Haruhi POV
I layed in my bed, I told the nurse no visitors today so I could think. I laid in bed thunking about what Mori had said. Was I really strong enough to not let that effect me, was there really some other thing that made me want to kill myself. I went through everything that had happened the day before I tried to kill myself.

I woke up at 6:00 to an empty house, as usual, and I did check twitter. Someone had created a new hashtag, or multiple really. #worst-haruhi, #tranny-haruhi, and they just got worse and worse. I remeber just pushing that aside and going into the bathroom. I took a good long look at myself. I did not like what I saw. Suddenly I began to regret cutting my hair, maybe if I looked more like a girl still people wouldn't be so mean to me. I opened the cabinet to grab my toothbrush and the toothpaste and I saw my dad's anti- deppressent pills. I put down my tooth brush and grabbed the bottle. They were supposed to be refilled two months ago, so he wouldn't notice if a few went missing. I took 5. I went on to brush my teeth and I did what I could with my hair. Soon I didn't feel so sad, I just began to feel numb.I put on my uniform and walked to school
I could feel people staring at me, they were probably thinking, He's ugly, He shuld do something about his appearence. I made myself walk faster. When I got to school I was early. I went straight to my class room and sat in the very back corner. The twins came in and tried to engage me in conversation but I just kept staring at my blank page of notes. I tried to keep my face covered so people couldn't look at me. Some time in the middle of class I felt a piece of paper hit my head. I figured it was from Hikaru or Kouru so I read it.
Haruhi, you're being so mean ignoring us.
I could imagine Hikaru yelling that at me. It made me cringe. I wanted to cry. I turned my head so no one could see my face and I let a tear roll down my cheek. I gathered myself together and went to the bathroom. I walked into the men's room and just looked at myself in the mirror, loathing what I saw. When I heard someone coming into the rest room I ran into a stall.
"Haruhi, Haruhi." I had heard someone call. "Come on, I just want to talk." I didn't move. He then kicked in the door of the stall I was in and started to come at me. But he stopped when he heard someone start to open the door.
"This, isn't over." He said quietly. He walked out and Then I walked out and went to class. I went through the rest of the day unbothered. I went to club, put on my normal show and practically ran home.
When I got home I changed and again went into the bathroom, avoiding the mirror, I could not stand to look at myself, not today. I reached in to the cabinet. Initally I was reaching for benedryl to help me fall asleep, but my hand landed on my dad's pills and I just took those, I figured it would help.
I went about choress, I made dinner, I did my homework and I guess around that point I started to think about killing myself. I thought of bleeding to death, drowning hanging and finally I came to a gun. I knew my dad had a gun so I ventured into his room and started looking, I found it in his dresser. And as I was going to do it, shoot myself, my dad walked in and I hid the gun in my school bag. we had dinner and I went to sleep.

Maybe it was the anti deppressants or maybe I am just weak.
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