenly because they feel like it. If she wants to go then I will let her go because I love her and I respect her wishes" I couldn't feel any worse about myself right now as I hear Lexi sigh on the other side of the phone. "Just leave me alone Lexi" I say and hang up on her before she can say anything else to make me feel bad.

This could not get any worse. I've lost Elena for good and I have to go to these stupid awards tomorrow. Rebekah has been a major help with everything but Elena has said that I am not observant enough but all she seemed to do is moan to me about Rebekah. To see if I can get to the bottom of this, I call Rebekah.

"Hey Stef. What's up? Any news on Elena?" I hear her voice on the phone

"No not yet. I need to talk to you. Can you come over?"

"Oh no. Yes of course I can come over. I'll be over in 10 minutes." Rebekah answers sounding a little too upbeat considering the conversation. Hmm… maybe this was what Elena was talking about in being more observant. The papers have already made up some story that her and I are now an item. God I hope that Elena doesn't see that! It's completely untrue!

When she turns up, she is carrying a big tub of ice cream and some oreos! Wow that girl knows me well. That's all I've practically lived on since Elena left. I invite her inside and I start to investigate.

"I've been looking over Elena's letter." I start, which causes Rebekah's head to look at me in surprise.

"You really should not be looking at that thing over and over again Stefan. It'll mess with your mind."

I ignore the comment and carry on. "She says that I haven't been noticing anything that's been going on. Is there something that I need to know about Rebekah? Any reason why you two never got along?"

Rebekah just shrugged her shoulders. "You know her. She is just one for drama. She had this idea in her head and she couldn't get it out."

"Which was?" I prompted

She sighed. "Stefan. She is a really jealous girl. She thought that I was going after you." I look back at her shocked as Rebekah was blushing? Really?

"Really?" I ask

"I know. Silly right? I told you. She is a jealous girl. It's a shame really. I quite liked her but honestly you are better off without her in your life Stefan if she is going to be like this all of the time. She would drive you mad in the end" I say nothing in response. I don't really want to answer honestly. I've never really seen Rebekah like that but Elena clearly had. Why would she think that Rebekah was after me after all of this time. Yes okay we went out but that was years ago. I've done so much since then. But something inside of me told me to take what Rebekah was saying with a pinch of salt.

"Anyway forget her for the night, it's my job to take her off your mind. I've got your favourite movie! Do you want to watch it?" She asks showing up a Die Hard DVD case.

"But you hate Die Hard. You make me turn it over every time we used to watch it." I protest. She hates that movie with a passion. Why would she choose now to like it.

"Because you are my friend and that is what friends do. Do you want to watch it or not?" She asks

Not thinking that I should piss off my friend who is going to put up with two and half hours of amazing actions I say "Go on then" and watch her put the DVD on and sit back on the chair next to me. I mentally previously noted that she had only been doing that recently but I never considered anything bad about it. Maybe Elena was taking everything out of proportion. I don't know. I'm really confused about everything that is happening right now and I just want my best friend and an awesome movie to take my mind off it all.

Half way through the movie, I feel Rebekah sliding over to me. This used to be her thing when we were dating and she would end up lying on me by the end of the movie. As if on cue, her head starts to droop onto my shoulder. Normally I feel fine with it all, but for some reason, I don't like the feeling. It's actually quite uncomfortable. I can't work out why though. Rebekah is just doing what we used do but this time I'm not liking her lie there like that. I picture Elena doing the same thing and I smile. It actually calms me to think of Elena lying there like that when we watched a movie together.

I hear Rebekah sigh and she pulls me out of my thoughts of Elena "This is nice isn't it."

"What do you mean?" I ask

"Me and you lying on the sofa together. Just like we used to."

"I guess" I answer. I don't really want to tell her what's really playing on my mind

Just like the best friend that she is she pulls off me and asks me "What's wrong"

"Nothing"

"Oh come on this is me. Spit it out."

Here goes nothing. "I miss Elena."

She sighs. "You're bound to. You two were living together. But I don't think you two would have made it because she was insecure"

Okay. I let the first time slip but this time I am not going to let her talk to me about Elena like that. " She may have been insecure, but she said it was because of something that you and Katherine did."

Rebekah looked me stunned. "What do you mean?

"I mean that she left because of you and Katherine. Now I know Elena and she would never do anything without a reason. In that letter she told me that I needed to ask you what had gone on and I am asking you to tell me. As your friend. Why did Elena leave me?"

I feel Rebekah's hand rubbing up and down my arm which, despite flinching, I let her do. "There was nothing between us. We just didn't get along that's all."

"Then why did she leave me Rebekah! I love her and I always will! She would not just up and leave without a reason and I know that the reason has something to do with you. Now tell me what it is!" I demand.

Rebekah's hand continues the motion on my arm which I guess she wanted to do to comfort me but to be honest it made me feel uneasy. "Calm down Stefan. You're just angry and looking for someone to blame. Have you ever thought that Elena may have had a motive of her own and was trying to get in between what you and me have?"

"What do you mean by 'what you and me have'?" I ask curiously while moving away my arm from her hand.

Rebekah looked back at me in disappointment. "I mean our friendship Stefan. Clearly she was jealous of how close we are and wanted you all to herself. Why else would she make something up to separate us."

"Rebekah you are my friend. You have always been my friend. What makes you honestly think that I would stop seeing you because of Elena." Then a lightbulb clicked in my head "Hold on. Do you think that if I stayed with Elena, I would stop seeing you completely?"

"Yes." She shouts at me. "Finally you get it. Stefan I can't live without you in my life. You are so bloody clueless and for all of this time being with that bitch has made you seem more and more clueless. Then all of my effort would have gone to waste."

I stand back shocked by her response as she looks like she is about to snap. "How? What effort?"

She growls at me "For God's sake Stefan! Do I really have to spell it out for you? I miss what we had! It was a mistake breaking up with you. It should still be me that you should be saying that you love and miss. We have such a long history and I regret everything except for being with you. I have been spending so much time with you hoping that you and I will start again as we were but instead you were too busy with Elena who just suddenly waltzed in and took over your life! She destroyed everything that I had in place. All of this time wasted because you were distracted."

The next thing I know, she has walked up to me effectively backing me up against a wall and we are standing face to face. She cups her hand on my face and speaks softly to me. "I still love you Stefan and I know that you love me. I want you back and I know that deep inside you miss what we had. I want us to be together…" I notice a tear run down her face "…so Elena had to go. For our own happy ending."

The next thing I know I feel her lips on mine.

What do you think to this new development! Rebekah has finally snapped! I know that I have not mentioned a lot of the other characters but that is because I wanted to focus on this love triangle for a while. Next chapter is the awards so you will see everyone back together again :D I know you all have asked for longer chapters so I am trying to do that for you :D Let me know what you think! I am thinking maybe finishing this story in a few chapters - maybe do a sequel not sure yet, will ask for your comments on that on the last chapter. This is the latest chapter that I have written - I am so far behind! I'm usually a few chapters ahead so even I don't know what's going to happen with these characters. Have no fear though, there will be another chapter ready by next Wednesday!

Love and major gratitude to all of you that are reading this. Your comments give me the motivation to carry on writing! When this one is done, I will upload another story that I have been working on :) Let me know what you think and happy reading xxx